Xenon's diary....(enter if you dare :p)
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Xenon1
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Sorry I've been away! I was cramming lol and I only got to cram up to Algebra II. Took the exams today 5/27 and......
I ACED THE EXAMS :-D
Wo0t! Came here first to tell you guys. So in the fall I will be taking Calculus I with Analytical Geometry
I totally passed Algebra I&II, Geometry, Trig and Precalc. I am so happy because I did not even get to study trig or precalc Of course English and reading I aced also. Thanks so much for all the support guys! Veronique, Luz, Mizzie and jjjay I stopped in to read your posts and did not have time to reply, but I have to let you know you really lifted my spirits. And jjjay thanks so much for sharing that you went to school when you had a 10 month old. It really motivated me and helped me to get past a mental stumbling block.
Heather thx for visiting!
I will post more tomorrow, just wanted to share the good news!
Oh down to 251.4 after TOM...not much! -0.6lbs
I ACED THE EXAMS :-D
Wo0t! Came here first to tell you guys. So in the fall I will be taking Calculus I with Analytical Geometry
I totally passed Algebra I&II, Geometry, Trig and Precalc. I am so happy because I did not even get to study trig or precalc Of course English and reading I aced also. Thanks so much for all the support guys! Veronique, Luz, Mizzie and jjjay I stopped in to read your posts and did not have time to reply, but I have to let you know you really lifted my spirits. And jjjay thanks so much for sharing that you went to school when you had a 10 month old. It really motivated me and helped me to get past a mental stumbling block. Heather thx for visiting!
I will post more tomorrow, just wanted to share the good news!
Oh down to 251.4 after TOM...not much! -0.6lbs
shawnnam
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jjjay
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WOW WOW WOW!! You aced your exams - that's the best news! I knew you could do it. And weight loss too!! Keep on going Xenon!
As for stumbling blocks - life throws them up all over the place but its the getting over them that's important - if something wasn't darn hard work, it wouldn't feel like such an achievement plus everyone would do it!!
I remember getting a bit of a tough time from the others above me in the department I worked in whilst doing my qualifications re not wanting to work late and having to go home to be with my daughter as well as study etc... Then a year ago, one of those people had her own son and came back off maternity leave and contacted me to apologise (I hadn't spoken to her for a couple of years by now as I'd gone to a different office) - she said that she felt she'd completely underestimated the amount of pressure and time from being a parent and thought I was amazing to have done my exams as well as worked and been a mum, and that she hadn't realised just HOW hard I must have been working. This was a real moment for me - when I felt just how much I had achieved.
So I guess, if you want something hard enough, you find a way to juggle it all and make it work - sounds like you are well on your way to doing that! I'm proud of you!
As for stumbling blocks - life throws them up all over the place but its the getting over them that's important - if something wasn't darn hard work, it wouldn't feel like such an achievement plus everyone would do it!!
I remember getting a bit of a tough time from the others above me in the department I worked in whilst doing my qualifications re not wanting to work late and having to go home to be with my daughter as well as study etc... Then a year ago, one of those people had her own son and came back off maternity leave and contacted me to apologise (I hadn't spoken to her for a couple of years by now as I'd gone to a different office) - she said that she felt she'd completely underestimated the amount of pressure and time from being a parent and thought I was amazing to have done my exams as well as worked and been a mum, and that she hadn't realised just HOW hard I must have been working. This was a real moment for me - when I felt just how much I had achieved.
So I guess, if you want something hard enough, you find a way to juggle it all and make it work - sounds like you are well on your way to doing that! I'm proud of you!
heatherisadork
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Man, what a workload! Congrats on acing everything!!! I can't even imagine how hard it must be going to school and being a mother of a young child at the same time, all while working on weight loss at the same time. You are an absolute inspiration!
