Renee's Rambling
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renee123082
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I went grocery shopping. I bought mostly healthy things. I'm trying a couple of things... I bought the ground boca to make chili with, but I forgot the other ingredients to make chili! haha... I can't wait to try it though. Hopefully it will be good because I'd really like to try to cut hamburger altogether if I could. As I was driving home I was so hungry and I wanted to stop and get fast food so bad, but I thought to myself, "no, you have all this food in the back of your car, go home and make something." So I didn't stop for fast food, but then when I got home there were still two slices of pizza left from last night. And I thought, "well I paid for it, I might as well eat it, starving children would eat it, etc..." and then as I was starting to eat the second slice I got up and threw it in the trash. I don't ever want to eat pizza again. Yes, starving children would eat it, but it would probably kill them. So there. I don't want any more Pizza Hut in my home. I even threw out the coupons. Pizza doesn't even make me feel good. It just reminds me of how I ate pizza one night about three years ago and didn't eat anything again for a week because it apparently triggered my gallbladder into trying to kill me. I ended up in the hospital with an IV for about three days. I didn't eat pizza for about a year after I had my gallbladder removed. Why the hell did I ever start eating it again anyway? It just makes me feel bloated and icky. No more. No more. NO MORE!!!
It's a beautiful day outside, I'm thinking of finding a nice trail and going for a walk. I could definitely use some sun anyway!
It's a beautiful day outside, I'm thinking of finding a nice trail and going for a walk. I could definitely use some sun anyway!
Hi Renee! I'm so excited for you, you're really off to a great start. I admire what you're doing, especially all that exercising at night when you're tired. It shows your level of commitment and its really inspiring.
Do you mind if I just jump in and make a few suggestions since you asked in your first post?
Just because you didnt log your foods the other night, I bet you still remember roughly what you ate. How about logging it and seeing how many calories REALLY were in those foods. This is NOT meant for you to feel guilty, overwhelmed by the calories or to make you feel bad in any way. This is more a tool to get yourself a reality check, but without allowing yourself to feel bad about it. What's done is done. But I bet if you knew how many calories you had that day, it would help you a bit in the future. To be honest, all the years that I calorie counted a rough estimate in my head, I would ALWAYS give up counting as I was starting to overeat/binge. Convenient huh? But this is really where I should've kept counting. I ate em, so why not account for it. Again, don't fall into the guilt trap as guilt is a wasted emotion when we're hurting only ourselves and not others.
Second suggestion is to buy a bunch of healthy snacks -- as you seem to be doing -- so when you feel like eating a lot, as most of us in this forum no doubt do LOL, at least you're eating a bunch of healthy stuff that probably amounts to less than 1/2 the calories of say a normal day's binge. My favorites are Kashi cereal, waffles or oatmeal w/ raisins (that's got a lot of fiber and protein so its filling) with nonfat milk (you'll get used to the taste if you're not already), strawberries and banana with lite cool whip, fruit ice pops (they're like 40 calories so you can binge on 6 of them and not feel bad), chicken breasts with cheese on nice bread, baked sweet potatoes with some butter, nonfat yogurt..those are a few ideas.
Anyway, I just joined the forum so I did a journal as well to hopefully keep me a bit more accountable. Hope to see each other around here
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Do you mind if I just jump in and make a few suggestions since you asked in your first post?
Just because you didnt log your foods the other night, I bet you still remember roughly what you ate. How about logging it and seeing how many calories REALLY were in those foods. This is NOT meant for you to feel guilty, overwhelmed by the calories or to make you feel bad in any way. This is more a tool to get yourself a reality check, but without allowing yourself to feel bad about it. What's done is done. But I bet if you knew how many calories you had that day, it would help you a bit in the future. To be honest, all the years that I calorie counted a rough estimate in my head, I would ALWAYS give up counting as I was starting to overeat/binge. Convenient huh? But this is really where I should've kept counting. I ate em, so why not account for it. Again, don't fall into the guilt trap as guilt is a wasted emotion when we're hurting only ourselves and not others.
Second suggestion is to buy a bunch of healthy snacks -- as you seem to be doing -- so when you feel like eating a lot, as most of us in this forum no doubt do LOL, at least you're eating a bunch of healthy stuff that probably amounts to less than 1/2 the calories of say a normal day's binge. My favorites are Kashi cereal, waffles or oatmeal w/ raisins (that's got a lot of fiber and protein so its filling) with nonfat milk (you'll get used to the taste if you're not already), strawberries and banana with lite cool whip, fruit ice pops (they're like 40 calories so you can binge on 6 of them and not feel bad), chicken breasts with cheese on nice bread, baked sweet potatoes with some butter, nonfat yogurt..those are a few ideas.
