Sometimes I just can’t stop eating until I don’t have it anymore and it’s a viscous cycle.
I remember those days, and I had a lot of them. I wish I could give you some golden insight into how to stop the binges, but I can't. All I can say is I have managed it one day at a time for over a year and a half now. I really do try to just do it one day at a time, no long term commitments.
I also went to OA, a long time ago. I had an Aunt who was one of the founding members way back. She managed to lose weight and keep it off for over 40 years, so I know it works for some. She inspired me to give it a try. I did learn things from them, like the one day at a time idea. However, for a number of reasons OA wasn't right for me. A disappointment, I know it has worked for many others, my aunt included.
It sounds like you really do manage most days, just a few more and you'll be there. You might read LaMa's diary she has managed to control her bingeing, and is very different in it that I am. Maybe she would have some insights that would help you.
Keep at it, you will find a way, I know you will.