So all my stress hormones are high...I have been feeling very tired the past few days, haven't been sleeping well and also haven't been eating well. I have been eating but less and not as nutritionally diverse meals as they should be. I will work on that today.
I hit 107lbs today - the last time I weighed this much was 10 years ago...isn't that crazy? I sort of remember around that time I visited NY...and my boyfriend at the time, his sister-in-law and brother, I was probably around 103lbs...and then I ballooned to 125lbs the year after and his sister-in-law said it was "unacceptable" that I had gained that much weight. I was unemployed, had finished grad school and didn't know I had PCOS (which causes weight gain). People are so judgemental.
The lowest I have been is 102/103lbs...and I think I'd be comfortable there. Anyways, pretty much hit the weight goal for July.
I had a second date with S. yesterday. he's interesting. I like him. Taking it slow, may be end up being a thing, may end up being absolutely nothing. He feels a bit different than the rest but I think I've said that about multiple men, so what do I know. I like him though. He isn't over his ex though so I am keeping a level-head about all of this.
I don't know if we will get far intimacy-wise but my hair loss really scares me when that point comes...like if someone will accept me for it. On my side, I am going to do everything I can to balance my hormones though most days I am so physically exhausted, it feels like an uphill battle.
Re: job hunt, have a few interviews lined up but feels like the pay-scale will be lower. On the upside..my networking skills have improved and I just need to continue to connect with people (it can be exhausting) and have really strong examples. It's a long weekend and that's what I will be focusing on.
CW: 107.2lbs