The PAPrincess' Diary

Day # 119 - 120

Thanks, Trucker. I'm trying. Holiday celebrations are sooooo hard. Temptation is everywhere!

Another start to another week. It is FREEZING today. It was 1 degree with the windchill factor this morning. Suffice it to say I did NOT walk. Brrrrrrrrrrrrr. I stayed curled up in my warm bed with my puppies until 7:10 a.m.

I did ok Saturday. Did a lean pocket for breakfast (mostly because I was running late and didn't have time to rinse out my magic blender!) Then, I had a fig newton bar in the car on the way back through from Harrisburg. It was the healthiest snack I could find at the BP station in Harrisburg. For dinner we had pizza. I had 2 slices. And, I snacked on some chicken spread mom makes with crackers.

Yesterday is another story. Sundays are so hard. For breakfast I did my smoothie. Then, Amanda and I got Auntie Anne's pretzels at the mall. It was super greasy, yikes!! For dinner Mom made roast and veggies. I ate more than I should have. And, then she made apple pie. I love apple pie. I could not resist.

So, today I'm getting back on my Monday track. I doubt I'll be able to walk tonight because I may have to go visit a friend in the hospital. Besides, it's still too darn cold. BRRRRRRRR. Here's hoping I have a good week.

Take care,
N.
 
Day # 121

Doing well today. Busy though. I have so much work to do and my class work as well. I have to keep this short. I did well last night. I spent the evening cleaning and getting my tree assembled. Tonight after class I'll try to decorate. That's if I can sneak out at lunch and find some lights. The top string went out, darnit!

Anyway, did a lean pocket for dinner. Smoothie for breakfast today and have a lean crapzene and jello for lunch. Should be able to have another good food day. I've given up on walking...or at least worrying about it...for this week. I have too much on my plate to beat myself up over not finding time. And, I need sleep for all the work I have to do on these two presentations due next week. The paper will be turned in tonight, so that's one more thing done. CHECK!!!!

Hope you're all doing well!
N.
 
Day # 122

Guess what? It's "that time." I feel just awful, such terrible cramps. I want to go home. Work is for the birds! I have nothing new to really report. Doing well on the diet. I just want to go home and sleep. I have so much stress right now :-( I can't wait for classes to be done!!!!

Sigh...back to work..... N.
 
Day # 123

Good frosty morning. It is sooooooooooooooooooo stinkin' cold here. The temp is only 17 degrees, but with the windchill it's only like 1 degree. Yeah, ONE stinkin' degree. Talk about brrrrrrrr!!

That's the bad news. The good news is I lost an additional 2.5 pounds this past week. Wahoo! That brings the weight loss total to date to 53 pounds. It just goes to show I really should start walking seriously again...next week! ;-) I just have so much going on right now with classes wrapping up next week that I can't think about it. I'll just stick to being good on my diet until the stress and worries die down. Two more presentations...one on Tuesday and a final one on Thursday. I just want it all to be done with. UGH. I'm hoping next semester's classes are not as demanding on my time.

I should keep this short because I do have so much to accomplish today. I'm doing well on the diet. Last night I had to eat very late because of class and the snowstorm, and not being able to get home in between....it's a long upsetting story of traffic and woe and road rage. I'll spare you all the details!

Have a good weekend!!
N.
 
Days # 124 - 128

Sorry, I've had such a week of stress with classes. This is the first breather I have been able to take, and I really can't type that much.

I'm doing well on the diet. We had snacks at class last night and I kept myself under control without starvation. I ate some chicken spread on whole-wheat crackers and skipped all cookies and cakes. Tonight I have dinner with friends and tomorrow is our annual university luncheon, so I'll see what smart choices I can hopefully make.

I can finally start to see a difference. My boss' hub saw me the other day for the first time in 2 months and said I really have lost a lot...so that's good. Let's hope I can keep up the good work through the holidays!! Ugh. I pray!

One more presentation to go, tomorrow night...the BIG one. It's an hour and half long and 126 slides total.

Gotta get back to work....have a good day!

HOLY CRAP....look what I had in my inbox:

Nicole-

I've been following your posts on the forum with great interest. Congratulations on reaching 50 lbs lost! Very impressive.

