Michelle's Place- A bit wiser this time around...

Still no baby!

So this week is baby week. The baby will be born this week because the doctor said she would induce me by Wednesday so that is exciting. As I am moving closer to the end of my pregnancy I am really trying to get a plan together for what I want to do fitness-wise after the baby. I know I will be limited by doctors orders while I recover and I know that can last at least 6 weeks but walking is perfectly legal and a good way to get back into the game so that when the 6 weeks is up I will be ready for some jogging and weight training.
I was looking at my before and after pics that I have posted here. The before is my heaviest at 240lbs. The after is me at my smallest at 158lbs. I remember not being happy with the 158 pics. I still wasn't satisfied. I remember those jeans. They are in the box with the rest of my clothes. They were a tight size 10 from Kohl's. I was amazed I could put them on!! lol I see those after pics and I think that if I got there again I would be very satisfied with how I looked. I need to focus on being happy with myself no matter what weight. I don't want to struggle for this. Working hard yes but before it was a constant struggle and obsession and I would rather make it a lifestyle change. It starts with the emotional eating. I need to put a stop to it. I need to find a way to deal with emotions without resorting to eating.
There is always going to be emotional issues. With a new baby and the fact my mom is struggling with cancer means that there will be plenty of opportunities to eat my feelings. I have to find a better way of dealing with them. So the planning continues. I will get back to a healthy weight and back into my clothes!! More than that I want to be a runner. I can totally do this!! lol I am pretty pumped right now. Just have to hang on to that through the birth!
For stats we will see but if I lose 20lbs with the birth I will be back at 240lbs... yuck and I think there is a bit more there in swelling. So I will assume my post pregnancy weight is going to be around 235lbs... if I am very lucky 230. That is an awful number to be back at and I am not going to stay there for long. Just need to get on it!
If you want to see my pics go up above my rep to images and click on the 3. I was going to put them in my post but eh. I am lazy;) lmao
Wish me luck! I am nervous about this week!
Hello LowFatMilk!!! Glad your still with me! lol I am sorry about the neighbor. It's so sad to lose good ones! Thanks for the good luck:) I can't wait to see my toes again!!
 
It's Baby Time

Lol Brandy I took your words. Going to title my blog that too. Just a quick update: tomorrow we are to be at the hospital at 8:30am to be induced. It was our decision and it was a tough one. Yesterday I was really in a bad place after making it. Took me the whole day to recover. The issue is that we had a choice to wait to see if it happened naturally or induce. If we had waited it would only have been until Monday and then I would have been induced anyway. It was a really hard decision because there is really no right answer! Either way has it's drawbacks. The baby is ready and so am I and the doctor and my hubby were leaning towards inducement so I leaned as well.
So baby will be born either tomorrow or Friday:D
I will update pics asap and I should have my computer with me. I am sure I will be wrapped up in baby but hopefully will get a few moments to send out pics and whatnot.
Today I took a 30 minute walk and am planning a few more 10 minute walks later. I just want to do what I can to get things moving on their own.
We shall see. Either way this is almost over and there will be a new little baby to hold soon!!
 
Welcome Baby David!

Hello folks!
Well good news! After all the fear of being induced it turned out it was the right decision. They started me on pitocin and then a few hours later broke the water and in 4 hours he was here!! It was very crazy as they checked me around 1pm and I was only 2cm dilated and he was going to check me again at 4. Around 3 the pain changed and got really unbearable and I couldn't breathe and decided to get an epidural for the pain. Well the epidural never made it in. They guy showed up at 3:50 and I sat up and felt the urge to push and the nurse asked if I wanted her to check me and she did and low and behold the head was RIGHT THERE!! That was 4pm and he was born 10 minutes later!! I sort of wish I had asked them to check me more often!! I was wondering why the pain changed and why I felt I had to push but I figured it was just going to the bathroom! It sounds gross but I am very lucky I didn't have David in the toilet!! lol
So he is here and doing very well and I am doing well. We will need to stay 2 days in the hospital as I tested positive for Strep B and they need to watch the baby to make sure he wasn't affected. I had penicillian pumped into me during labor so he should be ok but better safe than sorry. So we should be home Saturday! I will post pics of course. He looks like a little turtle and he totally has monkey toes but he is beautiful and strong willed little boy:)
Ok he is waking up! Time to feed him:)
Thank you all for support! I am utterly happy and excited to be done and have our little baby in my arms!!:party:
 
