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Last night was utterly ridiculous. Hehe. But since it counts as something, I will post it. I tried doing some obliques and they were hurting my back. [I have this problems with a bulge on my lower back where I had epidurals put in.] So I had to nix that idea, but I really really wanted to work the abs. So, in 10 minutes, I had my head phones on and I was "belly dancing" or something in front of my mirror making sure my abs were getting a work-out. Because I had done about 15 obliques, I already had my abs in protest and it really felt like I was working the right areas. And yes, thanks to Trick Daddy, Li'l John, Outkast, Ludacris and others, I even worked up a sweat. I even finished the "routine" with some leg raises I remember from a middle school aerobics class and pilates stretches. I just pulled out the arsenal last night in hopes that I would be "active for 30 minutes" like is recommended. Not to mention, looking at myself that long in a mirror was a good thing. Like re-acquainting myself with myself.
 
WTG Sel!
That sounds like a ton of fun and a good workout!

I hope your having a freakin awesome day!:hug2:
 
I beat temptation this morning. My hubby brought home 3 pieces of some kind of pound cake from Starbucks. [He flirts with the ladies there and he's kind of a regular, so my guess is they gave him freebies.] And I ate one and only one! That was my breakfast. So the dillema was the remaining 2 pieces. That was easy! I told my kids to leave them alone, left them on the counter in plain sight, and they were gone in 20 minutes. Woot! Temptation behind me, I feel so much better. Now I'm off to eat some carrots. Yum... :)
 
I wish I had time to make the diary rounds right now, but I just don't. My brother is on his way over now, and I'm so behind in 8 million things....

Not complaining. I'm just busy.

I blew the whole accountability thing yesterday and ate bad food due to bad circumstances.

But I achieved a sort of peace last night, holding my husband while he slept. My husband, maker of said circumstances. Not too bad, just inconvenient.

Then I stayed up 'till 7 AM to read the end of a really great book. I do that a lot.

*hmmm*

Too tired to really articulate my feelings. Have a good one. :)
 
Good afternoon everyone!

Today is a scramble and I wanted to check in real quick. I have ONE LAST FINAL piece of paperwork to take to the school. *crosses fingers* That's what they said anyway. I bought the last 2 books I needed. My schedule is set. Just 4 days and I'll be in a classroom.

Food Yesterday

bf- woke up too late
l- 6 inch sub w/loads of veggies [club], cup of peaches [in natural juice and Splenda], 90 cal granola bar
d- chinese buffet [and I chose lots of veggies again and shrimp, stayed away from really fried foods and things sitting in sauce], sweet tea
s- fruit bar [100 percent fruit, stretched flat like beef jerkey, really yummy]
extra- 1 beer

ex- none, way too tired [not a good excuse, but truthful]

Things are still looking up for me. I'm starting to get the butterflies when I think of school. At the same time, I'm thinking of how awesome it will be to go places alone. Woot!
 
SoSel said:
Good afternoon everyone!

Today is a scramble and I wanted to check in real quick. I have ONE LAST FINAL piece of paperwork to take to the school. *crosses fingers* That's what they said anyway. I bought the last 2 books I needed. My schedule is set. Just 4 days and I'll be in a classroom.

Food Yesterday

bf- woke up too late
l- 6 inch sub w/loads of veggies [club], cup of peaches [in natural juice and Splenda], 90 cal granola bar
d- chinese buffet [and I chose lots of veggies again and shrimp, stayed away from really fried foods and things sitting in sauce], sweet tea
s- fruit bar [100 percent fruit, stretched flat like beef jerkey, really yummy]
extra- 1 beer

ex- none, way too tired [not a good excuse, but truthful]

Things are still looking up for me. I'm starting to get the butterflies when I think of school. At the same time, I'm thinking of how awesome it will be to go places alone. Woot!
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Really good job on the fruits and veggies today, honey! I salute you.:jump:

You are going to love school soo much! You'll get to have more adult conversations! haha I just know you're going to do well.:) :hug2: :hug2:
 
You are doing sooo awesome on your eating!!! Astoundingly well... your meeting your Augst goals like crazy!

As for school your going to get tthere and knock their socks off... they're not even goign to knwo what hit them LOL:rotflmao:

Lots of Love
 
hey, Ive seen you around and decided to check out your diary. :D

You seem to be doing extremely well! Awesome work. I always said I hated shrimp whenever I tried it, but today I put some with my pasta and it was actually not half bad! haha. I think what I hate is the cold, crunchy ones that they serve with buffets, Im so picky. haha. Shrimp and veggies is a very good option as opposed to the fried favorites at a chinese buffet! I would never dare set a foot into a chinese buffet, even if I had good intentions because I really like some of the other things that arnt fit for people who are trying to live a "healthy" lifestyle.. such as all the yummy fried stuff, haha.

