Fuck me.
I just found out that I messed up on the dates of my upcoming horse show. I somehow had it down for June 24-28 but it's actually for next week!! I am far far far too swamped with work to be able to show next week. It wouldn't be so horrible to not show next week, I could just enter a show in July, but I will lose out on a ton of money ($500+) and I can't just toss around more money after losing out on that much, so that would mean no more full shows period for the rest of the year, and since I need Elis sold this year, no full shows ever again unless I buy another horse years in the future. I'm going to go in tomorrow and beg for them to transfer my entry to one of the shows in July, but I'm just so doubtful that they will do that. Once you enter a show and the entries 'close' you can't get out of the show without a vet note, and even that doesn't get you out of all the expenses. I'm just ready to cry.
On a more positive note, the scale decided to look kindly upon me today and posted a 146. I went back and looked at my previous weigh ins from my big weight loss last time (before I gained it back) and my lowest weight then was still 9 pounds lighter than a currently am (137). I though I had just broken into the 130 (139), I didn't think I'd actually gotten into them a little ways. But today's weigh in puts me a bit better on track for my mini goal and challenge goal (if I can hold it and lose more)
Worked today, day #6 this week. Had a no show so finished up at around 2. Went to my mom's house as a couple of my aunt's are down. She wanted me to look at the new furniture that was just delivered and tell her what I thought of it. I thought that it would work well with some small adjustments in decor and accessories.
Then I went to the barn and had a nice ride on my horse. I almost allowed myself to lunge him instead of ride, but made myself actually ride and happy I did.
Still feeling quite tired today, and have had a sore back all day (I think from lying on the floor in my living room while on my computer last night) so when I got home I told myself that I just needed to go do weights today, not to worry about doing cardio. That helped me get a bit more motivated to go. Wore one of my new tops and my awesome new sportsbra. I actually should get another pair of workout pants, though, I guess I do have at least 3 pairs so maybe I don't really NEED a new pair, but I kinda want a new pair.
Got to the gym, did my 5 min warm up, pushing myself to do my 3 mins run at a speed of 6.5.
Then weights
Squats 105lbs (smithrack) starting to get a bit tough
Benchpress 60 (smithrack) starting to feel those too
Barbell Row 60
As I was finishing weights I saw this guy on the treadmill and for some reason the sight of him encouraged me to get on the treadmill. It was a little bit like showing off for a hot guy, but the guy wasn't hot. He looked like a biker dude, and that's not my style, so I'm not sure why it made my force myself to do cardio. Anyways, I got on the treadmill and decided to just do an easy 15 min run. So I started off at a speed of 5.3, at about the 6 or 7 min mark I remembered a post I wrote on MFP where I talked about my exercise routine and I had written that I run at least 5km on each of my runs because 30 min of running usually brings me to around that mark. And suddenly I was like, ok, I'm going to run to 3miles (which is around the 5k mark. I think it's 3.11miles to be exact) But then I was like, well that's gonna take forever running at 5.3 so I bumped it up to 5.8 but then was like, this isn't too hard, lets just bump it up to 6.0. I told myself I could walk every 10 mins, but once I hit the 10 min mark I thought, I think I can make it to 15 mins without walking. I did allow myself to walk at the 15 min mark (which probably wasn't necessary as my 'tiredness' is mental not physical) Then ran to the 30 min mark (doing my 1 min sprint at 8.6) then walked 5 mins to cool down.
Total distance (including walk warm up and cooldown): 3.68miles (5.92km) Total Cal Burn: 464
I had really hoped to go to the beach tomorrow, but the weather is not agreeing so my friend and I might drive up to a big mall and walk around (whether or not I have some change to buy anything may rely on what the horse show tells me). I do need to exercise tomorrow to fit in my 5 days this week, but that will have to happen later on in the day. I would like to do yoga, but after weight lifting today I'm not sure that's a good idea. Maybe I will see how sore I am. I just don't want to go and feel like I wasted my money cause my muscles were too tired to do the balances and such, plus my muscles need to repair from my workout.
Lunch: Salad
Snack: 1/2 Quinoa Bar
Supper: Sweet and Sticky Chicken, salad, breadsticks
Snack: Yogurt with raspberries, chocolate, popcorn (which was really salty tasting, maybe cause it's been a while since I've had it.
Total Cals: 1693
I technically have over 2800 cals for tomorrow to stay in my weekly goal, but I don't think I will try to eat all of them. Probably try for no more than 2400 maybe. If I do have some high cal things and reach 2800 I won't be mad, they are there for the taking, but I'm gonna try not to mindlessly snack to get to that point.
