...is something i still dont posess
so for lunch today .. well my friends were supposed to be coming which meant i wouldnt be in the house for anything more than a sandwich cos then id be out walking (lunch time is seriously the weakest part of the day for me)
so then i had a sandwich, a then a low fat rice pudding, and then an apple
and then an orange
and then a bowl of cornflakes
and then i thought oh i'll just have one piece of chocolate (broken from the bar) and then that turned into the whole bar.
so now i feel sick and also sick of myself.
that was just cos of boredom. and i havent gone over my calories allowance.. its just i really wanted to have been able to have had that willpwer and i guess i still dont have it.