Xenon1
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Thx so much Shawna, Veronique, Luz, Mizzie, jjjay and Heather! I wish it was more lost but I have not been exercising as much because of all the studying! I think I need to get some workout videos or something until I figure out how to get time for the gym. I could go with my son...he has some toys that he can sit and stand in without touching the floor...but I don't even want his toys to touch the floor LOL I've seen some of the guys sweat in there and it grosses me out really. I once went on a treadmill after a guy, forgot to clean it and my hand landed in a pool of his sweat *faints*
The only time I can see to go to the gym is between 12am and 2am. Oh well I have to fit it in somehow. I won't be meeting my goal of running 5 mins nonstop this month, that's for sure!
I'll be visiting your diaries as I can...thanks for being patient with me *hugs*
The only time I can see to go to the gym is between 12am and 2am. Oh well I have to fit it in somehow. I won't be meeting my goal of running 5 mins nonstop this month, that's for sure!
I'll be visiting your diaries as I can...thanks for being patient with me *hugs*
Xenon1
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Let me tell you...I was unsure if I would be a good mom before I got pregnant because I knew it was not easy, and after having my son I realise that I had absolutely no clue of how much work being a mom is! I'm still not sure if I'm a good mom or not, so I just try not to think about it and focus on the health and happiness of the little one. His little legs are plump and he laughs and kisses me alot lolol. When I came back from the exam and a class I had that day he held my face and gave me the longest kiss ever LOL
Sorry went off on a tangent there, but I wanted to say that so many people express the behaviors your colleagues did because they have their own ideas of parenting but zero experience with it! It was big of her to call and apologise. Really jjjay when I read what you have done it inspires me so much!
Verobc1
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Hey Xe,
I am glad to see you back on here!!!! Congrat on acing your exams....just the word exams make me nervous but I will have to follow in your steps and go back to school one of these days,,,,I just have to find my pasion first!
Don't worry about the parent thing, we all just do the best we can, and if your son is a healthy happy baby then what else can you ask for???? You are doing great!
I am glad to see you back on here!!!! Congrat on acing your exams....just the word exams make me nervous but I will have to follow in your steps and go back to school one of these days,,,,I just have to find my pasion first!
Don't worry about the parent thing, we all just do the best we can, and if your son is a healthy happy baby then what else can you ask for???? You are doing great!
jjjay
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You know Xenon, all we can ever do as parents is OUR BEST! And hope that is good enough If your son is healthy and happy, then you got to take that, run with it and move on to the next stage which is getting yourself healthy and happy (whilst still keeping your son that way hahaha....add some more balls to the juggling!!).
To be honest Xenon, I didn't cope with it all that well - yep sure I passed all my exams, my career got off to a good start and I was a good mum to my daughter, but something had to give and for me that was my "health" - I ballooned in weight, never did any exercise and was really really unhappy inside - I'd sit in hotel rooms studying for my financial exams stuffing myself full of chocolate and sweets and crisps.
So I guess what I am saying is you do your best to get through what you have to get through and be proud of what you are doing at the moment Acing exams, being a good mum AND loosing weight - GO GIRL!
If your son is healthy and happy, then you got to take that, run with it and move on to the next stage which is getting yourself healthy and happy (whilst still keeping your son that way hahaha....add some more balls to the juggling!!).To be honest Xenon, I didn't cope with it all that well - yep sure I passed all my exams, my career got off to a good start and I was a good mum to my daughter, but something had to give and for me that was my "health" - I ballooned in weight, never did any exercise and was really really unhappy inside - I'd sit in hotel rooms studying for my financial exams stuffing myself full of chocolate and sweets and crisps.
So I guess what I am saying is you do your best to get through what you have to get through and be proud of what you are doing at the moment
Acing exams, being a good mum AND loosing weight - GO GIRL!
