*Stacy's One Life to Live*
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bikinibound
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I'm sorry you're not in a good mood. Hope you woke up today feeling better.
You have every reason to feel good about yourself--way to stay on track with the eating and exercise.
Well, can ya come up this weekend and clean? lol
You have every reason to feel good about yourself--way to stay on track with the eating and exercise.
Well, can ya come up this weekend and clean? lol
Curvie Girlie
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Hi Stacy, sorry I wasn't in earlier. Sorry about the panicky feeling, I hope all turned out well. Your calories are excellent, though. Hope you have a better day Friday!
Omega
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Hi Stacy
I am sorry that you had a bad day with your OCD yesterday. I hope that today is much better.
I understand that the panic attacks that come with OCD can be very unpleasant and quite frightening / confusing.
Try to focus on how well you are doing and how much you have accomplished both for yourself and others. I know how much I have benefited from your support recently.
The fact is that you are being a veritable Wonder Woman there. Looking at the week as a whole you have done lots of exercise, been very good with your food, looked after your husband and son, shown that you dont need servants to keep a pristine house and faced a strong possibility of disaster type weather conditions.
Quite frankly - I dont know how you do it all - I certainly couldnt.
Take care
Love
Margaret
I am sorry that you had a bad day with your OCD yesterday. I hope that today is much better.
I understand that the panic attacks that come with OCD can be very unpleasant and quite frightening / confusing.
Try to focus on how well you are doing and how much you have accomplished both for yourself and others. I know how much I have benefited from your support recently.
The fact is that you are being a veritable Wonder Woman there. Looking at the week as a whole you have done lots of exercise, been very good with your food, looked after your husband and son, shown that you dont need servants to keep a pristine house and faced a strong possibility of disaster type weather conditions.
Quite frankly - I dont know how you do it all - I certainly couldnt.
Take care
Love
Margaret
kgirl
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I'm sorry you aren't feeling well. I had a panic attack years ago and it was horrible. I almost had one yesterday in class over a mid term exam. I felt it coming on (in my abnormal psyc class of all places). I was able to stop it though by slowing my breathing and concentrating on my lungs. I hope you feel better today. Big Hugs.
hickgurltx
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Need Ta Vent...
Hi ya guys..
Feelin' better today..
I kinda got ganged up on emotionally yesterday..
My parents are very, very poor and that really takes a toll with trying to help and just always bein' worried..{I think the term: Just one step away from bein' homeless was invented for them!}
Plus, My dad had major ear surgery on both ears Friday and since it's a county hospital they don't care for you like they should..He won't even get a check up until a mo. from now. He's not feelin' well at all.
My mom was in a horrible accident on Aug. 14th.. {She is right handed} She fell at work directly on right elbow and shattered elbow completely!! She has no elbow! Her humerous bone was also broken in 2 places. The county hospital put her in an ace bandage w/lots of thick cotton and sent her home!
They said since they are a trauma center, they have to take people worse than her. Speakin' of surgeries needed.. She had to wait 2 weeks!!!
Going around all broken up and in massive pain for 2 weeks.
She finally had surgery which took 7 hours and she is full of plates/pins/screws/bolts..
She is doin' rehab now... She still cannot function well and needs my help often. Even something as simple as washing/combing hair is now a big deal.
Try to fix yer hair/put make-up on with left hand only and see how far you get! lol..
It has been very stressful lately...
Even worse, she only worked 3 days a week so workers comp check hardly comes to anything.. I fear she will not ever be able to return to work!
Lots of family drama...I'm also Ms. Fix It, so everyone looks to me to take care of this and take care of that for them and my family can come 2nd..
This puts a lot of pressure on me!
To make matters worse...My parents hate each other but are too poor for a divorce and to live on their own..
So, each of them call me all the time to vent about the other...
I'm so sick of all this crap!
Now, maybe this helps explains my foul mood/depression yesterday...
Hi ya guys..
Feelin' better today..
I kinda got ganged up on emotionally yesterday..
My parents are very, very poor and that really takes a toll with trying to help and just always bein' worried..{I think the term: Just one step away from bein' homeless was invented for them!}
Plus, My dad had major ear surgery on both ears Friday and since it's a county hospital they don't care for you like they should..He won't even get a check up until a mo. from now. He's not feelin' well at all.
