Cate's Diary

Hey Cate, that is a very impressive list, and all makes sense. Could you start posting your food and calories for a little while, it sure helps me.

I understand the problem of finding a new hobby, easier said than done. And I sure understand the problem of tight clothes, try not to let it get you down, its temporary.

Maybe try your "dry July" in November? Your dry July really helped me, I cut way back on alcohol and it seems to have stuck. Much as I like a drink I know its just wasted calories.

I'm sure you'll get this figured out, its the nicest thing you can do for yourself.

Still October here, but not for long.
 
So - today's the day! :hurray: Good for you! And it couldn't be a better day - the first of the month, the first of November! We both know that the "Nov-" part means "nine", but for the purposes of resetting all systems we can pretend it stands for "New-" - November, the new month, the new resetting of all dials, calibrations, schedules, dietary approaches, activity regimes... general re-set! (Hey, and this fits with Petal's telling us a while back that November in Ireland was a time for clearing out old things of all sorts!)

Petal's also mentioned crackers as a downfall, as they are for me - I'm not sure if it's the crackers in themselves, or that they lead so naturally to cheese or (for me) butter, or maybe they just trigger some weight-holding thing independent of their calories - but whatever it is, they were certainly part of my recent weight-regain. I'll try cutting down to a packet (seven crackers, 115 calories) every two days.

I'm really sorry the body-negativity demon is plaguing you - it is a total liar and needs to be drummed out - drummed and hooted and shouted right out of the neighbourhood!
Speaking of which - what luck with the drumming enquiries? I bet a vigorous drumming session would begin to get it on the run! Do you have close neighbours? Can you just get a 44-gallon drum and - I'm serious - begin your own solo steel drum session? Or plastic drums?
I know you said the belly-dancing was too far away - what other option is on the list? I really like the idea of the new activity, and can't wait to hear what you choose - and I should bestir myself, too! I still haven't put pencil to sketch-pad myself, but I will (pledge!) before the day's out.

About the clothes-shopping part of your Wednesday - sympathies! I am a really bad clothes shopper - I get fed up way before finding anything, probably because there's nothing much (still) in my size to find. I op-shop more than I clothes-shop-shop!
 
Crackers&cheese tend to be very high-sodium so it would make sense for you to feel bloated and for the scales to be up - especially if you haven't been drinking enough water to wash it all out again :grouphug:
 
Cate said:
Friday, the 1st of November 2019.
I need to snap my brain back into losing weight mode.
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Go!
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That's a great list! I've always been a fan of new beginnings. A new year, week, month, season, etc. Tomorrow, I'm starting with a renewed focus and mindset too on nutrition so I am with you, Cate! Go! :D
 
Thank you for your enthusiasm & encouragement, Rob x 2, Amy & LaMa.
I think about listing my food for the day, but then tire of it quickly & feel self-conscious. I just haven't felt committed enough to throw myself into this.
I had oatmeal with seeds & berries for breakfast & a small serve of roast chicken with a little gravy, 1/2 a potato, bok choy, carrots, cauliflower, broccoli & beetroot (all steamed), followed by a small slice of watermelon, 1/2 an apple & 1/2 an orange. This reminds me that I have not put my food into MFP yet :blush5: Tonight we will have a bowl of Pho Bo.
My enthusiasm waned as the day went on but I'll try to take one step at a time...
I should have got out & about more during the week!
I will find a new hobby & will do some investigating after the weekend.
bensanon said:
Tomorrow, I'm starting with a renewed focus and mindset too on nutrition so I am with you, Cate! Go! :D
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I'll take this with me for the rest of the day & the month. Thanks, Rob!
 
Love and agree with all the comments on your diary Cate. LaMa I think you hit the nail on the head about the crackers. And bet we are not drinking enough water. I may change that anyway.
Cate your food sounds really good .
 
I was thinking you had a huge breakfast, then realized the second part would have been lunch :D Sounds delicious!
 
Cate said:
I just haven't felt committed enough to throw myself into this.
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I suspect this is your real problem. I know it has often been mine. Wish I could give you the silver bullet to fix it, but I can't.

One thing that has sometimes worked for me is to try and force myself to act as if I was feeling committed, then as weight goes down and I feel better the commitment gets revived.

You'll figure this out, I know you will.
 
Thanks, Petal, LaMa & Rob.
I will drink more water & I think I am forcing myself to act as if I'm committed, even though I'm not feeling it yet. I have to figure it out & I have to do it. I think I'll go back & read some of my early diary.
Yesterday I consumed 1522 cals incl. one glass of red wine that I had at 5 pm. I have MFP set for 1530 max.
BF this morning- 2 small pieces of oat sour-dough toast with 2 free-range eggs & a small piece of leg ham (fat removed) & black coffee.
It rained this morning so the shearing is put off for another week. It is a very gloomy day. We are contemplating what we'll do today......
 
That is a good strategy, Cate. Just fake it until you make it. I'm struggling getting into my new plans today too. I'm trying to take breaks often and break my tasks into smaller chunks. Making a list and crossing things off is kind of satisfying too. Stick with it!
 
I always start off each month so committed, and then it wanes and I wait 3 weeks for the next month to roll around! :D

I think LaMa's advice to me about doing a little bit every day (cleaning in my case) is good advice for you - just do a little bit of something that energises you every day. That could be a walk, meditation, drumming on a bucket... just to try to break into a new habit or routine or frame of mind. Good luck my friend.
 
