ups and downs and shifting around

[bikinibound]

That's right we'll be so fancy and hot the courts wouldn't be able to handle us! Last night you were saying you wouldn't be able to get one of those high paying jobs... you'll be my paralegal in NY or Boston

I see you two being like the women on Boston Legal...smart, sassy and sexy as hell...

 

[Boam46]

We soooo could make the world Jealous!!!! We're going to be on top of it!

I'm sorry about your knees... I totally know the pain of messed up cartililege and bones and such. I say rest it as much as you can and some ice for swelling then some heat for relaxing the muscles and such! Take care of it .... we don't need you to be broken at all

 

[SoSel]

Take care of it .... we don't need you to be broken at all

That is the sweetest thing anyone has said to me in a while. Thank you. *tears up*

 

[cinderelly]

Excellent on teh sun dress Selena SOrry about your knees that sucks - sonds like my stupid wrist and ring finger (ironically) LOL...I have bad tendinitious and on a bad day I can barely use my hand and for my finger well if it just brushes along something hurts like hell...When it was at it's worse I could barely change my youngest diapers and dressin her was a choir...Oh and the whole point in telling you this to say that the only way to re-correct it is eventutally surgey and those same stupid shots - i havent gone there yet...

Your doing so well with your bikingYour attitude as well!!!

Oh and I love the new siggy!!!

 

[Boam46]

That is the sweetest thing anyone has said to me in a while. Thank you. *tears up*

Its only the truth

 

[SoSel]

Excellent on teh sun dress Selena SOrry about your knees that sucks - sonds like my stupid wrist and ring finger (ironically) LOL...I have bad tendinitious and on a bad day I can barely use my hand and for my finger well if it just brushes along something hurts like hell...When it was at it's worse I could barely change my youngest diapers and dressin her was a choir...Oh and the whole point in telling you this to say that the only way to re-correct it is eventutally surgey and those same stupid shots - i havent gone there yet...

Your doing so well with your bikingYour attitude as well!!!

Oh and I love the new siggy!!!

OMgosh! I am sorry to hear about that. Like you don't have enough to go through. Poor girl. :[

I had to do something with my signature. Something that wasn't so technical. I wanted something cheerful. :]

 

[Boam46]

I have bad tendinitious and on a bad day I can barely use my hand and for my finger well if it just brushes along something hurts like hell...When it was at it's worse I could barely change my youngest diapers and dressin her was a choir...Oh and the whole point in telling you this to say that the only way to re-correct it is eventutally surgey and those same stupid shots - i havent gone there yet...
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I'm soo sorry about your hand. I definitly know how hurt arms are :sad:

For both of you... my senior year in (december of 2002) of high school I threw shot put and I had a bad throw. Unluckily for me the wrong bone in my arm happened to be slightly longer (its actually common apparently) and it jarred forward and tore through my triangular fibrocartiledge complex (isn't that a mouthful ). We didn't want to rush into surgery. It just kept getting worse... they thought I had RSD and nerve damage for awhile. I tried to fix my arm with physical therapy and cortisone for a year and a half ... all the way through my freshman year of college barely able to use my right hand...before surgery... by the time they got in there it was just a total mess tons of cartiledge was torn up and such! During the surgery they cut out a peice of my bond in the middle of my forearm on the outer bone... I now have a plate and screws in there and repaired tons of cartiledge damage... I have pictures from the surgery

well I told this whole long story you probably don't care about for this reason if surgery is recommended and other things have been tried I always suggest going for the surgery as soon as possible.

sorry I wrote a book =0/

 

[SoSel]

Thanks for sharing. I know you're looking out for our better interests. I'm very leery of surgery, having already been through quite a few [impacted wisdom teeth and canine, 2 office procedures for skin growths, & 2 c-sections]. Also, the recovery time right now would set me back too much. O.k. I know I'm making excuses. I'm a pro at that. *sighs* I hate surgery.

 

[SoSel]

Food Today

bf- small bowl cereal [the sugary kind], milk, coffee, splenda
l- can of clam chowder [360 cals]
s- reduced sugar ice cream [didn't taste that good, so I didn't eat much]
d- zuchinni bread and apple

I'm sure that zuchinni bread doesn't count as a veggie, nor do the potatoes in the chowder, so I'm going to try to get a veggie in. ;]

 

[AmbaLove]

Hey, coffee's a bean, can we count that as a veggie?

