Imaninjadangit's Weight loss Spectacular!

A rant, by Robyn.

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This is a rant. It is my opinion. I don't expect everyone to agree, or even like it. I just have to get it out.

I like browsing the Before and After threads. I love seeing someone go from the 200's down to their goal weight. I relate to them, so it gives me motivation. I just saw one, however, that rubbed me the wrong way. This girl was around 150 or 160. She posted pics. She said that she can't seem to drop any weight. She has an amazing body. She is thin, but with just enough meat on her. She is actually a tad thinner than I want to be. She has a perfect body, yet...she is stressed about losing weight. She is stressed about being the "perfect" weight, or the "perfect" size. Really? Is that what life is all about? If you need to lose weight for athletics, or dance, or some kind of profession...I can see it. I just can't see her weight being a health risk. She could tone up, maybe....but lose weight?? It's just so ridiculous!
I want to lose weight because I am too big. My knees hurt, my chest hurts, my hips hurt. No, this isn't all of the time, but I know that the small amount of time it does happen is unnecessary. Sure, there are little reasons I want to lose weight. I would love to cross my legs, knee over knee, comfortably again. I would love to be able to trim certain lady areas with ease. I would love to be able to sit in a chair, with a notebook, and write in it comfortably. I always have to wiggle around my fat to make it work. I don't want to be a size 4. I would be happy with a 10 to 14. I will never be in the low end of my healthy weight range. Why? My calves are pure muscle. My thighs are big and muscly, too. I have too much muscle to ever be tiny. I don't care, either! I just want to be comfortable. If someone, walking down the street, looks at me and says, "Wow, she's gross. She must be 160!" I won't care! I will love me. I already do love me. I have gone a long way to love the inside me, warts and all. I just want to match the outside with the inside.

I just feel like people take what they have for granted. There is so much more to life than stressing about your weight. If you aren't obese, why freak out about it? Once I lose the weight, I'm not going to stress about it. I might get on the scale now and then, but as long as I feel good, and I know I'm eating healthy stuff, I won't care what the number says. Right now, it's an issue. I am really good at maintaining weight. I have only put weight on in times of extreme stress and pregnancy. I have lots of faith in myself to maintain once I get there. Once I DO get there, I will appreciate what I have, and lavish the feeling! Some of these skinnier girls would do well to do the same!
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Ninja, I can try my best to understand where you're coming from, as you're starting weight is 280 and mine was 200, it's hard to really relate, just because, i eventually want to get down to 140-125.

I've been 165 before, but still fat. My thighs rubbed on occasion, and i had rolls, and I couldn't fit into stores like Forever 21, juniors-sizes only.

My goal is to be healthy, and size 4. I appreciate where I am now, but if I don't keep pushing myself, then I won't know what i could have...

Ninja, keep the rants coming....let's us all really know where you're heading and truly why. Beautifully written!
 
In large part*, I agree with you, and I'm really pleased to see someone saying something like this. I think if you're in a healthy weight and you can't lose anymore weight without serious effort, or you can't keep your weight stable-ish without being on a diet most of the time, then you're looking at a weight too low for you. I also don't think, beyond a benchmark to help you get to the direction you want to be at, that a number mentality ("I must weigh 60kg") is at all helpful. (I'm aiming at 60kg, but I'm happy to revise that figure up or down- not too far down, I think that'd be mad- depending on how the weight loss goes, how I feel about it all, etc. It's a guide and nothing more). I also hate hate hate people who look at others who are healthy but not waif thin and judge them. Urgh (actually, I hate people who actively judge others on appearance/ weight, period).

It's also awesome that you love yourself. So many people (including me, and almost definitely including people who are trying to get themselves down to skin and bones) have a lot of work to do in that department. I salute you, you're really inspiring in your attitude towards these things. :patriot: :cheers2:

I think so many people (not necessarily the majority of people, and probably not the majority of people who post more than a couple of times here) have got their priorities wrong. It's not about fitting in that bikini or impressing that boy or getting into the smallest size in the store- it's about being happy with yourself, and more importantly, being healthy. You've got that down pat.

* (The rest of me is a little bit worried about responding to this because I'm not obese, wasn't obese when I started this- although I have been- and am now a healthy BMI, although not where I want to be- the low end of my BMI :leaving: )
 
Misspoodle:
But see, you have been bigger. Your body is different. This girl said she was never above 170. The pictures of her body were perfect. No rolls, no thighs rubbing together...nothing like that. I totally get that everyone has their own self image issues, and that there might be deep seeded issues as to why she wants to lose weight...it just doesn't change the fact that it rubs me the wrong way...like, the way my thighs rub together. :sifone:
I would also never, ever say any of this to her. That's why I posted it here, with no name to link to her. I would never want to hurt anyone.