Cate said:
one glass of red wine
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I like red wine, and one glass should not be a problem. My wife is not a red wine drinker so we don't often have it in the house, think I'll get some.
Cate said:
I am forcing myself to act as if I'm committed
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Good for you, I hope it takes.
Cate said:
It rained this morning so the shearing is put off for another week
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Do you do the shearing? How about other sheep care, health and veterinarian stuff and lambing?
 
Gloomy days are great for jig-saws! Or sorting out the china cupboard/bookshelf/whatever. I'm guessing the roads aren't good for driving in the rain - otherwise you could have the anniversary outing.
Are your sheep being hand-shorn? (Could the new hobby could be felting or other textile work?)
Hang in there, on November commitments - and especially on the kindness. (I got stuck this morning, trying to think of what kindness could be for today, for me - I'll work on it during the day.)
 
bensanon said:
That is a good strategy, Cate. Just fake it until you make it. I'm struggling getting into my new plans today too. I'm trying to take breaks often and break my tasks into smaller chunks. Making a list and crossing things off is kind of satisfying too. Stick with it!
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Thanks, Rob. I always have a list. Some times I write something on my list & then cross it off straight away as I have done it already. It makes me feel like I have achieved something. Tragic.
Emilyrose said:
I always start off each month so committed, and then it wanes and I wait 3 weeks for the next month to roll around! :D
I think LaMa's advice to me about doing a little bit every day (cleaning in my case) is good advice for you - just do a little bit of something that energises you every day. That could be a walk, meditation, drumming on a bucket... just to try to break into a new habit or routine or frame of mind. Good luck my friend.
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I do too Em, but I am going to really try to push through this month. I must get myself to snap out of my gloom & find some energy.
alligatorob said:
Do you do the shearing? How about other sheep care, health and veterinarian stuff and lambing?
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We have a shearer come once a year & he checks them over. We are not farmers at all. We acquired our sheep accidentally when a friend agisted his here & couldn't round them all up.
Amy- we got out & did some gardening & house repairs. My cupboards got a major tidy up during the week. I'm not into jigsaws or games or crafts I'm afraid. I did read a book. Tomorrow will be much more active. It is a long weekend here & our local town gets inundated with people for an annual craft fair so we'll stay away from there. I have no idea where we will go or what we will do, but I know I have to get the heck out of here.
Food today has been good.
Lunch was a bowl of my home-made pho bo, followed by a small bowl of yoghurt & fruit.
Dinner is going to be grilled salmon & coleslaw.
 
You can, but you had better be sneaky as I have enough left for only one breakfast tomorrow & it was going to be mine. Mind you, if you were here I would happily give it to you xo
 
Cate I am actually very like you . I feel like I have so much to do and there is so much to tackle I can't even get my head around it and I get very down about it all. The only thing I am tackling at the moment is keeping to my diet plan , my job I get paid for ( which at the moment is actually good until next bad patch) and my daughters exams keeping her looked after , helping her and focused. The house is falling apart around me as is paperwork and I'm getting gloomy about it all. So I am just trying to tell myself I am doing the priority stuff right now. So maybe you just focus on one priority and hopefully all the rest will fall in place.I should perhaps of written this in my diary too
 
Hey Cate - the part about adding something to the list and crossing it off - I know that feeling. On my app, it just disappears, so what's the point? I can't even see it crossed off.

As far a hobby - how about ukelele or even guitar? I know you love music. My sister retired last year and took up ukelele. She has sore fingers still, but I found her a youtube video where the guy uses a white glove to protect the fingertips. Now, she's starting in on guitar.

My other sister took up water-painting a few years back. We took the first classes together, but I find it to be too stressful - afraid to screw up the picture. It sucks being an adult sometimes - I loved art-class when I was kid. I didn't worry about anything, then :) But she loves it - gets lost in the paintings. She's gotten pretty good at it, too.
 
Petal- You are right. I am just going to concentrate on eating healthily & getting out each day for a walk. Walking lifts my mood. Left, right, left right. I feel like I'm gloomy Eeyore sometimes & I know what lifts me out of it. Instead of putting pressure on myself I just need to do the things I know that will make me feel better about myself.
LaMa- thanks for the hug. The pho was nice & I thought of you. I would have fussed more over it if you had been eating it though. I didn't have noodles & the greenery etc.
Jack- I use a whiteboard for my to-do list & l don't wipe things off for a few days. A hobby involved with music would be fun. I was considering ukelele. I want to do something physical if I can, so dance is appealing. I have no artistic ability whatsoever.
There is a walking group in town that meets 2 days a week & I'm thinking of joining that. They walk for about an hour on Tuesdays & Thursdays. I might check it out next Thursday as I'm playing golf with G on Tuesday. It would expand my contacts as I have been isolating myself too much & the fact that it is outside should be ok with perfumes etc.
Instead of going somewhere today we have decided to have an outside day at home. We will get wood & I will go for a big walk.
BF this morning was a small bowl of Pho Bo, with 2 Ryvitas- one with home-made nut butter & the other with Quark & lemon butter, Cals 409.
OK. I'm on the move!
 
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