Anyways, when you talk about going to school, are you talking about college? What year are you in? Or is it your first year? Im taking my first year starting in september and Im ridiculously nervous, yet excited at the same time! You'll do great! Keep going... you're headed in the right direction!

xo
 
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Today was not a good food day. One buffet line and one barbecue and I screwed myself up pretty bad. I don't even feel comfortable after those 2 [and only 2] big meals today. Things will be settling into a schedule real soon, though. I was thinking about mini-meals or enforced snacking and smaller meals, or whatever the heck you want to call it. I see it this way. I'll eat before school about 7 in the morning. I'll snack between my first 2 classes on a fruit or something around 11. Then after classes I'll have lunch. I always snack at 3. Dinner is about 5 or 6. I may have a late evening snack if I'm up studying or just plain hungry from exercising. Now I need to find healthy alternatives. No doritoes at 9:30 [not that I buy them anyway]. And for the between-class snack, it'll be something like a fruit just for convenience and because I don't ever eat a big breakfast. I dunno. It's something I've had on my mind. Esp since I'll have time to exercise 5 times a week. :]

As for now, I must sleep. I haven't felt good since I missed out the other night. And bad food makes me feel yucky inside. :[
 
still.hurting said:
hey, Ive seen you around and decided to check out your diary. :D

Anyways, when you talk about going to school, are you talking about college? What year are you in? Or is it your first year? Im taking my first year starting in september and Im ridiculously nervous, yet excited at the same time! You'll do great! Keep going... you're headed in the right direction!

xo
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Yes, I'm going back to college, for the 3rd time, and I think I'm still a freshman. [I do have one sophomore class though] :] I went from working towards an associates in general studies [2 semesters] to an associates in computer technology [or some weird thing for 1 semester] to my current program- associates in paralegal. I can't make up my mind or stay in one state. Hehe. 3 states, 3 schools, and not enough transfer credits.

I'm nervous about going back myself. I'm just shy. But college is so much better than high school. Sooooo much better. I'm glad I get the chance to tell you. I need to remind myself! You'll see. It's easy to get in the flow. Don't worry. :]

Also, nice to hear from you. Thanks for stopping by!
 
Today was not a good food day. One buffet line and one barbecue and I screwed myself up pretty bad. I don't even feel comfortable after those 2 [and only 2] big meals today. Things will be settling into a schedule real soon, though. I was thinking about mini-meals or enforced snacking and smaller meals, or whatever the heck you want to call it. I see it this way. I'll eat before school about 7 in the morning. I'll snack between my first 2 classes on a fruit or something around 11. Then after classes I'll have lunch. I always snack at 3. Dinner is about 5 or 6. I may have a late evening snack if I'm up studying or just plain hungry from exercising. Now I need to find healthy alternatives. No doritoes at 9:30 [not that I buy them anyway]. And for the between-class snack, it'll be something like a fruit just for convenience and because I don't ever eat a big breakfast. I dunno. It's something I've had on my mind. Esp since I'll have time to exercise 5 times a week. :]

As for now, I must sleep. I haven't felt good since I missed out the other night. And bad food makes me feel yucky inside. :[
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I know exactly how you feel about the yucky feelings bad food creates. Until yesterday I had been eating junk non-stop for 2 weeks. I was eating fast food, everything fried, candy, chocolate, chips, icecream.. it was absolutely repulsive. I went from 257 back up to 270! Now Im 268 again because I was retaining extra fluid from the salty foods, and now a few more lbs is water weight from "the time of the month" so I dont know how much fat I gained yet. I dont know what hit me but I got stuck in the wrong mindset. I got really discouraged for those 2 weeks, but then yesterday on Jenna's weigh in day, I got SO inspired again. I got my motivation back, my mood got better and I decided to stop making myself feel yuckier and get moving. Yesterday and today were the first days I actually made myself exercise! haha. Ive been waiting for school to start because Ill have access to the gym but thats really no excuse for me. I dont know why Im writing you a novel over something as simple as you saying "bad food makes me feel yucky inside." I tend to ramble :] Hope you feel better from the evil devil food soon ! :hug2:


Yes, I'm going back to college, for the 3rd time, and I think I'm still a freshman. [I do have one sophomore class though] :] I went from working towards an associates in general studies [2 semesters] to an associates in computer technology [or some weird thing for 1 semester] to my current program- associates in paralegal. I can't make up my mind or stay in one state. Hehe. 3 states, 3 schools, and not enough transfer credits.

