ups and downs and shifting around

We're cutting back on meat b/c the hubby has high cholesterol and blood pressure [pretty pathetic when you're 27]. It's not a price issue or anything. And I'm not scare of it. We don't eat much pork or red meat to begin with. I love turkey, chicken, and fish. As long as it's not fried.

bf- coffee
l- water
s- fruit cocktail, granola bar [100 cals]
d- shepard's pie variation [mashed taters made with beef bullion broth water, mixed veggies, mozz and cheddar cheese on top]
s- no sugar added rocky road ice cream

ex- none

I may eat more later. I dunno.
 
I have no more to add to the food yesterday. I just wasn't hungry. Must have been the heat. To fix that issue, I made a nice breakfast this morning. If I eat breakfast, then I'm on track for the rest of the day.

Remember that old joke of drugging up the hubby so I could have some peace? Well, his surgery is finally here -it'll be on Wednesday- and his doc said he needs some supervision. Because I'll be in school, my hubby is going to his parents. They're gonna babysit him for me for a few days. :rotflmao: Ah, peace. And a queen size bed all to myself. Yes! I'll sleep in the middle. *wiggles eyebrows*

I'm a lot less nervous about school than I thought I would be. I packed my book bag this morning [which means I took out the 2 books I didn't need until tues/thrus b/c it's been packed for a while], rechecked my schedule, decided where to park, and told myself to let it ride. Tomorrow I can try to memorize class numbers, since I'll be using them. Today I'm going to relax. And clean. And organize. And keep my mind busy. But I will NOT drive myself nuts worrying about how shy I am and how nervous I'll be.

*sigh* But it was a pleasant sigh. :]
 
Hey Girl - Read through the last 2 pages - YAH!!! Your startign school - you go girl - Im sorry I havent been around much but I need to take some time for me to figure a few things out and you know - I hate the pressure of feeling i have to post all the time - I love you all and miss you but I need to make some time for me which I have been doing and get some stuff done...

Anyhoo - school will be great stop sweating over your bad choices and what have you - once school starts you know you will be snapped into a better routine/schedule and eatign better:):):)

I wish you all the best chicky!!!
 
food today

bf- 1/2 slice pumpkin bread [anxious as can be about school]
s- mandarin orange fruit cup
l- 6 in Subway sub [celebrate!] and 1/2 bag baked lays sour cream and onion, diet coke
d- salmon patties and corn

ex- 6.6 mile bike ride [approx 30 minutes]

I'll probably want a snack later. Exercising makes me hungry, so I hope to have a fruit and veggie to round off the day nicely.

Today was the first day of classes! Both classes were full, but I have a feeling some people will drop out. Esp psychology b/c our prof wants 2 papers. I love to write [part of why I chose the paralegal field], and couldn't care less. I wasn't as intimidated as I thought I would be. My profs are set in their ways, which is fine with me. I love working by the rules and on schedules and the like. I don't know a soul in either class. I thought that would bother me. Instead, the anonymity is great. I can be who I really am- a studious nerd bent on weight loss and parenting instead of the party girl from high school who hid the fact she was in Honors classes. Weird how life changes. Tomorrow I have Algebra and Intro to Law and Ethics. I'm looking forward to more work and focus in my life.

My kids loved their days. My son fit right into day care and my daughter announced that first grade is "too easy" and her teacher has "gray and white hair and it's weird." My hubby had a few hours alone in which he really considered pulling our son out of day care. We all enjoyed ourselves.

I am way exhausted and will fall behind in posts for sure. Sorry! On the flip side, typing is great for my keyboarding class. We'll call it practice. *winks*
 
SoSel said:
food today

bf- 1/2 slice pumpkin bread [anxious as can be about school]
s- mandarin orange fruit cup
l- 6 in Subway sub [celebrate!] and 1/2 bag baked lays sour cream and onion, diet coke
d- salmon patties and corn

ex- 6.6 mile bike ride [approx 30 minutes]

I'll probably want a snack later. Exercising makes me hungry, so I hope to have a fruit and veggie to round off the day nicely.

Today was the first day of classes! Both classes were full, but I have a feeling some people will drop out. Esp psychology b/c our prof wants 2 papers. I love to write [part of why I chose the paralegal field], and couldn't care less. I wasn't as intimidated as I thought I would be. My profs are set in their ways, which is fine with me. I love working by the rules and on schedules and the like. I don't know a soul in either class. I thought that would bother me. Instead, the anonymity is great. I can be who I really am- a studious nerd bent on weight loss and parenting instead of the party girl from high school who hid the fact she was in Honors classes. Weird how life changes. Tomorrow I have Algebra and Intro to Law and Ethics. I'm looking forward to more work and focus in my life.