I hope that you do make it to a size 4! My bone structure, along with my muscle composition, would never allow for me to be a size 4. MAYBE, a size 9...but that would be pushing it. I would just look icky if I was too thin. I'm a thick girl, and I'm happy with that. I just don't want to be a FAT thick girl. :ack2:
 
Amy,
It's taken me a LONG time to get to this point. There are still days that I curl up in a little ball and try to wish the world away. I'm also bipolar...so...yeah. lol
I'm glad you girls get what I'm saying. If you are in a healthy range, why worry so much? Why waste what little time you have on Earth worrying about fitting into a size smaller, for NO reason?

I, though, have already impressed the boy. :sifone: If I stayed this weight, my boyfriend wouldn't bat an eyelash. He fell for me at this weight. I'm also old enough not to really care what outsiders think. Not TOTALLY, anyway. It still hurts when a kid at work calls me fat. They are there to get rehabilitated, though, and will say anything to hurt anyone. Still, I would love to get to a point where, mentally, I can say, "Nope...I'm not fat. You're just troubled."
 
Me personally? I've been 60kg (as an adult, within the last few years) and I felt better/ healthier then than I do now. It's about health more than anything for me. I have a bunch of health problems which screw me over and I want to do everything in my power to make my life easier in that regard. (Although the self-esteem is a harder issue- I've got depression and it's only recently I've come to the realisation that I'm not a curse upon humanity and all of that)
 
lol I know what you mean. I am still coming to terms with being bipolar. Now that I know what it is, and that I'm not some bane to society, life is much easier.
 
30 Day Shred...done.

This is one of my long days. I worked last night, and my boyfriend worked today. I have been up since 10 last night, and it's 4pm my time. I'm off tonight and tomorrow night, though, so it's all good. I have to stretch my calories a bit on days like this. I ate a smaller amount at work last night, to make up for today. I also did my third day of Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred. omg. Wow. It's true what she says. The first day was torture. I didn't finish the video, so I didn't really count it. The first REAL day, I finished it, but I had to cut some of the exercises short. The second day was better. I only stopped a couple of times, but I did it. Today, I didn't stop at all. :hurray: Well...I did...but, that's because while I was doing the crunches, my daughter was hovering over my face, kissing me each time I came up. Then, she decided to put her foot on my forehead. :toetap05: Talk about boot camp! haha I finished it, though. I was completely wiped, but I feel so awesome. My muscles are all warm and tingly. I love the after workout feeling! :hurray: I'm looking forward to doing this one every day. Of course, after I'm comfortable with week 1, I have to move on. I've heard week 2 is so much worse. I'm going to stay with week 1 until more weight drops off, though. I don't want to push myself too far and hurt myself.

Can you guys tell I'm not typing on my phone today? :biggrinjester:
 
I LOVE IT WHEN YOU'RE NOT TYPING ON YOUR PHONE!!

haha, sometimes i type on my phone, and i wonder if people can tell when i'm pretty short and to the point???

Great feeling warm and tingly!! let's see some SORENESS come in!
 
I tried a new fish recipe last night. I was going to use Mahi Mahi, but they only had one small, weird looking fillet at the store. I bought Tilapia instead. Now...I hate fish. Hate the smell and the texture. I know that if it's fresh, it shouldn't smell fish. The Tilapia I bought didn't have the fish smell at all. I made a low calorie maple glaze, that was very tasty...but...I still couldn't do it. The texture got me. I can't do the flaky texture at all. When it falls apart in my mouth, I KNOW it's fish. I just can't get past the mental block. I have left over fish from dinner last night, so I might try to crumble it up in some brown rice for lunch. I think, ultimately, I'm going to start taking fish oil capsules, or add flax to my diet. I really want those Omega 3's!

This morning, my boyfriend's aunt and cousin came to watch my daughter so that I could go to a meeting at work. They brought glazed donuts. Glazed. omg. Those are my favorite. They are so simple, but SO delicious. They offered one...but I said no! I was so proud of myself! It was raining when the meeting started, so his cousin drove me to work. Afterward, however, I walked home. It's only a 15 minute walk, but it felt great. :)
Later, I'm going to do my 30 Day Shred. I haven't lost any weight in the last few days, but I haven't gained. I AM getting smaller, though. I figure I'm building muscle and losing fat at the same rate. I'm good with that. I know that the scale will move eventually. I feel awesome, so I'm not going to stress about the numbers. I'm staying within my calories, eating well, and exercising. My hips and my stomach are quite a bit smaller. My pants are also getting bigger. That's all I need to know that I'm on the right track! :sifone:

Time to clean!
 
Sounds like you had a great day, well done! :D

I've googled, and apparently good sources of omega 3 (not fish) are walnuts and flax seeds (excellent sources), cauliflower, cabbage, cloves and mustard seeds (very good sources), soybeans, tofu, kale, collard greens, and Brussels sprouts (good sources). You don't have to have fish to get your omega-3.
 