I'm nervous about going back myself. I'm just shy. But college is so much better than high school. Sooooo much better. I'm glad I get the chance to tell you. I need to remind myself! You'll see. It's easy to get in the flow. Don't worry. :]

Also, nice to hear from you. Thanks for stopping by!
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3rd time? Ahh, this will be my first year.. Im scared. haha. As long as its better than highschool, Im good. I had really hard schooling. I never had friends and got made fun of all through elementary, junior high, and highschool because I was fat. Im slightly smaller and a lot less dorky now, but Im still nervous because im incredibly SHY. I have trouble talking to new people so I may come across as cold or rude, but people who know me say Im a sweetheart.. how embarrassing. Im taking Human Services.. Its only a 2 year course and this is year 1. Its like an intro to psycology and sociolgy, etc. I got accepted last year to a different college for Paralegal Services but I decided to take the year off because I didnt want to move away from home as soon as I left highschool because I gaduated young. (I had just turned 17.. and I graduated early.) My grade 12 year, I only had had to go for 1 semester instead of 2, and my only classes left to do were English and CRS .. meaning I spent half the day EVERY day in the cafeteria for "study time" This is where the send all the people who dont have a class that period, so they'll stay out of trouble haha. If I hadnt had those 2 credits to complete, I would have graduated a whole year early, instead of just half. :] Anyways, after that I didnt feel ready to be on my own for college right away. I knew my parents would be moving here this year, so I applied at the college here and got in. Its like 10 mins from where I live now, and I can stay at home to make expenses easier. Its working out well so far. Campus life would be nice too, but I cant afford it-- especially when I live this close-by. haha.

Anyways, I hope I like it as much as Im hoping I will! :)

xo
 
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confession time

*sighs*

I have allowed my weight to creep up again. I have been lazy about exercising, mostly due to headaches and other minor issues. I haven't been eating all that well either, due to circumstances. I have trouble finding healthy alternatives. I mean, yes, it's common sense that Subway is better than a burger joint, but I let myself slide thinking "It's only this once." And, usually, due to finances, it is. But it didn't work that way the past few days. 2 trips for fast food, one bbq buffet, one chinese buffet, and a bbq for my brother's going away party all since Tuesday! I feel so... something. Stupid is one word for it. Frustrated is another.

I wanted to start today off right. I'm eating a mini bagel with cream cheese and fruit cocktail in natural juices b/c we're out of fresh fruit. I'll be fixing that today. And I should have put sugar-free jelly on the bagel, but I forgot to do that. I woke up about 3 hours earlier than usual. I wanted to get my body used to waking up early. The result is that I'm tired. lmbo!

I wanted to be straight-up with myself. And there's the truth, in pink and white. I have been lazy and making bad choices.
 
I couldn't log in most of yesterday, which really sucked b/c I felt down. But today has been a great day. :] So I can come back here with a smile.

I ate very well yesterday. I had a lot of fruit which makes me feel better about my food choices. I skimped on the veggies. It's hard to cook creatively on a budget. I'm up for all suggestions. Including the one where you tell me to just buy more veggies, suck it up, and eat 'em. I'm learning to appreciate fresher things, after having been "spoiled" for so long. It's not too bad.

I'm working on the last minute, before-school scramble. Today I bought lunch boxes for me and my daughter. She wants to take her lunch to school and I'm happy to provide her something healthier than school food. [No matter what standards they cook by, I'm still leery. And it's not the lunch people's faults. It's all the system.] I bought fruit cups, granola bars, flavored water, and fresh fruit for her and myself. I know I'm going to need a between class snack of substance.

I also brought my weight down 2 lbs from yesterday until this morning. All that sodium and unhealthy gunk in my system is slowly being flushed. I feel better. Hope everyone is having a good one!
 
SoSel said:
I couldn't log in most of yesterday, which really sucked b/c I felt down. But today has been a great day. :] So I can come back here with a smile.

I ate very well yesterday. I had a lot of fruit which makes me feel better about my food choices. I skimped on the veggies. It's hard to cook creatively on a budget. I'm up for all suggestions. Including the one where you tell me to just buy more veggies, suck it up, and eat 'em. I'm learning to appreciate fresher things, after having been "spoiled" for so long. It's not too bad.

