The road to loving myself!!!

Thank you Mganda.

Well I didn`t make it on here everyday like I wanted....my pc is locked by a ransomware virus.....I really don`t know how to fix it....I am looking into it but a system restore didn`t work.!!! The week was going really well foodwise until yesterday. THe day yesterday was stressful with the shooting in this same city where I work, very stressful and negative day for Ottawa yesterday. Everyone is still ver shocked today. Can`t stay on long since my break is over but I will weight in the am and update my journal!
 
:( Sorry to hear you were anywhere near the shooting. Hope stresslevels will soon go down all around.
 
Hello

Hi La Maria, it was a stressfull day, but I am still lucky to live in a place where I don`t have to deal with this every day. I don`t know how people can just live with threath like this everyday. Very sad that the world as come to this.

I didn`t weight in this morning. work up 40 min late..apparently having my cell on vibrate only isn`t going ot wake me up! I will weight in tommorow

todays food

Breakfast
coffee
apple
pumkin muffin (not good I know)

Lunch
Shawarma!!!!! minus the garlic sauce to cut out some calories

diner
Greek Salad (spinach, red onion, black olives, red peppers, feta cheese, home made dressing, and some chick peas for protein)

No wine today, I have been drinking for the past three weekend enough is enough!
 
hi vero,

I hope you're fine. did you make the shawarma yourself? that's my favorite food! :) what kind of exercise your doing these days?
 
Hi Maganda I have to be honnest I had this big plan to workout at home while watching Netflix, but the threadmill and the dumbells are once again collecting dust. I know if I want to see the numbers on the scale go down I have to make time for it!!! So to answer your question the only exercise I have lately is running down and back up the stairs on the days I do laundry! Tonight at 8 it is written on my schedule that I am working out from 8 to 8:30 I am gonna start with 30 min a day and go from there!

Food today

breakfast
coffee
apple

snack
yogourt

lunch
chicken pasta salad ( not the best choice but that is what I had ready)
orange
vanilla tea

diner
egg white veggie omelette

Tonight I am going to prepare some quenoa salad for my lunches the rest of the week!
 
Good Morning

Another cold cold week begins. I am so exausted this weekend was time to turn back the clock, I remember loving this because I could wake up at "6" and not 5 am but I have kids now. what was 5 am last week is 4 am now, kids where up at 4 and would not go back to sleep and tonight they are gonna be so hyper and over tired and they will want to go to bed at 6.....so this is my plan this week....tonight they start bath at 6pm then staigt to bed and I will push back the bath time 15 min each day until it`s starts at 6:45 and in bed by 7:00....maybe then they can sleep until 5 am!!! 4 am wake up are just not for me I feel so damn tired. Last week I managed to to the threadmill for 15 min twice...and friday I walked outside with the kids from 5:30 to 8:30. Then we stopped at a friends house had a ittle wine while the kids sorted out candies. It was a great halloween but food this weekend consisted of 50% candy :(.....time to stay away from sugar for a while.

Breakfast
coffee
oatmeal cookie (no sugar added kind of blans after the weekend lol)

snack
yogourt and green tea

Lunch
Alfredo sauce with whole wheat no yolk pasta, garlic, peppers, mushroom, zuccinni.
apple

snack
green tea

Diner
carrot, colieflour , ginger soup, (have to keep warm)
1/3 cup of roasted chickpeas.
 
Your meals sound good, changing the clock is a nuisance but you´ll get through it. Sugar detox is... meh. But very usefull!
 
Good Morning

It seams like making it on here everyday is impossible....yesterday I didn`t even get a lunch break....last year at this time I was temping here at the same desk same job and all wasn't half as busy....but I am loving every minute! I don`t know if I posted my weight in last week I was at 209.8 :( made me feel very fat.....weighted in this morning at 204.6 :) I was bloaded last week my shoes didn`t even fit me and my wedding band was tight, every thing fits better this week...maybe this is the boost I needed to keep going!!!

Menu today

breakfast
coffee
pumkin muffin (the very last one of the batch)

lunch
Couscous salad

Diner
roasted chick peas
carrott, coliflower ginger soup.

I may have frozen fruit for desert or yogourt!
 
Ooo, that all sounds pretty good! Well, except for not having breaks. Good to hear you´re doing great :)
 
Good Morning!!!

LaMaria Jen thank you for stopping by!

Work is very busy but I will take that over sitting at my desk starting into space like the job I had years ago in my pre contract day! yes it was regular full time, but it was so boring I do not regret elaving it...Ijust tought that five year later I would have a permanent full time job no more of these crappy one to two months at a time jobs...I love what I do but feels like I have been chasing my tail for the past year, I keep renewing my contract and hope for good news but really doing the same thing expecting a different outcome is insanity isn`t it? I am just in a monday morning type of mood! I am inpatien for things to move forward, I want the permatnent job, I want to move into a house of our own enough with this feeling that I control nothing, I want to lose weight some days I feel like a mouse in one of those wheeles using all my energy and not seing results.....must be the fall weather .....

I had a pretty good weekend, ate healthy with the exception of one slice of ice cream cake, No wine no cheese, no chips, three meals a day. I prepped beet salad and some oven roated chickpeas for the week...This week the scale is going down!!! Time to take controle and see reasults.

today

coffee
muffin (homemade oeatmeal no suggar added)

lunch
maccaronnie in a vege sauce,

snack
roasted chickpeas

diner
Quinoa Salad.
 