RightSize is producing a new TV commercial in the next week. We are reviewing all of our before and after shots of customers for use in the spot. Would you want to forward before and after pics to me via email for possible use in the commercial?

Let me know and congratulations again!

Scott Johnson
President
RightSize Health & Nutrition Corp.

I'm still soooooooooo far from goal. I think I'll pass.
Nicole
 
Days # 129-130

It's been such a whirlwind week. Finally lat night at about 7:25 p.m., my semester ended. The final presentation was presented...coming in at just about one hour and 20 minutes. I got an A in the Tuesday class. Last night's has not yet been posted, but I feel strongly it will be an A. Let's keep our fingers crossed. Anyway, I just passed out last night from exhaustion.

I weighed in today. I lost one pound since last Friday. I'm not surprised actually and I'm glad I lost instead of gain! Tuesday night at class we ate snacks. Fattening snacks. I avoided cookies, but I did eat lots of the chicken spread (made with REAL cream cheese, two packs!) On Wednesday evening I went to dinner with friends. I got a turkey sammich and a fully LOADED (yummy!!!) baked potato. I'm not feeling guilty about that one bit...bacon, cheese, sour cream, butter....yeah, I ate it all! YUM. Yesterday was our annual university luncheon. I ate all my salad and a lot of broccoli. The chicken was dry and nasty and the potatoes had no taste, so basically I ate just veggies. Good, right? Nope. I treated myself to half a slice of carrot cake after. Hey, they were pickin' up the tab ;-) I had to splurge as it was part of the "bonus" they give us. Actually, the real bonus was a box of Sarris choc. covered pretzels. Anyone want them? I won't eat them. Then, after class I ate more than a few cinnamon graham crackers. I was starving. This was late...at like 10 p.m. Not good, I know. So, in a nutshell, that's why the weigh in was so terrible. One bad food week...ahh, the holidays! Next week we have one luncheon, so I am back on track as of today. I'll allow myself goodies on Wednesday since the boss is pickin' up the tab.

I finally got to watch the Biggest Loser finale. Holy cow, that winner lost more than HALF of his weight! He went from like 407 down to 178, I think? Somewhere in that neighborhood. He lost over 200 pounds and looked so amazing! It really re-motivates me to restart exercising again. Seriously, I'm not trying to just make excuses, but the past two weeks have been tough with school and stress with the work that had to be done for final presentations. I'm going to get back on track now. I'm not waiting until then new year. I'll get in a walk at least tomorrow.

So, whew, semester's over and now onto serious weight dedication. Disney is closing in fast!! After December, there is only 3 months until we leave! UGH. I gotta get moving fast!!!

Have a good one. I'm off to finish up some work. I leave for a long 4-day weekend at Mom's. We're making Christmas cookies all weekend...like 10 kinds. I'm confident I can resist. When you're baking, you're not in the mood to eat any of them. And, besides, most are with chocolate anyway. I'm not that big a fan.
 
Days # 131-136

Hello there. Long time, no type. I was at Mom's through Tuesday and yesterday I spent getting caught up from being off of work. We made cookies all weekend long. 22 types in fact. I was very good and only taste-tested one for mom. Since it was quality control, requested by her, I don't think those calories should count, do you?

So the food frenzy has begun. We had our annual office lunch out at Ruth's Chris Steakhouse. I got chicken. (Not a red meat lover.) Anyway, since the boss was paying and this is in fact our "bonus", you have to get everything...salad, full dinner, dessert. I crammed it all in. Ugh! I felt so so so sick after. I am really going to try hard not to cheat. I'm off from work from Friday at noon through January 2nd. If I go home to Mom's for that entire time the odds are very favorable that I will eat everything in sight...and even those things out of sight! I swear food actually calls your name in that house! I'm hoping to walk every day. Maybe that will keep me motivated.

After yesterday's food frenzie, I'm thinking I might not want to weigh in tomorrow. I might be very upset with the number the scale registers! We'll see....there are cookies and cheesey popcorn bags and goodies gallore here at work. UGH. It's going to be a hard holiday season to resist temptation!!!

Hope you're all doing well.
 
After yesterday's food frenzie, I'm thinking I might not want to weigh in tomorrow. I might be very upset with the number the scale registers! We'll see....there are cookies and cheesey popcorn bags and goodies gallore here at work. UGH. It's going to be a hard holiday season to resist temptation!!!
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That's what I thought too, but do it. You'll feel better knowing what's what. :) And congrats on the weight loss so far!!
 
