Wittbound's Diary

Sounds like you've been doing pretty good this past weekend with your workouts. I wasn't as motivated I guess and only made it to the gym once. I had a kinda busy weekend. Food wasn't completely out the window. I plan on getting in some decent cardio tonite when I get off work.

-Sam
 
I love listening to music while I exercise too, thats awesome about the song, lol. Whether the scale is showing it or not you are really doing awesome sticking to a exercise and still eating healthy as much as you can. If I'm even 75% as faithful as you are when I'm able to do more exercise I'm sure I'll be successful.
 
Sam, I only exercised on Saturday. So we're even! Hope your cardio went well!

Jello, thank you for the compliment. I have soccer keeping me motivated. No running = no playing time. :)

Today has been one of my best "weight loss days." Even though I would like to stay away from the pasta at night, it's nearly impossible working at the Macaroni Grill. I have the chefs split it into 2 smaller portions, and I was seriously stuffed with about 5 bites to go from one container. I know that I said this before, but the arabbiata makes me really thirsty, and the water in turn makes me fuller, sooner. It's like a chain of greatness!

I had several other accomplishments today...

*Not a single crouton was consumed by moi.
*A dead (code for extra/mess up) chocolate cake came across my path, and I gave it the cold shoulder.
*Ran around a ton from about 6:30 to 7:30.
*Drank about 3.5 glasses of water

Yay.

So since I'm bored and pumped about getting a round butt, I'm going to post my new lower body routine...

Squats - 10 pounds in each hand (3 x 10)
Lunges - 10 pounds in each hand (3 x 10)
Leg Press - 80 pounds? (3 x 10)
Hip Raises - 25 pound plate (3 x 15)
Calf Raises - on step platform (3 x 15)
Wall Sits - 30 seconds, 45, 30

Going to make a trip out to the fields again tomorrow. I have sprinting tomorrow. I know that you are supposed to lift before you run, but I feel like I won't be able to run if I go after my lower body workout.

The rest I will just play be ear, I suppose.
 
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yes...kristib is me. My old computer crashed, and I could not for the life of me remember my username or password.

The avatar is from prom. I was all "done up" I guess you could say. Maybe that's why I look different?

Im so excited about my weigh-in tomorrow!
 
Ate breakfast outside today. It's a really gorgeous day.

My mom is in such a bad mood, and it's driving me crazy. It's like whenever she is mad about anything, she has to find someway to take it out on me. Usually this consists of telling me everything that I have to do. "Get these shoes off the steps. Finish your thank you cards. Fold your laundry. Change your sheets." And basically if I don't do all of these within 5 minutes, she'll "remind" me again.

Now I have to wait until her high school friend gets here because she wants me to meet him. So now I get to workout at the hottest time of the day!

UGGGGH!

I'm in a really bad mood right now.
 
Okay well I'm going to come out and say what is really on my mind....

A very close member of my family is bulimic. She's been dealing with bulimia for about 3 years, and it's really caused problems with her health. She came out about her disorder in May.

I'm going to give her a name....Mary. I just don't know, there could be someone that knows her, so I'm not going to take that risk.

Now, I'm not bulimic, nor have I ever been, but I understand that it is something that requires a lot of support, therapy, etc. Mary has put herself in therapy, and she's told her family. She's doing all the right things.

My mom, however, is being incredibly stupid and stubborn about it. Today, for example, she cannot get ahold of Mary because her landline isn't working and her cell phone is turned off. She called someone, who told her that Mary has therapy, and a visit to her shrink. After she got off the phone, my mom came over to me and throws a little fit about this, then says "Just don't put your finger down your throat."

I wanted to slap her. Seriously.

Just don't smoke. Just don't drink. Just don't eat sweets. Just don't cuss. Just don't gamble.

It's really dissapointing to hear such a stereotypical phrase come from my mom.

I just don't understand how she could be so bitter, unsupportive, close-minded. It goes against everything she stands for.

I feel let down, and it's for reasons like this that I don't confront her when I have problems. What kind of reaction will I get? Will she pretend like she cares, and then go behind my back and say that "it's just stupid?"
 
I'm sorry to hear about that, sometimes people take their frustrations/problems out on other people because they're afraid or don't know how to deal with them their selves. I think that remark about the finger was out of line though.. but I don't know your mom or exactly why she would act like that. But if it happens often it's something you'll have to confront her about, if it doesn't happen often maybe it's just her way venting I guess.

