nmartinez0531
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Today is Sunday, September 7th, 2008. I am really feeling frustrated, depressed, and all over down and icky about myself. I currently weigh 265 lbs. I want to have another baby, but am so out of shape that it isn't even possible. I am promising myself today that I am going to do this, I'm so tired of wearing these fat girl clothes that I've been wearing for far too long! I am going to start shopping for healthier foods to eat for myself and my family. I am going to make sure I am eating the right amount of the right foods, and I am going to make myself start to work out even if it kills me. I am 25 years old and am entirely too young to feel the way I feel, and I want another baby so bad that it hurts me to not be able to do this. I want my sexy back!!! Please god help give me the strength to make this the final time I set out on a plan to do this. Please let me actually get it done. I would like to lose a total of 120 lbs which would put me at 145 lbs. but to break that down, I would like to lose 40 lbs by March 7th, 2009, so I should weigh 215 lbs by this date, if I weigh less, that's great. That puts me at losing 6-7 lbs per month minimal. I am also going to ensure that I write in this journal every single day to hold myself accountable. I am looking forward to my new life and success for the very first time!!!
-- How much weight do you want to lose? 120 lbs
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? 1 ½ years or less.
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)? Diet & Exercise
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? My family and my fertility doc will keep me on track also. My mother and cousin are also great support.
-- How realistic is your goal? Very realistic, I used to weigh less than that before.
-- When will you start? Started September 7, 2008
1. What is your current height and weight? 5’6 265 lbs
2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 145 lbs
3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? 215 lbs or less
4. Why do you want to lose weight? Feel sexier, Be healthier, have more babies =)
5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event? No. Just want to be healthier and have more babies.
6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? PCOS- can be very hard on the body and weight loss.
7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? I overeat, am addicted to all the wrong foods, and am flat out unmotivated and don’t work out.(This will change)
8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? No more junk food in the house or unhealthy food for that matter, being more active- swimming, walking, working out.
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? Yes, I did weight watchers, but counting calories and points is for the birds, I’d rather just eat healthy foods and watch portion sizes without having to count everything. (if at all possible)
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? My husband brought junk food back in the house (oh no!!!), and I got tired of counting calories/points, so I just said screw it.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work? Adkins diet, Southbeach diet, Cereal diet, liquid diet for starter, WW. They were too restrictive or too time consuming to just be able to figure out if you’re doing them right.
12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? Done that, and have been keeping a journal previous to this- it’s not pretty.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook? Yes. Usually it was junk, whatever was fastest, pizza, hamburger helper, whatever was a meal in a box, or meat, potato or pasta, and a veggie. But I cleaned out the cupboards and gave that bad food to the food bank. I have bought good and healthier foods. =)
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? Well, I do a lot of Carl’s Jr., and occasionally subway. This is going to stop- well subway isn’t so bad if I get the right stuff.
15. What are your three favorite foods? Pasta- anything with pasta, pizza, Chinese foods
16. What are your three favorite restaurants? Panda Buffet (my biggest downfall), Corines Mexican Restaurant, The China Dragon
17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food? Pick healthier food options, eat more often, watch portion sizes.
18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? Everything.
19. Do you eat when you are not hungry? Yep.
20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? Yep.
21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret? Yep.
22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? Oh yeah!
23. Do you eat as a reward? Yep.
24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? Yep.
25. What do you normally eat for a meal? Meat with pasta or meat with potato and veggies, pizza, hamburger helper of some sort.
26. What type of snacks do you eat? Cookies, chips, lunch meat, just about anything I can get my hands on that’s completely bad for you.
27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? Nothing.
28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home? Don’t do it.
29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? None. But I would like swimming and walking.
30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? I want to be sexy again, I want to be healthier, and I want more babies.
31. Do you have rewards for certain goals? Yes. I will buy me new clothes =)
9/7/2008: Here is what I ate today: 1 chocolate chunk oatmeal cookie, 1 6 inch tuna on wheat with vegetables, mayo, cheese, oil n vin., 3 inch chicken teriyaki with cheese n veggies, ½ apple, ½ roma tomato, handful of grapes, 1 apple sauce I swam for almost 2 hours and did 50 sit-ups and 15 pushups. Not too great, but not bad to start.
9/8/2008: Today’s meal plan is: 2 eggs with veggies with 1 oz of cheese and 2 Tbs of salsa, 1 orange, 3 pieces of broccoli, 1 carrot, 2 Tbs of eat right ranch, 1 3” chicken teri sandwich, ½ banana, teriyaki chicken with brown rice, Sobe life water
I think I did fairly good today on my diet, except for the rice crispy treat and pack of pb crackers which weren’t originally planned
I think maybe I’ll try to find more filling snacks and choose which one I’ll eat according to how I’m feeling at the time. I walked about 40 minutes, from our house to the old middle school. I may also do the 50 sit ups and 20 pushups if I can find the strength. Overall, I feel more empowered, but I am also the kind of person who wants immediate gratification, I just keep telling myself, everything will be worth it and so I’ll keep pressing on. If I mess up, I’ll get back on track.
