Renee's Rambling

try this for dumbells :) good on ya for making all those positive changes

cutting out soda is such an aweseom thing
you can eat those calories you were drinking. but still be hydrated .. AND FULLER
wooo xxx
 
So going to bed early last night didn't work out. I was laying there and I was tired, but my brain wouldn't shut off so I got back up and wrote in my journal for a while.

Then getting up early for my walk didn't happen, so I'll have to do it tonight when I get home from work. I don't think getting up early to walk is going to work for me. I really have a hard time getting out of bed before a certain hour... if my job would just hurry up and approve my schedule request I wouldn't have to get out of bed earlier and I'd have plenty of time for my walk!
 
Question for everyone!

Other than getting down on the floor on your back to do sit ups, is there any other way to do them... I am finding that my back lower back starts to hurt really bad after only a couple of sit ups and I have to stop. Suggestions?
 
Well done Renee, Well Done!!! Your drinking water and cutting out soda, YOU ARE SO STRONG!!! You will start seeing results very soon, so don't give up on it. On those sit ups, I had the same problem after I delivered my twins, I couldn't do anything anymore with back strength, so I started working on developing my back muscles, instead of the crunches and it helped me out. Once my back strength was up and the muscles were stronger it was much easier to do crunches again. Soooo, I can't think of any easier way of doing a crunch except on your back, but may I suggest trying to do back stregthners first, maybe you just need to build up those muscles first, then work into the crunches. Just a suggestion of course. I'm sure you will get many, many more readers with other ideas that will help too. You know after reading your post I can feel the great spirit in your voice and I bet you are as pretty as the flower you posted on your avatar. I hope you get the change in work schedule, that will help you out a lot. But what about doing a little short walk during your lunch break, is that possible?? That way your still getting in a little walk before the day is over,just in case. Again just another suggestion to help out. Good Luck today, I'll be stopping by later tonight to check in. YOur doing great, keep going!!!:D
Kim
 
I went my two mile walk right after I got home from work. My first instinct after walking in the door was to flop on the couch and watch King of the Hill, but instead I put a tape in and taped it (I love my Fox Sunday night shows!) and went out for my walk. I'm getting concerned though because that raw feeling on the bottom of my feet appears to me turning into a couple of blisters. They hurt! I think I might have to go back to doing my stupid workout video because I only wear socks when I work out with the video and don't have the problem with the rawness under my feet. I'll have to do the video twice since I'm up to 40 minutes and that's okay. But I have actually enjoyed being in the sun the past few days (despite the rash that has broken out on my arms and legs). I'll figure out a way to keep moving... The exercise feels like its getting to a point where I just plan it in my day, as if its not even an option. I had that one slip up day last Thurday, but after that I doubled my exercise time. So hopefully the exercise is becoming a habit! I had issues with breakfast today. I'm still within my allowed calories, but my fat intake is over limit. I have to allow myself time for breakfast at home so I don't stop for Burger King on my way to work! Just that one breakfast sandwich had more fat than my entire days limit... Anyway... off to watch my Fox Sunday shows! :D
 
ONE BIG PAT on the back for Renee!! Good job on making yourself do the walking. I have so many shows I love to watch, if it wasn't for DVR I probably wouldn't go to the gym as often as I do. I mean I watch them faithfully, so I can relate to what your talking about. If the video's work for you then by all means do them, also if you enjoy one exercise over another your more likely to do it and stick with it. I think your doing so good, and you've just started. Changing your lifestyle and eating habits takes time, one day at a time. Your doing very well, so keep it up. I look forward to reading about your day, good luck tomorrow
Kim
 
I have the three mile walk away the lb tape and love it even thow I dont do it as often as I should, my advice would be to do the tape but at a slower pace dont expect to keep up intill you have worked up to it just keep at it and it will get better when I first started mine I could bearly finish the first mile now I can do all three with less pain then one mile use to give me.
 
You are doing awesome with the exercising! You're improvising to make things work for you and your not giving up when things get in the way. That's the spirit!

If you're stuck getting fast food for breakfast, the egg mcmuffin at McD's (the one with ham not sausage) is decent; a bit high in fat but only 300 calories and its filling. But there are so many healthy and easy breakfast ideas that you can have at home or bring to your job. Kashi is a good cereal company that has high fiber/protein cereal that's very tasty. I like Kashi Go Lean Crunch (cold cereal) and the oatmeal raisin in individual packets. FF yogurt with a few nuts is also good, and fruit of course. I usually eat a toasted whole wheat bagel w/ butter (probably not the greatest breakfast) or an egg white omelette with some veggies and WW toast from the cafe downstairs from my job.
 
Had Enough of Today

Today was a horrible day. I had a customer tell me that he'd kick me in my head if I didn't stop calling him... calling people isn't even my job, people call me. I'm glad I talk to customers on the phone though because I believe if we were face to face that guy would have kicked me in my head even though I didn't even get to say a word to him before he started going off on me. Why would anybody say something like that to someone they don't know.

I had way under my calorie recommendation for the day... which could be a contributing factor to why I have not been able to find the energy to do any exercise today.

I think I might call in sick tomorrow to work even though I have no absenses left. I think there is part of me that hopes they will fire me. I also found out that they probably aren't going to let me switch to a part time schedule... I may need to play dirty to get it.