Xenon1
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I am so pissed off guys. *rant on* I recently relocated and my cousin is in my town. So my mom calls to tell me he is in town and he will be calling me, she gave him my phone number. OK so I miss his call and call him back and ask him where he is so I can meet up with him, he sort of brushes me off and tells me that he will come to visit me on Monday (This was Saturday). OK so Monday I wait the entire morning and afternoon for him to call me and ask me for my address or directions or something, no call. We decide to go out and the baby falls asleep in the car so we decide to just go for a drive and my husband puts the phone on silent. An hour later my husband says, "OMG We have four missed calls!" It's my cousin and I missed his calls by 30 mins. I call him back and he tells me he was at my house. I was like :-O We did not even know you were coming! He said, "I called you when I got there, why didn't you answer?" So I told him the story and that we were on the road. I told him I had no idea that he had my address and though he was going to call me before he came. So he says, "Well even if I did call, you would have had your phone off JACKASS." So ignoring his insult I asked him where he is so we can come see him and he told me he is back in the hotel but he has to leave. Mind you this is only 30 mins later.
SO I call my mom today and told her I missed my cousin's visit and she says...OH I know and his mom is so upset that you did not open the door for him. So I said, "How could I open the door for him when I was not home?" My mom, "I figured it had to be something like that because I could not understand why you would not open the door for him." SO I'm like WTF? Is it not common sense that if you knock on someone's door and you hear nothing inside and they do not answer, they are not home? My aunt spoke to my cousin and he told her that he spoke with me and I told him my husband turned off the phone and I was not home, and both my cousin and my aunt are STILL acting like I was home and I did not answer him. They are now calling everyone in the family and telling them this. WHY WOULD I DO THAT?!?! I have no clue what is up with these people. I can't wait to tell my husband this crap.
I really had to ask my mom is this not common sense and why would everyone be so quick to think I would do something like that. It really makes no sense to me! Mind you, my cousin has stood me up SO many times and when I came on several occasions for him to see my son he told his mom to tell me he is too tired to get out of bed, and I totally understood because he works a crazy schedule.
Grrrrrrrr
Thx for letting me rant!/
SO I call my mom today and told her I missed my cousin's visit and she says...OH I know and his mom is so upset that you did not open the door for him. So I said, "How could I open the door for him when I was not home?" My mom, "I figured it had to be something like that because I could not understand why you would not open the door for him." SO I'm like WTF? Is it not common sense that if you knock on someone's door and you hear nothing inside and they do not answer, they are not home? My aunt spoke to my cousin and he told her that he spoke with me and I told him my husband turned off the phone and I was not home, and both my cousin and my aunt are STILL acting like I was home and I did not answer him. They are now calling everyone in the family and telling them this. WHY WOULD I DO THAT?!?! I have no clue what is up with these people. I can't wait to tell my husband this crap.
I really had to ask my mom is this not common sense and why would everyone be so quick to think I would do something like that. It really makes no sense to me! Mind you, my cousin has stood me up SO many times and when I came on several occasions for him to see my son he told his mom to tell me he is too tired to get out of bed, and I totally understood because he works a crazy schedule.
Grrrrrrrr
Thx for letting me rant!/
jjjay
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He sounds like a real d*ck I'm afraid. All you can do is step back and say to anyone that asks/comments that you were really sorry but wires got crossed and you have gone out for the afternoon because of course you would have loved to seen him if you had even been in the area to pop back home. Apart from that, distance yourself from it
BE ZEN!!
Seriously, with family stuff, it is not WORTH the time or energy getting caught up in he said she said stuff. Those that know you know you wouldn't do something that rude. Those that chose to think it anyway, well you are going to have problems convincing them otherwise.
BE ZEN!!
Seriously, with family stuff, it is not WORTH the time or energy getting caught up in he said she said stuff. Those that know you know you wouldn't do something that rude. Those that chose to think it anyway, well you are going to have problems convincing them otherwise.
AlexPlatups
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yeah, I also agree with everyone above, and the question that I always ask
myself that helps when some BS like this happens in my life, or any other
BS for that matter because it works wonders.
here it is: "is this important?"
so far...99.9% of the time the answer has been NO, and I simply ignored
whatever happened without any further consequences!
...obvioulsy if the answer is YES, then you must take action, but this is usually
emergency and life/death kind of situations.
