Fiera
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Uh oh more oxytocin. lol. Last night he kissed me as we headed in to the reunion. I said playfully "Is this part of the 'just friends" plan? Anyway a good time was had and saw lots of folks including much of the 4th of July gang (DK, BM, JM, GB [P], Eric, Roq, plus rare appearance by Benny (?). Chris J, L's old friend actually showed up along with V's younger sister and a friend but it was so loud I didn't catch their names. M who used to be a dentist and hated it. Ani J. SH and his robotic sidekick. L&T. Ric---- (white shirt). We missed DJ R sadly, but his set was so early and he did not stick around. Lateish, Chris came in, said he found me by my dancing style rather than being able to see me without his glasses on. He is timeless, ageless. We figured that it has been 14 years since he walked into a nearly empty bar and we talked about a local record label and became friends. He turned 40 which makes him a hair older than I was when we first met. Life is funny like that.
Anyway, my spirit was dancing more than my actual body. The knees were not happy, but it would be so fun to lose at least 20 more pounds and be able to actually move a lot more freely. I am doing so much better with my eating and didn't feel a need to snack last night when I (we) got home. I think the keto friendly food really makes a difference.
Dinner at AN's was delicious. The man can cook. I forgot about these little details but he makes all the little sauces and salsas from scratch. Pico de gallo, avocado salad, some kind of green salsa for our pastor tacos. He even made homemade ice cream for dessert.
He had finished a video project in record time AND made dinner. He was in a pretty happy place when I showed up. I am seeing manifestations of him getting back to a healthier headspace and I really enjoy his sense of humor and seeing him just relax and enjoy himself. The last several years have been pretty awful for him.
Next Sat is a shoot I offered to help with a split second before he was going to ask me. Proggy is feeling upset and neglected I think after last weekend and this weekend so I might drive down and have dinner with him later or this week. AN and I were up til almost 4AM tho so probably not today.
I know that nothing ventured nothing gained in this life and I feel content right now but I also have unease at the prospect of feeling this and then come crashing to the ground at some point, Hence the just friends thing "until it grows into something else". I think we are both battle worn and wary.
It has been a long time since anyone held me. Let alone someone who feels like an old familiar warm blanket. Whatever tomorrow holds, enjoying this is in real time seems like something significant and healing.
Anyway, my spirit was dancing more than my actual body. The knees were not happy, but it would be so fun to lose at least 20 more pounds and be able to actually move a lot more freely. I am doing so much better with my eating and didn't feel a need to snack last night when I (we) got home. I think the keto friendly food really makes a difference.
Dinner at AN's was delicious. The man can cook. I forgot about these little details but he makes all the little sauces and salsas from scratch. Pico de gallo, avocado salad, some kind of green salsa for our pastor tacos. He even made homemade ice cream for dessert.
He had finished a video project in record time AND made dinner. He was in a pretty happy place when I showed up. I am seeing manifestations of him getting back to a healthier headspace and I really enjoy his sense of humor and seeing him just relax and enjoy himself. The last several years have been pretty awful for him.
Next Sat is a shoot I offered to help with a split second before he was going to ask me. Proggy is feeling upset and neglected I think after last weekend and this weekend so I might drive down and have dinner with him later or this week. AN and I were up til almost 4AM tho so probably not today.
I know that nothing ventured nothing gained in this life and I feel content right now but I also have unease at the prospect of feeling this and then come crashing to the ground at some point, Hence the just friends thing "until it grows into something else". I think we are both battle worn and wary.
It has been a long time since anyone held me. Let alone someone who feels like an old familiar warm blanket. Whatever tomorrow holds, enjoying this is in real time seems like something significant and healing.
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