A few quick pics :)

Forgot the info! 8lbs 12ozs born at 4:12pm 20.5 inches long!!
Ouch ouch ouch!! ;) lol This was a big baby. I am glad we made the decision to induce because I couldn't imagine him being over 9lbs!!! He already weighed in at 9lbs 4ozs 7 hours after birth!! Good appetite and some latching issues but over all doing wonderfully! He is very cute but not very photogenic and has a full head of soft, blondish hair. He also has freaky long monkey toes!! lol Oh I just love having a baby again:)
Here are a few pics:)
 
Ok had to add one more

This hospital's internet stinks so I am going offline until we get home but I wanted to share one last pic:)
He is sooo cute!! Just want to squish him but I will save that for my older son who is very squishable! lol
We get to go home tomorrow! I can't wait:)
Thank you LFM!! I so enjoy getting your comments... keeping my journal alive;) lol I love them all to death and am just tickled pink to be so blessed!! Thank you for keeping up with me:D
 
Busy, busy Baby!

I forgot how much time a newborn takes! I try to get things written down but I am behind on everything except twitter and facebook and that is only because responses can be so short! lol
Things are going very well. I am recovering so very well it's just amazing. I feel ready to start working out next week. I know I should wait until dr. says it's ok but I am going to start easily and work my way into it. I took a walk yesterday and was doing very well. Just short walks for now but it's nice to be pain free and getting out. All the pregnancy symptoms are gone. No more acid reflux, no more aching back, no more feeling like I need to eat until I stuff myself to stave off sickness, no more swelling, and no more random aches, pains, or "dead legs"! lol I feel really great. I have lost 30lbs since the birth leaving me at 232lbs right now. I am going down roughly 1/2 lb a day. I had some chocolate last night and that seemed to stall me for a day lol. Otherwise I have been trying to eat well. Looking at healthy choices rather than crap. So far it's about 50/50 success. However, good choices are being made and I am proud so far. I feel good about my body because even though I am not back to where I was I am doing well. I guess it's what happens when the swelling and baby bump go down. It's an instant body makeover! lol
Baby is doing great. He is growing in leaps and bounds. He is just shy of 2 weeks old. He gained a whole lb from one pediatrician appointment to the next. The doctor seemed a bit taken aback at the gain. He said something about it being the max a baby should be gaining in a week and then asked if I was breast feeding or bottle feeding. I know babies who are on the bottle can sometimes gain a good amount. However, this baby is not bottle fed. He looked at me almost like he didn't believe me. lol Then he said something about rich milk. he he he. So baby is thriving!! I have kept him in bed with me to help me sleep. He seems to sleep better there but I really need to start putting him in his bassinet. It's just hard when it's 2am or 3am and you have been up and down for awhile.
We are leaving for NM tomorrow to go visit the grandmas. My mom started chemo the day David was born. We have both gone through similar experiences with doctors and hospitals and I was on the phone with her as much as I could be that day keeping her apprised of what was going on with the birth. She is doing ok. She told me a few days ago she actually has stage 4 cancer and not stage 3. sigh. I am stressed but can't dwell on it. Just have to enjoy and take advantage of the time we have!
 
Hey, a fellow 505er-I'm new to this forum and nice to know I'm not the only one in the desert!!!!
 
Hey Michelle! I'm sure the baby is what is keeping you away right now! Hope the handsome boy isn't taking you away from accomplishing your goals.

