Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Update--138!

Yes, that's right--

138.0 lbs this morning​

I checked twice :eek:

Last night I wroked my ass off in Kickboe--and was very able to do almost everything. I worked so hard! Another lady complimented me at the end, saying "Have you lost weight? You look great!" I ate a veggie sandwich with Gouda cheese for dinner--water, no alcohol. I pulled out some cheese, too--they put 4 slices and I only need 2. 1895 calories yesterday.

So I have 13 more days to lose 2 lbs :D
 
Thanks, Mal! I appreciate that--and it FEELS great to be close. Still a little impatient though--you can chalk it up to youth or whatever!: )
 
There is NO DOUBT in my mind that you will make that goal! I think your body has turned into a calorie burning machine! Oh to be 138, I can't even imagine it. Great Job!
Kim
 
Thank you Kim!

138 is like a fairy tale. After spending 4 years in the 150s, 138 amazes and astounds me. 20 lbs really makes a difference--I know a lot of people have lost 50+ pounds and that's so amazing to me! Over 100 lbs? Standing ovation! But still, even 5 lbs makes a huge difference!
 
i totally agree curvie - as you get lighter even the smallest losses feel fab because it gets harder and harder to lose. i started at 130lbs in jan and have just reached 120 - and i know compared to others here it isnt that much .. some are losing that much in a fortnight. but every step we take is a little bit closer to our overall goals. hope you are having a lovely day :) xx
 
Whoooo! 138!? Nice going. And it's true - when you don't have a huge amount to lose, every pound feels soooo important.
 
Secret Weapon

RUNNING.

I bought a book: The Complete Book of Running for Women by Claire Kowalchik.

As intelligent, educated, wise, sweet, generous, kind, helpful-as-he-always-goes-out-of-his-way, and wonderful as Steve is, I still feel that he will (of course) never experience how hard it is for us women to lose fat. Women just have more fat and less muscle, and if we want to lose it, we have to work even harder then men to do so. That's my opinion.

Running is the most calorie-burning exercise. It also does so much more it's amazing--and researchers find out more and more information everyday. If you can, DO IT. If you can't yet, walk until you can without hurting yourself. I don't know but I suspect that I may be faster than when I got 23:07 on my 5K back last May. I've been running more since then and I'm 15+ pounds lighter. Hmm, I think I was 156 at the time...can't remember. Anyway, I'm doing the 10K Workday Race in Danville May 6th and I'm going to the college track tomorrow to practice running fast, with my iPod to help time me. I need to read my book more, too. Plus I have a midterm in World Wines tomorrow at 6pm! :eek: It's good for me to keep busy!

Anyway, my Wednesday Kickboxing class is nice but now it's not enough of a workout for me. Same with Friday's Bodysculpting class. I figure training for races is going to whip my ass into shape and help me lose the last 8 lbs--and allow me to eat, too!!:D Weight training is here to stay, twice a week. Although I was thinking of adding a light weight day with elevated heart rate pretty soon.....
 
Personal Stuff

I posted this in Casey's diary:

The school shootings are beyond devastating. Death affects EVERYONE and I can hardly imagine the fear and pain everyone involved is going through. I can't even imagine being a student at that school! And what about the building it happened in? Talk about awful vibes *shudder*.

My boyfriend took his mom to the hospital today. I'm scared--she was feeling chest pain and tingling arms. It happened before, Monday. She's in the middle of nowhere, SC Mountains, and it took the ambulance 40 minutes to get there. She called my Honey, when she felt it again today, and he drove like an asshole from his work--and probably got there in 20 minutes, I bet. He said it was scary, driving! I can imagine, he drives like a maniac on HWY 9 anyway! Well, she's in her early fifties, overweight, and a smoker. Heart disease is the #1 killer of women--if she kicks the bucket anytime soon I'm going to freak out! I love her and I'm so sick of people dying in my life :( Plus my poor Honey--he has not lost someone like a close, close grandmother or parent before and I can't imagine how he'd act. Oh god I need to stop--sorry about this post, I need to stick it in my own diary.

Anyway, Monday slipped my mind because she was Ok later--but that it's happening again freaks me out! Yesterday the BF went to visit her after work to "see if she was still alive." She was! She's such a funny, upbeat, happy lady. She's crude and callous and I love it. She was adopted, and we don't know her family illness history, which is very handy to know. My Bf has an excellent, healthy relationship with her--AND his father! He's friends with them, they respect him and treat him like an adult, and they don't get mad at each other. That may explain part of the reason why he's such a great lover--good parents never hurt when it comes to men!

I said the only thing that scares me is skunks. I lied, I am scared of people dying. I've seen it! With my own eyes, a man died of a heart attack in front of me after our group was hang gliding in Hollister. The man just fell over and started vomiting and his face turned blue, and someone knew CPR and tried everything to revive him.....oh it was horrible! Just awful :( Then ambulance came but he was just barely alive--then died. They covered him up and we had to stay there and pack up while his body was just there, covered with a sheet. BF wasn't affected, but I was crying uncontrolably that night and it contributed to my bout of depression last summer, just a month before my dear grandmother, who helped RAISE ME when my dad was out running around, doing drugs, died in July. It took me THERAPY, which I never needed before, to get over it.

Now this? I don't know what the hell I'm going to do if something happens to her. I'll just fall to pieces.
 
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Valerie, so sorry to hear about your bf's mom. I'm glad she seems to be OK now.

Death is an unwelcome visitor at any age, but especially in your twenties. At my age it get considerably more common, but it's still a shock when someone close to you dies or even has a close call.
 
Curvie Girlie said:
I posted this in Casey's diary:

The school shootings are beyond devastating. Death affects EVERYONE and I can hardly imagine the fear and pain everyone involved is going through. I can't even imagine being a student at that school! And what about the building it happened in? Talk about awful vibes *shudder*.