Days # 137-149

Happy New Year!

I'm soooo glad to say good bye to all the food and snacks at last year's holiday week off. I promised myself I wouldn't eat like a fiend other than on Christmas Day, my birthday, and New Year's Eve. But, low and behold, I ate everything in sight the entire week off. It was like I was a food vacuum. It's really sad. I had no control at all. My one pair of pants is very snug, but still fitable. I'm afraid to get on the scale, so I'm holding off until next Friday! I fear it's that bad. Maybe I'll get lucky this week and the diet gods will grant my weightloss wish.

In any event, I'm starting off the new year with a renewed diet attitude. I'm back on track officially as of today and won't be cheating until end of March-beginning of April when the family heads down to Disney. I hope to lose a good bit more weight by then. I'm going to make a very conscious effort to exercise this year. I'm going to try not to be so hard on myself as to when I do it (a.m. vs. p.m.) as long as I do exercise or move off my behind in some fashion during the day. That is my big resolution for the new year, to become more fitness-oriented.

Yesterday wasn't a great diet day. They had these wonderful chocolate-covered nutter butter cookies on sale at Target. I really shouldn't shop when I'm that hungry! I'm back on track though. I can't afford to eat anyway. All dinners out will be cancelled for the month of January. My car is being inspected today and it's going to cost $300. YIKES. Apparently my rear brakes are cracked and need replacing. It is always something with that car. I never have had one cheap inspection, not one! I love my little Saturn, but I think I'll be changing cars again to one that doesn't wear out it's brakes so fast! I'm so tired of all the expenses.

Anyway, back on track.... the countdown to Disney is now 86 days. I'd like to fit in my cute summer clothes by that trip.... I'm hopeful!

Hope you all are off to a good start in 2007.

N.
 
Days # 150 - 155

Crappy New Year!! I mean it! I'm having such a hard time getting back on track. I read 100 diet tips online and here is # 60: "Don't tell yourself, "It's okay, it's the holidays." That opens the door to 6 weeks of splurging." I am soooo soooo guilty of that. I'm afraid that this will be the third week of constant eating! I read an article in O magazine that the magic number is 4. If you can get past day 4 successfully, you should be able to maintain success past day 5. I am now on Day 2. If I can get to Thursday without cheating, I should be good as gold. Makes sense is you think about it. After four days you should be able to lose at least 1-2 pounds and have some confidence to keep at it. But, right about now I just want to eat an entire lasagna casserole! I'm starving. I think all that over-eating at the holidays has really screwed up my body's ability to tell me it's full.

I'm also failing at my resolution to exercise. I have had such miserable headaches when I've woken up the past few days. I opted to sleep the extra hour. The double bad news is that A) I didn't exercise and B) I STILL had the headache! UGH!! I still have one now! Maybe if I force myself to go walk the fresh air will rid me of these headaches? I'm sure I have them because the smoke from the upstairs smoker invades my apt. because of the shared furnace. There's not much I can do about this unless I want to go out and purchase him a smokeless ashtray and beg him to use it! Anywho, my plan is to give Curves gym a try after payday (Jan. 31st.) Does anyone know anyone who has had success with it? I found out there is one downtown relatively near work. It would only add an hour to my day. (Getting home for the dogs I mean.) I could go right after work and then go home after. That way I'd have no excuses. Of course, if I can't get myself motivated to exercise (aka walk) and that's free...maybe I shouldn't waste the money? What to do, what to do? I'm just in such a funk! I'm trying desperately to work through it! I feel as though I may have gained a few pounds due to the "holiday hogfest" but my pants fit the same. That's a good sign! I hope I haven't gone too far in the wrong direction.

Last night I saw a commercial for Jenny Craig with Kirstie Alley. She looks so great. I tried Jenny once. I remember their food being super yummy, but too expensive. And, I didn't make that work either... I gained every pound of the 70 pounds I lost back...eventually! Still, I may think about stopping in to pick up a few of their entrees to have as my "real food" for the day. Perhaps if I mix the Right-size smoothie breakfast and dinner with a Jenny entree for my lunch that'd do the trick? I have a lifetime membership at Jenny. I paid extra for that way back when! I think that was about 10 years ago now! My how time flies! But, I do remember their food tasting so yummy! Especially the one serving chicken fajitas!

