Imaninjadangit's Weight loss Spectacular!

Hi Robyn :)


I can't help but feel apologetic for being so lax on the forums :(


I know it's been almost 3 weeks since you last updated, but I hope things are going well! Long distance relationships.. erg. I have a little experience with that and, it sucks. It just sucks :( 250 miles is quite a ways, and for me, even just an hour+ is too far.


With the economy the way it is, I'm not surprised it's difficult for him to find work near you :( No matter how good his qualifications are for employment, it's just hard. It's hard for everyone and, I know it's kind of off color, but when I was at a strip club a few weeks ago, I was talking to one stripper during my lap dance that had a decent education and wanted to pursue a career in education. But she said with the way the economy was, this is all she could do for now, so I made sure to give her a few extra $1's :p lol


Ok, sorry, off that subject :) I hope you and Jeremy are doing ok! I know that, no matter how bad long distance sucks, true love can overcome anything. If it's meant to be, it'll be.


Oh, and as far as you becoming bored while exercising, I've been there - MANY times! Actually, I fight that quite a bit, but thankfully, I'm huge into superheroes, and this is a good year for movies (Avengers baby! Also, new Spider-Man! Yeaaaah! :D)


So, thankfully, my treadmill videos are constantly being updated! I have dozens and dozens of video clips from some of my favorite movies that I've edited to match in terms of audio/video settings, so I'm able to merge them together using video compiling software. Thus, a nice, dynamic 45-60min video of some of my favorite moments (old/new) :)


Really helps with the boredom and keeping my running intense! I know I could never generate enough adrenaline to do a good sprint watching Regis & Kelly, or someone baking a cake, lol :p


Maybe you could try something like that? Even with just a laptop? If you give me some of your favorite movies/scenes, perhaps I could clip them out, convert/merge them, and just send them to you :) Or, I could just give you a brief outline of how to do it all yourself :)


Hang in there, Robyn! It seems we're all dealing with a lot of stress lately!


It'll pass and things will get better, as they always do in time :)
 
Just read through your diary.. wow. What a journey you've had.


Saw you haven't udpated for quite some itme now though.. what's the story with your life now? Did things work out with Jeremy? Did you stay in the 100-club? What's going on?

Hope you read this.. let us know!
 
Back again, with a little extra weight....and more.

It has been so long since I've posted. So much has changed! I think I will break it down...
-I hit 188 in August of 2012. That was a 100lbs weight loss!
-At that time, I moved from 3rd shift to 2nd shift. This was the reason for my disappearance from the board. That job ate my life. I couldn't go to the gym anymore, I wasn't really watching my calories. I still stayed between 188 and 190, but I wasn't as hard core about losing weight at that point.
-In August of 2012, I became pregnant. My boyfriend was living in Illinois and I was in Kentucky. He had also been told that he could never have kids, due to the radiation treatments he had endured while having cancer. SO...this was a HUGE thing.
-After dating for almost a year and a half, with 250 miles between us, I moved back home to Illinois to be with him in November 2012. It was a hard decision to leave Kentucky, because I had changed SO much while living there, but it was the right decision. My 5 year old daughter needed to be around her extended family, I needed to be near my 11 year old son(who lives with his dad in Illinois,) and I needed to be with my boyfriend.
-I was suppose to start a job within a few weeks of moving back, but they kind of screwed me over. I started stressing about money. The boyfriend has a good job, but our car payments suck. I went from working 100-120 hours every two weeks, to staying at home full time. When I moved back, I was 195.
-I finally got a job in January. It's part time, which is kind of a nice thing.
-At my first doctor's visit, on December 17th, I weighed 211 at the office. Hm. I decided to start using myfitnesspal to track my calories and try to fix that.
-On January 17th, I weighed 201 at my doctor's visit. They were shocked, and I was elated.
-I started to seriously slack off. I have been stressed because I didn't want to lose my car. I didn't want my phone to get shut off. I began to eat. I tried watching the calories, but I was lazy about it.
-The doctor found a bright spot on the baby's heart, so we have had several ultrasounds to make sure she is okay. I have been extremely stressed about this. We finally found out this past Tuesday, that the baby is just fine, and that the spot is nothing.
-Last week, my boyfriend became my fiance. :party: He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I can't imagine spending my life with anyone else. /sigh
-Today, I weighed 215. That is a 14lbs gain in 3 weeks. 14. The doctor didn't even mention it. The last time I had an appointment with her, before this pregnancy, I was 275. I think she's glad that I'm not that heavy anymore.

I'm 26 weeks pregnant and have gained about 25lbs. I have mixed feelings about this. I have 14(almost 13) weeks to go. That's not a lot. In my first pregnancy, I gained 60lbs. With my second, I gained about 50-60. Right now, I've only gained 25lbs. I'm disappointed in myself for not being more diligent, but I know that I can fix it.
It's just so hard.
I am hungry ALL of the time. Our finances are still weak, so it's not as easy to get the healthy foods that I was eating when I was making more money. It's not easy, but not impossible.
I CAN do it...I just need to do it.
That's why I'm back here. I need to start logging my feelings. I need to start really holding myself accountable again. I need to go back to the beginning, and start exactly the way I started when I began my journey.
I refuse to gain any more weight. If I eat a healthy diet, I can help my baby grow, while losing fat. I will not starve myself, but I won't "eat for two." This isn't a time to just indulge in every little craving. Up until 3 weeks ago, I didn't indulge. I was doing well. I just...lost myself. I can't do that again.
SO...here I am.

