Kelly--Sorry that you're having a hard time after the Michael business. If there was anything I could do, I would. Nice spending time with the son.
About the eating--I am 100% empathetic. I am sitting here at my stupid desk wanting to eat more. I had 1100 calories today and I'm aiming for 1800. I know I will want wine and a big dinner at home. And I ate stuff that's supposed to fill me up--protein bar, cereal and strawberries, apple, can of oysters, sandwich with avocado and sprouted whole wheat bread....and STILL I'm hungry. I think eating lots of fiber and protein fills me up to an extent, but not really. Sometimes it's bullshit. Also, I think warmer weather makes me want to eat more. Grrrrrrrrr. Anyway, you're right--dieting requires hard effort and lots of concentration and care not to scrarf down a damned 150 calorie cookie! Or three!