Xenon's diary....(enter if you dare :p)

urgh. Calculus!! I did pure maths a-level so that takes me back a few years hehehe. Good luck - I hope you manage to get the marks you need - I can it magine it would be really frustrating to spend so long going over stuff you already know!
 
Yes, what I have done so far is like a-level pure maths minus calculus....or we could say with elementary principles of calculus. Thanks for the well wishes! In the future I have to take some levels of math I never knew existed! lololol
 
Woooo.... I hate maths!! Lol was never really great at it.Good on you for going after what you want!! I don't think I posted it in my diary yet but I applied to study last week... to be a personal trainer!! (sorry, not hijacking your thread, just wanted to tell you!! Can't believe I forgot to post it before!!!)
 
OMG Luz that is SOOOOOOOOOO you!!! I think you would be awesome at it! You are the perfect fit for a personal trainer! I am so happy you are going for it :) I'm happy you told me here because I only have time to write this reply tonight ...definitely not hijacking, I am so excited for you!!
 
wow congrats Luz (am definitely hijacking this thread now!! hehehehe) that's fantastic news.

Xenon, friends who did maths at uni told me that basically you get to a point where you don't even use a calculator - just 0 and 1!! heh. I qualified as a chartered accountant a few years ago so my use of numbers is ALL practical and nothing pure at all.
 
Xenon, friends who did maths at uni told me that basically you get to a point where you don't even use a calculator - just 0 and 1!!

Holy crap that is like programming...maybe we are living in the matrix! :p

I'm going for physics and then on to astrophysics.
 
wow that sounds like a plan! I did enjoy the theory of "pure" maths but I think in terms of doing that sort of thing long term, for me, its in the application to real life rather than just maths for teh sake of theorectical maths. Astrophysics is very cool though - especially when you start crossing over into quantum physics. i have a friend who did his PhD research at Cern, Switzerland at the Large Hadron Collider - it always sounded fascinating.
 
Grrrrrrrrrrr

^2.4lbs. $#@&# Water weight! I weighed on Sat. and was looking good and now a gain. I think just too much soup. In other news I am feeling better but now my allergies are acting up....which means sinus pressure and allergy induced asthma! Yayyyyyyyyyy! I get to hit the inhaler and antihistamines :) My first bout of this was 7 yrs ago when I moved near a landfill, I moved two yrs after that and have been fine for the past 5 yrs, now we moved again and I think I have allergies to something here. Sad thing is I don't know what exactly, but there is an inactive landfill like 4 blocks from here. I have to see a doc again as I have no inhaler now and no meds. I've been having chest tightness and difficulty breathing since last week but I thought it was just part of the sickness and pain I was having. If karma and past lives is real, I think I was a helluva b***h in my past life :p

Anyways not too upset about the gain, I'm glad I weighed in on Saturday lol Nest week Monday should be better I hope.
 
wow that sounds like a plan! I did enjoy the theory of "pure" maths but I think in terms of doing that sort of thing long term, for me, its in the application to real life rather than just maths for teh sake of theorectical maths. Astrophysics is very cool though - especially when you start crossing over into quantum physics. i have a friend who did his PhD research at Cern, Switzerland at the Large Hadron Collider - it always sounded fascinating.

I understand jjjay. My previous work was in the financial industry ensuring that the banks adhered to laws set by the government. I took some law and accounting classes as well. So I have been very analytical and static.

The funny thing is I used to do things regarding physics and astronomy in my spare time and I used to develop theories based on my studies and evaluations. Thing is, my theories could be worth a grain of salt because I have no formal training in physics, and although I understand the process of why I think the way I do, it will not be respected unless I can explain it scientifically. For example I had conflict with Einstein's theory of relativity, in particular space time and space time models. I could not perceive that time or space is linear and I believe Einstein was on to something else regarding energy, but time is like particles. Well my nerd friends had fun with me on this one, and I tried to explain it as much as I could to them (in much more detail than I would here), but they needed equations and blah blah blah. Well eventually one friend really came running to me when some results from a major study regarding gravity came in. The results indicated that time at its very essence is like grains or particles. The gravitational study was not essentially for this aspect of time, but it came up in the study because of some noise being detected by the equipment. My friends suggested I take astrophysics a long time ago because I really spend like sooooooooo many hours studying things just for fun...but prior to them suggesting it I never even thought about it lol. When they said it, I was like OH YEAH! lololol It really clicked. And now I seem to have the opportunity so I'm going for it :)

^^sorry for all of that rambling...I hope it's somewhat coherent!

