Trevor's Journey

bikinibound said:
Hey Trev!

Have a great Easter weekend at home! :hug2:
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Thanks Kimberly! You too!

SO far the weekend has been alright. Exercise today consisted of yard work followed by a 15 minute run. I half-assed a workout this morning on bench at my friends. I just wasn't feeling it, mainly because i was tired. Tonight i plan on just relaxing, and maybe watching a movie. Tomorrow will prove a challenge, diet wise, but i should be fine. Portion control will be strict tomorrow, as well as saving many of my calories for easter dinner. I weigh in Tuesday morning, and take measurements as well. This will be the first official weigh-in/ measurement for my new diet. After being back on track for a week, i believe i have primed my body for the next hard 6 weeks. Pictures will also be used to track progress. Well, i hope everyone is having a nice evening.

Trevor
 
Wow Trev, I've been away for two days and you've had enough to keep you busy for twice as many.

Congrats on being so proud of yourself. Looks like this is a good week for the both of us. And wow, look at you go on that treadmill, boy! 2.2 in 19 is very, very awesome! I might have to rethink racing you some day. You may turn into a running machine. Haha.

If I could make your life easier for you, you know I would hon. I'd wear my Ali robe and threaten your manager with my bee stingers and butterly floatation.

You know what, I'm starting to wonder now how I'm going to get that Large Chocolate Chip Blizzard down on the 10th of April. You keep this up boy and you're going to make me swear off chocolate for a week. Wow, I wonder now if that would actually be possible for me. I may discover something about myself in all of this as well. Haha.

It's okay to take a break and get some R&R Trev. It's what I did yesterday. Our bodies and minds need it every once and a while you know. There's nothing like laying out on your trampoline in the spring and/or summer sunshine and just taking a breather. Not to mention sleeping on it under the stars. We just *need* moments like that in our lives. It reminds us of how vast the universe is and how small we are compared to it. It makes me appreciate more the value of my life and those re-energizing mindsets keep us grounded in our passion to be the best people we can be. And to let others see it.

Happy Easter Trev. I hope you do well on your calories again today, bud. And just enjoy your movie, revel in the small moment, it'll do you good.
 
Thanks for the Easter wishes Rach.

Good Morning Everyone! Today is a busy day due to a paper as well as a test tomorrow. The only free time i have will be used for the gym after classes this afternoon, then im hitting the books. I haven't been around much lately, but with school on its final "drive" before it ends, I have to make sure id o my best to pull good grades. This week i plan on 3 days of cardio and at least 2 miles each session.

Well i would stick around longer, but i slept in today and im already going to be late for class!

Everyone have a great day,
Trevor
 
Morning Everyone,

I am mentally and physically drained this morning. Last night for the first time, i just couldnt stay awake to finish homework, and this morning isn't any better. With work later today, as well as a test coming up on Thursday, i don't know how im going to do it all. My body is responding like it does during finals and i have no clue. Tonight i plan on getting some much needed sleep, as well as trying to relax for a bit. I should run tonight, but with work and all, i might put it off. Who knows, i may suddenly come out of this trance! Im also stressed from this girl i have been hanging out with. The other night i let her spend the night, because she was drunk and couldnt drive home, NOW, remember, im not an ass, so there was no way i was sleeping with this girl or taking advantage of her, i just didn't think it was a good idea for her to drive home. Ever since she stayed over....she now thinks she can stay whenever. Its gotten to the point where she just thinks its normal, and she is trying to treat everything like a relationship. I don't mind the extra attention :), but i don't want a relationship. I am still working on myself, and have no time for someone else. Plus girls=money, and when i cant even afford groceries sometimes, there is no way im going hungry to make her happy. I told her bout everything, and she understands, but she continues to try and make things more complicated than they are. Maybe i shouldn't let the whole friends with benefits thing play out....what to do?

Have a great day everyone,
Trevor
 
you're young... enjoy yourself... nothing wrong with friends with benefits... as long as you protect yourself :)

and she sounds like a very typical female... get used to it unfortunately.. some females mature out of the overcompliate everything stage - others... well - they dont...
 
Trev, as a fellow teenager, it's my advice to you to let it play out. You've already told this girl how you feel, so see what she does with it. If she really wants a relationship with you, she'll respect you as you do her, and understand your reasoning to the point of complying. If, in a year or so when you're considering something romantic and she's still waiting for you, it was meant to happen. If she grows impatient, she obviously doesn't care that much about you and any effort towards a relationship with her is useless.

All I can tell you is to remain focused on yourself if that's really where you need to be. At the same time, have friends, especially girlfriends who make you feel good about your accomplishments by telling you how daper you look. You'll definitely know if you're feeling something eventually, it'll start as a creeping tingle in your spine and toes and work its way to your brain where it'll fester, making you see the person differently then you did the night before. That's what true attraction is-a creeping, time-consuming unexpected feeling of warmth that makes you look deeper into the eyes of the object of your affection.

When this happens to you, then it'll be time to do something about it. Until then, just have fun, hang out, and if this girl won't leave you alone, beg your roomates to help you out. Maybe one of them has a friend with a Benz, huh? lol...
 
Ya, well i don't see myself with her in the future so maybe i should let her know....i know that sounds bad, but i dont want to keep leading her on if i know this is going nowhere. Anyways i went to the gym for a bit and did abs and some running....only a mile and a half but i got work for 6 hours, plus im running on little or no energy.
 
Trevor10 said:
Ya, well i don't see myself with her in the future so maybe i should let her know....i know that sounds bad, but i dont want to keep leading her on if i know this is going nowhere. Anyways i went to the gym for a bit and did abs and some running....only a mile and a half but i got work for 6 hours, plus im running on little or no energy.
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You're awesome Trev. That right there is called utmost respect, and it's what all men should have for women. I admire your honesty and even if she doesn't show it, I'm sure so will she. If she's the type I percieve her to be, she'll be over you in no time anyway.