My mom was in a horrible accident on Aug. 14th.. {She is right handed} She fell at work directly on right elbow and shattered elbow completely!! She has no elbow! Her humerous bone was also broken in 2 places. The county hospital put her in an ace bandage w/lots of thick cotton and sent her home!
They said since they are a trauma center, they have to take people worse than her. Speakin' of surgeries needed.. She had to wait 2 weeks!!!
Going around all broken up and in massive pain for 2 weeks.
She finally had surgery which took 7 hours and she is full of plates/pins/screws/bolts..
She is doin' rehab now... She still cannot function well and needs my help often. Even something as simple as washing/combing hair is now a big deal.
Try to fix yer hair/put make-up on with left hand only and see how far you get! lol..
It has been very stressful lately...
Even worse, she only worked 3 days a week so workers comp check hardly comes to anything.. I fear she will not ever be able to return to work!
Lots of family drama...I'm also Ms. Fix It, so everyone looks to me to take care of this and take care of that for them and my family can come 2nd..
This puts a lot of pressure on me!
To make matters worse...My parents hate each other but are too poor for a divorce and to live on their own..
So, each of them call me all the time to vent about the other...
I'm so sick of all this crap!
Now, maybe this helps explains my foul mood/depression yesterday...
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hickgurltx
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Plans Today
I have a few more errands to run today and have to run through the house to pick up...I have 2 more loads of laundry to tend to as well..LOL
Never ending!
My hubby gets so messy at work, and of course Cory is a teen going through that stinky dog smell phase..
I know that sounds harsh, but it's the truth..I can't wait till his hormones chill.. He'll put on tons of deo but it just doesn't help..
He's fine of course all through school..{thank goodness} It's once he gets home and goes outside and stuff...
I then have ta start spring cleaning closets/cabinets..
I do this in spring/fall... By fall they are full of junk again and have ta be cleaned out.. I gotta get things organized/priced for a Yard Sale at my parents. I need to have this in a couple of weeks before more rain comes/cold weather...
This also helps us get ready/have room for C-Mas!
Shheewww..I'm tired just reading this.
I HOPE I can make myself take time out for a walk! I miss it and feel so much better after doing it. It truly helps w/stress and to clear my mind.
~*Have A Goal Reachin' Friday Everyone!!*~
*Stacy
I have a few more errands to run today and have to run through the house to pick up...I have 2 more loads of laundry to tend to as well..LOL
Never ending!
My hubby gets so messy at work, and of course Cory is a teen going through that stinky dog smell phase..
I know that sounds harsh, but it's the truth..I can't wait till his hormones chill.. He'll put on tons of deo but it just doesn't help..
He's fine of course all through school..{thank goodness} It's once he gets home and goes outside and stuff...
I then have ta start spring cleaning closets/cabinets..
I do this in spring/fall... By fall they are full of junk again and have ta be cleaned out.. I gotta get things organized/priced for a Yard Sale at my parents. I need to have this in a couple of weeks before more rain comes/cold weather...
This also helps us get ready/have room for C-Mas!
Shheewww..I'm tired just reading this.
I HOPE I can make myself take time out for a walk! I miss it and feel so much better after doing it. It truly helps w/stress and to clear my mind.
~*Have A Goal Reachin' Friday Everyone!!*~
*Stacy
Miss Ladybug
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Oh man Stacy When you were going on about ALL your family leaning on you for everything, I immediately thought of my sister, it's the EXACT same way for her too. I won't bore you with all the details but I KNOW the stress it can lay on your heart. I'm just surprised you haven't had a breakdown yet, you must be STRONG lady that's all I got to say. Keep your chin up, as we all know that this will soon pass as everything else does, so try and take out of it what you can, because even though it's tough, one day these issues will be a thing of the past, and you will be happy you handled it all the way you did. How's the saying put??? " God will only give you what he thinks you can handle" and you must be a ROCK and he knows it. It will get better, hang in there. And you can VENT anytime you wish, you need to do that every now and again, to keep your own sanity. Lots of love my friend!!
Kim
Kim
hickgurltx
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Tammy: I'm so glad y'all enjoyed the recipe! *WooT!* 
Thanks Kimberly!
What time should I arrive?
Val: Thanks sweetie! I'm a tryin'!