Your friend must have been soooooo excited to work with the Large Hedron Collider! I was a little apprehensive about the first collision because, as you know, much of physics is being discovered especially in the quantum and astronomical areas, so it is not an exact science. The Physicists working at the LHC were predicting that the first collision would create numerous microscopic black holes-- that was just too much for me lolol. To say it plainly I was scared LOL
 
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Just figured out who the culprit is for the weight gain....TOM go figure *rolls eyes*

Hey Xe

I am right there with you and I am hoping that a see something below 178.2 even if it is 177.9 I can take that lol but it takes a few days after TOM so really see a difference on the scale! Wow your studies look really really hard lol!!! I hated math I was ok with it until Algebra came alongI guess it's just not for me!!! You are gonna have your hands full with the baby, school, hubby and to top it off weightloss!!! You are my hero! Hope you get some relief from your allergies soon, and also time to rest a bit! Godd Luck with all that!
 
Thanks Veronique! I actually came here to my diary because it is so much! lololol My husband has been working 12 hour days this week and I have been so busy and not getting any exercise in at all....well 60 mins so far this week. And a bad thing when I feel like this....sick and stressed, I neglect eating. I think I was at 1000 cals yesterday and so far today I am at 650 and that is because I drank a protein shake. Maybe I should just have another one. Although I was thinking to go outside with the bebe and have two freaking glazed doughnuts and a darn iced coffee >:-( lol ...but I resolved to just take a shower and have a darjeeling tea and some angel food cake I have in the fridge (60 cals!! made with splenda). I don't know what else to eat and I really do not feel in the mood to eat any meal.

I think I need to get a jogging stroller. If I could run right now I would feel so much better.

But yes it is much Veronique. I am determined to do it all and I cannot doubt myself! Sometimes I feel like....well maybe I should just continue being a stay at home mom and leave school out of the element, but in the long term I think it will be better for all of us. I hope I can balance it all!!

The only good thing is I am not severely lacking sleep this week, but the asthma meds make me so sleepy. So I've been working past that....without coffee! I can't have any when taking these meds.
 
aww glad to hear that it helped clear the cobwebs out Xenon! Keep going with the studying - it will all be worth it and the exams will be done soon. It sounds like you have such an inquisitive passion for astrophysics that it would be shame to not even get the chance to study it formally and wow them all with your theories!

Its hard going, I know, especially with a baby. I started my 3 years of chartered accountancy training when my daughter was 10 months old and it nearly killed me! But I got through it by hook or by crook and now I look back and I'm really proud that I achieved it against all the odds.

Chin up! At least you aren't comfort eating!
 
Nothing like a shower to improve your mood!!! I hear you on the OH working 12hr shifts, I'm so used to hubby not being there at all I feel crowded if he comes home early now!!! How bad is that! I've sadly gotten so used to my own company...
I feel a bit blah too, had an allergic reaction to something yesterday at work- I think it was someone's guide dog (I'm allergic to dogs) I woke up this morning thinking I had tonsilitis... My throat is SO swollen and my glands are up. Boo!!! Feeling better now.
At least I can drink coffee... I'm sure I would lose my will to do anything without it lol.

I'm glad you've managed to get some sleep in!! YAY for the little things :)
 
But yes it is much Veronique. I am determined to do it all and I cannot doubt myself! Sometimes I feel like....well maybe I should just continue being a stay at home mom and leave school out of the element, but in the long term I think it will be better for all of us. I hope I can balance it all!!

The only good thing is I am not severely lacking sleep this week, but the asthma meds make me so sleepy. So I've been working past that....without coffee! I can't have any when taking these meds.

Hey I think that you should keep going with the studies you are clearly that pationate about it you need to keep going. I want to go back to school but I lack that pation and determination, I keep looking at programs online but can never say yes this I want to do... I am getting sick of working in an office too much time sitting but I am not great at manual work so I really don't know what I should study into,,,,eventually I will find something I want to pursue...I am very happy you found your pasion keep going with it!

Wow doing all this with out Coffee lol I can barely do a day with out my single cup of coffee!!
 
Hang in there Xenon! Glad to hear the shower cleared your head. It has to be so hard to lose weight while studying and taking care of a baby and having a hubby who's gone so much. Just take everything as it comes, you'll get through it.

And don't stress too much about a low calorie day, so long as they are once in a while. One low cal day doesn't do any more damage then one high cal day. It's when you have a lot that's the problem.
 
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