Renewing my sense of worth. Again.

Ummm, today I didn't REALLLLLY keep track of my calories all that well... didn't eat bad tho. Had raisin bran for breakfast, lean cuisine for lunch, and my sister made un-stuffed pepper casserole. MMMMM. and some chocolate :blush5: I can't wait till this holiday is over. I HATE having all the candy all over the place.. uggh.
Not gonna post much else besides my workout, seeing as I'm apparently the only one lookin at my journal. No biggie. Just wondering why I try to make other people feel less lonely in their journal if it doesn't get returned?? Whatevvvv. As I've said before, I'm here for me. I can support me, all by my lonesome. And I'm cool with it. I guess I must be boring or some shiz. Psh.
Workout: Just cardio again. Cross trainer- 65min, 4.35miles.
 
Jess393 said:
Not gonna post much else besides my workout, seeing as I'm apparently the only one lookin at my journal. No biggie. Just wondering why I try to make other people feel less lonely in their journal if it doesn't get returned?? Whatevvvv. As I've said before, I'm here for me. I can support me, all by my lonesome. And I'm cool with it. I guess I must be boring or some shiz. Psh.
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Can you hear the wolves howling over there in Montana? ;-)

Have you ever read Nietsche? When you renounce your need of honour, you can survive solitude without breaking. Thus spoke Zarathustra.
 
I have a big red patch on the back of my hand from where I slapped myself very hard on your behalf for not leaving a visiting note. I dunno. I just feel I can't contribute anything when you seem to be managing everything ok. And I don't know what shiz means but I read up and it's not boring.

No harm is saying you're doing well - Go You!! (I suppose)
 
I am reading too! Sorry just been gone for a few days, it's a busy time of year - I promise to bring more love in 2010!! I can't control myself when it comes to the chocolates and everyone seems to be giving me them this year - like helllo can't you tell I've been on a diet for the last four months! I think maybe they are jealous and want to fatten me up again! Well it's working :willy_nilly:. Keep up the good work Jess!
 
Oh god. Now I sound like an ungrateful person :rolleyes: lol. THANK YOU for reading, at least. Thank you even more for any kind words :)
 
alphaX said:
Can you hear the wolves howling over there in Montana? ;-)

Have you ever read Nietsche? When you renounce your need of honour, you can survive solitude without breaking. Thus spoke Zarathustra.
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lol. I'm in the "big city." No wolves a howlin here.
I can't decide if the Nietsche comment is a compliment or not, lol, but I'm gonna take it as one, because hey- a person can't expect anyone else to take the journey for 'em.
:)
 
Splodge said:
I have a big red patch on the back of my hand from where I slapped myself very hard on your behalf for not leaving a visiting note. I dunno. I just feel I can't contribute anything when you seem to be managing everything ok. And I don't know what shiz means but I read up and it's not boring.

No harm is saying you're doing well - Go You!! (I suppose)
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Aww, that actually makes me feel very good, thank you :) glad that other people think I'm doing well, lol! Like I said above: now I feel like I was an ungrateful jerk for saying that noone visited me, lol. My bad. Also- shiz: slightly retarded way of saying shit. :D
 
chubbygirl said:
I am reading too! Sorry just been gone for a few days, it's a busy time of year - I promise to bring more love in 2010!! I can't control myself when it comes to the chocolates and everyone seems to be giving me them this year - like helllo can't you tell I've been on a diet for the last four months! I think maybe they are jealous and want to fatten me up again! Well it's working :willy_nilly:. Keep up the good work Jess!
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Sabateurs!(sp??) People who can't stand to see other people doing better or looking better than them feel the need, possibly sub-consiously, to even the score. Chocolates a killer. I have a verrrry hard time turning it down... Thank you for the love lol.
 