Margaret: Awww..Thanks so much doll!
I really appreciate you thoughts!
That goes for everyone as well.
kgirl: They are terrible! Sorry you have been through them to!
Thanks so much.
Sneaker-Poo/Kim: You feel free to share/vent here anytime you want! I thought I might have one yesterday, trust me.. I have come sooo close to a real melt-down but once I get centered and pray to the Lord, I have a good cry and feel His comfort.. I usually also put on a Joyce Meyer DVD/CD and that will help as well. I have so many of her books and will read to.
Thanks so much sweetie!
Thanks Kimberly!
What time should I arrive?
Val: Thanks sweetie!
I'm a tryin'! Margaret: Awww..Thanks so much doll!
I really appreciate you thoughts!
That goes for everyone as well.
kgirl: They are terrible! Sorry you have been through them to!
Thanks so much.Sneaker-Poo/Kim:
You feel free to share/vent here anytime you want! I thought I might have one yesterday, trust me.. I have come sooo close to a real melt-down but once I get centered and pray to the Lord, I have a good cry and feel His comfort.. I usually also put on a Joyce Meyer DVD/CD and that will help as well. I have so many of her books and will read to.Thanks so much sweetie!
Curvie Girlie
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OMG! 
Stacy, that is A LOT to deal with. Your poor parents! No wonder you get frazzled....
Look, I can't offer too many words of support here, but just vent whenever you can and do your best, and we hope things turn out all right. Do you have siblngs to help mom and dad?
Have a great day! With some goal-reachin'!
Stacy, that is A LOT to deal with. Your poor parents! No wonder you get frazzled....
Look, I can't offer too many words of support here, but just vent whenever you can and do your best, and we hope things turn out all right. Do you have siblngs to help mom and dad?
Have a great day! With some goal-reachin'!
hickgurltx
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*TeeHee* I'll have some goal-reachin' fer sure!
Whelp...There is more to this drama since you bring up my siblings..
Are ya ready?...lol
They are not much help emotionally bc they have their own probs..
My bubba {Jimmy} is 21
Sis Chrisy is 19
Sis Stephany is 25
They all were born w/a terrible birth-defect. {I was the only one born without it}
CAH - Congenital Adrenal Hyperplaysia - They have NO white-blood cells and they are salt losers. Of course this means they live on meds to stay alive and they cannot fight off sickness/stress/pain The slightest cold/virus/broken bone etc could kill them.
When they are sick, their meds have to be trippled. It's called a cocktail shot..It's 3 days worth of meds at once.
This will keep them from going in a coma/shock/death.
Girls w/CAH are born with No Vagina...For more on this just read on-line bc it's too much to explain..lol
Once they are old enough they have to have a massive surgery to fix all that.
Stephs' went horrible bc they did not know enough about CAH back then and she is really screwed up and bitter/angry! {who could blame her?!}
She has so much fear she will not have another surgery even though Chrisy's went so fantastic! {had hers at 18}
Anyway, that's just the tip of the iceburg re: their helath issues..
Chrisy can't help out bc she received a basketball scholarship and is in college!
Jimmy works at UPS and is only part-time..{He's trying to wait for full-time bc he wants to work his way up to become a driver}
{They all still live at home BTW!}
He pays the cable bill, phone bill, and takes care of his truck/ins.
Steph is a sweetheart! Since she is back home again, she pays the car payment/ins. for my parents. They would have lost their only car 2 years ago if she wasn't doing that! She helps w/groceries when she can.
She is always at work..When bubba isn't at work, he's out on the prowl and w/friends at parties!
Chrisy is away at college in dorm..
Mom and dad fight/argue so much that the kids just stay gone anyway..
That's why I'm Ms. Goffer and the Ear for all the venting.
Whelp...There is more to this drama since you bring up my siblings..
Are ya ready?...lol
They are not much help emotionally bc they have their own probs..
My bubba {Jimmy} is 21
Sis Chrisy is 19
Sis Stephany is 25
They all were born w/a terrible birth-defect. {I was the only one born without it}
CAH - Congenital Adrenal Hyperplaysia - They have NO white-blood cells and they are salt losers. Of course this means they live on meds to stay alive and they cannot fight off sickness/stress/pain The slightest cold/virus/broken bone etc could kill them.
