"That which does not kill us makes us stronger" - Elle's diary

[ellebelle1]

Hi ladies!
Sorry I haven't been on here much the past few days. I've been in a bit of a slump. Just kinda depressed lately but I'm sure I'll be outta the rut soon.

Anyway, kept up my good eating the past few days which is a big accomplishment because whenever I get depressed I either starve myself or over eat. Kept up the exercising. Did a lot of pilates and tae bo. Played some baseball with David. So I guess despite the mood I did fairly well.

Still stuck at 199 so I think today I'll spike my calories and kick up the exercise.

I'm gonna go do some tae bo, pilates, crunches and all that good stuff after checking out every ones diaries. Hope everyone is well!!

xoxo

 

[bikinibound]

Hi ladies!
Sorry I haven't been on here much the past few days. I've been in a bit of a slump. Just kinda depressed lately but I'm sure I'll be outta the rut soon.

Anyway, kept up my good eating the past few days which is a big accomplishment because whenever I get depressed I either starve myself or over eat. Kept up the exercising. Did a lot of pilates and tae bo. Played some baseball with David. So I guess despite the mood I did fairly well.

Still stuck at 199 so I think today I'll spike my calories and kick up the exercise.

I'm gonna go do some tae bo, pilates, crunches and all that good stuff after checking out every ones diaries. Hope everyone is well!!

xoxo

I congratulate you for handling your depression in a healthy way! Your plan for getting "unstuck" is a good one. I'm in a similar position at the moment. Just don't let it get you down--it's only temporary. Happens to me about every 10-14lbs lost.

 

[Bellaryna]

So sorry to hear that you are in a slump Elle.......here's a few hugs to brighten your day
I can understand about depression. I go thru the seasonal thing every fall. I am hoping this year to stave it off since I am trying so hard to take better care of myself. It usually sets in with a vengenace around my birthday. Don't think it has anything to do with my b-day just that it happens to be in the fall.
Maybe yours has a bit to do with not getting much past 199. Your trying soooo hard and I'm sure you are checking your weight all the time just waiting for the one little movement to show that all your hard work has not been for nothing. And then when it doesn't work...........you feel let down in yourself.
I will keep you in my thoughts and pray that your mood lifts soon sweetie.
It's no fun when it feels like the world has thrown a big, wet, blanket over your head.
Love ya!!!
Bellaryna
PS: Uping your cals should jumpstart your metabolism. I am sure that you will see results soon!!!!!

 

[ellebelle1]

I congratulate you for handling your depression in a healthy way! Your plan for getting "unstuck" is a good one. I'm in a similar position at the moment. Just don't let it get you down--it's only temporary. Happens to me about every 10-14lbs lost.

Thanks hun! Hopefully it'll lift for both of us soon!! xoxo

So sorry to hear that you are in a slump Elle.......here's a few hugs to brighten your day
I can understand about depression. I go thru the seasonal thing every fall. I am hoping this year to stave it off since I am trying so hard to take better care of myself. It usually sets in with a vengenace around my birthday. Don't think it has anything to do with my b-day just that it happens to be in the fall.
Maybe yours has a bit to do with not getting much past 199. Your trying soooo hard and I'm sure you are checking your weight all the time just waiting for the one little movement to show that all your hard work has not been for nothing. And then when it doesn't work...........you feel let down in yourself.
I will keep you in my thoughts and pray that your mood lifts soon sweetie.
It's no fun when it feels like the world has thrown a big, wet, blanket over your head.
Love ya!!!
Bellaryna
PS: Uping your cals should jumpstart your metabolism. I am sure that you will see results soon!!!!!

to you too!! that's poopy that your slump sets in around your bday. :[ Thanks for the super kind words dear! xoxo

 

[ellebelle1]

Still 199 today. lol.

My weights have been:
Aug 15: 199.5#
Aug 16: 199.5#
Aug 17: 199#
Aug 18: 200.5#
Aug 19: 199#
Aug 20: 199#
Aug 21: 199#
Aug 22: 199#

Yesterday I spiked my calories and did more exercise than usual.

Exercise for yesterday was:
40 min Pilates
20 min tae bo
20 min running
120 crunches (60am, 60pm)
80 leg lifts (40am, 40pm)
80 push-ups (40am, 40pm)


I'm gonna try and spike the cals again today and do more exercise too. Who knows if it will work but I sure as hell hope it does. Much more of this plateau and I'm gonna scream.

The past few days it's been kind of gloomy here so I haven't really felt like working out. So because of the cruddy weather I usually end up working out later than usual. At least I'm getting it in though I guess.

Anyway, Imma go drink some coffee then I'm off to work out.
Hope everyone is doing well!
xoxo

 

[ellebelle1]

It's funny, I was just thinking about when I worked overnights at a gas station about a year and a half ago.

