I don't want to swear but god i am so pissed off with myself!
Had breakfast, all bran and 2 slices of wholemeal toast with marmite.
Had lunch pasta, ham, sweetcorn and was still hungry.
Went down town to buy a yoghurt and a magazine.
Brought mini eggs and penny sweets.
Feel like crap.
I always do when I eat sweets.
They make me feel soooooooooooo god damn ill.
Yet i still eat them!
what the bloody hell is wrong with me.
So now I feel like a massive heffer because im so bloated and just want to go home and run for miles and miles but when I get home I will no longer want to,.
Its one hell of a crap cycle I've got myself into.
And we are having birthday cake tomorrow which I've allowed myself to have becuase I didn't have chocolate cake on Monday (not a massive fan of chocolate cake.)
So thats another day of no crap out the window.
So Friday is the day.
I'[m going to totally syke myself up for this.
i always say this but i am so sick of the cycle im in.
loose 10lbs, gain 10lbs, loose 10lbs, gain 10lbs. Never getting anywhere.
I am shit!
So shit!
and im so pissed off with myself.
Why cant i realise that my body obviously doesnt agree with sweets!
What the hell is wrong with me!!!!!!!!