Very nice. I love brussel sprouts. I just know that fish and flax seeds have the highest amount.

I did my 30 Day Shred again. It's still pretty hard for me, but I'm doing it.

I feel off right now. I just want to ball up in a corner and cry. It makes it worse when I see that someone who is a veteran on this site decided to try to make me look stupid. Why are people so mean?
 
who is trying to make you look stupid??????????? uhhhh that is NOT cool!!! Don't let 'em mess with ya, always take any advice with a grain of salt, my dear. Chin up Chin up!
 
Oops, I'm sorry, I think I may have just contributed to that.

I don't think anyone is out there to make anyone look stupid (I'm certainly not), it's just that we need to find the best information that's out there. A lot of people have misconceptions about this sort of thing, and the internet is a very bad way to get those misconceptions.
 
San was trying to make me look stupid. That's the only reason you quote someone and ask if they are joking.
Whatever. I know what works. I don't buy into the colon cleanse fad, but I know that celery helps in digestion.

I deleted my posts. I won't post anywhere but here. I don't feel like being food for vultures who have nothing else to do but to pick at me. I moved to another state because I wanted to get away from petty people. I made an amazing choice, and the people here are wonderful.

I hate small minded people.
 
I am really sorry you are going to stop posting on other people's threads or do you mean you won't post in any but the diary threads. Please keep posting on mine from time to time.

um i was gonna say a couple of other things too but what were they?

Omega 3s. Oh how many cloves and mustard seeds would one have to eat to get enough omega 3s. But its good to know there is some in cabbage becuase i have a lot of cabbage to eat before leaving tomorrow or else i have to give to the chooks.

Robyn, white fish is not a high source of omega 3s anyway so don't worry if you don't like it. Salmon is about the best known source of omega 3s. I love it grilled or smoked but if you don't like it, either get the pills or eat it in your vegies. To be honest, i wouldn't overly worry about eating for omega 3s. You won't die younger because of not eating it. The proof on omega 3s is still a little bit uncertain. Generally everyone agrees that its good for you but how good and how much is somewhat still contested. That said, eat it if its easy and if its not don't feel guilty.

Its not as clear as the case for calcium which is very very clear. Must eat enough calcium every day if you don't want to risk brittle bones and osteoporosis in your old age. My grandma had it as an old lady. I was visiting her at 90 just before she died, she was living with the discomfort of having her spine constantly tickling or scratching on her oesophagus. True she hadn't suffered too much from this condition through her life but it did affect her in the end. And while she may have had a pretty good run, many other people don't do so well. I've got friends in their 40s who are also seeing stress fractures in their spines and others who just have low bone density but all of these people will have premature bone problems as time goes on so they have to take a lot of calcium in tablets to just maintain the strength of bones at the moment.

If you need to know more about calcium please look it up because i haven't elaborated on other important aspects of it here. But we all need to be much more conscious of it and long term dieters are at risk of avoiding getting enough.

Pm me who the pictures were of. I'm curious but haven't got time right now to comment though i have lots of thoughts on it. But i respect your point of view cause it is afterall a subjective matter.
 
Andrea, thank you for the PM. It meant a lot. I would have responded last night, but I went to bed early. I just didn't feel well. I still don't. :(
I honestly don't remember who it was on the forum. I've looked through some posts, but can't seem to locate the pics. It wasn't anyone that posts on a regular basis, though.

I am irritated with my weight. I know the irritation will pass, but it's still getting me down. I'm not budging on the scale. I'm eating within my calories, taking my vitamin, eating healthy, and exercising. I feel like I've gotten smaller, but the weight is still there. There are a few things that I am hoping it could be...
1. It might be my time of the month next week. The reason I say "might" is because my doctor recently took me off of my birth control pill, because of my high blood pressure. My period hasn't been completely regular after that.
2. Muscle gain. I can feel my abs forming under these gross layers of fat. I'm doing the ab exercises with my video, and they are getting easier. I know that with muscle gain, there's also some water retention. I'm taking a rest day today, to see if that helps. I hate taking a rest day, though. I feel like I've taken way too many rest days in my life, and that's what has led me to being this disgusting thing. I know, however, that my body needs to recoup. SO...rest.
3. Here's the part where Andrea chuckles. I've seen her posts on MissPoodles' diary. I haven't had a good BM in a few days. SO, that may be part of my problem.

I'm trying to rationalize this. Last night, I was balled up on my bed, sobbing, because I was absolutely sure that I will never be able to lose the weight. No matter how determined I am, or how hard I work, I will always be gross. I know that's not true, though. I know that I will hit plateaus. It's my choice, though, if I jump down off that plateau, or climb the steps back up. The leap is always harder, but so much more worth it in the end.
I hope.
 
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