Camy's diary

I have finished the exams!!!! I can't believe it! It feels so anticlimatic though because of my classmates bullying me and all, I obviously didn't go out with them and now I am back to the good old library. I am going swimming after this posting business and then we are going for dinner and movie, yey!

Thank you Omega for the calcium advice. I ate broccoli just yesterday ;)!! I have bone pain from the coeliac disease so sometimes when I feel it I am like "OMG I need calcium now", but then I do eat so many veggies that I am not all that afraid. Since I am going home on tuesday I will ask my pharmacist (I swear he is better than most Drs and he is very natural and believes in homeopathy).

I forgot my mobile phone at home and I had forgotten how isolated you can feel!!! I have been running around like a headless chicken to find the man's number so I could call him. Eventually I found it, we talked and we are meeting at half 7. Phew!

Due to my being on duty from tomorrow at 12 til monday at 2, I am going to weigh in tomorrow. Tuesdays I always have lows and then by sunday I am usually back up. It is so mean, I think the scales now if they show me a low on sunday I won't work as hard on monday and tuesday!

Food of the day:
Breakfast: 2 slices of GF bread with margarine and honey roast ham (180 cal), tea, 1 choc ball (and I have finished them, which is great... and it means it took over 2 weeks to finish the pack which is even greater!)
Lunch: brown rice, quinoa stew (spinach, butternut squash and quinoa) and potato salad
Dinner: probably fish (we are going to a belgian place I like and they have excellent fish there) and salad or rice

Exercise:
1 hour of swimming

Camy
 
go you girl well done on finishing the exams! i bet thats a weight and a half off of your shoulders!
have fun swimming! :)
 
Hi Camy

I am pleased that you have the freedom that the end of the last exam brings. I am sure that your man will have helped you celebrate the occasion in style. Try to ignore all thoughts of your former classmates. Now that your exams are over you should be able to keep your contact with them to a minimum.

I know that supermarkets and chemists sell vitamins and supplements which include calcium. My normal daily multivitamin (centrum performance) contains 100mg calcium. I have some 400mg calcium other vitamins and I have one if I think that the calcium component of my food has been poor.

A couple of weeks ago you suggested in my diary that I discuss my boobs with my GP. I did so yesterday and she agreed to give me an NHS referral in one to two month's time after I have healed a bit from my recent op. She has no idea of how long the queue is.

I just wanted to let you know that I had followed up your suggestion and to thank you once again for your advice. It certainly looks like you were absolutely right there!

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Hello Camy:D

I was reading some of the posts in your diary and I have to say you are one amaZing woman!! Congratulations on getting through your exams :party: Its a shame that these classmates did not have the pleasure to learn what a wonderful person you are. But like Omega said you are through with them now. I am going through a bit of the same thing at work...which led me to read about the social dynamics of groups. It really put things into perspective for me and made me understand their behaviours. I cannot wait until they are in my past too :D:D:D

Congrats again on your achievements :hurray: you are awesome:hurray:
 
i just popped in to check how you were getting on! your probably still celebrating finishing the exams :party:
 
Thanks everyone, that was so lovely to read! Being appreciated on here is so important to me and you guys really make me feel special.
I haven't posted in a while, have been busy being a fake mom. The kids' mom went on holiday and left them with me. We had fun, went swimming, to baseball (I even co-coached the team of the two smallest ones, they are 3 and 4) and it was a very nice and pleasant long weekend.
My food was a bit all over the place, but I have lost 1 pound.
Today was my first important minigoal, the 6th of may. Today marks 4 months of dietary change and exercise and I am very happy. My Minigoal was 140 and I am only 1 pound away from that, which I think is acceptable. I am very proud of myself, I feel and look better than I have in years, I do not struggle with my body anymore, I still have problem areas and I will continue this road but making it here (about halfway) is incredible.
I hope in 4 further months I have gone all the way, and I do think I can do it.

I am looking forward to running and to trainig myself to run when I come back from visiting my family. I am leaving today and coming back on the 15th of may (I will continue posting here throughout though, my family has internet too ;) ). Hopefully I will have lost another 2 or 3 pounds by then.

However today there is a big change in my weight loss journey, I am starting to take my thyroid medication tomorrow. It is supposed to reduce my weight (as a side effect, since it will increase my metabolism) and I will feel that these first 4 months I did it by myself, and now I still am achieving it myself, but now I will have help.
I hope the medication will make me feel more active, fun and happy, the way I was 4 years ago (which I think is when the thyroid stopped working properly) and that will really be what aids me in the weight loss. I know it is no wonder medicine and I don't want it to be, but if it makes my body happier and me less sleepy and grumpy, that would be awesome!

That is all about me today, I may post this evening, or if not tomorrow and I will go through all of your diaries tomorrow too!
Love, Camy
 
wow thats a fairly good average of weight loss for 4 months. Amazing the change though isnt it!
Sorry ive been slack on your diary (and everyone elses) lately, being sick and a bunch of other things got on top of me. Good to see you've finished your exams though. Thats totally kickass, you must be stoked.