Ate around 1750 today. Don't feel like listing it out- its 4:45 am, just got home from the gym, so this is gonna be short. Calories good. Food- not so much. Not HORRIBLE, but I DID eat 3 marshmallow santas. Damn you christmas, damn you.
Tomorrow I work till midnight, and hafta be back to work at 10am the next day, so I'm NOT going to the gym tomorrow night. I'm not worried. I know that Christmas Eve I'ma have my butt back in there and sweatin like crazy. I also need to make something for the work potluck. Sheeesh. This is the first place I've ever worked that actually DID something like this for a holiday, so it'll be different, I guess. But ANYWAY, I found a recipe in my Fitness mag, for stuffed endive leaves. Looks intriguing, and very healthy. So the people at work get to be my test bunnies :) It also looks super easy, which is a bonus, cuz really, if it aint microwavable, its not gettin made :rolleyes:

workout tonight:
chest and shoulders. Went up a pin in weight. Ouch.
Cardio: decided to be a little crazy- TRIED to run on the treadmill. Eff that noise. Went for 20min, 1.02miles. Woopee. Ran for like two whopping minutes. Don't understand why I can go crazy on a crosstrainer and NOT do the same distance and time on a treadmill?! Everyones different I guess.... Maybe in a few months I'll be able to do more. In the meantime, I think that once or twice a week I'll throw in that extra 20min on the treadmill just for the extra.
Crosstrainer: 65min, 4.34miles. Legs were DEFINATELY not as fluid after doing the treamill :rolleyes: doing the hour, which is normally a sweat filled hour to begin with, REALLY took some pushing. It helped that there was this really beautiful guy that came in. MMMM. He was fun to watch. <---creepy mccreeperton, lol.
 
Jess393 said:
I can't decide if the Nietsche comment is a compliment or not, lol, but I'm gonna take it as one, because hey- a person can't expect anyone else to take the journey for 'em.
:)
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It's just a philosophical way of looking at things, that's all. :sifone:
 
Jess393 said:
Ummm, today I didn't REALLLLLY keep track of my calories all that well... didn't eat bad tho. Had raisin bran for breakfast, lean cuisine for lunch, and my sister made un-stuffed pepper casserole. MMMMM. and some chocolate :blush5: I can't wait till this holiday is over. I HATE having all the candy all over the place.. uggh.
Not gonna post much else besides my workout, seeing as I'm apparently the only one lookin at my journal. No biggie. Just wondering why I try to make other people feel less lonely in their journal if it doesn't get returned?? Whatevvvv. As I've said before, I'm here for me. I can support me, all by my lonesome. And I'm cool with it. I guess I must be boring or some shiz. Psh.
Workout: Just cardio again. Cross trainer- 65min, 4.35miles.
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Hey Jess!!!Your not boring, your the coolest around. I have been under the weather... literally.... I ended up getting this horrendous cold from my mother. She wanted me to hang out with her, even though she was ..ugh ..so I caught it ...not my man has it ... and I have it... its the greatest gift lol ..no I forgive her ... we dont get much time together ...


Chocolate huh ..its not all bad to eat chocolate once in a while. If you cut it out completely, someday you might binge on it or something ... you dont want that ...

and the food sounds yummy ....

I eat special k protien cereal ..it is a bran cereal .. I have to eat it to control my sugars ...


anyway you ... your not boring ... Ive been barely writing in my own ...


but I am here!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahaha!!!!!! and posting!!!!!

Have you seen Avatar? Wow what an awesome film!!!!!!!!! IT rocks and the lead man is hotter than hot ...especially in Avatar form and you can see they are a form of cats. He took the features of cats. My cats face looks like the female leads face lol ... she has this tiny petite face lol ... she is a kitten, but she acts like a teen now ..she is adorable... You should check out "UP" from Disney too ...that was really good ... Dug the talking dog is very cute.


ttylater hun
keep up the good work

always
your friend
natalie jo "Rock on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!":seeya:
 
Jess393 said:
Ummm, today I didn't REALLLLLY keep track of my calories all that well... didn't eat bad tho. Had raisin bran for breakfast, lean cuisine for lunch, and my sister made un-stuffed pepper casserole. MMMMM. and some chocolate :blush5: I can't wait till this holiday is over. I HATE having all the candy all over the place.. uggh.
Not gonna post much else besides my workout, seeing as I'm apparently the only one lookin at my journal. No biggie. Just wondering why I try to make other people feel less lonely in their journal if it doesn't get returned?? Whatevvvv. As I've said before, I'm here for me. I can support me, all by my lonesome. And I'm cool with it. I guess I must be boring or some shiz. Psh.
Workout: Just cardio again. Cross trainer- 65min, 4.35miles.
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LMAO!!!!! :smilielol5:!!!....You ain't boring you CORNY ASS MOFO!! ;)!!! :grouphug:!!!...what you are is a FUNNY ASS B!!! Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiet!!! hahah!