I was good yesterday. I did a RS pumpkin smoothie for breakfast, then had lunch out with my friends (had one chicken burrito) and for dinner chicken noodle soup and a swig of orange juice. I love orange juice. It is so yummy. How much is a swig? Eh, probably a sip or two more than a cup. Last night was rough. I don't have any bad food in the house, but I found myself trying to talk myself into going out to get some! I am my own worst enemy. I resisted though. I started watching "Fat like me" on Lifetime. Yeah, that kinda hit home. I stopped craving food at that point! Haha!

This morning yet another pumpkin RS smoothie. (About 225 calories). For lunch I had a lean crapzene and some jello and a handful of pretzels. (About 350 ish calories). That gives me a good amount of calories to have for dinner. It's freezing and snowing, so odds are I won't be exercising. Lazy...I am so lazy after work. Evening exercising does not work for me!

So, anyway here's to getting back on track. Let's hope I can stay on it! The track, that is, to weight loss! I'll be starting back to classes next Tuesday. I'm sure that will get me back on a good "regular" schedule. Let's hope!!
 
Day # 156

I have discovered, well re-discovered broccoli and new Orbit Mint Mojito sugar-free gum. I was starving last night, I mean starving. What to have for dinner that was high in quantity and low in calorie? I looked in the freezer and found a bag of broccoli that has probably been in there since the beginning of time. (That shows you how often I eat veggies!) I have discovered that I can eat the ENTIRE bag for as little as 125 calories total. With a few squirts of "I can't believe it's not butter" spray and a few shakes of parmesan cheese, it makes quite a large yummy side dish. Broccoli is now my new love for dinner.

And, also I'd like to offer up Orbit Mint Mojito gum. It is citrusy sugar-free goodness and good at fighting off a mid-afternoon craving! My sister bought it and didn't like taste, but I think it's really yummy. And, the flavor lasts fairly long.

Another honorable mention is the Lifesaver Popsicle brand sugar-free popsicles. I love them. They are only 25 calories and soooo soooooo yummy! I definitely recommend these. I think I've mentioned them before. But, they give you something to chew and keep you from dreaming of other full-fat high sugar desserts. And, definitely, I've started keeping jello in my fridge at all times. I prepare a few packages at a time and break them out into fairly large servings in individual plastic containers. At most they have 20 calories each (more if you add fruit.) Definitely a quick fix if you are STARVING and don't want to use up a lot of calories. I definitely recommend keeping some prepared on hand. Pudding is tastier, but it is also about 70 calories more a serving! There are great recipes on the Jello web site, too.

So, last night I had my new discovery dinner, tons of broccoli and a swig of OJ. I shouldn't drink it as it's high in calories, but I have some and I need it gone! I could so drink the entire container in one sitting. I love full-pulp OJ! Then, I had a container of Jello and as a treat some fat-free hot cocoa before bed. I'm going grocery shopping tonight, so I'll have more substantial food for tonight's dinner. A protein perhaps? That would be good! Today I had my standby pumpkin smoothie (probably about 225 calories) for breakfast. For lunch I had a baked chicken lean crapzene (240), a small handful of pretzels (60ish?) and jello (20 calories). So for dinner I have a ton of calories left to use! Yum!

I'm on day three of the four days (Oprah said it's only 4) and hopefully by Friday (day 5) the food spell will be broken and all will return to normal as it was before Christmas! I'm going to bite the bullet and weigh in this Saturday. Wish me luck!!!

N.
 
Day # 157

Darn diet destroyers!! OH man, a skinny co-worker brought in a huge TIN of popcorn. You know the kind of tin with three kinds of popcorn? Cheezy goodness is just inches away. I can smell it. THAT IS SO WRONG! All of the office "goodies" are located just near my office because it's in the "open reception" area. I am dying here. I went out and covered the tin so I'd quit smelling it. A friend told me to just take a cupful and get over my craving. No no no. One cupful for me leads to the entire tin being gone. I don't even like popcorn all that much, but the cheezy popcorn? I could INHALE it in 10 seconds flat, I swear it!!

