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Hey gang. I'm just popping by to say a quick hello. It's been 11 days since I last posted. Seems like more, honestly. I've been making a conscious effort to use my phone less lately, and unfortunately I very rarely use a computer for forum-related activities. I'll need to do something about that. Also I just feel so unfocused.... I'm here writing a 'weight loss diary' but it doesn't seem like I'm really trying to lose any weight. I'm reading my intuitive eating book again, which I found helpful in the past. Hopefully it will help again.

I've gotten drunk once more since I last wrote. I spent a week eating cheez-its every afternoon but haven't had any this week. I ran 2.6 painful miles on Tuesday, and four gloriously tiring miles today, with a few other runs sprinkled in, too. My most loyal racing buddy completed the Boston Marathon on Monday. My boyfriend's best friend got engaged, and having watched that relationship from the very beginning I got so jealous I didn't even say congrats. And that's my life in a nutshell.
 
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I haven't been on as much since the new job, but I'm trying to make more of an effort. Regular posting has always accompanied regular progress for me. Glad to hear you are racking up the miles. Sorry about your feeling of jealousy. You're so much better than that skank. I heard she has VD and a pill problem.
 
Hope you're able to get right back on track again, though good job for doing some runs even when you aren't feeling SO on track.
 
:) Well that´s certainly a densely packed post! Don´t worry about the jealousy pangs too much, thoughts are free. Cheez-its do far more harm so just come back to us regularly ;)
 
LaMa, the cheez-its were a huge problem! My office stocks a few random snacks (pretzels, almonds, granola bars, etc) and then one day, bam! Two ounce bags of cheez-its!! I think I got that out of my system though.

Thanks Mystic, the running hasn't been super consistent but at least it's been existent.

Haha, Q, if the girl with VD and a pill problem can score a ring, why can't I? :) I don't like being that jealous girl but dang it, I can't help it! But the longer he waits to ask me the higher my chances are of being able to elope (I think) so I'm trying to look at the bright side.
 
Have you brought up the topic/does he know it´s important to you? Now would be a good time to drop a hint or two (and damn it if there were a man I felt so strongly about I´d want to marry him I´d bloody well ask him!), the idea of marriage may just not be on his radar.
 
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Hey gang. I'm just popping by to say a quick hello. It's been 11 days since I last posted. Seems like more, honestly. I've been making a conscious effort to use my phone less lately, and unfortunately I very rarely use a computer for forum-related activities. I'll need to do something about that. Also I just feel so unfocused.... I'm here writing a 'weight loss diary' but it doesn't seem like I'm really trying to lose any weight. I'm reading my intuitive eating book again, which I found helpful in the past. Hopefully it will help again.

I've gotten drunk once more since I last wrote. I spent a week eating cheez-its every afternoon but haven't had any this week. I ran 2.6 painful miles on Tuesday, and four gloriously tiring miles today, with a few other runs sprinkled in, too. My most loyal racing buddy completed the Boston Marathon on Monday. My boyfriend's best friend got engaged, and having watched that relationship from the very beginning I got so jealous I didn't even say congrats. And that's my life in a nutshell.
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Yum Cheez Its. Sometimes the body just needs salty and cheezy, especially to counter jealous feelings over bf's best friend's engagement.

Hopefully this is going to stimulate your bf to pop the question to you.

Well done for running lots this week!
 
It's definitely on his radar. I know that hints don't work so every once in a while I make sure to bring it up outright. I've been able to get confirmation that we both want the same things (just a slightly different timeline, obviously) but I haven't been able to decipher what he's waiting for. I know he's got enough money for a ring, especially since I don't care at all about those things. My guess is that he's just trying to delay thinking about babies... First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes baby in the baby carriage!
 
Hey Carrie, I missed your post earlier, thanks for stopping by! Running makes me happier, so hopefully I continue adding up the miles!

So today's win was realizing these seasoned pita chips I was previously in love with really don't taste that good to me. We get them as part of our Friday lunches sometimes, but the main entree that comes with them is what I would consider "gross." Today I went out and bought myself a salad and figured I'd just enjoy a few pita chips on the side. And when I compared them to something I actually enjoyed eating, man were they disappointing! WAY too salty, and so not worth it. I just got used to that being the best thing on my plate, I guess. Now I know better.
 
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Hey gang. I'm just popping by to say a quick hello. It's been 11 days since I last posted. Seems like more, honestly. I've been making a conscious effort to use my phone less lately, and unfortunately I very rarely use a computer for forum-related activities. I'll need to do something about that. Also I just feel so unfocused.... I'm here writing a 'weight loss diary' but it doesn't seem like I'm really trying to lose any weight. I'm reading my intuitive eating book again, which I found helpful in the past. Hopefully it will help again.

I've gotten drunk once more since I last wrote. I spent a week eating cheez-its every afternoon but haven't had any this week. I ran 2.6 painful miles on Tuesday, and four gloriously tiring miles today, with a few other runs sprinkled in, too. My most loyal racing buddy completed the Boston Marathon on Monday. My boyfriend's best friend got engaged, and having watched that relationship from the very beginning I got so jealous I didn't even say congrats. And that's my life in a nutshell.
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Hi sweets. Eating crap food makes me feel crappy. It really does. We all go through the same feelings from time to time. We're mere mortals. Be kind to yourself Oaks xoxoCate
 
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First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes baby in the baby carriage!
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Ah... Now I understand. I´ll admit that´s why I postponed getting married (and ultimately just left - twice) so I guess I´m not the right person to give advice here.
 
Cate, it's a vicious circle, isn't it? Eating poorly because you feel down and feeling down because you ate poorly.

Today is Saturday. I'm planning a run for this afternoon, and G and I will be hiking tomorrow. Not sure what the distance or intensity will be, but it's our first time out this year so we'll probably go with long and relatively flat.
 
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Hey Carrie, I missed your post earlier, thanks for stopping by! Running makes me happier, so hopefully I continue adding up the miles!
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Do you suffer from the blues some times then? I've definitely found that exercise has shifted my anxiety and occasional depression symptoms. I love forcing myself to run... just because I can. I think of all the people who don't have bodies like ours that can pound the pavements. Where do you like to run? I recently moved to an area near the coast so running along the shore is a new thing to me. I don't mind short distances on the treadmill. I've found that anything longer than like 7km on the treadmill can result in injury for me.

Why's your man so scared of having babies? Maybe you're only young. Guys are funny. I'll never understand them.

Hope you enjoy your hike tomorrow too.
 
Carrie, I definitely get the blues, and consider myself a pretty anxious person overall. But I've never come back after a run feeling down about myself! Even after my slowest runs. I live in a suburb of a major city, so I'm usually just running around the neighborhoods here, but am hoping to introduce more trail running in soon. I'm usually only good on the treadmill for 5 or 6k. To think I used to be embarrassed to run outside!
 
Exercise, especially outside, is my best medicine for the blues too. Enjoy your hike xoC
 
I hope your hike went well! I'm looking forward to getting outside more this summer. Fresh air and sun always put me in a better mood. :)
 
The hike was great! First one of the season. We went about four miles, pretty flat overall but a little bit of scrambling over some rocks. Our destination was some quarries, where there were rock climbers and graffiti galore. It was a beautiful little spot. Pictures don't do anything justice, especially when it's a picture taken by me, but here's a shot anyway:
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Looks awesome! Great place for a picknick, but then any place is great for a picknick after a hike :p
 
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