....the point is that we really are HERE FOR OURSELVES and you are spot on the nose!...I love you woman!!...and let's try and stay away from so much sweets during the holiday and really crack it out 2010!! :D! ;)!
 
Alta818 said:
LMAO!!!!! :smilielol5:!!!....You ain't boring you CORNY ASS MOFO!! ;)!!! :grouphug:!!!...what you are is a FUNNY ASS B!!! Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiet!!! hahah!

....the point is that we really are HERE FOR OURSELVES and you are spot on the nose!...I love you woman!!...and let's try and stay away from so much sweets during the holiday and really crack it out 2010!! :D! ;)!
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lollll. Yeah, corny, I know. BUTTTTT- sometimes its just nice to know you're being paid attention to, even though it doesn't REALLY matter, ya know? Anyway, I think I just had my little crybaby moment. I'm good now. :)
As for the sweets- eeehhhh. Lets just say thank GOD the holidays are nearly the eff over. :rolleyes:
 
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Ohhh jeez. Thank god the holidays are about over. Uggh. I've eaten SOOO much chocolate that its pretty much redic. No point in lying about it- I have HONESTLY not counted a calorie in two days. No, no, I take that back. I've looked at the nutritional info AS I was pigging out. Score. :rolleyes: And, on the 23rd I didn't go to the gym, like I said I knew I wouldn't be due to crazy work schedule the next day, but I also missed last night :blush5: Uggg. Didn't wanna go tonight, either, but I did. Glad I did. Knew if I missed another, it was my way of quitting it all in the long run.

Food for the day: A whole big bucket of aweful. Candied yams(tho my sister used splenda brown sugar and lofat can't believe its not butter, lol), mashed potatoes with gravy, ham, green bean casserole. Actually, I think my food calories woulda been okay if I wouldn't have eaten so much goddamn candy. Gonna hafta work just a little bit harder for a while now...

Gym:
No weights. Didn't get to the gym till bout 2ish.
Cardio: crosstrainer- 65min, 4.32miles
Treadmill: 15 min, .8miles
--->I know the treadmill sounds dorky, but I decided to do a little extra, so I was pretty happy with it. I did about half of the 15 min by walking 1 minute, then running 30seconds. Doesn't seem like much, but I really can't run... SOO weird. But anyway, I'm trying to make myself get a little bit of "running" in here n there. So there ya go.

Have a friend in from MN, hangin out tomorrow, do some shopping.. well, I"M not, gotta have money for that lol, but it should be fun. Try to get my damn car fixed to. We'll see.

Anway, I'm off, hope everyone had a WONDERFUL Christmas, and that everyone did betterthan me :D
 
Didn't post yesterday, was crazy busy! But I DID make it to the gym, and again tonight. Food: Meh. Not the greatest. Not the worst... glad this long weekend is over. Back to religiously counting again tomorrow!

Last nights workout:
crosstrainer: 80minutes, 5.46miles
no weights.

Tonights workout:
crosstrainer: 65minutes, 4.45miles
no weights AGAIN.

Did a whole buncha work in my bedroom tonight; finally got my crazy clothes piles taken care of! I have all these cute things that I bought because they were super cheap and "would fit in a few pounds". Ha. Now I have a few MORE pounds to go, so they all went into underbed storage containers, minus two "skinny" outfits hanging on my door. :rolleyes: I did try on a few things that I have bought more recently, and they're starting to look good :) Granted, I've only lost a grand total of 7lbs, but we all know its not always about the number you see.. yada yada yada... Gotta start getting to the gym earlier so I can get weights done tho. My stupid fat arms are the biggest problem I have still. Grr.

Alright, off to bed, working 10-6 tomorrow; do some more house work, bring some shiz to goodwill, get some shit DONE!
 
Oh.My.God. My calories- oh jeez. I didn't even count half of it.. :( Started out fantastically, ended up eating tons of chocolate again :( Crap.
Hafta get this candy outta my house...

Workout:
Weights! YAY! Finally did em :) chest, and shoulders.
cardio: crosstrainer- 90minutes, 6.11miles

HOPEFULLY all that cardio burned a few of the chocolates off :rolleyes:
 
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