Last night I stopped at the grocery store on the way home. I got a new frozen fish to try. It was a garlic and herb fillet from Gortons (Frozen food section.) It was surprisingly very yummy. Only 100 calories per filet. I totally recommend if you like fish and it's fast - 4 mins in the micro! I married that up with some broccoli and a baked potato spritzed with some I can't believe it's not butter spray. I bought another potato for tonight, but I probably won't make it because the lean crapzene I brought for lunch is a bit high on the calorie side. (As far as those dinners go, 280 is probably the highest calories.) My dinner was probably about 387 calories last night, plus then a 30 calorie jello with whipped creme and then later a 60 calories hot cocoa with a dap of whipped creme. That brought my daily intake up to about 1,022 for the day. OH wait, I had a swig of OJ again! That adds another 100 for sure! I was hoping to keep within the 900 range. Yeah yeah, I know you shouldn't go below 1200. But, since I haven't been exercising, I wanted to take in less. I hope to get back into the exercise swing of things starting Monday. My classes begin on Tuesday, so I'll be back in a regular "schedule" again.

Today I had my pumpkin smoothie for breakfast (225) and for lunch I have lean crapzene spaghetti (my fav!!) at 280 calories, jello at 20, and I'll have a handful of pretzels, about 60. That puts me at 585 calories. So for dinner I'll have the other fish fillet - it is so tasty! (100) and then some broccoli again. And, jello with whipped creme for dessert. I do so love the Fat-free 5 calorie reddi whip!!

Good tip, if you ever need to find calorie counts, here is in excellent site:

Wish me luck. I'm going to jump on the scale tomorrow morning in the A.M. instead of Saturday. I'm going to get back on the Friday D-Day routine. The more I get on and stay on a schedule and strict routine, I think the better I'll be. Besides, tomorrow is going to be a tough food day. We have a birthday breakfast for my boss (bagels, yum, but ugh, high calories!) Then, we are having a deli tray with bagels (again!) brought in for lunch. And, then I'm going to my birthday dinner celebration with a friend. I think I'll pass on the morning bagels tomorrow and just do the smoothie and try to keep on track as best I can. At lunch I'll pull out the stuffing of the bagel before I make a turkey sammich. And, hopefully I can talk my friend into a place that has decent salads.

Hope you're all doing well.

Ugh, as I was closing this email, the P.M. crew skinny girl came in and brought homemade cookies! I can resist, but THEY ARE SO MEAN!
N.
 
Day # 158

I bit the bullet and jumped on the scale this morning. I am down an additional 2.5 pounds. I have lost 56.6 pounds to date. :) I consider this a huge victory since I had eaten everything in sight from December 22-January 7th. I've made it past the four days Oprah said it would take to get back in full control. And, I made it here without gaining weight. Truth is, I probably did gain some, just managed to re-lose it. But, since I never did weigh in during that time, I'm going to take it as a 2.5 pound loss. A step in the negative (loss) direction is definitely a good thing!

Today we had a celebratory breakfast for my boss. It included a (mostly just egg) quiche, fresh fruit, and OJ. I had a lot of fruit. I had a piece of quiche and I had only about a quarter-cup of OJ. Then, for lunch they brought us in a deli tray and chips. I picked a plain bagel and gutted out most of the extra bread inside. I put on a piece of white cheese (colby? not sure) two pieces of turkey breast, a few red onions, and some mustard. It was pretty tasty. And, instead of chips, I had some fruit that was left from breakfast and my sugar-free jello I brought in from home. My dinner plans with my friend were cancelled, so I'm on my own tonight. At first thought I figured I'd just do a smoothie to round out the day. But, I get soooo starving when I get home from work. I think I'll load up on broccoli and sugar-free jello. All-in-all, not a bad food day. I could've done without the quiche. I found out it was made with heavy cream. Oops!

Tomorrow I work 9-3. It sucks to work on a Saturday, but on a positive note it will keep me "good" for the day. I don't usually have any cravings during the work day. On the weekends that is a completely different story. It's like the food flood gates open! The rest of the weekend (including having Monday off) should be relatively uneventful. I don't have anything planned. So food shouldn't be a major concern. Let's hope anyway! I tend to let myself eat more on the weekends. I need to stop that. Another thing I need to start doing is exercising...as of Monday. Since classes begin next week, I figure it's a good week go get back on track walking again. It's been about a month now. So, back on track, I have to do it!