My kids loved their days. My son fit right into day care and my daughter announced that first grade is "too easy" and her teacher has "gray and white hair and it's weird." My hubby had a few hours alone in which he really considered pulling our son out of day care. We all enjoyed ourselves.

I am way exhausted and will fall behind in posts for sure. Sorry! On the flip side, typing is great for my keyboarding class. We'll call it practice. *winks*
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Hey Sel:hug2: :hug2:

I'm soo glad everyone enjoyed there days. School is going to be wonderful for everyone in your family. Your going to be amazing in them... your already amazing in general ;)

I hate when people drop classes because ofthe workload... this is college... ugh!!!! ... just something i've noticed over the last few years.

Your food looks good and yummy today... keep it up ...if you need anything... anything at all... don't hesitate to ask at all:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
Wanted to post a quick hello. It seems that I just don't have time to come by anymore. I want to and think about it, but my HW load is pretty big right now. I don't mind it at all. I feel like I'm actually learning and doing.

I'll try to find more time to visit. I don't want to quit the forum completely. Part of me has thought about it. I miss having the time to encourage people. I can barely keep myself motivated right now though. Nothing has really gone to plan. Things will be easier soon. My hubby has a month off work. And even though he can't drive or do much, he'll be around to watch the kids some.

So hello to everyone! I've missed you all! Hope your lives are going well. :]

Selena :hug2:
 
Hey Sel!

We're thinking of you too! Take your time for your school and your family. Its all new to you guys and it will all become a routine eventually. Until then it has got to be hectic.

I hope everyone is well and if you need anything at all don't hesitate to ask:hug2: :hug2:
 
I'm taking a breather before getting my son from day care. I like to let the traffic die down.

College is going great. It's not as fast-paced as it will be [or I hope it will be]. I'm definitely focusing more on my homework than anything else right now. i.e. shopping, myspace, etc. My hubby might not come home until sometime next week. Seeing as he can't drive and won't clean, that's fine with me.

On a weight-loss related side note, my exercise plan hasn't really worked out. However, I lost some weight back down to 194. Now I need to quit going up and down with my weight. I can tell that doing my cross-campus dashes and campus stair-master [I have no classes on a ground floor] have helped too. I'll go up the steps in the 104 degree heat and avoid the elevator. I can dry my denim in the dryer and it still fits. [lol!] In fact, my shorts are so loose that I may have to give up on 'em. Ah.... finally! :] I'm also so busy [and hot] that I eat less. Temptation has really taken a back seat.
 
SoSel said:
I'm taking a breather before getting my son from day care. I like to let the traffic die down.

College is going great. It's not as fast-paced as it will be [or I hope it will be]. I'm definitely focusing more on my homework than anything else right now. i.e. shopping, myspace, etc. My hubby might not come home until sometime next week. Seeing as he can't drive and won't clean, that's fine with me.

On a weight-loss related side note, my exercise plan hasn't really worked out. However, I lost some weight back down to 194. Now I need to quit going up and down with my weight. I can tell that doing my cross-campus dashes and campus stair-master [I have no classes on a ground floor] have helped too. I'll go up the steps in the 104 degree heat and avoid the elevator. I can dry my denim in the dryer and it still fits. [lol!] In fact, my shorts are so loose that I may have to give up on 'em. Ah.... finally! :] I'm also so busy [and hot] that I eat less. Temptation has really taken a back seat.
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Hey there! Glad to hear you are enjoying college--I thought you would. I know you're busy as can be, so just pop in when you can and update us. Don't leave us completely!! We'd miss you too much. Running up and down stairs and around campus is good exercise--especially when it's 104 out!!Damn that's hot!! Take care of yourself, dearie!!:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
I weighed in at ... drum roll, please... 193.4 this morning! I was so psyched that I squeezed in a 30 minute/5 mile bike ride before my dentist appt this morning. 'Course, I had to wait to shower. *shrugs* I was getting a cavity filled and that's hardly worth getting dressed up for anyway.

I'm working on getting ahead with the homework I can, as much as I can and over-studying everything. I have such impossibly high standards for myself. It keeps me happy and going, and I have yet to get too stressed. So things don't look too bad.

I really need to go eat lunch. Hope everyone is having an awesome day!
 
Stress has finally caught up to me. It all started about 6 this morning when I woke up to my kids screaming at each other in their bathroom. I walked in to find toilet paper everywhere, an apple in the shower, and 2 kids fighting and yelling about who needs to "get out." I tried to make everyone go back to sleep, but it wasn't happening. So awake I have been doing laundry, math practices, and frantically cleaning my living/dining area b/c we bought a piece of furniture from our neighbors [majorly reduced b/c they're moving] and they were going to bring it to us today.

