Natasha's Diary: In it to win it...

[englangrover]

Your son is very lucky to have you as his mommy. You both are in my prayers.

 

[nmartinez0531]

9/18/2008

Well, thank you everyone for your prayer and support. My son is doing a lil better today. He's almost done with one of his steroids, so hopefully he'll bounce back soon. Anyway, back to the asshole factory tomorrow. I wish I would have listened and never started there. I called today to see what time i should go in to fill out the FMLA paperwork, and now they said I have to be with the company for at least 2 years to qualify for FMLA. So asked," does that mean I am losing my job then?" And these dumb asses said, "well bring in documentation from your son's doctor stating that you were the only one that could care for him during this illness, and we'll go from there." Now what the hell!!! How is a doctor supposed to qualify that crap?!? Of course I could have left with someone I'm sure, if I didn't give a shit... But this is my son. And my husband had to be there for the past 2 days because they were craning, he couldn't leave the crew solo for that. UHHH!!! These A**holes are completely stupid. So needless to say, I will be looking for another job whether they let me go or not... I don't feel I should have to deal with this kind of drama from an employer.

Anyway... for the good news, I lost 4 more lbs, that puts me at 244 lbs, which means I've lost a total of 21 lbs... Yess!!! I am so pumped up. That just goes to show how crappy I was eating before.. hehehe. Well, sure glad I changed that and I'm NOT going back.

Today I ate: shredded wheat cereal, with 1 tsp sugar, and 1/2 cup of 2% milk, cantaloupe for snack, chef salad for lunch, oats & honey bar for snack, and spaghetti with 1/2 cup low-fat cottage cheese. I think I've been doing pretty good, but then again, noone has critiqued my food or eating habits yet... ANYONE is welcome. I would like to know if I need improvement or something. And yes, I am eating actual portion sizes I'm supposed to of things. I walked 2 miles and actually ran about a quarter, maybe even a third of the way. It was great, hadn't ran in a long time, but I said what the hell... Well my friends until tomorrow, TaTa...

Natasha

 

[englangrover]

Today I ate: shredded wheat cereal, with 1 tsp sugar, and 1/2 cup of 2% milk, cantaloupe for snack, chef salad for lunch, oats & honey bar for snack, and spaghetti with 1/2 cup low-fat cottage cheese. I think I've been doing pretty good, but then again, noone has critiqued my food or eating habits yet... ANYONE is welcome. I would like to know if I need improvement or something. And yes, I am eating actual portion sizes I'm supposed to of things. Well my friends until tomorrow, TaTa...

Natasha

Hey, if it's working for you, which it looks like it is, I won't tell you you're doing anything wrong. You are doing a great job doing exactly what you are doing. Keep up the good work. And, I'm glad your son is doing better.

 

[nmartinez0531]

Thank you Englangrover. I guess I am doing pretty good. At first I thought I was losing too fast, but I think that's normal in the beginning, right? Well, talk to you later.
Natasha

 

[englangrover]

Thank you Englangrover. I guess I am doing pretty good. At first I thought I was losing too fast, but I think that's normal in the beginning, right? Well, talk to you later.
Natasha

Oh yeah. Especially if you have never dieted before, you drop the first few pounds in a snap. I've been yo-yo-ing for about 5 years and I dropped the first 10 pounds in a snap. It's taking me a lot longer to lose the rest but I'm going to keep going head strong. Take care.

You can call me Englan

 

[thecabbie]

You are doing fine.

I'm glad your son is doing better. Prednisone is magic sometimes, it is just the after effects I've always hated.

The FMLA stuff that they are throwing at you is a crock 'o shit

How they as a company work the specifics is up to some interpretation, but they cannot fire you for this. The doctors are usually pretty good about writing up explanations that work.

Do your paperwork, get it settled, then get the hell out of that company!! You don't want to work for a place like that!!

 

[nmartinez0531]

You are doing fine.