Anyway, I just joined the forum so I did a journal as well to hopefully keep me a bit more accountable. Hope to see each other around here
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renee123082
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Hey Blancita! Thanks for commenting. I actually just did go back and record everything I remember eating. It might be a bit off, but it still helps. I struggle with finding healthy snacks. I struggle with finding healthy foods that I enjoy period. Actually I have a hard time finding foods that I like. I feel like I’ve lived on the same old foods my entire life. So I’m trying new things now and hopefully I will develop better eating habits!
renee123082
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So, I made up for my lack of exercise yesterday two-fold today! I went out and took a nice long brisk walk. My feet hurt, my thighs hurt, I'm sweaty... It feels great!
renee123082
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Discovery!
I like Flame Grilled Boca Burgers! Now if I end up liking the Boca Ground in chili, I can completely eliminate hamburger from my life! Happy Happy Joy Joy!
I like Flame Grilled Boca Burgers! Now if I end up liking the Boca Ground in chili, I can completely eliminate hamburger from my life! Happy Happy Joy Joy!
Glad you like them. I had two tonight for dinner. I sauted some baby bella mushrooms w/fresh garlic and poured it on top of the burgers.....damn it's good. I think you'll enjoy the ground as well.
renee123082
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I'm thinking about going for the same walk today that I did yesterday. My only issue is that my feet still hurt from yesterday... But if I "play through the pain" as they say, hopefully I can get to a point where it doesn't hurt anymore. That works right?
renee123082
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Went on that walk. Yesterday the hurt felt good... today not so much. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, but its hard. Optimism is really not my nature, although for the past week I have been trying.
And all along the way I see thin people passing me by and going way past the mile marker I turned around at... meanwhile I've been busting my ass for a week and when I stepped on the scale, no loss whatsoever. I knew I shouldn't have weighed myself this soon.
Unfortunately I don't have a bike... Don't bikes have weight limits? I'm not sure I could ride one if I had one because my weight would break the poor thing.
And all along the way I see thin people passing me by and going way past the mile marker I turned around at... meanwhile I've been busting my ass for a week and when I stepped on the scale, no loss whatsoever. I knew I shouldn't have weighed myself this soon.
Unfortunately I don't have a bike... Don't bikes have weight limits? I'm not sure I could ride one if I had one because my weight would break the poor thing.
Sophie335
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keep at it huni!! you will see a loss very soon. things will get easier because the more you exercise the more you lose and the more you lose the easier you will find it to exercise :] keep doing those walks.
do you have any dumb bells that you could lift whilst youre chilling or anything? weights can really speed up metabolism. hope you are having an awesome weekend. have you measured your inches btw? xx
do you have any dumb bells that you could lift whilst youre chilling or anything? weights can really speed up metabolism. hope you are having an awesome weekend. have you measured your inches btw? xx
Hey Renee, good for you for sticking with your walks. Your building up your endurance and burning calories, all of which is great for you and your health. It IS hard to walk around and do things on your feet when your heavy. I really do feel for you and admire your determination. Stick with it and it'll get easier!
Sophie had a great idea about some hand weights. They're really cheap and can be stored under the bed. You can look online for the weights and how to do some simple exercises for your chest, back, arms, shoulders. Something you can do in your home and while watching TV that won't put any impact on your feet and knees, but will burn some calories and make you stronger and thus easier to carry yourself around.
Sophie had a great idea about some hand weights. They're really cheap and can be stored under the bed. You can look online for the weights and how to do some simple exercises for your chest, back, arms, shoulders. Something you can do in your home and while watching TV that won't put any impact on your feet and knees, but will burn some calories and make you stronger and thus easier to carry yourself around.
renee123082
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I'm going out to buy some weights right now...
Also, I am going to try to start waking up early enough to get my walk in before I go to work. Hopefully the exercise will help me get balanced in the morning and have some mental clarity so that my day at work isn't so miserable. But it will be quite a challenge considering that I am very much a late night person. We'll see how it goes this week...
anyway... off to buy the dumb bells (why do they call them that? lol)
any good websites with good beginner exercises?
Also, I am going to try to start waking up early enough to get my walk in before I go to work. Hopefully the exercise will help me get balanced in the morning and have some mental clarity so that my day at work isn't so miserable. But it will be quite a challenge considering that I am very much a late night person. We'll see how it goes this week...
anyway... off to buy the dumb bells (why do they call them that? lol)
any good websites with good beginner exercises?
renee123082
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So the Boca ground in the chili was not the best. I felt like all I was eating was beans. I think I might stick to putting hamburger in my chili, but I'll choose much leaner than I have in the past and maybe not put as hamburger in the chili as I have in the past. At least I tried something new...
On an unrelated note...
I remember now why I don't spend much time outdoors... I always end up with some sort of rash! It happened last year when I started spending time outdoors, it used to happen to me in my early teens as well. Back then it was a rash on my face, now it is a rash on my arms. I like spending time in the sun, but it seems like I could possibly be allergic to it! Last year I cured it by staying out of the sun... poop.
On an unrelated note...
I remember now why I don't spend much time outdoors... I always end up with some sort of rash! It happened last year when I started spending time outdoors, it used to happen to me in my early teens as well. Back then it was a rash on my face, now it is a rash on my arms. I like spending time in the sun, but it seems like I could possibly be allergic to it!
Last year I cured it by staying out of the sun... poop.