Have a good weekend.
N.
 
You're doing well with your weight-loss! awesome in fact!

If you secretly sneak and move the 'goodies' try about you can actually get it a fair way away from you.
If anyone catches you just tell them you were trying to make them less obvious so people would eat less crap food.
I managed to get the one at my office from the table next to me to the other side of the office :D

In fact i started a fruit basket type thing where i bought $10 worth of fruit and anyone going past could just drop in 50c or something and grab what they wanted.
 
Day # 159

I'm at work today. I'm stuck here until 3 p.m. It is incredibly boring today. I have nothing to do. The director said "just surf the web." Well, I'm sorry, there's only so much surfing you can do. I'd rather be home cleaning up my mess of a closet.

Last night I was good. I just ate some broccoli (a lot of it) with a few sprays of I can't believe it's not butter and a few shakes of parmesan cheese. It's pretty tasty actually. I also had a Lifesaver's sugar-free popsicle, some sugar free jello with fat-free whipped cream and then later some hot cocoa with the remainder of the reddi-whip. If I had to guess? Last night's eating was about 230 ish calories total. I had a lot of calories earlier in the day, so that's why I kept dinner so light.

Today I had my usual pumpkin smoothie for breakfast. Everyone here is telling me to partake of some of yesterday's leftover quiche, but ewww. I has to be so dry and nasty today! For lunch I brought jello and I'll probably make myself another sammich from yesterday's lunch leftovers. And, who knows for dinner. I just want to make it through this long and soooo boring and never-ending day. Wish me luck!

N.
 
PAPrincess72 said:
I am down an additional 2.5 pounds. I have lost 56.6 pounds to date. :)
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Bravo !! *standing ovation*

Nice going N. Sometimes one can read a diary and just know they're gonna succeed. You're pretty much pwning your control.

Thanks for the heads up on the fish, I'm gonna look into that ;)
 
Days # 160-162

Thanks for the supportive comments. I'm hopeful that 2007 will be the year I finally fight and win against the food demon inside me ;-)

Hello all. At work today and I'm so happy to report that my class was cancelled tonight due to illness. HOORAY! I won't have to stay until 10 p.m. That is sooo tremendous!

I did ok on Sunday. Just ok. Mom made lasagna even though I had requested a lower fat gnocchi dish with veggies. She is a diet destroyer, that one! I did talk her into making an ultra light apple crisp for dessert. We decided next time to make the full fat version instead. The light one wasn't tasty and hardly worth the effort or calories. That didn't stop me from eating a lot of it though. My excuse was "It is apples and oats, it is healthy!" Suffice it to say Sunday could've been so much better. But, it's the one day a week I splurge a little with Mom's yummy dinner. I also had too much garlic bread. (I ate most of Em's crusts.)

Yesterday I had off for MLK day. My friend and I went to lunch. I got something fairly healthful. A turkey panini stuffed full of veggies; a salad, and a cup of veggie soup. It was sooo super tasty. It probably wouldn't have been bad for me if I put half the sammich away for another meal. But, nope, I ate it all gone! Then, I was about halfway home and got to feeling so sick. It did not agree with my stomach, so it didn't stay there very long...if you know what I mean! For dinner I just ate some jello. I wasn't feeling like risking it. So, all in all, it turned out to be a fairly good food day.

Today I had a banana smoothie. I used the vanilla and half a small banana in it. It was pretty tasty. Although bananas are fairly high in calories, it turns out to be about 240 calories. For lunch I have a lean crapzene and jello. That's about 300 calories. That leaves me LOTS of calories for dinner. YUM!! I don't have any dinner plans this week, so I should be able to stay pretty much on track. We have just 74 days before we leave for our Florida vacation. I am determined to fit in my cute summer clothes by then comfortably. Key word: comfortably!!

Hope you're all doing well. The rain has finally ceased and now we're having snow in it's place. I'm ok with that. I was starting to think I might have to contact Noah to borrow his ark!

N.
 
Hi Princess,
It sounds like you're doing great - conviction is more then half the battle in my mind!

As for all that hating of exercising - maybe you need to look for something which seems more like fun then exercising (which might be hard in the middle of winter). What kind of activities do you like to do?
 
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