9/9/2008: Today’s meal plan is: cereal and banana for breakfast, apple and pb for snack, left over stir fry for lunch, fruit cocktail for snack, turkey burger with grilled veggies, banana
I didn’t work out today, I decided this would be my day off, Wednesdays are perfect since they’re in the middle of the week. I will work out again tomorrow through Friday and maybe I might take off either Sat or Sun, we’ll see how it all works out.
9/10/2008: Today I ate: oatmeal and banana for breakfast, grapes for am snack, chicken salad from carls for lunch, a salad and smart ones pizza, and a smart ones brownie alamode for dinner/dessert, I swam for about an hour and a half tonight which I think is great exercise, it feels great on my arms, and in many other places also. I will keep pressing on. I will keep on doing great.
9/11/2008: Today I ate: yogurt and banana for breakfast, broccoli and carrots with ranch for snack, a smart ones enchiladas and a salad and pears for lunch, and an orange for afternoon snack. For dinner however, it was alyssa’s b-day party and I had lasagna and cake and icecream- ouch!!! I did swim for about an hour though. I will do better tomorrow, that was one of those once in a while things. I feel like I got a pretty good work out from swimming tonight though, so I don’t feel so guilty. = )
9/12/2008: Today I ate: yogurt and banana for breakfast, grapes for snack, chicken salad from carl’s for lunch, chicken taco for dinner, low cal popsicle for snack.
I swam for 2 hours tonight. I’m doing pretty good I guess. I need to stay away from Carl’s though I think and just make my own salads at home.
9/13/2008: I weighed in this a.m. and OMG! I lost 13 lbs!!! That’s right 13.
I must be doing something right. =). I am so pumped up. I also lost 1 inch off of my waist, and ½ inch in my arms, and ½ inch in my thighs. I am so happy!!! Now I know I can do this!!! 
Today I ate: 2 eggs with salsa for breakfast, a yogurt for snack, a lowfat chicken burrito on wheat tort for lunch, fruit cocktail for snack, lowfat green chili with blackbeans and wheat tortilla for dinner.
I guess I was in the mood for Mexican food today. =) I did pretty good, but I don’t think that the 2 tortillas eaten today were the greatest choices. I did swim for 1 ½ hours tonight, it feels so great. My bathing suit is starting to get loose on me, I almost lost the bottoms in the pool =). I think I may need a new one soon!!! I’m still doing great, and I’m not starving myself for once.
-- How much weight do you want to lose? 120 lbs
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? 1 ½ years or less.
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)? Diet & Exercise
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? My family and my fertility doc will keep me on track also. My mother and cousin are also great support.
-- How realistic is your goal? Very realistic, I used to weigh less than that before.
-- When will you start? Started September 7, 2008
1. What is your current height and weight? 5’6 265 lbs
2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 145 lbs
3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? 215 lbs or less
4. Why do you want to lose weight? Feel sexier, Be healthier, have more babies =)
5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event? No. Just want to be healthier and have more babies.
6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? PCOS- can be very hard on the body and weight loss.
7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? I overeat, am addicted to all the wrong foods, and am flat out unmotivated and don’t work out.(This will change)
8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? No more junk food in the house or unhealthy food for that matter, being more active- swimming, walking, working out.
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? Yes, I did weight watchers, but counting calories and points is for the birds, I’d rather just eat healthy foods and watch portion sizes without having to count everything. (if at all possible)
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? My husband brought junk food back in the house (oh no!!!), and I got tired of counting calories/points, so I just said screw it.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work? Adkins diet, Southbeach diet, Cereal diet, liquid diet for starter, WW. They were too restrictive or too time consuming to just be able to figure out if you’re doing them right.
12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? Done that, and have been keeping a journal previous to this- it’s not pretty.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook? Yes. Usually it was junk, whatever was fastest, pizza, hamburger helper, whatever was a meal in a box, or meat, potato or pasta, and a veggie. But I cleaned out the cupboards and gave that bad food to the food bank. I have bought good and healthier foods. =)
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? Well, I do a lot of Carl’s Jr., and occasionally subway. This is going to stop- well subway isn’t so bad if I get the right stuff.
15. What are your three favorite foods? Pasta- anything with pasta, pizza, Chinese foods
16. What are your three favorite restaurants? Panda Buffet (my biggest downfall), Corines Mexican Restaurant, The China Dragon
17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food? Pick healthier food options, eat more often, watch portion sizes.
18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? Everything.
19. Do you eat when you are not hungry? Yep.
20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? Yep.
21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret? Yep.
22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? Oh yeah!
23. Do you eat as a reward? Yep.
24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? Yep.
