I can't think of anything to say, sweets, but I can send you a hug
Thank you Cate, your hugs keep me going xoxo
I made the mistake of trying progesterone oil mid day and the depression hit me like a tidal wave. So now I am going to keep it for night time. I'm going to try to reduce the dosage because it causes drowsiness or stick to my progesterone cream which is letter intense. I don't know.
My brain has been an utter mess. I feel like I need to fix my health and the job and and I need to find some contract work to keep me sane and the rent paid in the interim. And I want to write and half the time the fear and depression paralyzes me.
The place I volunteer at said they love me but they a) don't have the budget to pay me/ take me on part-time b) even if they had the budget, need someone who can run the more day-to-day marketing execution, which means being in the weeds, and I'm sort of more of a senior marketer, I do more strategy work and I have never done the day-to-day stuff b/c I have always had an agency do that for me. I think I'll continue to volunteer for a month more so it looks like I'm working on my resume but I will need to find temp contract work as I look for a more suitable FT job.
Putting a temp hold on dating. So tired of boys. T did text me...I wasn't in the mood to ask him out for coffee...I find his behaviour so odd...usually men drop off if they're not interested. Maybe he thinks we are friends...lol. But I don't need a text buddy. Even if we are friends, friends hangout and do stuff together. I'll have to be blunt about it next time.
CW: 114.2lbs