When they are sick, their meds have to be trippled. It's called a cocktail shot..It's 3 days worth of meds at once.
This will keep them from going in a coma/shock/death.
Girls w/CAH are born with No Vagina...For more on this just read on-line bc it's too much to explain..lol
Once they are old enough they have to have a massive surgery to fix all that.
Stephs' went horrible bc they did not know enough about CAH back then and she is really screwed up and bitter/angry! {who could blame her?!}
She has so much fear she will not have another surgery even though Chrisy's went so fantastic! {had hers at 18}
Anyway, that's just the tip of the iceburg re: their helath issues..
Chrisy can't help out bc she received a basketball scholarship and is in college!
Jimmy works at UPS and is only part-time..{He's trying to wait for full-time bc he wants to work his way up to become a driver}
{They all still live at home BTW!}
He pays the cable bill, phone bill, and takes care of his truck/ins.
Steph is a sweetheart! Since she is back home again, she pays the car payment/ins. for my parents. They would have lost their only car 2 years ago if she wasn't doing that! She helps w/groceries when she can.
She is always at work..When bubba isn't at work, he's out on the prowl and w/friends at parties!
Chrisy is away at college in dorm..
Mom and dad fight/argue so much that the kids just stay gone anyway..
That's why I'm Ms. Goffer and the Ear for all the venting.
Omega
Moderator
Hi Stacy
I am pleased that you are feeling better today.
We all have days when the woes of the world feel like they have landed on our shoulders. It sounds like you have a whole heap of problems to deal with - but I know that some days we are for some reason better able to cope with the mountain than on other days.
It is good for you to say how you feel - much better than you trying to bottle it up.
It may be worth you asking yourself whether you always need to take their calls there and then. I say this because we have quite a lot of problems with my husband's mother. Anyway sometimes we do not answer there and then if we know that it is her - we leave it a while and phone her back at a time when she is normally busy - favourite tv program or making dinner. We found that she likes to phone us for a good complain at a time that suits her - but she would prefer to stick to her routine than have the same winge at a time that does not suit her.
I hope that you manage to get a walk in. Zu-zu will enjoy it and it will do your weight loss project good too. All in addition to the coping with stress and clearing your mind aspects that you state. I have vast daydreams when I am out walking - it can be really nice.
I get tired whenever I read your plans of what you intend to do. I could never achieve all the things you take on. Are you expecting too much of yourself? Please do not be disappointed if you dont manage to do everything.
Take care.
Love
Margaret
I am pleased that you are feeling better today.
We all have days when the woes of the world feel like they have landed on our shoulders. It sounds like you have a whole heap of problems to deal with - but I know that some days we are for some reason better able to cope with the mountain than on other days.
It is good for you to say how you feel - much better than you trying to bottle it up.
It may be worth you asking yourself whether you always need to take their calls there and then. I say this because we have quite a lot of problems with my husband's mother. Anyway sometimes we do not answer there and then if we know that it is her - we leave it a while and phone her back at a time when she is normally busy - favourite tv program or making dinner. We found that she likes to phone us for a good complain at a time that suits her - but she would prefer to stick to her routine than have the same winge at a time that does not suit her.
I hope that you manage to get a walk in. Zu-zu will enjoy it and it will do your weight loss project good too. All in addition to the coping with stress and clearing your mind aspects that you state. I have vast daydreams when I am out walking - it can be really nice.
I get tired whenever I read your plans of what you intend to do. I could never achieve all the things you take on. Are you expecting too much of yourself? Please do not be disappointed if you dont manage to do everything.
Take care.
Love
Margaret
hickgurltx
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Thanks so much! The OCD does get me high-strung with some things that just can't get done..I can't take any of the meds bc they make me soooo sick or a complete zombie! I can't live like that so I just deal w/it on my own and with herbs.
I want to ignore them, lol..Sometimes it's hard though bc then I sit and wonder, are they OK? Are they calling about one of the kids?
It gets the better of me...
Thanks so much again Margaret.
Curvie Girlie
New member
WOW.
Well, Stacy, I must say you must love your family a lot! And also you must be grateful to not have those very risky health problems--not to mention a vagina!! Wow. Hang in there woman!
Well, Stacy, I must say you must love your family a lot! And also you must be grateful to not have those very risky health problems--not to mention a vagina!! Wow. Hang in there woman!
