daiseeangel
New member
ok, you just decided it for me. we are twins.
no, i haven't been through some of the experiences you have been through, but death scares the shit outta me. when i was little, i used to freak my mom out, because i would lie awake at night crying uncontrollably just because i was afraid to die. nothing would happen to spark it... out of no where, i would just be sobbing because i was scared of dying. i did this fairly often. my poor mom had no idea what to do with me.
my grandfather, who named me, adopted me, and helped my mom raise me (she was only 17 when she had me) died while i was in college from cancer. devastating. the worst part is the guilt i felt (and still feel) for not being there more while he was sick.
james has never experienced any sort of loss in his life, and his grandparents are his everything. they, too, have raised him, and he worships the ground they walk on. he drives to see them every sunday. i can't even imagine what that is going to be like. granny is very overweight and not in the best health, papa has been smoking since he learned to breathe.
i am so sorry you are having to experience this worry and sadness. i wish i knew something to say to make you feel better!!
no, i haven't been through some of the experiences you have been through, but death scares the shit outta me. when i was little, i used to freak my mom out, because i would lie awake at night crying uncontrollably just because i was afraid to die. nothing would happen to spark it... out of no where, i would just be sobbing because i was scared of dying. i did this fairly often. my poor mom had no idea what to do with me.
my grandfather, who named me, adopted me, and helped my mom raise me (she was only 17 when she had me) died while i was in college from cancer. devastating. the worst part is the guilt i felt (and still feel) for not being there more while he was sick.
james has never experienced any sort of loss in his life, and his grandparents are his everything. they, too, have raised him, and he worships the ground they walk on. he drives to see them every sunday. i can't even imagine what that is going to be like. granny is very overweight and not in the best health, papa has been smoking since he learned to breathe.
i am so sorry you are having to experience this worry and sadness. i wish i knew something to say to make you feel better!!