Alligatorob's Diary

[alligatorob]

It was an ok day. I ate more than planned, but no binge, and I did a lot of catch up yardwork for exercise. Two fish meals!

Might even catch some fish along the way!

I like that LaMa, missed it entirely when I said we were in the same boat, LOL! Maybe we should all plan a fishing trip!

Thanks Emily, your kind words of encouragement are appreciated, and make me feel better, a good friend. Wish I could send that "food deamon" away, but I suspect he is a permanent fixture around here... Wish I could put him to work.

 

[Cate]

2 fish meals? Yum!
It’s really good having you back, Rob

 

[Llama]

Wish I could send that "food deamon" away

There's a literal church dedicated to that effort. Its leader died in a plane crash a couple of weeks ago.

 

[Milanica]

Rob, I just want to congratulate you for successfully reaching your goal, it's truly inspirational!
Keep up with great job!

 

[liza]

in fact I felt better, my digestion and all was better than it has been in a while.

That is interesting...
Might be some lessons in there about food choices. I know I can't eat a lot of raw veggies myself...sometimes things that seem like they should be healthy just don't work for our bodies.

 

[alligatorob]

Not a bad day, not a lot of exercise and calories were a bit on the high side. Too much Father's day desert. But no binge and not terrible, I am happy with the day.

There's a literal church dedicated to that effort.

Interesting I looked it up and sure enough its true, Health and Wellness, and their leader was just killed in an airplane crash, What to know about the plane crash that killed Christian dietitian Gwen Shamblin Lara . LaMa, your knowledge of just about everything never ceases to amaze me.

I just want to congratulate you for successfully reaching your goal

Thanks Milana, I appreciate it. I did reach my goal about a year ago and have been trying to maintain ever since. I underestimated maintenance, it is more a struggle than I expected... Hope you do better!

Might be some lessons in there about food choices. I know I can't eat a lot of raw veggies myself...sometimes things that seem like they should be healthy just don't work for our bodies.

Thanks Liza, I have been thinking about it and I am guessing it may be the fat. I have been on a very low fat diet, the binges changed that. Guess maybe I can gain something from the binges, not worth it, but something.

 

[Llama]

Guess maybe I can gain something from the binges, not worth it, but something.

Absolutely worth it if it improves your health long-term if you ask me. Yes it sucks to have to relose a couple of kilos but being low-grade miserable all the time sucks as well.
Gwen Shamblin is a rabbit hole well worth falling into. She was... I don't know how to continue that sentence without being disrespectful of the dead. At the time of their death the was married to a guy who played Tarzan in the 90s and the video of their engagement (a huge production) is fascinating and kind of terrifying.

 

[Emilyrose]

This is amazing LaMa. I mean... that hairstyle. The music! The theatrics of the whole thing. Americans are crazy. (Not you Rob.)

I definitely think cooking with more oils/butter, upping your intake of oily fish, avocados, all those good fats might help with the digestion Rob. It doesn't have to be loads of chocolate cake or anything! Anyway, keep going.

 

[Cate]

I definitely think cooking with more oils/butter, upping your intake of oily fish, avocados, all those good fats might help with the digestion Rob.

I think so too. Olive oil & avocado are good, healthy oils.

 

[alligatorob]

Not a bad day, got back to the gym and did an hour and 45 minutes, it felt good. I have increased my calories a bit to see if it makes me feel a little better. Not that I feel awful, but eating a bit more seems to agree with me.

Got some bad news on the trailer tonight, pickup was scheduled for tomorrow, but I got a late email telling me that a few things are still missing. I canceled taking delivery, told them I did not want it (or to pay for it) until 100% ready. I am thinking this will only take a few days, but am not sure yet...

Absolutely worth it if it improves your health long-term if you ask me. Yes it sucks to have to relose a couple of kilos but being low-grade miserable all the time sucks as well.

Thanks LaMa, and you are right, the learning experience may have been worth the few added pounds. I think they will come off, but I am not going to obsess about it, even if I stay where I am not its not a bad place to be, weight wise.
Hey Emily, aren't weddings pretty much like that everywhere?