I'm working on the last minute, before-school scramble. Today I bought lunch boxes for me and my daughter. She wants to take her lunch to school and I'm happy to provide her something healthier than school food. [No matter what standards they cook by, I'm still leery. And it's not the lunch people's faults. It's all the system.] I bought fruit cups, granola bars, flavored water, and fresh fruit for her and myself. I know I'm going to need a between class snack of substance.

I also brought my weight down 2 lbs from yesterday until this morning. All that sodium and unhealthy gunk in my system is slowly being flushed. I feel better. Hope everyone is having a good one!
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You can eat healthy on a budget. Girl, I feed four adults on $70-100p/week. I don't buy much unless it's on sale. I can get a big bag of frozen veggies for $1-1.50, and especially right now, fresh fruit and veggies are dirt cheap b/c they are in season. I don't buy any meat unless it's on sale, and then I stock up and freeze it. I also do that with milk. When it gets below $2.50 a gallon, I buy several and stick them in the basement freezer until I need one in the fridge. Of course, if you don't have a deep freeze, it's harder to do that. But the veggies is easy. There is no excuse for not eating lots of them.

Congrats on the 2lb loss! I'm happy for you. Good that you're taking accountability for your choices. Just remember--NO EXCUSES!!Don't let children, hubby, school, family, tom, or anything else stop you from being the best Selena you can be! You owe it to yourself not to let anything distract you from achieving your goals. You have to tell yourself that you ARE going to do this. You have to make the time to exercise and you have to make the decision that you ARE going to eat healthy. It's really not that hard once you do that. You have to set yourself up for success.
 
bikinibound said:
You can eat healthy on a budget. Girl, I feed four adults on $70-100p/week. I don't buy much unless it's on sale. I can get a big bag of frozen veggies for $1-1.50, and especially right now, fresh fruit and veggies are dirt cheap b/c they are in season. I don't buy any meat unless it's on sale, and then I stock up and freeze it. I also do that with milk. When it gets below $2.50 a gallon, I buy several and stick them in the basement freezer until I need one in the fridge. Of course, if you don't have a deep freeze, it's harder to do that. But the veggies is easy. There is no excuse for not eating lots of them.

Congrats on the 2lb loss! I'm happy for you. Good that you're taking accountability for your choices. Just remember--NO EXCUSES!!Don't let children, hubby, school, family, tom, or anything else stop you from being the best Selena you can be! You owe it to yourself not to let anything distract you from achieving your goals. You have to tell yourself that you ARE going to do this. You have to make the time to exercise and you have to make the decision that you ARE going to eat healthy. It's really not that hard once you do that. You have to set yourself up for success.
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Yes Ma'am! *salutes*

Hehe.

We're trying to cut down on meat in our diet right now. I learned how to cook with meat in every lunch/dinner/supper/whatever you call it. I'm not sure how to implement beans and other healthy proteins. I don't know where to start! I need to research it. No excuses, right?

And, yup, I need to spend more time telling myself that I, Selena, can achieve all this on a limited budget and with family and college and even if it's raining on Tuesdays and the dog ran away from home while the kids were fighting and the hubby is on a 12 hour shift and my grandpa is in the hospital and my car brakes are making a funny noise. [lol! :rotflmao: ] Yes, that sort of thing. I'm not being obnoxious. I just really need the humor. And no, that's not really happening right now. It's Saturday...

*deep breathe* I'm really thinking about tattooing the serenity prayer on my forehead backwards so that I can read that bad boy a billion times a day.
 
*deep breathe* I'm really thinking about tattooing the serenity prayer on my forehead backwards so that I can read that bad boy a billion times a day.
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isnt that the thing I read once when I was younger?

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference."


That is a very good thing to read constantly.
I think of it in terms of my weight-loss and building my character. :]
As far as tattooing it on your forehead.. once you had it done youd certainly have to be granted
the serenity to accept the things you cannot change, because it would certainly be there forever! hah.

This is where the wisdom part comes in.. haha :]


xo
 
bikinibound said:
You can eat healthy on a budget. Girl, I feed four adults on $70-100p/week. I don't buy much unless it's on sale. I can get a big bag of frozen veggies for $1-1.50, and especially right now, fresh fruit and veggies are dirt cheap b/c they are in season. I don't buy any meat unless it's on sale, and then I stock up and freeze it. I also do that with milk. When it gets below $2.50 a gallon, I buy several and stick them in the basement freezer until I need one in the fridge. Of course, if you don't have a deep freeze, it's harder to do that. But the veggies is easy. There is no excuse for not eating lots of them.