Im not much into swimming, i kinda get bored and since i cant listen to music of talk whilst im doing it (well i can but i tend to choke .. ) i think ill stick to cycling.
On the plus side it does use pretty much every muscle in your body and you are gonna be totally hot when you get to your goal!
 
Hi Camy

You have every right to feel very proud of yourself - and I would consider one pound away as getting to goal over that kind of timeframe. I think that I said something similar to that when I was so close to my last target on the hotties "challenge" in the clubs section.

It's great that you are another pound down.

It sounds like you have been having lots of fun with the kids.

Be particularly proud of your accomplishments because they have not been achieved over a level playing field. The thyroid medication will simply help you to level the playing field. I am sure that it will help you feel healthier. Amy (AmyRB) is on thyroid medication and Claudia (Blancita) is being tested today to see if she should be on it too. Quite a lot of people appear to be struggling with your problem.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Hey wishes, don't feel bad, I have been slacking because too many exams and too many kids were taking my attention from my real priorities: the forum! ;)

Margaret, I will check out Amy´s diary to see how she is doing with the hormones, I am very much looking forward to what it will do to me.

Today was day 1 of phase 2, I ate that little pill 30 minutes before breakfast (that is when you have to take it, which is fine with me because I am nto that hungry in the early mornings anyhow!).
My mom is really struggling with what I can eat and what not, almost everything she usually cooks has gluten in it and I have told her it is ok, she should just cook her normal stuff and I will eat salads or make my own food, but she really wants to find food we all eat. For starters she didn´t know what I ate for breakfast so all I have eaten so far is an orange. I am going to get dressed and go shopping for fruit and veg.
I will have to work hard not to put on weight here at home, because they eat a lot and often (and still they are all skinny!! Well my dad is starting to get a bit more chunky, but they are still a BMI of 20 family!).
Anyhow I will go back to record my food from today onwards because I have slacked a bit in the past few days.
Camy
 
hehe sometimes it pays to carry food of your own around eh. Ive been going gluten free recently. and though i miss bread, i feel 100% better!
 
Glad to hear you've started your medication you should start to feel so much better! a friend of the family had a problem with hers and started putting on so much weight but now shes on the medication shes lost so much weight without even trying!
 
hey wishes,
yes it does pay off to bring your own food. This morning I woke up so late I just ate an apple... but well if I had wanted my usual breakfast of banana and kiwi I could have had it!

Kotki, thank you for your input. I hope it will be like with your family friend with me, I would love to lose weight without even trying ;) although I am pretty darn proud that I am trying!

I need some kind of website to tell me how many cals I burn playing Wii! I am totally addicted... well not that, but I do like to play, my little brother and I are playing Rayman (or something along those lines, with some bunny rabbits) and it is so much fun. I also play bowling and golf with my dad.
However, as amusing as it is, I need to go and do some actual exercise, it is just hard here at home because I have no gym membership here. I am going to go to the community pool and ask if I can swim there though... maybe tomorrow.

Yesterday's food:
Breakfast: 1 orange
Lunch: some meat, salad and 2 artichokes (my family is an artichoke crazy family, we eat them at all times with everything)
Snack: 2 LIndt balls, a couple of olives
Dinner: rice with seafood, salad

Today's food:
Breakfast: 1 glass of ACE juice, 1 apple
Lunch: left over seafood rice, salad
Dinner: chicken, potato and artichoke stew (it is delicious!), probably salad!

Since I am not exercising and I am not even cooking myself I need to portion control harder than ever!
Also I have a new goal, our former neighbours' son is having his confirmation on June 1st. I used to babysit that kid when I was 10 and I was invited, so I have decided to go (I have other stuff to do there, in germany, as well, so I might as well go).
Now I will see people I haven't seen for years and I would really look amazing for that event, but it is only 4 weeks away (not even). My minigoal is 135 pounds for then. I am going to work hard for this, because I would like to wear a dress or at least a skirt for the event, and I don't feel comfortable in skirts or dresses yet.

So new Minigoal: 1st of June: 135 pounds!

Camy
 
I am looking pretty darn slim today! I am very happy, in fact I am so happy with myself that I am going to open a before-during-after post once I have managed to take a pic of myself and upload it to the computer! I have done it yey!! So everybody go and look in the before and after section and see me shrink ;)!

It may be the shirt I am wearing whch is very flattering, but man what a difference!

Otherwise I am still taking my pills, I may or may not have lost a pound, The scales here and non electric ones, and the thingie wobbles happily between 2 kilos up and down, so I will not change my ticker until I am back home!