I used to get the no drinking, no smoking, etc.. from my parents, now it's the good ole "Be careful"..

Try not to let it bring you down to much, take care.

V
 
Hi Wittbound,

just wanted to stop in and say Hi and that that comment from your mom stinks, but I know that a lot of people just don't understand things like bulimia and maybe she doesn't know how else to express concern. I was bulimic for 3 years and it was incredibly shameful and difficult, but I made it through with support of my family and friends - even the ones who didn't really "get it" - I still have family members who make insensitive comments sometimes, but I know that they don't understand and its their way of pushing through the uncomfort of such a touchy subject. It sounds like you, however, are a down to earth empathetic person and your family member is lucky to have you.
 
I'm so sorry to hear about your close family member. One of my best friends right now is bulimic... I don't really know how to help her. She is very open and honest with me and has been battled bulimia for years, among other more frightening things but, we won't get into that... It honestly scares me to death... She tells me she only purges 4 or 5 times a week now, instead of 4 or 5 times a day. In my opinion, it's never good. She knows how I feel and knows I'm there if she needs any help. I just don't know what to do for her... My aunt used to be a very severe bulimic for almost 30 years as well. She now is a recovering bulimic and sees a therapist often because she has some issues... If your mother is being very insensitve about Mary's problem with this, it's probably something that your mother doesn't understand and perhaps feels Mary is just reaching out for attention, or something... Bulimia is about feeling in control when life feels out of control, and has a lot to do with OCD type behaviors. Once someone starts they usually can't just quit. It's a compulsion/addiction type behavior. Maybe your mother could educate herself on the disease itself and it could open her eyes a little bit and allow her to be a little more empathetic. I think you should explain to your mother how her comments are out of line and how they make you feel.

-Sam
 
Thanks for all the positive responses, guys.

I was thinking about it, and I've come to the conclusion that there could be a couple reasons why my mom is so unsupportive about this....

1) She really does not know anything about the disorder. Nobody that she knows has had an eating disorder, so she doesn't understand that it starts out as a habit because you want to lose weight, but ends up turning into a horrible addiction. I read a story where a girl said that her dad made her eat a steak when he found out she was bulimic, and she said it felt like the food was rotten and just eating away at her insides. There's so much more to the disorder that my mom doesnt understand.

2) My mom has been through a lot...a cheating husband, the death of an infant son, witnessing the death of a boy that choked on food while she tried to do the heimlich, her dad passing. I guess that after she's been through all of this, it would be a little harder to be sensitive to the fact that Mary can't just "stop throwing up." In her eyes, it's just a simple task compared to the hell that she's been through.

I've cooled off a bit if you can't tell. Not literally, as it's about 80 degrees out, but meeting with my mom's friend was actually very nice. His whole family came, and we sat outside talking for several hours. I really enjoyed it.

The bad thing is....I still haven't worked out.

Im planning on doing my lower body workout, and my quick feet workout (jump roping, ladders, ball touches) tonight at my boyfriend's house. :)

Annnnd...I'm making the chicken parmesan bake! It's the first thing that I've ever made. Wish me luck!
 
Good luck with the Chicken Parm bake!

That's sad to hear your mom has been thru so much. She sounds like she's one tough lady and those tragedies she has experienced have made her stronger person in the long run. Still very sad to have to go thru all that to learn who you are, but I guess that the hard part of life... The only reason I'm sensitive to people with bulimia is I have had close people around me struggle with it, and I've educated myself some on the subject and now have more empathy to those that struggle with it. Having a close friend struggle with it isn't very fun. I don't always but sometimes question her every trip to the bathroom... I don't like to spend our time hanging out thinking about that kind of stuff.... My friend who struggles has been thru a hell of a lot. More than I could ever handle. She has lived much more life than her 27yrs would indicate, and she's a great human being. I love her so much. Just with all the chaos she's been thru, I guess the purging helps her feel in control, and in control of her weight...

Interesting thing... I used to think "cutting" was so lame and it was just something people did for attention and it was stupid. Within a year, I then met like 5 people who struggled with it and it totally turned my perception of it around. I realized it's a serious thing people struggle with, much like bulimia, and it isn't to be taken lightly or thought of as stupid... It made me more empathetic towards the whole subject after I met people who had personally struggled with it and let me see the human side of it...