Americans are crazy. (Not you Rob.)

Don't be so sure! I think you are right about the healthy fats, I will try to add some. Problem I have with fat is it adds calories, but still leaves me hungry...

Olive oil & avocado are good, healthy oils.

Yep, will try to add them.

 

[liza]

have increased my calories a bit to see if it makes me feel a little better. Not that I feel awful, but eating a bit more seems to agree with me.

So glad to hear that Rob--especially adding in some more fats would be really nice I'm sure
Will be great if you can find that balance where maybe gaining back a few pounds might make maintaining a healthy weight more enjoyable!

 

[alligatorob]

Today was a struggle, I sure wanted to binge, but did not and think I will get to sleep without... I got in a good workout at the gym, leg day, the hardest day for me and did 2 hours and 10 minutes. I started slow and tired and just forced my way though, it got better, but I was pretty tired by the end.

So glad to hear that Rob--especially adding in some more fats would be really nice I'm sure
Will be great if you can find that balance where maybe gaining back a few pounds might make maintaining a healthy weight more enjoyable!

Thanks Liza, but the higher fat thing did not work today. My binge urges were so strong I reverted to my high volume low calorie foods to get through. That does not include much fat. I'll see how gaining a few pounds feels, I think I am fine at my current weight, even though it is a few pounds heavier than my lightest. Noticed something recently, I weigh about the same as I did last year at this time, however my shorts are a lot looser than last summer. Some of that weight have been rearranged, a good thing, I think.

 

[Llama]

Noticed something recently, I weigh about the same as I did last year at this time, however my shorts are a lot looser than last summer. Some of that weight have been rearranged, a good thing, I think

That sounds pretty good! The binge urges suck so much and I wish I could just turn them off.

 

[Err2]

Noticed something recently, I weigh about the same as I did last year at this time, however my shorts are a lot looser than last summer. Some of that weight have been rearranged, a good thing, I think.

That's a great thing!

 

[Emilyrose]

I feel you on the binge urge today (for wine though). I have taken to the bed to try to curtail it.

Glad you got through it. Just keep doing what you need to with the food to get you through this rocky patch.

 

[Cate]

Weighing about the same as this time last year is wonderful, Rob. It may be worth trying adding some extra fat just to see if the binge urges fade.

 

[alligatorob]

Today was a real struggle, but I made it. Just yardwork for exercise, but I got some, and in the end calories were ok.

The binge urges suck so much and I wish I could just turn them off.

Yeah, they really suck and today was another tough one. But I made it.

That's a great thing!

Thanks Err, and it made me feel a bit better about things. One day at a time I guess...

I have taken to the bed to try to curtail it.

Thanks Emily, and I am headed to an early bed for the same reason, not a great solution but it helps.

It may be worth trying adding some extra fat just to see if the binge urges fade.

I have been trying that, without much luck yet. The only thing that seems to work is bingeing, a lot, then the urge fades, but only to come back stronger in a few hours...

 

[Llama]

I find that the more often I binge the more often I want to binge. Great job resisting today!

 

[alligatorob]

Great job resisting today!

Thanks LaMa, but it did not eat quite as well as posted last night. After posting I had about 50 calories worth of fresh strawberries from the garden. Not a binge, but I don't think I should be eating after posting...

I find that the more often I binge the more often I want to binge

Absolutely, and I think at least some of my problems now are the result of breaking my ~ 2 year long no binge streak. The flood gates are now open, all those kid treats around the house that I had been able to ignore for so long are calling my name now, sometimes very loudly. Maybe it was inevitable, it can be hard to expect to maintain binge free perfection. Probably not realistic. Now I just have to figure out how to live with it. I know you have been for a while now, with some success I believe...

 

[Llama]

Maybe it was inevitable, it can be hard to expect to maintain binge free perfection.

I do think it was inevitable. When I´m on a roll I wonder why I ever wanted to binge at all but then when something throws me off even a little bit it all comes back like a tidal wave.

Now I just have to figure out how to live with it. I know you have been for a while now, with some success I believe...

Sometimes successfully, sometimes not at all... Let´s keep learning together