I'm glad your son is doing better. Prednisone is magic sometimes, it is just the after effects I've always hated.

The FMLA stuff that they are throwing at you is a crock 'o shit

How they as a company work the specifics is up to some interpretation, but they cannot fire you for this. The doctors are usually pretty good about writing up explanations that work.

Do your paperwork, get it settled, then get the hell out of that company!! You don't want to work for a place like that!!

Couldn't agree with you more buddy... I am so out of there, I am not dealing with this crap. Thanks for the info though. And yeah, I thought it was a crock 'o shit too. But oh well, their company, their business. Now I understand why they can't hold on to employees for longer than 2 months.

 

[nmartinez0531]

Oh yeah. Especially if you have never dieted before, you drop the first few pounds in a snap. I've been yo-yo-ing for about 5 years and I dropped the first 10 pounds in a snap. It's taking me a lot longer to lose the rest but I'm going to keep going head strong. Take care.

You can call me Englan

Okay Englan Yeah, I still can't believe that I dropped 21 in less than 2 weeks, that is crazy, I guess I was going way over-board on the junk food (okay, I know I was hehe) All I know is I'm so not going back. You take care too and keep up the great work, I love reading your diary, it's inspirational and damn girl, you really work out hard!!! I will get there.

Natasha

 

[englangrover]

Okay Englan Yeah, I still can't believe that I dropped 21 in less than 2 weeks, that is crazy, I guess I was going way over-board on the junk food (okay, I know I was hehe) All I know is I'm so not going back. You take care too and keep up the great work, I love reading your diary, it's inspirational and damn girl, you really work out hard!!! I will get there.

Natasha

Ha ha! Thanks. That really means alot to me. I look forward to seeing you get to where you want to be.

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

I'm so happy your son is doing better. I will keep both of you in my thoughts

I'd get the hell outta that company too.

I lost the first 20-30 pounds pretty quickly, but now as I get lower, I seem to be having a bit of a hard time losing.



I hope everything goes okay for you.

Annie

 

[nmartinez0531]

9/19/2008

Hello all, and thanks for your concern, comments, and support. Well, I went back to work. They didn't fire me, but they did treat me very stupidly to the point that I cried. I was really upset today, and I ate 2 honey buns!!! Bad girl, I shouldn't let those assholes take away from my diet too on top of everything else, but my emotions got the best of me. Ah well!!! I didn't do good on my diet today, very fatty and I think the calories probably weren't the best. I didn't work out today, I felt really worn out between work and not really sleeping due to my son's illness. It was pretty tough. My son went back to the dr. today for another follow up. His oxygen level is better, and he's doing a lil better, but not completely out of the red zone yet. He still has to do the neb treatments every 4 hrs. back to back, he's finished the steroid, but has to stay on flovent for... as long as he has asthma. Ah well, this too shall pass (I hope). I guess I'm gonna just try to tough it out with this dumb ass company.. Only about 5 more months until we move back to Denver anyway, so it doesn't really matter. As long as they stay the hell out of my way and let me do my job. Alright, enough of that...

Today I ate: raisin bran with milk for breakfast, grapes for snack, spaghetti with meaty marinara for lunch, more grapes for snack, more spaghetti with meaty marinara for dinner with cottage cheese, and 2 honey buns.... I know, I know... Very bad. Hardly any veggies, too much pasta and fattening stuff, I will do better tomorrow. I'm going to spend the day with my mom, we're going out to have a girl's day, so that should be nice. She's taking me away from the stress for a day I need that!!! Sorry I've been going on and on about my personal s*** lately, but I guess it's just been rough lately. Again, this too shall pass. No work out today, except for the walking and other duties at work.

 

[LillyTame]

Hello Lady.

Hiya

Sorry to hear you are kinda going through a rough patch, but as the old saying goes " that which doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger". Even though it feels like hell while we're working through it lol.