Omega
Moderator
Hi Stacy
Having seen your latest posting about your siblings I can see why you get all venting instead of some going to them. Having said that I think that you would benefit from not always being available.
Before you think "Margaret has no idea what it is like" I should add that my husband's brother is seriously disabled and lives with his mother.
You have to make some time for you.
Take care
Love
Margaret
Having seen your latest posting about your siblings I can see why you get all venting instead of some going to them. Having said that I think that you would benefit from not always being available.
Before you think "Margaret has no idea what it is like" I should add that my husband's brother is seriously disabled and lives with his mother.
You have to make some time for you.
Take care
Love
Margaret
...I hope you have a gr8 Friday Tammy
hickgurltx
New member
LOL Val...Pretty mind-blowing huh?
I hear ya Margaret! I do!
I need to do that a heck of a lot more often!
LOL Tammy..
I don't post it until I'm through for the day..{food wise}
Otherwise I'd obsess over it..lol
I hear ya Margaret! I do!
I need to do that a heck of a lot more often!
LOL Tammy..
I don't post it until I'm through for the day..{food wise}
Otherwise I'd obsess over it..lol
hickgurltx
New member
OMG...
Cory cracked me up!
I had old clothes that don't fit him packed up and ready to go to the neighbor across the street..{she's a single mom and would love hand-me-downs!} They still look brand new!
Anyway, I was in the kitchen cleaning the coffee pot/tea pot and he came prancing in; in old boxers saying, Mom, don't give these away they look great!
They were soooooooo daisy dukes!
I was like...OooO Cory go get those off right now!!
He knows when I need a good laugh bless his heart!
Too funny!
Cory cracked me up!
I had old clothes that don't fit him packed up and ready to go to the neighbor across the street..{she's a single mom and would love hand-me-downs!} They still look brand new!
Anyway, I was in the kitchen cleaning the coffee pot/tea pot and he came prancing in; in old boxers saying, Mom, don't give these away they look great!
They were soooooooo daisy dukes!
I was like...OooO Cory go get those off right now!!
He knows when I need a good laugh bless his heart!
Too funny!
bikinibound
New member
Stacy, you are one helluva superwoman!! I don't know how you manage all that's on your plate. Lately I've been feeling like there just aren't enough hours in the day to get everything done that I need to. After reading about your situation, I realize that I'm just a whiny baby..lol. Damn. I'm so sorry about your siblings and parents. That has got to be so emotionally draining. The most impressive thing is how well you seem to handle it. If I lived in Mesquite I'd drive over and give you a giant bear hug. And a bottle of vodka...
And a bottle of vodka...
hickgurltx
New member
I'll leave the light on for ya! 
Then we'll travel back to yer place and clean/organize..
Thanks sweetie!!
******
Food Today:
B- Usual Coffee & FF Yogurt {Just wasn't hungry}
L- Egg 'N Cheese Pita: 2 egg beaters w/1 oz. melted cheddar - salt & pepper. I sprayed the inside of wg-ww pita with some ICBINB spray and placed scram. eggs in. 1 c. SF/Tang
S- Diet DP & Kashi Peanut Butter Bar
D- Subway 6" Turkey Sub w/the works & ranch dressing - snack bag of fritos - 2 c. 1% milk
32 oz. water
Total Cals: 1,335
No exercise except for household chores/different projects I took care of today..
*Don't spank me Margaret!* I wanted to get out and walk, I just got too busy! lol
Then we'll travel back to yer place and clean/organize..
Thanks sweetie!!
******
Food Today:
B- Usual Coffee & FF Yogurt {Just wasn't hungry}
L- Egg 'N Cheese Pita: 2 egg beaters w/1 oz. melted cheddar - salt & pepper. I sprayed the inside of wg-ww pita with some ICBINB spray and placed scram. eggs in. 1 c. SF/Tang
S- Diet DP & Kashi Peanut Butter Bar
D- Subway 6" Turkey Sub w/the works & ranch dressing - snack bag of fritos - 2 c. 1% milk
32 oz. water
Total Cals: 1,335
No exercise except for household chores/different projects I took care of today..
*Don't spank me Margaret!* I wanted to get out and walk, I just got too busy! lol
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