Can you start running again yet??? I know at one point we both had the goal of running in a 2010 marathon... do you still want that? I really do. I was wondering if you wanted to start training "with" me. We could motivate each other.
 
It's all about the moments

Hi Danab! Well I was a 505er for 30 years but my husband got a job in Denver so we fled the dessert;) lol. Thanks for coming by though:) <------ ok so just noticed the "dessert" thing... Freudian slip maybe??? lol
Hello Brandy! Baby is definitely keeping me away. If he is sleeping I have a choice of usually one thing to do and that usually is showering, eating, cleaning, laundry, or dishes. Posting on the forum is way down the list right now with so many necessities needing to come first. However, I try to at the very least read a few diaries when I can. Happily he is not taking me away from accomplishing goals. I walked out of the hospital at 250 which was only about 10lbs down from the pregnancy weight and I was upset. However, since then I have tried to walk most days of the week and really tried to eat better (though I have not always been successful) and I am now down to about 227! I am excited for that:) I am feeling better too. I was in a very bad place after I lost my weight and gained it back and now I am feeling really good about myself. Sure I have my flaws but it doesn't make me sad and down and stressed like it used to. I think it has something to do with my focus being elsewhere and also the fact that after having a baby a women generally has some catching up to do. So it has in a sense given me a free pass to not be so hard on myself. I think that is going to make all the difference. There is that quote "eating that isn't as good as thin feels" or whatever! lol I think I butchered it but you get the gist. Honestly for me being comfortable and happy is way better than being thin. I am hoping if I can focus more on the former the later will come as I generally try to be more active and stop freaking stressing about every little pound and the fact that my clothes don't fit. So far it's been good:)
I still have designs on a 2010 marathon... I have even heard there are walking marathons and I am not above that! We are planning to get pregnant again in 2010 so I would want to do it before then. That gives me a narrow window. However, some focus is going to be on more immediate things... like a 5k. My last 5k was missed because my son went into the hospital with a bad kidney infection. I am going to start looking for a new one to sign up for. Then maybe a 10k and meanwhile I am walking as much as I can and after I go see the doc I will start running as much as I can and working my way back up to where I was.
Really just trying to take it a day at a time. Scheduling a workout is really hard with a baby because you never know what he is going to do. I even do some strength training in the shower because there is a few minutes there I have to myself! lol Luckily he seems to sleep in his carseat which makes breaking out the jogging stroller easier. I have a scheduled walk tonight and I am anxious to see how it goes. It's with a local walking group I was involved in before I got too pregnant to walk far. The trail is over 3 miles but I have been doing 3.5 pretty regularly so it shouldn't be a big deal. Of course I will have both boys with me and one riding a bike and I am just not sure if he can go 3 miles on his bike. sigh. It might be a rough experience. Fingers crossed. Thanks for keeping up with me Brandy:)
 
Hey mishi... your little boy is so cute. I can't believe i didn't see that you had him till now. Cameron is now 7 months old and 18 lbs 10 oz 28 inches long. He's getting huge. he wears 6-9 and some 12 month clothes already. he's not crawling yet but is rolling all over the place and tries walking when i'm holding his hands and he's standing on the floor. anyways. i gotta figure out how to exercise while dealing with the boys. Alex is in a wheelchair for the time being and will probably be for at least another 6 months. Anyways.. i am slowly losing weight again gotta refocus too. congrats on having david. talk to you soon.
 
Slowly

So I am still on my slow track. I have lost 3lbs. I know it's not a lot but it was hard earned and I am happy with it. I started in earnest last Monday. I had already made some food substitutions and was working on the eating to nourish idea. Last Monday I added in some exercise. I rented a mommy and baby workout dvd from the library and I do that and then also try to do a yoga dvd at least 4 days a week. Last week was only 3 days because we had guests this weekend but the difference was very noticeable. Even though it was only 3lbs my arms have firmed up and my legs also. It's nice that I can work out with my little one. It really takes that last excuse away.
So slowly but surly I will get there. I have 70+ pounds to lose and it seems like it's a long way away but getting there will be good for me and I think the slower I go the more it will stick.
 
david is so cute and wtg on 3lb loss. every little bit is worth celebrating. keep up the good work what video did you get?
 
