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Hey Kelly. I'm sorry to hear the problems with Michael continue. Don't be too hard on yourself. You know what you need to do, you just need to be resolute. The three weeks should definitely help.
 
Cannon 2006 said:
Hey Kelly. I'm sorry to hear the problems with Michael continue. Don't be too hard on yourself. You know what you need to do, you just need to be resolute. The three weeks should definitely help.
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I agree - he speaks well words of wisdom...you've been through alot of harder things you can get through this as well :):):) If pming me helps continue to do it chicky!!! I just wish I had more helpful things to say...
 
Worked in my sister's greenhouse today for six and a half hours at the potting bench. She smoked a little weed with/for me and I mellowed right out. Thanks, I needed that.

I felt tonight that I have learned a lot about life, about how to be with each person in our midst, authentic, clear, with no blockages. We have to cultivate our consciousness in this life. It is the purpose of life in fact. We have to remove obstacles. We have to stand up and admit to our own power to be effective in relationships. All good fortune awaits us if we're good, and we must be good to ourselves and others. It is causality. Being our best frees others to be their best selves, and they will show you their best side if only you do.
Most of all, do not worry. Act. Make a decision and go with it. Okay I'm rambling. Its okay if you make a wrong choice because you and others will learn from it. Tell the truth. You will make it to great heights in this life. We must follow our hearts but we must use our intelligence too.

Well I'm not sure where that came from but anyway, its good to be back on the forum. I'll see you guys in the morning.
 
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All good fortune awaits us if we're good, and we must be good to ourselves and others. It is causality. Being our best frees others to be their best selves, and they will show you their best side if only you do.
Most of all, do not worry. Act. Make a decision and go with it. Okay I'm rambling. Its okay if you make a wrong choice because you and others will learn from it. Tell the truth. You will make it to great heights in this life. We must follow our hearts but we must use our intelligence too.
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These are all good things to remeber Kelly:D:D:D Oh and the insight came from beign high - ha ha ha - sorry coulndt resist...:rotflmao: :jump: :rotflmao: :jump:

It's been a looong time since I have had some of that wacky tabacky
 
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Worked in my sister's greenhouse today for six and a half hours at the potting bench. She smoked a little weed with/for me and I mellowed right out. Thanks, I needed that.
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Ah youo crazy Columbians :D weed is legal there isn't it? :D

if it's legal does it still cause the munchies like i've heard it does in places where it's illegal?
 
Soak it in hot water? ;)

Is it a good kind of hurt? Like you've earned it having a good time, or is it a bad kind of hurt, like trying to do your taxes?
 
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My brain hurts.
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:hug2: uh oh that isnt good - like sick hurt ? We will have to figure out the bike thing - liek how to get it there and such and how I can ship it over or whatever...

Your in my thoughts Kelly - Ive been wonderign abt you lately - what have you been up too ?
 
I'm drunk. Brain hurt like after the mania and the depression the crash, the lack of proper functioning. Had a bike ride tonight. Does it count if there's a bottle of wine in my back pack?

Seeing my mental health worker on Wednesday.

I am cursed. I am complicated. I am deluded. I can't stick with anything (read any man for long) I am cursed with religious beliefs no one aroond me understands but my ex husband. I know a lot about the afterlife. I am depressed. Can't focus on reality because I'm elsewhere.I think death holds more opportunity than life. Life sucks. Unless we use it to serve others.

I'm kinda lost right now. Had a bipolar breakdown and I'm just picking up the pieces. Lonely.

Calories on today for a deficit. 1/2 hr bike ride. Weight up to 183.
 
:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: Awww Kelly - do you ever try to talk to him abt your religion and the stuff only he will understand ???

Im sorry your feeling as you are - I wish I coudl help in some way - you will get back on track you will find your way agian ... dont give up on your self or your journey - we are here for you only if it is only here
 
Hey Kelly, I told you of my bipolar friends and employer before. I'm sorry to hear about your crash. I know it happens. Hopefully, Wednesday will help. I don't know if nobody will understand your beliefs. I'm always fascinated by the philosophical approach you take to weight loss.
 
Bath and bed. Will try to forget my problems as I remember other people have them too. The next best thing is to go to bed. I'm sorry dears.
 
I'm feeling better.

Bike ride, 1 hr
Walk 1:35 minutes
Calories under, gonna have something.

I had a good time tonight.

Thought about giving up my car. It is my biggest expense. Ride my bike. Two cars on the exs side of the family. Ride my bike, walk. Take the bus or taxi.

Costs me.

Part of me would love it. I guess part of me would hate it too.
 
Good to hear that you're feeling better there!
It's a big decision, not having a car. But with the price of gaz and maintenance you'll take many taxis, and get a workout cycling and walking. I don't have a car and I'm still alive. A lot of public transport, an occasional taxi and quite a lot of biking and walking do it for me. :)
Juliette
 
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