I was stocking beer in the cooler and I came out to take care of a customer who had come in. It was some ghetto thug that would always come in friday nights to buy blunt wraps. But that's besides the point...

He asked me 'you got a husband?' I laughed and said 'no', he asked 'you got a man at least?' I laughed again and said 'yeah, we're engaged. Why?' and then he replied 'oh well I thought you'd be married 'n all being pregnant'. I was shocked. I turned red and replied 'oh... I'm not pregnant'. He goes 'oh, well maybe you are, might wanna get that checked' while pointing to my tummy. I just shrugged it off because I was super embarrassed and said 'oh, yeah... who knows maybe I am'

Later that night a girl that I knew (note: I was not friends with this girl. Just knew her because she was friends with my sister) came in and said 'awwww! are you pregnant? you look so cute with a belly!' and touched my stomach. I said 'uh, no I'm not pregnant, this is the second time tonight I've been asked that god dammit!' She bought her cigs and left.

Like seriously, what the fuck. I only weighed 170 then. If people thought I was preggers then, do they think I'm having twins now? lol. I went home after work and threw out the work shirt that I wore that night thinking it might have been that. Who knows...

I quit shortly after that. I went to Jersey and blew off a girl that wanted me to cover her shift, that started hell. Also because a guy came in pretending he had a bomb on himself. Turned out to be a heart monitor. Working 10pm-6am in a gas station alone is just flat out dumb.

Okay, well that's one of my 'I need to lose weight' memories. I've got a ton so I think I might do one every few days or so. lol.

hope everyone had a great day!

 

[momma4alex]

Hello elle, just dropping by to see how your doing? hope your kicking up the food and exercise helps you break this 199 mark. I can't wait to get down to that mark but i know the only way to do that is to up my exercise since i have been sticking to my diet like glue.. hahah.. sorry I've got a ton of energy since i totally forgot to take my meds until 7pm that are suppose to take in the morning since they give you a major boost in energy and speed up your metabolism. well hope your doing good.

 

[Boam46]

Hey Elle

I'm sorry you've been in a funk lately. You'll break outta it soon. You're handling everything in a really healthy manner. You'll break that 199 soon enogh... you'll bust it up and send it out into the universe

Keep up the great work... and screw those jerks who asked you if you were pregnant!!

 

[ellebelle1]

Hello elle, just dropping by to see how your doing? hope your kicking up the food and exercise helps you break this 199 mark. I can't wait to get down to that mark but i know the only way to do that is to up my exercise since i have been sticking to my diet like glue.. hahah.. sorry I've got a ton of energy since i totally forgot to take my meds until 7pm that are suppose to take in the morning since they give you a major boost in energy and speed up your metabolism. well hope your doing good.

Hi Heather!! Thanks for the encouragement. :] I'm sure you'll be able to get down soon, you definitely have been sticking to your diet so I'm sure with a bit more exercise you'll do awesome!! and lol to the medicine giving you a boost. I know exactly what you mean, I've been on medicines like that before . I always hated when I forgot to take them in the AM and had to take them at night cause I'd be up for hours. lol. Hope you got to bed at a decent hour.

Hey Elle

I'm sorry you've been in a funk lately. You'll break outta it soon. You're handling everything in a really healthy manner. You'll break that 199 soon enogh... you'll bust it up and send it out into the universe

Keep up the great work... and screw those jerks who asked you if you were pregnant!!

Thanks Jenna :] The funk is pretty much gone today which I'm definitely glad about.

Thanks for being awesome hun

 

[ellebelle1]

Today was the much anticipated day, I broke through that stupid plateau!

198 this morning when I woke up. It was awesome to see that on the scale, I jumped off and got back on to make sure it was actually right. lol. Finallyyyyyy!

Before I lose the motivation, I'm gonna get off of here, grab some lunch and then go work out. I'll be back on later to check everyones diaries. :]

Hope everyone is doing well!
xoxo

 

[bikinibound]

Congrats on breaking the plateau. I know how good a feeling that is. You just wanna jump up and down and say WooooooooooooHoooooo!

Oh, and don't let the pregnant thing get to ya. When I was in college I ran into this girl I hadn't seen in awhile. She was friends with my ex-roommate (we didn't part on good terms). She asked me if I was pregnant, and I told her no. I'm sure she was just saying it to be catty b/c she didn't like me. I weighed about 50lbs less than I do now..lol I never ask women if they're pregnant, b/c you never know. That ghetto thug was just being an ass--who gives a shit what he thinks!!

 

[momma4alex]

Hello elle, Congrats on finally breaking thru your plateu. I hope i don't experience on but i'm sure i will eventually. as i am just beginning this whole journey to get down to onderland eventually. anyways hope you had a great day and have a great day tomorrow too. Keep up the great work.

