Hi Natalie Jo
Thanks for your support.
Only you know what you feel for him. Cat's Meow had a broken engagement and took him back when he noticed how hot she looked. That was her choice. Whatever I say - you must follow your heart.
I know that it is your firm intention to lose weight - but I also know that sometimes it is too hard. I cannot count the times that I tried to lose weight and just couldnt. You know that the PCOS makes it extra hard to do. If I could possibly have done it at your age - I would have done it them. You can bet your life that I was trying. I did eventually give up on the idea as an impossible task - but not until my late thirties.
I personally think that we deserve someone who's love for us is not dependant on us achieving or being a certain shape or size. Someone that will love every bit of us just as we are - and if we were to change would love us just as much then too. No more and no less.
I know that you and Alex were close - but his recent track record is that he has said some horrible things to you and not acted as your friend. I also know that you will be missing him. I would be inclined to put yourself first and meet some new people. If you and Alex are meant to be - you will both know it.
I am very lucky. My hubby is definitely my best and closest friend. My hubby and I may not have the athletic sex life that some people on this forum seem to have - but we are in our late 40s after all. We still have our moments though and a very good memory. One thing is for sure - I have never been in any doubt that he found me to be the hottest thing on two legs. He thought this when I was at my maximum weight - and I am certain that he would have thought the same if it were double that. I would dearly like him to lose weight because I worry about his health (I fear losing him) but my feelings for him are in no way conditional on him losing weight.
I often think that many successful relationships can be built with people where we have something in common. No-one understands the problems of obesity more than someone that is themselves obese. Hubby's BMI is bigger than mine was! You may find someone that is themselves struggling to lose quite a bit of weight - and you would have quite a bit in common with such a person. They would also be less inclined to judge a person for being big.
Keep an open mind and look for the beauty within on new men that you meet.
Take care
Love
Margaret
Margaret, Alex is actually with someone now.
We just kept a friendship because we cared so deeply for each other. BUT I am never going to call him again ... I will email him, but I won't call him.
He really put me down and I don't think it would be smart for me to call him, after what he said. He puts me down ... he just does ...and I can't take that ...
thank you for your advice ...
I went to this Big and Beautiful Woman site and it seems quite good ...
the men there are actually skinny ..strange lol
but there is one guy imparticular that I have taken a liking too and am looking forward to next month when I can purchase the participation part of it ..he looks and sounds so kind and sweet and was interested in me and I still think he is ...
Well ... you are awesome! Always good advice and you are reaching lower and lower to your goals ... your doing it!
I think it is my time to lose it .. I am reading my food addiction book and it is telling me about how we just go for little bites that end up adding up, even with salad ..
I do that with cheese ...no cheese so far today .. I did have less than 1/2 a cup of milk stirred in with my eggs and veggies ..
So .. what do you think about the eggs? Do you think they are ok to eat? I only eat two with veggies and a little skim milk to make the scrammbled eggs fluffy ...
its the only thing I usually eat in the morning ...
sorry I am giving you all these questions ...but you have been where I am and I cherish your advice .. I think you are very wise, smart and motivated ....
ttylater hun
congrats on the loss .. I am looking forward to reaching that low ... 160 is my all time goal ..no less .. my sisters don't think I should go any lower ...160 will put me in a size 14 ..
ttylater
love yas always
natalie jo