-Sam
 
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Hey Kristi,
Glad to hear that your day got better as the day went on. I'm sorry that your close relative is bulimic. It's a good thing she has you for support. I'll be praying for her. Sounds like your mom might have had a case of PMS this morning when she was giving you orders. I've been like that all week :blush5: Let us know how your chicken parmesan turned out!
 
Sam,

It's so hard to see someone so close to you have to go through so much pain. My best friend since kindergarten used to live down the street from me. Her mom was diagnosed with skin cancer that was treated, and then a year later it came back in her lungs and brain. She didn't tell her family that she was terminal until 2 weeks before her death. Ky really struggled through this time. She was really close with her mom, and it was so difficult to watch Ky have to go through so much pain.

Man...I'm feeling depressed. Happy thoughts. "Exercise gives you endorphins! Endorphins make you happy!"

Gotta love Legally Blonde

Pastel,

The parmesan was good! The secret is croutons instead of the breading to make it healthier, and it was really good. I was so proud that I put out a decent product on my first try at cooking! :)

Didn't get to work out until really late tonight, and my bf is waaay out of shape. He struggled through the workout, and I wasn't even out of breath at the end. But he kicked my butt in my lower body workout. I've discovered that lunges suuuuck.

Alright well night everyone!
 
Uh oh! This morning I came downstairs, and my mom had peanut butter cookies out. I ate 4. :(

But luckily, that was around 280 calories, so it's not like I was terrible. I'll just cut back a little at lunch.

Oh! and I weighed in this morning at 134!
 
WittBound said:
Uh oh! This morning I came downstairs, and my mom had peanut butter cookies out. I ate 4. :(

But luckily, that was around 280 calories, so it's not like I was terrible. I'll just cut back a little at lunch.

Oh! and I weighed in this morning at 134!
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Woo Hoo for the loss!!!!

Yum peanut butter cookies...
 
WittBound said:
yes...kristib is me. My old computer crashed, and I could not for the life of me remember my username or password.

The avatar is from prom. I was all "done up" I guess you could say. Maybe that's why I look different?

Im so excited about my weigh-in tomorrow!
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haha i thought you were in a bathing suit or something. the pic is small so its hard to tell lol. :party:
 
Tony...the bathing suit pic that you probably remember is up further in this thread. It's my motivation picture.

Made a very spontaneous decision today, and it was...

to buy new running shoes! yay! But not just any old running shoes...nike + running shoes. And yes, I did buy the ipod chip, and yes, I did have to reset my whole ipod to update the software, thus losing all of my songs. Grrr.

But this little chip is frickin awesome. It can track your distance, time, calories, etc. and you create an account online, and it records all your runs. You can even tell when you speed up and slow down. It's my favorite new toy! haha

But my new shoes dig into my heels, so I need to break them in more. I didn't run much today, and my diet wasn't amazing. Oh well....
 
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WittBound said:
I thought it was nice opening statement. haha

I didn't know that about water. Pretty cool. Well, I am definitely trying to drink as much as possible. I'm about to finish my 4th glass today.

And my goal is to eat about 1500 calories a day. That may be a little low, but I think that's what my trainer told me to eat. I am a little low, today, so I'll have to eat a snack. I need meat in my dinner, so that should add some calories, too.

I just got back from running. I found it a little bit more difficult to get motivated today than the past 2 days, but not by a lot. I really need to figure out how far I am running. Maybe today I'll drive the course that I run (because it's all along the road), and figure out exactly how many miles it is. When I was done running I went upstairs took off all my sweaty clothes, and just laid down in front of my mom's fan. It felt so good.

Now I'm tired and want to take a nap.

But check this out. This is one of the slides at the new water park I mentioned earlier. AWESOME! I'm definitely getting a season pass. :)
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We have that ride at a theme park here! It's pretty scary lol!
 
That was the only ride that I got to go on! haha It was scary actually...the way it just drops off! I almost fell off into that big funnel, and I would NOT have liked that.

At soccer this morning we ran 2 times around the park (like 1.5 miles), and I was barely winded by the end. The rest of my group was struggling, and it selfishly made me feel good. lol

I had my yogurt this morning, and I'm about to go eat lunch.

I need to get my 2-mile time some time today because I have to turn it into my coach tomorrow! Ahh! I'm scared. I'm not expecting to be at 16 yet, but maybe 17?
 
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