My hubby is still with his parents and he wants me to visit, but I can't finish all the housework with the kids acting out like they are. I have told them that if they want to see their dad, they need to behave, and that didn't help. So now he's coming to see us for a while and he'll be going back later. That kinda sucks b/c I don't have an extra moderator around here. He can't do much, but he is their dad and they just might listen to him.

In math I'm having the hardest time with the stupidest concept of rational/irrational/natural/etc. numbers. It makes NO sense to me and I do NOT see why I must know the difference. I can do all the actual factoring of problems easy. Thankfully, I'm not alone. So we all get together and complain. I'm working on a cheat sheet to help me understand all this junk.

In keyboarding, I'm having trouble using the shift key on the right side [never have before and I took keyboarding in high school] and hitting the c key with correct finger. I just can't do it because it isn't natural to me. I've been typing for many years. Old habits die hard. And is it important?

::deep breathe:: My friend called me today and we talked and I pretty much let loose all this and how upset I am. I cried a little and he tried to cheer me, but he doesn't know what it's like doing all this work, adding more, and pushing myself to the extreme. I need a baby-sitter and some Malibu and Pepsi and a good movie and NO HUMAN CONTACT. lol! That'll straighten me out. And maybe some tortillas and the cheese dip they have at Mexican resturaunts. Mmm.... I'm pushing myself to do more than is important right now. It's my key to making A's. It means a lot. And housework, and kids, and schedules and the like. I know I can do this. Maybe I should have myself a little cry and re-group.

Oh, and my daughter is sick. :cry:

 
I'm sorry you're having such a rough day, dear. :hug2: :hug2: When your H gets home, stick him with the kids and get out for some alone time. Avoid the naughty foods (you'll just feel guilty later), and maybe go for a swim or something instead.

It's time he started pulling his own weight around and being a man..lol

Well, I hope your daughter feels better soon, and that you do, too.

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Thanks BB! You're right about the swim. In fact, that's the best idea I have heard in a while. :] I brightened up just thinking about it.

The H came by for a while and it was awful. One minute he's pretending he's half comatose and in pain, the next he's crutching around doing stuff he could have asked me to do. Some of it was that he hides things from me, like lottery tickets, and some of it is he's not really doing all that bad and he wants sympathy. When I don't give it, he retaliates by doing something in hopes I'll cuddle him and say I'll do it. No chance. I do feel bad for him, don't get me wrong. I just don't feel like going out of my way for someone who rarely, if ever, will return the favor. We won't even touch how he treated me last time I had a surgery...

On a good note, the H and the kids went back to his parents for the night. I get a break to pursue my educational mania and housework, while the kids cuddle their daddy and pour out their sympathy. It's a win-win situation. Of course, I'm so darn excited that I had to get on here and relay the news instead of getting straight to work. Oh, and I have my first PTO activity this Friday. I'm finally getting involved in a group! It's so awesome for a shy girl like me. :]
 
Glad to hear your H took the kids back to his parents'. That is nice that you can get some stuff done. Have a great rest of the day!!
 

Hey Sel:hug2: :hug2:

I'm sorry things got soo stressful. If you need help with that math or anythign else with school i'll be happy to help you figure it all out:) Don't hesitate to ask. As for keyboarding... if you can type well and fast they should just let you do what works for you. You have been typing for a very long time. If someone tried to screw aroudn with my typing technique I would totally go insane.

I like Kimberly's idea of going for a swim instead of junk food. Its much more refreshing and relaxing.

I'm glad you got some time alone with your H and Kids at your in-laws. You work so hard you deserve time for some serenity:) If you need anything don't hesitate. Really.

:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
I made a 97.4 on my first math quiz!!! Woot!

I'll be taking the test today too, before my kids get home. I'll try to post my grade in here [unless it really sucks] before the end of the day. This is so exciting! I want to celebrate. But how?

Thanks for being there for me, ladies. It's nice to know I'm not going through this alone. I need more support now than I needed last month. I have so much to do and adjust to. On the other hand, my sad [social anxiety disorder] has pretty much not been an issue. I seem to fit right into classes, mainly by doing what I need to, being friendly, and not letting myself feel shy. No one knows me. I can be who I want to be, and if I have to pretend to be someone else to to get through 12 hours of school a week, then so be it.
 
SoSel said:
I made a 95 on my math test!
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WooHoo! You seem to be getting this math thing more than you think. The quiz was awesome, too! Man, I give you props, girl--I hate math, always struggled with it in high school. This is why I didn't pursue an engineering degree..:rotflmao:

Looks like things are going well for you at college, and I am very happy for you. It has to be a good self-esteem boost--exactly what you need.
 
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