My boyfriend took his mom to the hospital today. I'm scared--she was feeling chest pain and tingling arms. It happened before, Monday. She's in the middle of nowhere, SC Mountains, and it took the ambulance 40 minutes to get there. She called my Honey, when she felt it again today, and he drove like an asshole from his work--and probably got there in 20 minutes, I bet. He said it was scary, driving! I can imagine, he drives like a maniac on HWY 9 anyway! Well, she's in her early fifties, overweight, and a smoker. Heart disease is the #1 killer of women--if she kicks the bucket anytime soon I'm going to freak out! I love her and I'm so sick of people dying in my life :( Plus my poor Honey--he has not lost someone like a close, close grandmother or parent before and I can't imagine how he'd act. Oh god I need to stop--sorry about this post, I need to stick it in my own diary.

Anyway, Monday slipped my mind because she was Ok later--but that it's happening again freaks me out! Yesterday the BF went to visit her after work to "see if she was still alive." She was! She's such a funny, upbeat, happy lady. She's crude and callous and I love it. She was adopted, and we don't know her family illness history, which is very handy to know. My Bf has an excellent, healthy relationship with her--AND his father! He's friends with them, they respect him and treat him like an adult, and they don't get mad at each other. That may explain part of the reason why he's such a great lover--good parents never hurt when it comes to men!

I said the only thing that scares me is skunks. I lied, I am scared of people dying. I've seen it! With my own eyes, a man died of a heart attack in front of me after our group was hang gliding in Hollister. The man just fell over and started vomiting and his face turned blue, and someone knew CPR and tried everything to revive him.....oh it was horrible! Just awful :( Then ambulance came but he was just barely alive--then died. They covered him up and we had to stay there and pack up while his body was just there, covered with a sheet. BF wasn't affected, but I was crying uncontrolably that night and it contributed to my bout of depression last summer, just a month before my dear grandmother, who helped RAISE ME when my dad was out running around, doing drugs, died in July. It took me THERAPY, which I never needed before, to get over it.

Now this? I don't know what the hell I'm going to do if something happens to her. I'll just fall to pieces.
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All I can say right now, Valerie, is don't dwell on it...that doesn't do anyone any good. IF it happens, you will handle it (and that is a big IF) Your energy would be better spent on helping her get healthy and staying alive. Nonetheless, you're strong and even though it would very difficult, you can get through it....stay positive and focused on the here and now. Remember that you have time with her today....enjoy it. :)
 
I'm sorry you've gone through so much crap these past couple years. I am very happy to read your BF's mom is doing better today. I agree with TomO, death at any age is tragic. ****BIG HUGS*****
Kim
 
Tom, Bethann, Kim--I thank you.

I was sitting here and B's right, I can't worry (although it's an involuntary reaction). I found myself wanting to eat. So I ate a mango, and some popcorm instead of these huge shortbread cookies a co-wroker brought in--to be honest I ate one earlier and it sat like a rock in my stomach: (

My plans are to visit Cindy ASAP. I though harder and I decided that she WILL be OK--but this is a bad sign. My grandmother had "atrial fibrulations" and mini heart attacks several times before she became a Done Deal in July. I can't help but make that association with Cindy (BF's mom). She's way too young--but being a hardcore cigarette smoker may be affecting her, I don't know.

I'm going to call after rush hour (3pm) here at the office and then after work, I'm going running. I NEED to.

Bethann, thanks for saying I'm strong but when it comes to death of loved ones I'm not so strong--either that or I try too hard and it backfires. I'm not looking forward to the time in my life when people start dropping like flys, I tell you that much!

Damn I wish people took better car of themselves. It affects everyone!
 
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I'm going to call after rush hour (3pm) here at the office and then after work, I'm going running. I NEED to.
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Great plan, Valerie... :) I understand the NEED to (in your case, run). Sometimes when I am most stressed out, is when I know I need to work it off on the treadmill. I always feel better afterwards.

I understand your fear, too....my paternal grandmother died of a heart attack in her 60's and I am 50. I am very aware of the genetic risk of heart attack that I have.

Thank God that your BF could get to his mom so quickly and get her to a dr. Hopefully she can begin to change her health for the better.
 
Beth, I was wrong--it took him 50 minutes!

San Jose is difficult to manuver through, then get to Big Basin from, I should have known.

Maybe it's because I have a 77 and 75 year old grandparents on my mom's, and a 76 year old one on my dad's side, who are healthy and contientious (dad's dad has type II diabetes but he handles it well), but I think 50 and 60 is too young to die of disease.

I can only just be healthy and hope genetics doesn't bury me.
 
I called Cindy to ask how she was...

"Bored," she said.

"Oh I bet that sucks--are you still waiting for the test results?"

"Yeah. I told Nat, they're gonna have to give me A LOT of medicine to make these cabinets in front of me interesting."

LOL! Hospitals are so boring. Too bad she doesn't have a book.
 
Sorry you are going through this, and I hope she makes a speedy recovery. I too have a relative age 50 with heart condition, and she practically raised me up to 5 and then after that I saw her every week and stayed with her as often as possible.

As far as the school shootings, I have friends that live in the area and my neighbor's son went to that college and he had decided to take a semster off. I'm so glad he is ok, and feel terrible for the students, teachers, victims and their families there now.

FYI There is going to be a VA statewide candlelight vigil at 9pm EST so if you guys want to stop for a moment of silence to show your respects

Best of luck to ya!
 
Very sorry to hear about your boyfriend's mom. But thrilled to hear that she seems to be in such good spirits. That makes a big difference. I hope she recovers and is back to herself in no time. Or maybe her usual self, minus the smoking. :)
I hope the run did you good. Take it easy, hun.
 
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