Your cousin is an ASS, and like everyone else said, I wouldn't entertain it. You know what happened and so does he, so let him live with his dishonesty and you move on. If someone in the family brings it up, just tell them it was a misunderstanding and that's all. If it ever comes to him wanting to visit again, address him to notify you when he will be visiting and if he changes that without notification then you are not responsible because you have things to do.
The universe does not revolve around him and neither do you.
Sometimes family are the worst critics in the world, and you cannot let them stress you out. Seriously, most of my family just leave a message on send a text because I don't want to here the drama or be caught up in anyone else's mess. I don't want to here the gossip or the he said she said, so, I don't answer the phone most of the time. I'll usually give call backs and by that time, if they wanted to talk about someone, they've forgotten what they wanted to tell you, or are not so hyped up about it. I still ignore it and brush it off because it is stressful, even when it is not me, I don't want to here that crap or be involved. You got to just brush your shoulders off, and label the incident as ridiculous and worthless and carry on. He knows he is wrong so take satisfaction in knowing that he knows the truth.
The universe does not revolve around him and neither do you.
Sometimes family are the worst critics in the world, and you cannot let them stress you out. Seriously, most of my family just leave a message on send a text because I don't want to here the drama or be caught up in anyone else's mess. I don't want to here the gossip or the he said she said, so, I don't answer the phone most of the time. I'll usually give call backs and by that time, if they wanted to talk about someone, they've forgotten what they wanted to tell you, or are not so hyped up about it. I still ignore it and brush it off because it is stressful, even when it is not me, I don't want to here that crap or be involved. You got to just brush your shoulders off, and label the incident as ridiculous and worthless and carry on. He knows he is wrong so take satisfaction in knowing that he knows the truth.
Xenon1
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I think I logged on like 5 times today and started writing a reply and had to go. I'm happy it did not do that yesterday when I wanted to rant (I can see the emoticons again!)
I'm afraid you're right jjjay. I did not realise he acted so childishly until this. I did as you said before reading your reply and you would not believe they tried to turn it around on me as if I was behaving irrational! I think I'm giving them all a break for a while...mom and sis included. And you are so right I need to be zen when these things happen.
Veronique naturally you are right...I really should not give a crap about this foolishness....I just forgot how much they like to start drama!
Thanks so much for the words of wisdom everyone...it really calmed me and helped me to see things differently because I was really TOTALLY pissed lolol
(I can see the emoticons again!)I'm afraid you're right jjjay. I did not realise he acted so childishly until this. I did as you said before reading your reply and you would not believe they tried to turn it around on me as if I was behaving irrational! I think I'm giving them all a break for a while...mom and sis included. And you are so right I need to be zen when these things happen.
Veronique naturally you are right...I really should not give a crap about this foolishness....I just forgot how much they like to start drama!
^^this really put things in perspective for me. Thanks Alex! I am definitely going to apply this to my life. It's these simple yet profound pieces of wisdom that really make a difference in life.
yeah, I also agree with everyone above, and the question that I always ask
myself that helps when some BS like this happens in my life, or any other
BS for that matter because it works wonders.
here it is: "is this important?"
so far...99.9% of the time the answer has been NO, and I simply ignored
whatever happened without any further consequences!
...obvioulsy if the answer is YES, then you must take action, but this is usually
emergency and life/death kind of situations.
OMG njoyabl I said this exact same thing and even thought that he is really an ass too! lolol My family...I love them so much, but my personality type does not fit with theirs so well. I tend to think before I speak and I consider my actions before I execute them...they are a bit careless with these things and I cannot understand it really...because I am so different! Today they were acting all posh and telling me I need to work it out and they will not get involved....but yesterday they were stressing me about me not opening the door for him! Like I said before I'm giving them a rest for a few days....or weeks. I will be having a lot of work starting next week with school anyways.
Thanks so much for the words of wisdom everyone...it really calmed me and helped me to see things differently because I was really TOTALLY pissed lolol