Let´s blame crappy contracts on the economy. But they´re still lame and a lot more stressfull than knowing where you´ll be in six months time. Good for you on taking control of the things that are in your power. Down with that scale!
 
Good Morning!

Hi LaMaria....I blame the crappy contract on the lady who goes on sick leave instead of going for retirement ;)

The sun is shinning this morning first time in forever so nice...improves the mood a lot! I was able to stick to my menu with the exception of a bite of twinkie (my very first taste of one) Can`t beleive people eat that on a regular basis, it taste chemical. I did a very stupid thing this morning I jump on the scale again 204.4 I am not liking that but if I eat really well maybe on thursday morning it will be back down to 204.6 at least I would rather maintain then gain !!!

Menu for the day

Breakfast
a sweet and salty granola bar :(
roasted chick peas
coffee ( I am still hungry ;( )

snack
apple

lunch
Mexican chicken (chicken breast baked with peppers,onions,black beans and a mix of spices) I toped it with about 1 ounce of cheese.

beet salad with a legume salad
banana.

I may add more food since this seems to be a eat everything in sight day!
 
Ahhh... I remember that lady! She should find a wonderful hobby, get healthy and decide to retire in order to spend the last three decades of her life doing only nice things. (How´s that for a curse?)
Never had Twinkies, no idea what they taste like and I think it´s better that way :) Seems like your eating good stuff, which is a real achievement during busy times!
 
Good Morning!

La Maria I hope she gets that curse lol!! She is a very nice lady, but in the last school year I have replaced her from October - Dec 2013 and again From June to Aug....Now I have worked this school year from September until next thursday.

I wonder when I am gonna know if I am getting extended or if she is returning or leaving for good. The worst thing is when they do interviews we have to act like we are from the outside. Do the whole nice to meet you hand shake, so working here doesn't even improve my chances to get the job. When they ask questions at the interview they are looking for specific words, let day I say P.O. wich is short for purchase order, but they are looking for purchase order then I don't get the point even if I said all the right steps but I am missing that specific word, I find it so stupid, I did the job well they called me on two different occasion to replace that means they think I can do the job. Shouldn't that be more important then a 30 min interview? Maybe I should just go back to very boring jobs that don't pay well at least it's a regular paycheck. I have had it with the school board. I applied for 8 jobs with in the board to work in schools and I got one interview. I have knowledge in all of the school borad specific computer aplication, not just basic I extended knowledge, and I know my interview technique sucks. I get it. I used to be good at interviews, now I get so nervous I forget my name. What is it with my mood these days I feel bitchy and tired all the time. I want to take controll I am a all or nothing type of person, so only controlling some things isn't easy!

breakfast
sweet and salty bar
orange
coffee

snack
roasted chick peas

diner
beet salad, with chicken and roasted veggies!
 
Good Morning

Well I weighted in this morning and I am back up to 209.6 :( I stuck to healthy enough eating all week long and still my weight goes up my rings and my shoes fit well, so it's not water retension......I am so sick of not getting results, all week I was craving salty chips and denied myself. I am not giving up at some point this has to move in the right direction, it's not very motivating to eat good foods and seing the weight go up! I am guessing it's stress, knowing that one week from today I will be on the last day of my contract is very stressful, things are finnaly going smoothly financially I need to keep working with out a one or two ot three week break! I know people have much bigger problem and I shouldn't complain and just learn to relax but I am not the patient type! This week a man at work lost his daughter she was 33 mother of two young kids and seemed very healthy until she had a major heart attack she then slipped into a comma and her organs started failling one by one she passed away yesterday. I need to get my health in order, this could easily have been me.

Breakfast
undecided :(
coffee

Lunch
chicken panini
beet salad
orange

snack
apple

diner
thai food (I am in need of something spicy)

must remember to drink water!
 
Drinking a stupid amount of water usually helps me when I have a rebound. Good luck with the scale. Try not to be discouraged. I love some Thai food! That will be nice.

None of my weight is attributed to Twinkies. Yuck! How can you screw up sugar and fat? If it's terrible for me it had better taste great.
 
Hi Quercus

I drink only water, one cup of coffee a day and then water all day in big amounts!! Maybe this is week one of me really staying on plan maybe my system is in shock or something. About the Twinki..I heard people talking about them in movies and on tv, but never bought them, hubby decided hey lets give that a try, I tought it was gonna taste amazing after all that talk....not so much the box is just sitting there on the counter not even the kids want to touch em! I will stick to poutine and such for bad for me food at least I enjoye those!!

In other news I didn`t get any of the 8 jobs I applied for......I think I am done trying here. They don't want someone who had expérience and great references they want someone who will give em a great 30 min interview and need a tone of training, that is what they want the hell with them I will give the governement a try!
 
Good Morning Forum

Today will be a cheat day, My friends are taking me out and getting me drunk to help me get out of this funk I have been in!!!! I will be back on the wagon tommorow if I can eat!!! I am not sure about the getting drunk part It`s been a while plus drink are so expensive!!! I am not counting calories or anything today!

Breakfast
Muffin
2 coffees

lunch
beet salad
left over thai food

snack
apple

Diner
Junk something heavy and full of carbs so that there is less room for drinks!!!

most likely I will have a late evening or very early morning slice of pizza with a gallon of water!!!

HAve a nice weekend!
 
Consciously planned cheat days are fine. Occasionally you´ve got to remind your body there´s not famine going on, right? ;) Hope you´re having fun and finding new energy.
 
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