 

[bikinibound]

Food Today

bf- small bowl cereal [the sugary kind], milk, coffee, splenda
l- can of clam chowder [360 cals]
s- reduced sugar ice cream [didn't taste that good, so I didn't eat much]
d- zuchinni bread and apple

I'm sure that zuchinni bread doesn't count as a veggie, nor do the potatoes in the chowder, so I'm going to try to get a veggie in. ;]

You're not eating enough, dear! That is starving your body, and you will have a hard time losing weight. Not to mention, I don't think you're getting enough nutrients--Jenna is soo right--you've gotta eat more veggies. Get some frozen veggies like broccoli and some of the blends for stir fries. Then put some in a bowl and nuke them for a few minutes. Season, and eat. It's so simple to do, there is no excuse not to. Ok, I'll stop being your mother now. I just worry about you.

Now the zucchini bread really has me worried! Please tell me that Sheryl didn't make it!!

 

[Boam46]

Good Morning... I hope you had a good nights rest!!

You're not eating enough, dear! That is starving your body, and you will have a hard time losing weight. Not to mention, I don't think you're getting enough nutrients--Jenna is soo right--you've gotta eat more veggies. Get some frozen veggies like broccoli and some of the blends for stir fries. Then put some in a bowl and nuke them for a few minutes. Season, and eat. It's so simple to do, there is no excuse not to. Ok, I'll stop being your mother now. I just worry about you.

Kimberly's right... frozen veggies really make it easy to prepare

Now the zucchini bread really has me worried! Please tell me that Sheryl didn't make it!!

LOL You hadda go there... Now I would be really worried if Sheryl had a national brand in all the major supermarkets.

 

[cinderelly]

I'm soo sorry about your hand. I definitly know how hurt arms are :sad:

For both of you... my senior year in (december of 2002) of high school I threw shot put and I had a bad throw. Unluckily for me the wrong bone in my arm happened to be slightly longer (its actually common apparently) and it jarred forward and tore through my triangular fibrocartiledge complex (isn't that a mouthful ). We didn't want to rush into surgery. It just kept getting worse... they thought I had RSD and nerve damage for awhile. I tried to fix my arm with physical therapy and cortisone for a year and a half ... all the way through my freshman year of college barely able to use my right hand...before surgery... by the time they got in there it was just a total mess tons of cartiledge was torn up and such! During the surgery they cut out a peice of my bond in the middle of my forearm on the outer bone... I now have a plate and screws in there and repaired tons of cartiledge damage... I have pictures from the surgery

well I told this whole long story you probably don't care about for this reason if surgery is recommended and other things have been tried I always suggest going for the surgery as soon as possible.

sorry I wrote a book =0/

Chapters and books are aloud ya know...it is hwo we get to knwo one another...ive thankfull only had one surgery and it was to get my gull bladder removed and it was horrible - I was knocked on my ass for months and couldnt work for weeks or barely move...trying doing htat with being single and only have one income - lol...my father and i had surgery at the same time...he had a kidney transplant - i had basic surgery he recovered and got a full clean bill of health before me...I also am prone to Staph infection and when I got this surgery done - it took over my body badly and even when I got my current tat it knocked me on my ass for a good few weeks...surgery scares me...

Thanks for sharing. I know you're looking out for our better interests. I'm very leery of surgery, having already been through quite a few [impacted wisdom teeth and canine, 2 office procedures for skin growths, & 2 c-sections]. Also, the recovery time right now would set me back too much. O.k. I know I'm making excuses. I'm a pro at that. *sighs* I hate surgery.

Makin excuses is fun and easy!!!As long as you arent making it for your new life style change anymore who cares!!!

Hey, coffee's a bean, can we count that as a veggie?

Damn wouldnt that rock!!!!

 

[SoSel]

You're not eating enough, dear! That is starving your body, and you will have a hard time losing weight. Not to mention, I don't think you're getting enough nutrients--Jenna is soo right--you've gotta eat more veggies. Get some frozen veggies like broccoli and some of the blends for stir fries. Then put some in a bowl and nuke them for a few minutes. Season, and eat. It's so simple to do, there is no excuse not to. Ok, I'll stop being your mother now. I just worry about you.

Now the zucchini bread really has me worried! Please tell me that Sheryl didn't make it!!

Oh, wow, I have to look into this. I didn't think I was eating too little.
I know about nuking veggies and I keep forgetting. It's so easy to misplace helpful information when you kinda don't wanna do something...
Nah, the zuchinni bread is all mine. And I bought the zuchinni at Bi-Lo [which is a small Southen grocery chain]. Does that make me safe? ;]

 

[SoSel]

Alright, dear readers, I have this little issue that I just want to type out and get off my chest. It's so petty [or is it?] and weird. I even talked to my hubby about it last night. He was quiet surprised I turned to him. [My mom told me to quit talking to him so much.]

It's like this. I'm losing weight slowly but surely [steadily can not apply]. I actually weighed 194 this morning. I feel changes in my body. I go to shave my legs and feel muscles I didn't know about. I notice that my upper thigh cellulite crap is diminishing. I fit into some smaller clothes. I was even rocking a pair of size 16 jeans last night and had extra leg room! Now, I'm the original thunder thighs and I NEVER imagined having extra room in pants legs. All this good stuff.