When I worked in a group home I did their food shopping for them and i shopped for 5 women on a little over 200 dollars a week! Its possible... I just went to the store with a calculator a list and did the best bargain hunting I could!

Congrats on the 2lb loss! I'm happy for you. Good that you're taking accountability for your choices. Just remember--NO EXCUSES!!Don't let children, hubby, school, family, tom, or anything else stop you from being the best Selena you can be! You owe it to yourself not to let anything distract you from achieving your goals. You have to tell yourself that you ARE going to do this. You have to make the time to exercise and you have to make the decision that you ARE going to eat healthy. It's really not that hard once you do that. You have to set yourself up for success.
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WTG Kimberly.... You said this sooo well!:hug2:
SoSel said:

Yes Ma'am! *salutes*

You Best be Saluting
That:rotflmao: :hug2:

Hehe.

We're trying to cut down on meat in our diet right now. I learned how to cook with meat in every lunch/dinner/supper/whatever you call it. I'm not sure how to implement beans and other healthy proteins. I don't know where to start! I need to research it. No excuses, right?

If you want I'll help you search for healthy, yummy, quick and easy recipes... there is no excuses but if you need some help just ask:)

And, yup, I need to spend more time telling myself that I, Selena, can achieve all this on a limited budget and with family and college and even if it's raining on Tuesdays and the dog ran away from home while the kids were fighting and the hubby is on a 12 hour shift and my grandpa is in the hospital and my car brakes are making a funny noise. [lol! :rotflmao: ] Yes, that sort of thing. I'm not being obnoxious. I just really need the humor. And no, that's not really happening right now. It's Saturday...

:rotflmao: :rotflmao: Thankfully its not happening!

*deep breathe* I'm really thinking about tattooing the serenity prayer on my forehead backwards so that I can read that bad boy a billion times a day.
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:rotflmao: :rotflmao: Maybe just write it with some permanent marker or tape a sign to the mirror.... you may regret it if you do it:rotflmao:

Lots of Love and Hugs
 
SoSel said:

Yes Ma'am! *salutes*

Hehe.

We're trying to cut down on meat in our diet right now. I learned how to cook with meat in every lunch/dinner/supper/whatever you call it. I'm not sure how to implement beans and other healthy proteins. I don't know where to start! I need to research it. No excuses, right?

And, yup, I need to spend more time telling myself that I, Selena, can achieve all this on a limited budget and with family and college and even if it's raining on Tuesdays and the dog ran away from home while the kids were fighting and the hubby is on a 12 hour shift and my grandpa is in the hospital and my car brakes are making a funny noise. [lol! :rotflmao: ] Yes, that sort of thing. I'm not being obnoxious. I just really need the humor. And no, that's not really happening right now. It's Saturday...

*deep breathe* I'm really thinking about tattooing the serenity prayer on my forehead backwards so that I can read that bad boy a billion times a day.
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I know I sound preachy, but you have to be disciplined about things if you're going to seriously lose weight. You can do it. You think you're the only one with a busy stressful life? Look at Jenna and Griff. They are my heros. They have busy, stressful lives, yet they don't make excuses, and stick to the plan. My life is full of crap, too, but I feel worse if I don't eat right and exercise. I spent 9hrs with my gran in the ER/hospital one day, and it rained, but I still got my exercise in, and chose a grilled chicken salad at the hospital instead of the yummy deep fried crap that I really wanted to eat b/c I was worried about my gran. I just told myself that I wasn't going to use all that as an excuse not to eat right and exercise. And you feel sooo much better when you stick with the plan. I think you know that from when you have good days.

Why are you trying to cut down on the meat? You need protein in your diet. Meat isn't the only way to get protein, but it's one of the easiest...lol. Tofu is a good meat substitute, but it tends to be as expensive or more than some cuts of meat. Beans...beans, nature's fruit, the more you eat, the more you toot! haha:rotflmao: :rotflmao: Sorry, couldn't help myself.:rotflmao: Garbanzo beans (aka chick peas) are great protein. I make hummus with them. Take a can of beans, drain them, but into blender along with a a tbsp of olive oil, lemon juice, garlic (powder or fresh) and blend until smooth. You can put it on bread or tortillas, or eat it with just about anything. I like to make stirfries with black beans. Hope that helps. I'm sure there are tons of bean recipes online if you do a search.

Ok, there's your kick in the ass for today! lol If I didn't care about you, girl, I wouldn't bother writing this crap lol:rotflmao: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
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