 

[Bellaryna]

WooHoo Elle!
Way to go!!!
I can imagine how excited you were when you jumped on the scale and it said 198. I jump back on too when it seems to good to be true. LOL
Always start to wonder if the thing is broken.
Girl that weight is gonna start to just melt right off.
You rock!!
I use to work on the Toll Road and one time I had a trucker come through and ask when I was due. I was like "Oh hun (laughingly) I'm not pregnant. I'm just fat" His eyes got real BIG and he was like " I am soooooo sorry. If my wife knew that I had asked that she would be kicking my a** all over the place right now!!!"
He was so embarassed and apoligized so many times while he was sitting there that I couldn't be mad at him. LOL
And just like you I was at least 30#'s lighter when that was asked. So it does make me wonder what people think of me now. But then I try real hard not to let what others think dictact how I feel about myself. Most days I succeed and once in a while I fail. Not to often though.
Keep up the pace!!!
Bellaryna

 

[bmohearn]

CONGRATS!!! i hate plateaus, they can be very UN-motivating for me. Not sure about you.

have fun working out.

 

[AmbaLove]

I finally broke my plateau today, and was SOOO happy! I was starting to think August was going to be a big no loss month. I am thrilled, even though it was less than 2 pounds.

I am glad yours finally broke a bit too! Keep up the hard work, Elle, cause you rock!

 

[Boam46]

Congrats on breaking your plateau

 

[ellebelle1]

I never ask women if they're pregnant, b/c you never know.

I agree fully! I never ask unless it's ridiculously clear.
Thanks about the congrats!

Hello elle, Congrats on finally breaking thru your plateu. I hope i don't experience on but i'm sure i will eventually. as i am just beginning this whole journey to get down to onderland eventually.

Thanks Heather!! Plateaus are the stupidest things, I hope for your sake that you don't hit one anytime soon :]

I jump back on too when it seems to good to be true. LOL
Always start to wonder if the thing is broken.

lol! that's why I do it too. It's just super unexpected so I hop on and off a few times.

I use to work on the Toll Road and one time I had a trucker come through and ask when I was due.

Story about the trucker=hilarious. I feel that if someone would have apologized it makes it a teence better but still embarrassing and a bit discouraging.

CONGRATS!!! i hate plateaus, they can be very UN-motivating for me. Not sure about you.

have fun working out.

:] thanks for stopping by! I agree with you on the un-motivating bit. They kill my spirit but it just makes ya work harder.

I finally broke my plateau today, and was SOOO happy! I was starting to think August was going to be a big no loss month. I am thrilled, even though it was less than 2 pounds.

I am glad yours finally broke a bit too! Keep up the hard work, Elle, cause you rock!

Yay to killing plateaus!!! Congrats on that! :] Thanks, and you rock toooo. duh!

Congrats on breaking your plateau

Thanks Jenna!!!

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

Hey beauty...

just dropping in to say... "what the hell are you still doing up? Get to bed!" HA! I'm kidding... good job with pushing pass that first plateau, elle doll...

-Sheryl

 

[ellebelle1]

Okay, so I definitely have not been the best buddy the past few days. I've been stupid busy. :/ But I'll be back more regularly tomorrow!!

Today, my sister and my niece came over which was wonderful. Chloe (my niece) is getting developing a lot more every time I see her. She's got a super crush on David. Every time she looks at him she smiles, laughs and then hides doing the whole "shy" thing. It's adorable. She's only almost 22 weeks yet she acts so much older. She's gorgeous. :]

I'm weighing 197.5 for the past 2 days which is great. That makes 15lbs lost! :] Might gain tomorrow cause today I ate a little more than I usually do. If I do though, that's fine by me.

Anyway, I need to get some sleep now. I'm worn out. Hope everyone is doing fabulous!!!

xoxo

 

[bikinibound]

Okay, so I definitely have not been the best buddy the past few days. I've been stupid busy. :/ But I'll be back more regularly tomorrow!!

Today, my sister and my niece came over which was wonderful. Chloe (my niece) is getting developing a lot more every time I see her. She's got a super crush on David. Every time she looks at him she smiles, laughs and then hides doing the whole "shy" thing. It's adorable. She's only almost 22 weeks yet she acts so much older. She's gorgeous. :]

I'm weighing 197.5 for the past 2 days which is great. That makes 15lbs lost! :] Might gain tomorrow cause today I ate a little more than I usually do. If I do though, that's fine by me.

Anyway, I need to get some sleep now. I'm worn out. Hope everyone is doing fabulous!!!

xoxo

Woohoo! 15lbs!!

How cute about your niece! My niece is like that with my H. She loves her uncle David--probably more than her aunt Kimberly...lol