25. What do you normally eat for a meal? Meat with pasta or meat with potato and veggies, pizza, hamburger helper of some sort.
26. What type of snacks do you eat? Cookies, chips, lunch meat, just about anything I can get my hands on that’s completely bad for you.
27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? Nothing.
28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home? Don’t do it.
29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? None. But I would like swimming and walking.
30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? I want to be sexy again, I want to be healthier, and I want more babies.
31. Do you have rewards for certain goals? Yes. I will buy me new clothes =)
9/7/2008: Here is what I ate today: 1 chocolate chunk oatmeal cookie, 1 6 inch tuna on wheat with vegetables, mayo, cheese, oil n vin., 3 inch chicken teriyaki with cheese n veggies, ½ apple, ½ roma tomato, handful of grapes, 1 apple sauce I swam for almost 2 hours and did 50 sit-ups and 15 pushups. Not too great, but not bad to start.
9/8/2008: Today’s meal plan is: 2 eggs with veggies with 1 oz of cheese and 2 Tbs of salsa, 1 orange, 3 pieces of broccoli, 1 carrot, 2 Tbs of eat right ranch, 1 3” chicken teri sandwich, ½ banana, teriyaki chicken with brown rice, Sobe life water
I think I did fairly good today on my diet, except for the rice crispy treat and pack of pb crackers which weren’t originally planned
I think maybe I’ll try to find more filling snacks and choose which one I’ll eat according to how I’m feeling at the time. I walked about 40 minutes, from our house to the old middle school. I may also do the 50 sit ups and 20 pushups if I can find the strength. Overall, I feel more empowered, but I am also the kind of person who wants immediate gratification, I just keep telling myself, everything will be worth it and so I’ll keep pressing on. If I mess up, I’ll get back on track.9/9/2008: Today’s meal plan is: cereal and banana for breakfast, apple and pb for snack, left over stir fry for lunch, fruit cocktail for snack, turkey burger with grilled veggies, banana
I didn’t work out today, I decided this would be my day off, Wednesdays are perfect since they’re in the middle of the week. I will work out again tomorrow through Friday and maybe I might take off either Sat or Sun, we’ll see how it all works out.
9/10/2008: Today I ate: oatmeal and banana for breakfast, grapes for am snack, chicken salad from carls for lunch, a salad and smart ones pizza, and a smart ones brownie alamode for dinner/dessert, I swam for about an hour and a half tonight which I think is great exercise, it feels great on my arms, and in many other places also. I will keep pressing on. I will keep on doing great.
9/11/2008: Today I ate: yogurt and banana for breakfast, broccoli and carrots with ranch for snack, a smart ones enchiladas and a salad and pears for lunch, and an orange for afternoon snack. For dinner however, it was alyssa’s b-day party and I had lasagna and cake and icecream- ouch!!! I did swim for about an hour though. I will do better tomorrow, that was one of those once in a while things. I feel like I got a pretty good work out from swimming tonight though, so I don’t feel so guilty. = )
9/12/2008: Today I ate: yogurt and banana for breakfast, grapes for snack, chicken salad from carl’s for lunch, chicken taco for dinner, low cal popsicle for snack.
I swam for 2 hours tonight. I’m doing pretty good I guess. I need to stay away from Carl’s though I think and just make my own salads at home.
9/13/2008: I weighed in this a.m. and OMG! I lost 13 lbs!!! That’s right 13.
I must be doing something right. =). I am so pumped up. I also lost 1 inch off of my waist, and ½ inch in my arms, and ½ inch in my thighs. I am so happy!!! Now I know I can do this!!! Today I ate: 2 eggs with salsa for breakfast, a yogurt for snack, a lowfat chicken burrito on wheat tort for lunch, fruit cocktail for snack, lowfat green chili with blackbeans and wheat tortilla for dinner.
I guess I was in the mood for Mexican food today. =) I did pretty good, but I don’t think that the 2 tortillas eaten today were the greatest choices.
I did swim for 1 ½ hours tonight, it feels so great. My bathing suit is starting to get loose on me, I almost lost the bottoms in the pool =). I think I may need a new one soon!!! I’m still doing great, and I’m not starving myself for once.
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Oh well, it sucks that he's the top dog of our facility though. Anyways, I'm about to head out the door to go swimming, but first I want to log what I ate today. So...
I will not do that again!!! So anyways, I did alot better today 
I guess it's not as good as the last 2 weigh ins, but it's still pretty good. By the way, did anyone watch the biggest loser tonight? They kicked butt. I can't watch that show without crying 
I missed the biggest loser but I'm the same way when it comes to being a crybaby when I watch it. And I'm with you about feeling their pain. We will all feel each others pain on this forum. I'm here with you girlie. You're on your way. Good job on the pounds you lost. You are doing great for yourself. 
And I'm here always...