And just to give an idea of where I was...

This was me at 288lbs...
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This is me at 195lbs and 17 weeks pregnant...
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This was me at 205lbs and 24 weeks pregnant...
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I will not become huge again. I will regain my willpower again!

I'm glad to be back! <3
 
Welcome back and you can DEFINITELY do it. I can't believe the before and after pix. You look like a totally different human being. Well done on what you've achieved so far and good luck for the road ahead.
 
Wow.... lots of big changes going on for you. A new baby and engaged! yay! You look adorable with your baby belly! Good luck...and glad you're back! Looking forward to the updates! :)
 
Thank you, Jen! I feel like I have more of a baby bump during this pregnancy. The last two, I was just huge. lol

This will be a short post, because I'm pretty sleepy...

I was able to stick to my calories yesterday, and lost two pounds! Woo!

I am slightly frustrated that I was 210 before the doctor, then 215 at the doctor's...then, 208 today. I'm just going to go by my scale, for now. I always weigh myself when I first wake up, so I know it's the most accurate.

My eating was good today. If I go to bed, now, I'll be around 500 calories below my goal of 2030. I might have some oatmeal before I go to sleep. If I wasn't pregnant, I wouldn't even bother. I don't want to undereat, though, for the baby's sake.

SO...here's to hoping that the scale is lower tomorrow!
 
Hey Robyn!! Welcome back, my friend! :hug2:

Congrats on your pregnancy and engagement! :D That's fantastic!

I'm so happy for you! :)

However, I know what it means to feel hungry all.. the.. time. It's so difficult, and with the recent holiday season, it's so tough to avoid that kind of temptation when it's shoved in your face (almost literally) for weeks on end!

Customers gave me occasional containers of cookies and other sweets. I gained a bit as well, but the main thing is to keep on going, even when it feels impossible!

Not giving up, and learning from our mistakes, is all along the road to success.

I think this small clip from Batman sums it up best!

[video=youtube_share;hURajfBiJjQ]http://youtu.be/hURajfBiJjQ[/video]

:)

Btw, I still think Bats could take Iron Man in a fight! I mean, he even beat Superman in the Dark Knight Returns (Part 2) - which was AWESOME!! View attachment 19895
 
Batman is too depressed. Iron Man has CONFIDENCE! That's why he'd win. Sorry!

I'm hovering between 207 and 209. I'm not so concerned with losing weight, as I am gaining. I want to keep my pregnancy weight gain between 20 and 30lbs. Right now, I'm at about 20lbs. I know that when I have the baby, I'll drop 20lbs almost guaranteed. I just have to get passed the mental hurdle seeing my weight go up, and being okay with it.

When I became pregnant, I had finally gotten back into a size 16. I was really close to being in a 14. I don't care about getting into super small pants. I just know how much easier it is to find pants between 10 and 14. I was able to go to thrift stores and buy pants, with no issues! It was nice. I'm in an 18 right now, which isn't too bad....especially for being almost 7 months pregnant. I'm just lucky that I kept my size 18's! The only other large pants I have are my 26's! Those still fall off of me. Haha!

I really, really can't wait for the weather to warm up. I want to go for walks. I don't care if it's hot outside. Cold weather is the worst! My nose always gets runny, I can't breathe...bleh! I just want it to be warm! Boo!

That's the end of my whining for today. lol. Now, it's time to watch Once Upon a Time and play with Evey! <3
 
I finally got rid of the pair of 26's I had. I kind of wish I had kept them now, just to have a comparison..lol!

...and I'm with you on wanting it to warm up. I'm done with this whole winter thing...haha! Come on spring!
 
I haven't posted on here in so long. Let's see....where to begin...
Well, first, I did this....
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Her name is Lillian, Lily for short. She is absolutely amazing! We had some issues with latching in the beginning, so I began exclusively pumping for her. She is a little over 5 months old and only eats mama's milk. Pumping isn't easy at all, so I'm pretty proud of that! :D
My weight...
Ugh...
I started my pregnancy at 188lbs. I ended it at 241. I gained it all in the end. Right now, I'm 210. I tend to fluctuate between 204 and 214. It's super frustrating. When I was steadily losing weight, I had a good system for counting calories. Breastfeeding....well....pumping....throws that all out the window. Whenever I cut calories, my supply dips. So....I can't lose weight. I am so miserable in my own skin. I want to lose this weight! I'm only one pant size up from pre-pregnancy...but it's infuriating. I have so many pairs of pants that I can't fit into! I plan on pumping until next May. I don't want to be this fat for that long. :( I'm logging my calories again, hoping I can find a happy medium. Even losing half a pound a week is something. Bleh!
I'm going to find the time to write in here more. I think if I do, I'll stick to eating healthier.
We shall see!