Rolling rolling...

Hi Heather. I am working from several videos so I don't get bored. I am trying to do them 3x a week but sometimes I only get 2x in. It still seems to be doing some good though. I took my measurements on the 1st and they are all at least an inch down!
I am doing the Fabulously Fit Mom's DVD's. One is a workout with baby and one is just a 30 minute workout. They are geared for a mom's time frame. I also have a Pilates Fusion DvD that has a workout with baby. That one kicks my butt! Then there is the yoga for weightloss dvd which isn't with baby but it has a quick start which is 30 minutes. I really like them! Also I have been taking 30-40 minutes walks. Like I said I can't get every night but I am working on rolling with the schedule changes that crop up with baby.
Recently I have gotten my food in line. I don't want to calorie track because I got way too obsessed before. I want to hone that "sense" of when I am really hungry and full and know that I have had enough food. So far so good. Even with some burgers from Carls Jr. I have lost an additional 5lbs and am now near my July goal of 220. If I lose 10lbs a month I should be near my goal weight by the time the baby is one! Slowly but surely:)
 
July Update

So as hard as it is to get back here I am still working on my weightloss and so far have been pretty successful. I am not going gung ho so I am not dropping a lot but I am on track for my July goal. I have decided that 10lbs a month is a good goal. For July as I was around 229 it was 9lbs. I am now at 224lbs and it's not just water weight drop. It's actual pounds lost if that makes sense. I spent a few months right around 230-231 and it was hard to get started. I have been slacking on my exercise because I have been so tired. Not a good excuse but when I am up all night with the baby it's hard to muster the energy to do a workout. Also finding the time is hard. I do have several mom friendly dvd's and I enjoy doing them but finding the time is really hard too. When David is asleep there is time for so many other things that sometimes exercise is pushed to the side.
However, I know that getting my food under control is 80% of my issue and if I can do that then losing the weight will be that much easier. With recent medical bills for the birth and whatnot we are very strapped for cash which means no eating out for the next 2 weeks. Dairy Queen is really a weakness for me and visits there for the family are pricey so we have to tighten our belts in many different ways lol.
I am proud of the weight I have lost so far because I haven't been killing myself over the food. This time I am not tracking but trying to pay more attention to my body and what it needs rather than what it wants. Because I spent several years tracking food and learning portion sizes I figure I have a pretty good grasp of that. Not that I would be right on on calories consumed but I generally know what I should be eating and how much. I really want a more "natural" approach to food and by "natural" I mean listening to my body and knowing when I have had enough and when hungry is really hunger or the emotional eating that I know so well. I am not saying I win every battle but I have overall been doing much better. My food choices have changed. I am trying to incorporate more veggies in my diet and recently even have included spagetti squash in several things including my eggs in the morning. It's actually pretty good!
Whatever goes in my mouth I try to break it down into pieces that are good for me or not. Like if I break and get a hamburger I always think: cheese: saturated fat, not good, lettuce: low cal, not much nutrients, hamburger: protein good, bun: empty carbs, not good... etc.
LOL it's funny but also I can look for places to substitute or if I do succumb to a less than healthy meal then I know how to compensate later to balance my day out. It doesn't consume me but I am trying to be more mindful.
So far so good. I am hoping to get to 220 by July 31st and then to 210 by the end of August. It's slow going and sometimes I go backwards but I know I will get there eventually and I am feeling much better about that and myself. I was too hard on myself for so long. I am sure it's because I regained the weight I had lost before. Being that hard on myself made it harder to make good choices and I am glad I have move on to a mentally healthier place. Of course now if this little baby would just let me get some sleep!!
 
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