Warning: Racy Post. Do Not Read If Raciness Offends
Well, as you may have guessed, I am a happy-go-lucky, gregarious, social, talkative, friendly, energetic young Leo female. Leos have bad traits: arrogance, conceit, bossiness, etc....as a mature person in addition, I try to Tai Chi that shit away and learn from my mistakes. But the trait that bothers me most, that supposedly Leos have, despite the fact that we're faithful and loyal is....
romantic promiscuity.
For example, we like to be admired and wanted, and in reality, we admire and want more than one person sometimes. That doesn't mean we act on it, though. And no one here will ever know my history, ha ha ha, but I
will say that I was with my ex for 5 and 1/2 years, and the last year of it I felt trapped because I was bored with him, I hardly hung out with him, I didn't relate to him, he was the same person as he was when he was 15 years old, but we were living together, with his dad and sister sharing rent (they moved to Santa Cruz when they visited us and realized this place is the shit). Well, I met my current BF in June 2005, when I was living with my ex and still "with him". Nat and I instantly clicked and were friends for 4 months before I dumped my ex in late September '05. I was single for a few weeks and on October 11th, I seduced him.
I had to move out and the family had to find a place they could afford without me, but everything turned out ok--except my ex hates me.
Anyway, Nat and I had some crazy sexual tension going on as friends that we tried to deny. But him, the Gemini charmer, would
mack on me without intentionally doing it (so he claims)--like he would say,
"Oh Valerie, can I
clone you and raise her a my daughter?"
"WHAA?!
Why?!"
*sweet smile*"Because she'd be too young to date."
Yeah. Stuff like that.
Anyway, my ex sensed the attraction and grew jealous and made me like him even less. My ex is
still mad at me to this day, and it bums me out. I'm eventually going to try and bury the hatchet.
Flash forward to last night:
SO I never had sex in between my ex and my current, because it was only like 2 weeks, but I DID make out with two other guys, and one of them has almost the same name as my BF (Nate) and our acquaintanceship is very interesting indeed. Sigh. Here goes:
Nate is 30, but he acts like he's 18. Seriously. He's an Aries, and acts a lot like me--crazy. Just a whirlwind. We met and were instantly attracted to each other. We hung out a few times, and went back to his place. Yeah, I know--but I sensed he was a good person, and he is. We made out and got sort of naked.
Ahem, anyway, we
did not have sex, which we both thought was pretty hot due to the circumstances. Then I lost interest because I wanted Nat and when we started dating, I stopped hanging out with Nate. He would text message me all the time, though, saying we were meant for each other and such. I took it lightly--he's harmless, and a few months later when things got really serious with me and the BF, he stopped texting. I hadn't seen him all in 2006.
Until last night.
You see, I went out and all my friends ditched me. Determined to have fun anyway, and dressed in my cute mini skirt and boots again, I stopped by the bar and had a beer. No one of interest to talk to. I walked along to my favorite sushi restaurant and bar where everyone knows me. On the way, I passed my a group of 8 guys standing in a circle.
"What are you guys up to, hmmm? Smoking session? Craps?"
"Nothing," they said, "what are
you doing?"
"Oh just hopping along, looking for something fun...like a smoking session...or craps. Are you guys teenagers??" (they looked really young)
"No, *defensively* we're 20!" they said. "Are
you a teenger?"
I laughed. "Nah, son."
One tall one said, "You look like you're 18!"
Incredibly flattered, I laughed and thanked him and did the Bro handshake and said he was so sweet, then I skipped away--to their disappointment. They booed.
Flattery #1
50 seconds later I walked past three guys who were walking in the other direction, and one freaked out!
"OH MY GOD!!! (screaming) You are fucking
gorgeous!!"
"Oh thanks, you're so sweet!" I replied as we passed.
Flattery #2
Enter the sushi bar. I ordered a Mohito and chatted with the girls who work there, glad that they were talking to me. I needed some girlie time. Then I decided to go to The Avenue, another bar where most people know me and I see the regulars. On my way there, I walked past some guys and locked eyes with one. We recognized each other at the same time!
"No way!!" we said in unison. It was Nate! He said he had been in jail for 6 months for a probation violation, and his 30th birthday just passed. He got a job quickly, and moved into a new apartment. I was just amused.
"What are
you doing, all by yourself?"
"Oh, you know, just hopping along, spreading joy and sunshine and rainbows and other such girlie shit," I said nonchalantly.
He told his friend, "this chick is probably the sexiest girl I've ever made out with," (Flattery #3)
And I told his friend, "I saw his penis!"
We all laughed.
Anyway, we went to the Avenue and he bought me a beer, and we chatted it up. Ugh, the physical attraction was rearing strong. I was
not happy about having such little control over primal urges (I didn't do anything! I swear!) But I
do want to be his friend. He's a good time, lots of laughs and entertainment. I trust myself around him, and he's a good person and respectful--but this IS dangerous territory I admit. Tonight we're going to meet up at the Crow's Nest for stand up comedy (Oh god I love stand up!) the BF doesn't ever want to go out with me, it seems, but when I come home, he's there, all sweet and soft and happy to see me. Oh I love him!!! The Bf is right to trust me--if he was jealous and possessive and suspicious, it would make me mad and drive me away.
The only problem is that damn sexual tension you get around certain people in your life--what a pain in the ass!
Anyway, please don't judge me--only Goddess can