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I started logging calories last week. I gained 6 pounds. Yeah....

I was eating 1700 calories, plus breastfeeding calories. I've recalculated my calories on Myfitnesspal. Now, I'm going to try 1500 calories, plus any breast milk I produce. We'll see.
I'm sitting at 214. My goal is to get to 199 by December 31st. That's my main goal. I do not want to start the new year above 200lbs.

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So....I think I've figured the calorie thing out. I've been reading a lot of different sites about breastfeeding and calorie counting. They were all the same, except one. Just the way he worded it made something in my brain click! He said that it takes 500 calories of food to produce 25 ounces of milk. Anything over 500 calories(or over 25 ounces) will be taken from fat stores. That makes total sense! I have been eating back all of my breastfeeding calories. No wonder I've been plateauing! Monday, I started eating 1570 calories(what MyFitnessPal suggests for me).I add -500 calories to my food, then eat only that back. I end up eating about 2000 calories a day. I was 216 on Monday. Today, I'm 209.8! :sifone:
I will say that it is SUPER difficult not to eat everything in sight. Pumping milk makes me so hungry! I'm drinking a ton of water, though, to help with food cravings. I know that once I get use to eating less again, I won't be so hungry all of the time.
I want to write more, but I have to get the baby wrapped to walk up and get my daughter from school. Hope everyone is having a great day!
 
Wow that is an amazing drop! Glad you got your calorie counting figured out, sounds like that is going to make a huge difference :)
 
That is an awesome drop! I'm at 204 right now, so we're around the same weight. I was at 195 at the end of July, but eating ice cream and chocolate for two months wasn't too kind to me.... and I don't have an awesomely cute baby to show for it either. haha! She is seriously adorable. I'm so glad you're back! :D
 
I wish I had more time to write in this. I wish I had more time, in general. Lily keeps me super busy. She just turned 6 months and is already trying to crawl. She can't quite figure it out, though, so she just gets angry. That means that I get to carry her around everywhere. So, between carrying her around, pumping, and trying to keep up on housework, I don't have much time for anything.
This entry is probably going to be all over the place. To anyone is reading this...I'm sorry in advance. lol

I'm frustrated with our living space. It is so small. We have no storage, except in the kitchen. My oldest daughter's father is now paying for a storage unit for me. We don't have a formal child support agreement, so he pays for odds and ends. This weekend, I'll be putting a lot of stuff in the storage unit. I'm hoping that declutters my house and lowers my stress level a bit. I just hate this place in general. The apartment itself isn't terrible....not really. It's just small. I can't stand the neighbors, though. We live in a seedy neighborhood, where mostly white trash settles. There are kids Evey's age(my 6 year old), but they are mean. They're also way below her intellectual level. I know that sounds snotty, but it's true. There is an 8 year old that will say, "Her can come down to my house. Her is okay." That's how most of them speak. They also bully Evey. They will be nice to her, if they aren't in a group. As soon as they group up, then she isn't good enough to play with them anymore. It breaks my heart. She has no one to play with. She is having behavior issues at school, and I think that the lack of friends is doing it. We want to move next year. I'm hoping that finances work in our favor.

Weight loss. Yeah....weight loss. I am 216.2 again. I was tracking my calories for about a week and doing alright. I can't work out, so my weight is basically going up and down, within a 10lbs range. The problem is that I am SO hungry all of the time. Pumping for Lily makes me want to eat everything that comes near me. If I could work out, that wouldn't be a problem.
Another problem is the fact that my will power has been MIA. If anything sweet is around, I'll eat it. I just eat crap. I'm so disappointed in myself. I made a pact with myself today....I'm going to start over, but start small. For a little while, I'm just going to cut out sweets. That's going to be hard, considering it's the holiday season. I think, though, that if I can do it now, then I'll boost my will power. So...no sweets. None. Zilch. That means no pie at Thanksgiving. No ice cream when I'm sad.
I have to get this weight off. I HAVE to. Jeremy tells me that I'm beautiful all of the time. He really has no issues with my body. I can feel how fat I've gotten. My size 18 pants are starting to get a little tight. I can't go back to a 20. I refuse to buy any pants. I just feel so gross. My shirts hug my torso, where all of the fat is sitting. When I sit down to pump, I can rest my arm on my belly fat. I hate that. I hate what my body has become. I know that it's up to me to change it. I know that I CAN change it. I'm just so frustrated, though! It's not as simple as cutting calories and working out. If I don't get enough calories, then my milk supply can go down. Worse yet, if I cut too many calories, my body could release toxins into my milk! If I work out too much, my supply will drop. It's also super uncomfortable to work out. My chest is now in the H range. I can't wear a tight sports bra, because it will give me clogged ducts. RAWR!
The baby is awake....so....this ends today's pity party. lol No sweets tonight! None!
 
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