I've had a pounding headache all day and I'm feeling quite lethargic. I want to go to bed, but my head won't shut off. I keep worrying about money and work and my entire body aches from all of it.

I don't know what to do. :mad: :(
 
ohhh im sorry youre feeling down honey :( i hope youre feeling brighter very soon. how about going for a walk to release some of those happy endorphins into your blood :)
and if you want to do crunches but find it hard to do on a hard flat surface then you could get one of these - this is what i do most of mine on -
just balance yourself on top with your feet on the florr and crunch.
x
 
So I'm skipping out on work today. My health (mental and physical) is far more important than my job (until I can't pay rent of course). I'm going to go on my walk here in a little bit. I've noticed that my calves are firmer to the touch... as if I've built some muscle in there! My shins hurt a bit, but nothing big... I hope the day not walking yesterday helped the bottom of my feet heal a bit so they don't get so raw during today's walk.

I found a fitball on amazon for like $20! And it's tested for up to 1000 lbs. I guess I thought those things just wouldn't support my 315 lbs, so that's good news! If I don't lose my job by the end of the week I'll buy it.
 
Renee, ~big BEAR HUGS~ for you today my friend. Don't let those assholes get to you! Some people were just born rude, and we can't do anything about them, we can just laugh back at them and make them feel stupid. It works, the next time they go off on you, be super sweet back to them, say something like "WOW" you just have a wonderful day sir or mam, I hope your day is a great as mine is, thanks for sharing. He will be like "WHAT" she was nice and I was reaming her butt. HAHAHA Play with it a little, I tell ya it will confuse the hell out of them, plus make them feel like crap for doing it. Reverse psychology I guess. Maybe you should start looking for something else to do. Like I tell so many people, it's better to make less and be happy with your job, then make a ton of money and be misserable. You need a change, I can read it in your post. Maybe now is that time. Take care of yourself and try to eat something, you need to stay positive, your a wonderful person with a lot to offer, don't ever feel otherwise. Keep your chin up and try to have a better day today. We are here if you need to vent.
Hugs
Kim
 
Keep your chin up Renee. If they fire you for calling in "sick" they cant deny you your unemployment because while they may suspect your full of it, being sick is not a "for cause" event for which unemployment could deny your unemployment claim.
 
Thank you guys so much for the support and the kindness! I really need it!

I just got back from my walk. I took about three minutes longer than I have been to do my 2 mile walk, but that three minutes saved the bottom of my feet! No rawness today! :)

I've been recording everything over at the SparkPeople website. I just realized that it has given me a goal to burn 234 calories in 20 minutes, but with the exercise I've been putting in it seems to take me 40 minutes to burn that amount of calories. I thought a person's weight was taken into account. It just seems odd to me that I feel like I've been busting my ass, but I've only burnt 234 calories for 40 minutes of sweating and panting. Are there any calculators out there that tell you how much you've burned, I'm just not sure if their website is accurate. :confused:
 
I called in sick again today. Last night the thought of going back to work gave me a panic attack. I haven't had a full on panic attack in over a year. I need to just muster up the courage to tell my supervisor how much I'm stressed and that I need fewer hours. I just don't feel sane when I'm in that building and by the time I leave there at night my body is so overwhelmed it just shuts down. I can't have that. I can't feel that way right now. Not when I'm working so hard to get my body to feel healthy.
 
Renee, Do yourself a favor and look for another job my friend, this job is going to be the death of you. I'm worried now, because I know what it feels like to have a panic attack and I used to have them when I was in my 20's, I was able to figure out the triggers and thank goodness with no meds I got them under control , but OH MY WORD, I will never forget the last real bad one I had about 9 years ago, it took me to the ER. They are nothing to mess with and can really put strain on your heart. Is there a reason why you haven't been shopping for another job yet??
~~BIG BEAR HUGS~~ for my friend, I'll be thinking about you today. I hope your doing better
Kim
 
Here's my backstory...

I have been looking for another job. I think my issue is that I don't want to go from one job I hate directly into another job I hate. I also don't have the skills required to get a job that I might enjoy (or at least not hate). There is also the issue of having to pay the bills. Not just current every day living bills, but past medical bills. When I was younger I used to live in an almost constant state of panic. It was so bad that I literally felt like I was going to die. So I kept going to the ER, but they would always tell me that there was nothing wrong with me... meanwhile, I racked up thousands of dollars of debt until finally my family doctor prescribed antidepressants. So I'm still having to pay off that old debt that's gone into collections. The hospital wouldn't forgive the debt. Which means money is always an issue when searching for a job. Money is also the reason I can't go back to school and gain the skills I would need to get a job I would want. I have an associate's degree, but there is no specialized area with that, I had planned on going on to get a BA and I started at the university, but then the roommate I was living with became very verbally abusive and I had to get out of that situation. So I had to leave school and get a full time job (my current job) so that I could get out on my own... I've also got debt with the university from dropping classes mid-semster that I'm trying to pay off and I can't register for classes again until that is paid off so... now I'm stuck... I'm at a point where just thinking about going back to my job makes me feel like dropping to the floor. It's not a good situation at all, but I don't know how to get out of it.
 
maybe you could get a job that is on a par with the skills you have but is in a totally new direction from what you have right now?
glad to hear youre still working out chica - good on ya girl! xx
 
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