Anywho, I was just dropping by to check on your progress, mmmmmm, honey buns lol. I actually had a not so good day yesterday, I was away from home alllll day. Not that that's a good excuse

But it's the weekend and we have a bright new shiney week ahead of us.

Check out my diary...I think I'm going to do a little mini challenge for beginners and really busy folks...if I can get at least 5 people that want to try it, I'll make a whole thread.

Here's hoping you have a lovely weekend and your son feels better soon! (HA! I don't even drink lol)

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

I'm sorry your life is so hard right now. I don't have kids, but I've been through some rough times as well. I always had to remember to try to think of 5 funny things every day. Times I had in the past, a funny joke I heard but was too depressed to laugh at, or even a funny episode of my favorite show. Try to make yourself smile, it's hard at first, and you'll know you're faking it, but as my parents said "Fake it til you make it", until you find yourself smiling without meaning to.

Just keep your chin up and cheer yourself up with everything you've got.

Kept me alive!

<3 I hope your son feels better soon. You're in my thoughts!
Annie

 

[nmartinez0531]

9/23/2008

Wow!!! Okay, I fell off the wagon for a few days, but I'm back I had a really bad past few days. I mean they were good days, my son is doing alot better, so thank you everyone who has been praying. But well, I've been busy and eating horribly!!! I haven't weighed myself because I'm afraid to see what it is I'm positive it's not good. Lets see, where do I begin. Well I've eaten out every day since Saturday. Saturday I ate at country buffet, I did fair, I ate a salad and a small piece of baked chicken and a baked potato and brocolli with cheese. Everything else I had that day was good and normal. Sunday.... oh sunday.... We went back to Country buffet, I hadn't eaten anything since about 8 that morning, and it was 2:30, and well, I ate ALOT!!! I had a salad to start with, but then I had a small piece of steak and mashed potatoes and gravy, then I went back and had more mashed potatoes and gravy, more steak, and carrots, and I had a piece of chocolate mousse pie It was awful... I felt so sick after that, and I didn't eat for the rest of the day until that night, it was movie night, and I had healthy stuff an apple and jello, but my tummy hurt. Well, I clearly didn't learn my lesson there, Yesterday, Monday... I had yogurt and banana for breakfast, grapes for a snack, and nature valley honey oats bar, for lunch I had a tuna sandwich on wheat with a few more grapes, but for dinner, I had 1 piece of pizza, 2 breadsticks, 1 piece of enchilada casserole, and about a third of a cup of spanish rice... Oh NO!!! I've been a bad bad bad girl. Today, I ate raisin bran for breakfast, grapes and cantaloupe and pb crackers for snack, a black bean and green chili burrito with 2% milk kraft cheese sprinkled on it, then I had some broccoli and carrots with eat right ranch, and for dinner Tadadada.... A huge chimichanga, a few funyuns, and chocolate zingers. Yes, yes, yes, I went on a HUGE and HORRIBLE and VERY STUPID binge!!! I think that my body's going into that time of MO. thing, ladies know what I"m talking about... But that's no excuse. Anyhow, I'm back and I'm not doing that again. Lately, I've felt horribly bloated, have had headaches, and all around have just felt horrible. So I'm not doing this crap anymore. At least I hope not!!! Well guys, that's my update, not a good one, but it's all I got for now, but watch out, I'm coming back with a VENGEANCE!!!

Did anyone watch the biggest loser tonight? I have to check and see what the damage is and how many push ups, sit ups, etc. I have to do... He hehe, there was alot of crying and back stabbing on the show, so I don't know. Anyhow, I'll be back tomorrow guys, and I am going to do alot better.


Natasha

 

[thecabbie]

Sorry, I must have missed your posts.

I feel like I deserted you for a couple of days I'm so glad that your son is doing better

Darling, take a deep breath... hold it... now let it out... You have had enough stress in your life for the last week or so, relax...

Remember, long term goals right? So a quick short term thing is no biggie? Just drop it and start again.

