God I haven't been on here in ages. And things have gone bad. So I'm back with full force!
So I'm overweight. About 70lbs overweight. I'm classified as obese. So I guess I'm obese. God that sounds so much worse when its written down for other people to see. OBESE. I don't think I look particularly obese but maybe I do to other people. I still kid myself I'm a size 14. Still? When was I ever a size 14 apart from about for 4 weeks 2 years ago?
SO here it is. My new years resolution. Lose weight. Lose all 70lbs. Get down to 140lb. I know what your thinking....For crying out loud, stop moaning about it and do some thing. The thing is with me I eat crap. I crave sugar and eat sooooo much crap. Simple solution? Don't do it? I know, I know. It should be simple but it isn't is it. Nothings ever simple. The thing that pisses me off most is that its the one thing I really have to work to get and I can't do it. What does that say about me as a person? Does it mean I'm weak? I can't have other people know I'm trying to loose weight incase I fail. No one ever knows in case I fail which all the other times I obviously have. Its a killer. I can't fail any more. Its not an option. If I do fail I am weak. I should be determinded to do this. I am thinking about it but when it comes round to it I never am. Its crap and I'm a twat. I do not understand why I can't do this. I've been overweight over half my life. Do I want to by over weight for the rest of my life or snip it now, look the part and roll on?
Rolling on and looking the part seems like the best idea to me.
I want to do this for me more than anything else in the world. I wish I had someone to work out with and stuff though. Thats the only thing that gets to me! I think I'l ltry and persuade my dad. That'd be key. We can work out together then. Find out who can loose 14lbs first etc. Bit of friendly competition.
So the plan is January the 1st go for it. Train like hell, eat mainly a GI based diet.
I'm thinking 20 mins walk in the morning followed by 45 mins in the gym then a mix of 40 min exercise in the eveing with 20mins toning and strength.
God I'd love a personal trainer and nutrionist to just come round and sort me out! That'd be unreal.
I'm going to do this for myself. Ok, so i lie a little bit when I say for myself. Theres this guy (Loser, I know!!) and I like him, he sort of likes me but he also likes this girl who is a size 10 (I know hes a prat, but he has been tapping her for like a year, I've only known him about 6 months.) Lets call him X and other girl Y. So I've known X about 6 months, we've messed around a bit and hes messed around with Y. I was just expecting the one night of messing around with X which is all it has been but I'd love to loose the weight and X be a little bit regretful and think I look unreal!
I'd love that!! So thats the plan. Plenty of exercise, bit less of the food, keep a journal so I know how everythings turning out etc. Maybe even some photos just so I can see how bad my OBESE self looks. I'm quite excited and determineded to get it all going!
I've worked out I can be my ideal weight by August if I work my arse off! August thats like basically this year!!
8 months hard work for hte rest of my life!! pimpin' pimpin' pimpin'!!
hahahahah!!
xxxx