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Unfortunately I don't have a bike... Don't bikes have weight limits? I'm not sure I could ride one if I had one because my weight would break the poor thing.
I bought my nordic trak stationary bike when I was about 350lbs - and the weight limit in the fine print said 250lbs - but it didn't creak and groan under my weight so depending on your wieght as long as it's not a cheap bike - it will hold pretty much anything
renee123082
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I'm 315... I was thinking more along the lines of a bike you ride outdoors... wouldn't the tires go flat under my weight? A stationary bike might be nice though... ah well, it doesn't matter, I can't really afford either one!
renee123082
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I think I'm going to go to bed early tonight... I'm exhausted! But also, I want to get up early and do my walk before I start yet another stressful work week.
And speaking of work, I really need to find a way to be okay when I'm at work. As much as I would love to just quit my job and find something else, I know that there aren't any other jobs in my area that would pay me the amount of money I get paid and that I would be qualified for. I do have goals that the money I make from this job will help me reach (including going back to school eventually), but when every day seems worst than the last and you thought yesterday was the worst day ever, it's difficult to keep your eye on the goal. And then when I'm miserable I want comfort and what comforts me is food... and I hate that. I don't want to use food. I wish exercise could give me the same sense of comfort that food gives me.
Here's to hoping I survive another week...
And speaking of work, I really need to find a way to be okay when I'm at work. As much as I would love to just quit my job and find something else, I know that there aren't any other jobs in my area that would pay me the amount of money I get paid and that I would be qualified for. I do have goals that the money I make from this job will help me reach (including going back to school eventually), but when every day seems worst than the last and you thought yesterday was the worst day ever, it's difficult to keep your eye on the goal. And then when I'm miserable I want comfort and what comforts me is food... and I hate that. I don't want to use food. I wish exercise could give me the same sense of comfort that food gives me.
Here's to hoping I survive another week...
Miss Ladybug
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Hi Renee,
Your doing good girl, stick with it!! Don't give up, it will happen for you, I promise you that, if you stick with it! Just one walk around the block is good, continue that for a week, then up the walk to 2 blocks for another week, then 3 and so on. But the key focus is both food and walking. I don't recall reading in the past posts if your drinking water, do you like water?? It's pretty important and it also helps fill you up. I'm a chocoHOLIC!! so I understand what you mean when you say you had to have chocolate, I simply make myself chocolate milk, using 1% or skim milk, mmm a few calories, but still you get that chocolate craving gone. Plus the milk is good for you. I also allow myself one bite size piece a day if I feel the need. After doing it this way for several weeks, I pretty much lost the taste for it. I mean I love chocolate, but I don't have those cravings anymore for it. You know they say, never stop anything cold turkey, just slowly decrease whatever it is that's your weekness. Soon you will see, it's all a mind over matter. Take it slow and do it at your pace, those video's never worked for me either. I know you'll do it, I'll keep stopping by to lend and ear and support if you need it. Take care and have a good rest of your weekend. Glad your here!!
Kim
Your doing good girl, stick with it!! Don't give up, it will happen for you, I promise you that, if you stick with it! Just one walk around the block is good, continue that for a week, then up the walk to 2 blocks for another week, then 3 and so on. But the key focus is both food and walking. I don't recall reading in the past posts if your drinking water, do you like water?? It's pretty important and it also helps fill you up. I'm a chocoHOLIC!! so I understand what you mean when you say you had to have chocolate, I simply make myself chocolate milk, using 1% or skim milk, mmm a few calories, but still you get that chocolate craving gone. Plus the milk is good for you. I also allow myself one bite size piece a day if I feel the need. After doing it this way for several weeks, I pretty much lost the taste for it. I mean I love chocolate, but I don't have those cravings anymore for it. You know they say, never stop anything cold turkey, just slowly decrease whatever it is that's your weekness. Soon you will see, it's all a mind over matter. Take it slow and do it at your pace, those video's never worked for me either. I know you'll do it, I'll keep stopping by to lend and ear and support if you need it. Take care and have a good rest of your weekend. Glad your here!!
Kim
renee123082
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Hey Miss Ladybug... Thank you for the comments! I haven't mentioned water, which is odd, since it's another big change I've made over the past week. I've gone from rarely ever drinking water to drinking 8-10 glasses a day. That's actually quite the accomplishment for me considering how much I've always hated water! I find that if I chew gum it helps keep some sort of taste in my mouth and I'm able to drink water... and I drink Propel sometimes. Also, I've gone two days without any soda (I've been a diet drinker for years), which is also a major accomplishment for me... but I think not having that carbonation in my stomach is going to help big time! Also, I've found that I enjoy those 100 calorie packs of Oreo Crisps... there is way more in that little package than I would have thought, so that is helping with the chocolate. Overall I've made a lot of changes over the past week. I'm feeling a little bit burnt out on it all this morning, but I know it's all for the best. I have a particular shirt hanging in my closet that I haven't been able to wear for two years that I'm trying to keep in mind as my first "small" goal. Anyway... thanks for stopping by and thanks for the encouragement!