We're here for you. Stop in anytime. (I'll do better next time, I promise)

 

[nmartinez0531]

Karl, you're the best!!! I was just heading to your journal and then I saw that you had posted here. You didn't dessert me, I hadn't logged on the past few days, like I said, I was being a BAD GIRL. But I'm over it. Yeah, I know I just have to pick up and keep truckin, we all have those moments I"m sure. I've learned my lesson by how horrible I feel. And you guys are the best with all of your support. I don't know what I'd do without you, Kristi, or Englan, you all really inspire me, and although I've only been in this support group for a short time, I feel really comfortable with you all. So don't ever feel like you're letting me down. We're in this together for the long haul!!! I'm over it! Not doing it again! Well, I'm gonna check in on your diary Karl to see what's new and also Englan's, so we'll talk to you soon K.

 

[Kristi]

Hey Natasha! Glad things are looking up for you I might not be around for a couple of days so I'm counting on you to get some exercise in for me!! heheh!

I did watch Biggest Loser but I didn't keep track of how many times I had to get up to exercise :/ I know that I did quite a few push-ups, jumping jacks and sit-ups during the show. I didn't remember what exercise was for each, so I just did those three exercises at random everytime someone cried, complained, and when there was product placement. My favorite was the gum, because it was sooo sly!! They didn't even talk about it. They just showed one of the pink team members slowly reaching for it on the table and they zoomed in on it! I laughed so hard!

Anyway, I'm glad you're getting back in the grove! You can do this!

 

[nmartinez0531]

Hey Natasha! Glad things are looking up for you I might not be around for a couple of days so I'm counting on you to get some exercise in for me!! heheh!

I did watch Biggest Loser but I didn't keep track of how many times I had to get up to exercise :/ I know that I did quite a few push-ups, jumping jacks and sit-ups during the show. I didn't remember what exercise was for each, so I just did those three exercises at random everytime someone cried, complained, and when there was product placement. My favorite was the gum, because it was sooo sly!! They didn't even talk about it. They just showed one of the pink team members slowly reaching for it on the table and they zoomed in on it! I laughed so hard!

Anyway, I'm glad you're getting back in the grove! You can do this!

Hey girlie, well, I don't know if I'll be doing anymore than you, but I have been swimming (my pool's working again yay!) I swam for like an hour and a half last night and the night before. Not sure what I'm doing tonight. I have a headache and feel icky. I think it's PMS or it could be from all the crap I've been eating. But I think it's PMS. Anyhow, I really did try to be good today, but then at our meeting there was PIZZA!!! My weakness. So this is how it went today. I ate some raisin bran for breakfast, some watermelon and a 100 cal pack of something for my snacks, a salad and a fish fillet with tarter sauce and a few fries for lunch, pizza in the afternoon at the meeting, and a tamale, 2 eggs, piece of pork chop and a roasted chili for dinner. I can't seem to stop doing bad!!! I do not want to put the weight back on, but what the heck is going on with my body!?! It has to be PMS, I constantly feel like I'm starving or I get such strong cravings that I just can't handle it!! I won't give up, I'm gonna keep trying. I've got to stay away from all the bad stuff, no matter where it is or whose feelings I hurt. Or how deprived I feel at the moment, I know I will feel better after if I don't do it rather than keep goin this route. I am going to try to stay positive, eat right, and excercise more. As a matter of fact, I'm gonna go do some crunches here in a few. No other exercise tonight, I'm pretty wiped and have a slight headache, so tomorrow... GAME ON

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

YAY! Now all you need to do is get out of that little bad-eating funk of yours.

I'm so proud of you for changing it around and kicking that crappy mood and getting reinspired.



Annie

 

[nmartinez0531]

Yup, I'm all better!!! I'm not gonna let it get me down or hold me back, just gonna try harder to prove myself wrong!!! LOL Sounds like I'm competing with myself huh? I'm better though! Thanks Lily

Natasha