Congrats on the abs and running though you don't feel it was much. In the end, it's still something and it's still worth it. I hope you have a good day at work!
 
I have the solution to your women troubles..hahaaha. Get yourself a sugar mama who already has a job and her own money. Then she can buy you things and take you out. ya know, someone in her mid-20s who isn't a crazy nutbag as, unfortunately Mal already pointed out, too many women are these days. :p

*Hugs* and sending you extra time for sleep, which is highly important. :)
 
bikinibound said:
I have the solution to your women troubles..hahaaha. Get yourself a sugar mama who already has a job and her own money. Then she can buy you things and take you out. ya know, someone in her mid-20s who isn't a crazy nutbag as, unfortunately Mal already pointed out, too many women are these days. :p

*Hugs* and sending you extra time for sleep, which is highly important. :)
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thats not a bad idea at all...i could use a sugar mama for sure!

Thanks for the hug, right back atcha!
 
The past few days have been good with food intake, but my energy levels have been shot due to the lack of sleep. I got 8 hours last night, but woke up wanting to go back to sleep. Tonight is a leg workout, and im not looking forward to squats at all. They aren't sore anymore, but i know as soon as i do my first set, im going to feel it. I also have a government test tomorrow that i need to start studying for as soon as im back from the gym.

I will definitely be around more as my rounds of tests have ended, so no need to be sad for my lack of diary-ness this past couple of weeks! :)

On another hand, the situation with the girl continues...she is staying over tonight, but i plan on talking to her about everything, and hopefully she doesn't make me sleep on the couch :).
 
Morning Everyone,

Last night i slept like a rock...but still not enough to rid my low energy levels, as i sit here drinking warm green tea to get me moving. Last night i decided i needed an energy boost and drank a 5 hour energy shot. For only 8 calories, these babies work! I hit the gym, ran and lifted weights till i was soaked in sweat and then studied until around midnight. I was focused and a chatter box, as my roommates called it. The only negative to them was the price, but once in a while wont hurt me. I went to sleep fairly easy as well, especially for taking it around 830. The whole situation with the girl continues, but she ended up not coming over last night. Its going to be hard to tell her how i feel, but i guess its part of life. Her personality comes off as she wont care. I think she is in to the friends with benefits more than me, but who knows.

I have a test at noon today, but it should only take me about 30 minutes to finish, then im hitting the gym with my roommates for a leg workout. I know i said a leg workout yesterday, but i felt more like running and abs, so i switched it up. My goal is to lift hard in the gym today, and keep my heartbeat up. I realized i love the feeling of leaving the gym soaked in sweat. I feel more accomplished even though perspiration has nothing to do with calories burned.

After the Gym, im supposed to go running 3 miles with one of my roommates, but we may skip on that. Then im doing absolutely nothing but relaxing. I might be going to a party tonight, but its not for sure.

With the dreaded weekend coming, i am prepared to fight overeating. It is so hard on the weekends because everyone is out late, and im usually out too. I believe i can do it though, so wish me luck.

I will definitely update later tonight on my workout...and possibly the girl situation, hey i got to tell someone.

Trevor
 
maleficent said:
Hey, females have needs and need sex as much as guys do... it never hurts to practice once in a while :)
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Thanks for the insight mal, but my dilemma is mainly about that. She wants sex, but she also wants a relationship. If i have sex with her, with the way i feel about her, im afraid i will lead her on. I don't want her to think im an ass...and as we all see on Seinfeld, sex with friends just doesn't work. Dont get me wrong, im all game for having sex, its just when i can tell she wants us to be together, i feel really bad doing the deed and then telling her "i think we should be just friends". As far as anything other than sex...she proves that we don't have to be in a relationship to do that :)
 
if she wants a relationship then she's not ok with friends with benefits...

be up front at the outset - you might change your mind down the road and decide you do want something less casual... or not.. relationship does not equal marriage... you can be committed to someone and not expect it to land you in a church...
 
maleficent said:
if she wants a relationship then she's not ok with friends with benefits...

be up front at the outset - you might change your mind down the road and decide you do want something less casual... or not.. relationship does not equal marriage... you can be committed to someone and not expect it to land you in a church...
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I see where your coming from. Damn i always push myself away when relationships get mentioned, but maybe i should actually give it a shot. Your definitely right mal, thanks for the help!:coolgleamA:
 
My leg workout was awesome today. My energy level soared through the roof, and i feel so much better today opposed to before it. I might be going on a 3 mile jog tonight. I will update later tonight, but right now im maxed out on calories. I may have some egg whites before bed, but thats it for the day.
 
In my experience, girls have a much harder time separating sex with emotions. For most men it's purely physical, not so the case for most women. So even if she says she just wants sex, I don't believe it. :D If you like her, and are interested in dating her, then go for it. But if your interest in her is purely sexual, it might be best to at least tell her upfront, or break it off all together. I mean, if you are upfront with her, she has only herself to blame if she is upset that it's nothing more than that.

But Mal is right about relationships. Just b/c you're in one, doesn't mean you're going to end up married, and doesn't mean you can't break it off if it isn't working for ya. :)
 
I think im going to break it off. As hard as it is to tell her that, im just not feeling a relationship with her...i don't know why, i just don't want to waste her or my time.
 
Really Trev, it's okay to feel bad about rejecting a girl. It shows you're sensitive and that you care about hurting her feelings. So this girl isn't 'The One', it's alright. You'll find her someday. In the meantime, just keep your chin up and keep focusing on yourself. Just be happy.

We'll have to chat on AIM again soon, hon. It's always fun talking to you!
 
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