Food so far:
Breakfast: 1 apple, 1 banana, 1 kiwi
Lunch: left over chicken, potato, artichoke stew and green salad
Snack: "swiss coffee" (coffee with a scoop of icecream inside, it was a bit oustide of what I am allowed BUT I chose that over what I really fancied which was 3 scoops of icecream, cream and strawberries!)
Dinner: some rice and a few artichoke pieces, a lot of green salad, 1/3 of an orange

Exercise:
walked 5 km to the shopping centre and then back. Back was my choice, we could have taken the bus but I decided to walk it.

Camy
 
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Because I was bored I measured myself.
Chest: 95 cm = 37.5 inch
waist (the slimmest part of it, my mom thinks I measured the incorrect part): 82 cm = 32 inch
Hips (the widest part): 105 cm= 41 inch

I will measure again in a few months time. I could kick myself for not measuring at the beginning but I can only measure now because I am at home where we have a tape measure, I do think I could go all out and spend a whole.. dunno 1.5 pounds on one, but it seems such a big job whenever it occurs to me!
Camy
 
Thanks Kelli and Liz!

I was a little bit saddened when I got here and neither my mom nor my dad said anything about my new weight. I don't even know if they didn't notice, or if they did not want to say anything... I had to point it out and even then they went like hmm, ok.
I have some problems with my parents in the whole acknowledging me department. They used to praise my sister a lot (because she had no confidence) and never me (because i had a huge ego and they didn't want to encourage that... this is their own words, I really never had any self-confidence but played it up because I needed to seem strong in their eyes).

Anyhow, I am going today to buy my new running shoes, yey!! Hopefully I get the pink ones I want, but even if not, that is ok. Any cool new runners will be great! And I might buy the shoes for my skinny outfit, the new all stars I have wanted, we will see.

I will update food and stuff later.
Camy
 
Iam sorry for you that your parents didnt notice your new weight and when you mentioned they didnt really seem interested! Dont worry hunni iam in the same boat with my mum once i turned 18 my mum thinks that she doesnt need to be a mother to me anymore and she is not really interested in my life! she lives with her boyfriend 200miles away so i dont see her too much!
Dont let them get you down and remember that you are doing this for you and no one else!
 
Thanks Kelli you are so right! I am doing this for me, but my mom bugged me from the age of 15 onwards with "why don't you go one a diet" and "well you could do losing some pounds" and "well, you shouldn't eat that, you don't want to gain even more weight".
So I expected that when I finally made it, and lost some weight, she would be really proud of me. I was wrong clearly.
I know it is silly but my parents approval was always so important, probably because it was the hardest to get. I did everything I knew they wanted from a daughter, I got straight As in school, I skipped a year in school, I participated in contests and math-olympics and won them, I was always docile, never bad, babysat every weekend my siblings and on weekdays other kids so that I didn't need their money.
I got myself a scholarship, studied medicine, graduated in the top 10% of the class, worked throughout my studies and never needed a dime from them, I sang and danced on stage, casted and got chosen, left everything when my mom got sick and flew back to take care of house and siblings while she was goig through treatment, and NEVER once got praise.
In fact all I ever heard was that I wasn't tidy enough, I didn't have enough friends (was hard with the whole studying and babysitting to find any!), I was too fat, I wasn't nice enough, I didn't dress up...
3 years ago I told them this, that I felt like I was never enough and it was awful, instead of thinking "man we weren't nice" they told me, why I was torturing them and how unhappy I was making them by being so ungrateful.
BUT they have gotten better, my mom never mentioned weight anymore, and they have tried not to step on my toes the same way I try not to step on theirs.
When I come over here I am on my best ever behaviour, never take sides, do everything they will ask me to do a few minutes before they can ask, be as tidy as I can, be friendly and smiley, and spend no more than 8 to 10 days here every 3 to 6 months!

Ok, now to topics that are weight loss related: I went shopping and bought me some trousers that are (hold on to your panties ladies and gentlemen) size 8!!! (American 4!!!)
They are clearly a rather large 8, but still... I was a 14 even 16 before, now I am an 8!
I also bought 1 T-shirt and it is so nice to be able to buy M without worrying that if L won't fit I just won't be able to buy that shirt. I am still looking forward to liking the image in the mirror, still I cringe when I see myself in the changing room, but you can't have everything, right?
I found the runners I wanted but they were too expensive, so I bought a good second best, that were only 1/3 of the other ones. Also London is expensive but the imported goods here are outragously expensive here in Spain, so I did not buy the Converse. Will get them in London.

OK, Food of the day:
Breakfast: 1 banana, 1 apple, 1 kiwi, 200 ml of ACE juice (orange and carrot juice)
Snack: 1/2 a snickers bar, I have the other 1/2 for tomorrow
Lunch: 1 big salad (lettuce, tomato, 1 egg, some cooked ham, asparagus, some cheese, carrots)
Dinner: steak and salad

Exercise:
3 hours of walking through the mall... may not be a real exercise but man am I worn out!

Camy
 
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