But I look in the mirror and all I see is a blob. I have zero confidence in myself. I feel sexy b/c my clothes are fitting and my body is shaping up, then I walk by a mirror. The illusion is shattered. I'm just fat again. What does it take to get past that? I wonder if 30 lbs from now I'm always going to see a blob. What does it take to just be pleased with yourself? A lot of us are struggling with this, or so I guess. I'm going to keep right along doing what I do. I have a bunch of size 14 clothes for this fall I want to wear. But if losing weight won't bring me confidence and my GPA won't make me feel like a scholar- what is it going to take?

[I understand if you can't really respond to my 8,000 rhetorical questions. But, being a diary, and seeing as how I type faster than I write, it just seemed easier to post this in here.]

 

[cinderelly]

It is hard Selena it really is - I feel great at myself till I pass a mirror and Im a lot bigger than you are...Im sorry you are feeling that way...I have nothing to offer lol...confidence is a hard one - I have alot of it till I see myself - ha ha ha

 

[Boam46]

But I look in the mirror and all I see is a blob. I have zero confidence in myself. I feel sexy b/c my clothes are fitting and my body is shaping up, then I walk by a mirror. The illusion is shattered. I'm just fat again. What does it take to get past that? I wonder if 30 lbs from now I'm always going to see a blob. What does it take to just be pleased with yourself? A lot of us are struggling with this, or so I guess. I'm going to keep right along doing what I do. I have a bunch of size 14 clothes for this fall I want to wear. But if losing weight won't bring me confidence and my GPA won't make me feel like a scholar- what is it going to take?

I have been avoiding mirrors like the plague... eyes down when I walk by and such. Its hard because the gym is covered in them! I know my body is changing... my cloths are much smaller... but I look in the mirror or at a picture and all I see is the blob I was in the begging. Its really hard to deal with... I think its somethign we all struggle with... if anyone has answers I would love to know!

For now all I have to offer is that you're not alone in feeling that way... not real answers though

 

[cinderelly]

Also as our bodies change we need to get smaller clothes and the smaller clothes are snugger...and make me feel even fatter - lol...I feel I am stuffin myself in clothes that are too small bu ti need to because the other ones are too big - lol

 

[bikinibound]

Alright, dear readers, I have this little issue that I just want to type out and get off my chest.

It's like this. I'm losing weight slowly but surely [steadily can not apply]. I actually weighed 194 this morning. I feel changes in my body. I go to shave my legs and feel muscles I didn't know about. I notice that my upper thigh cellulite crap is diminishing. I fit into some smaller clothes. I was even rocking a pair of size 16 jeans last night and had extra leg room! Now, I'm the original thunder thighs and I NEVER imagined having extra room in pants legs. All this good stuff.

But I look in the mirror and all I see is a blob. I have zero confidence in myself. I feel sexy b/c my clothes are fitting and my body is shaping up, then I walk by a mirror. The illusion is shattered. I'm just fat again. What does it take to get past that? I wonder if 30 lbs from now I'm always going to see a blob. What does it take to just be pleased with yourself? A lot of us are struggling with this, or so I guess. I'm going to keep right along doing what I do. I have a bunch of size 14 clothes for this fall I want to wear. But if losing weight won't bring me confidence and my GPA won't make me feel like a scholar- what is it going to take?

[I understand if you can't really respond to my 8,000 rhetorical questions. But, being a diary, and seeing as how I type faster than I write, it just seemed easier to post this in here.]

I know how you feel. My clothes are loose as hell, and I can wear things I wasn't able to for a long time. So I feel really good about myself. I don't feel fat. I feel like I'm back in onederland. And then I see a recent photo of myself and it sends me reeling. Because I don't look the way I feel. I think we all wish that we could just snap our fingers and be thin.

Some people are so down on themselves that they will always feel fat, no matter how thin they are. I think most anorexics are like this. Even when they weight 70lbs and are nothing but skin and bone, they still see a fat person when they look in a mirror. That is a psycological problem. Me, I know from past experience that I will not be that way. 'Cause believe me, when I am below 180, I cannot keep myself away from a mirror!! So here's the question, when you were thinner, did you still feel that you were fat? If you get down there in numbers and still feel that way, then you should get some therapy--b/c for some people, no matter how thin they get, they still see a fat person unworthy of love. And that is a very unhealthy mindset. So for now, I wouldn't worry about it. But if you don't slowly start getting less disgusted by the mirrow, then you may have a problem. Hope this helped. Love you, dear!

 

[SoSel]

Oh yeah, when I weighed 140 I was totally down on myself. So you're right. I will see about counseling or just address the problem on my own and battle off that demon. It's like Al Anon, the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem.