Michelle's Diary

[thedarwinfish]

...had a burger and ONION RINGS! Naughty me. And they weren't that great. I don't have a taste for grease and lard any more!

I definitely still have the taste for grease, or at least the urges for... but last time I had a mozza stick, I was so psyched and excited as I was about to eat it... and then it tasted like shit. It was such a let down. I haven't given into any other cravings for similar food since so I don't know if it was really a bad mozza stick (something I never thought existed) or if my tastes are changing some.

Nice to hear that your heart is getting stronger! Good for you!

 

[ali2]

I definitely still have the taste for grease, or at least the urges for... but last time I had a mozza stick, I was so psyched and excited as I was about to eat it... and then it tasted like shit. It was such a let down. I haven't given into any other cravings for similar food since so I don't know if it was really a bad mozza stick (something I never thought existed) or if my tastes are changing some.

Nice to hear that your heart is getting stronger! Good for you!

I have had this happen also, I get the urge for something bad, I eat it and it tastes like crap. Kinda reassuring in a way

Michelle, glad to see things are going well, keep it up!

Thanks for the encouraging words the other day, they were definately appreciated

 

[Bigguy]

Wed, May 21 2008 210.4

I did pretty well on the machine yesterday. Bumped it up to 35 minutes on the elliptical, but I found it more difficult to keep my heart rate up as high as it used to be so I guess that's a good thing. I'll have to go faster or longer I'm thinking. Did lousy at nutrition though. Didn't eat anything all day then went to a malt shop with the family and had a burger and ONION RINGS! Naughty me. And they weren't that great. I don't have a taste for grease and lard any more!

Blueberries in skim milk and an ounce of cheese this morning. I'm going to tackle a firm dvd later today to get some serious weight training in. It's been a while, hope I do okay...

I still crave grease from time to time. I have not had anything in a while that is that greasy so I do not know how it will taste.
I hope I don't have a taste for it anymore!
You are doing great Michelle- good sign that it is harder to sustain the HR. Keep it up- you will be under 200 in no time.

 

[littlekeylime]

Thanks guys. It was fun to see you've been keeping an eye on me. I sometimes have a hard time celebrating the small things, but you are right, the heart not working so hard to workout is a good thing! Yay! I hadn't really thought about it, but now I'm really happy with myself. A sure sign I'm still making progress. After being sick, I was really worried that lack of exercise was going to be horrible on my results, but I've only been active for about a month. I didn't stress about not exercising for the previous eleven years before that! Now I'm all upset about a week. Hee hee. I see it in perspective now...

The funny thing about the onion rings tasting bad is the fact that I kept shaking more salt on them to make them taste better! I'm such a fool. It's funny how you're body/taste buds change. Healthy food tastes so much better to me now, and McDonald's sucks. I guess that's a good thing. I sure miss my big mac's though. *sob* (new improved michelle says,"but, hay, you can buy some low fat thousand island dressing and make a low fat one!) (pat, pat, patting myself on the back)

I LOVE mozzy sticks too. My all time favorite bar snack. I don't think it's possible to make a bad one. There must be a low fat, quality version out there somewhere. I'll let you know if I find one.

BG, I've been looking through Dawn's cookbook and it looks great! Tonight we're going to try the homemade chicken nuggets with stove-top stuffing batter. It sounds so good. And she's got a lot of yummy looking deserts too. I just came back from the grocery store with a bunch of ingredients I need for her book. Should be a lot of fun. Thanks for the tip!

I'm thinking I might do the ellip again today. For my dvd's, I've got to pull out my "fanny lifter", weight bar and all the various weights and I don't want the living room to look like a disaster today. I've read a lot about how much better weight training is than cardio, but honestly, at this weight I think they're both awesome. My heart's already improving...

Hugs to all & hope you're having wonderful healthy days.

 

[Bigguy]

BG, I've been looking through Dawn's cookbook and it looks great! Tonight we're going to try the homemade chicken nuggets with stove-top stuffing batter. It sounds so good. And she's got a lot of yummy looking deserts too. I just came back from the grocery store with a bunch of ingredients I need for her book. Should be a lot of fun. Thanks for the tip!

I completely forgot to ask how you like the book...
I am happy you like it. I was a little worried when you ordered ti so soon.
Just watch the quantities of the meals. Some of the things in there are designed for 20 sevings or something. I know we made a shrimp and rice from that book- good but wayyyy to much.

 

[littlekeylime]

Please don't be worried about me liking the book. I got it on amazon for .01 (four bucks shipping) so it was well worth the try. It looks really good too. I haven't had the time to look at her "slow cooker" one, but I'm sure it will be good too. I LOVE cookbooks. I buy them all the time. I actually went to a Star Trek convention a few years back (yes, I am proud of my geekdom! Pictoral proof included below)(I couldn't smile because I was a Vulcan) and the only souvenir I bought was a Star Trek cookbook. Thought it would be fun to have a ST party sometime...(but I hate haggis)(well, honestly, I've never had haggis, but the thought of eating sheep liver gives me the willies)

I'll let you know how it goes, but I'm sure I'll love it. I'm not very picky.(anything would be better than sheep liver)

Hugs!

 

[littlekeylime]

I was just wondering what it will be like to be thin again...I've wanted it for so long, what will it be like when I get there? Do I think all my life's problems will be solved. No. Will it change me? Will I get my confidence back or will I still feel conspicuous? I have pinned so much on getting thin. I hope it lives up to it! Just a random thought passing through my brain at the moment...

 

[thedarwinfish]

I was thinking the same thing not long ago. I decided that while getting thin might help me to look better and a few other things, ultimately, I'm doing it for my health. I was in a very bad spot. I have (haven't tested it lately) dangerously high blood pressure (many years of smoking and 5-8L of caffeinated beverages/day will do that to you -- plus it's hereditary), I was (still am, just less so) overweight with most of it being in the worst possible spot, health-wise -- my gut. My diet was atrocious. I drank too much. But all of that was able to be changed.

So I decided to make that change. Even if I end up not feeling like I look better or don't feel more confident or whatever other personal hangups I can rattle off... no big deal. I'll work on each of those with the same determination that I used to become a healthier person when the time comes. One battle at a time. And because of this change I will (hopefully) have a lot more time on this earth to work on them.

 

[Bigguy]

I was just wondering what it will be like to be thin again...I've wanted it for so long, what will it be like when I get there? Do I think all my life's problems will be solved. No. Will it change me? Will I get my confidence back or will I still feel conspicuous? I have pinned so much on getting thin. I hope it lives up to it! Just a random thought passing through my brain at the moment...

See now that is interesting because I was thinking about that last week.
I was never thin, never. So I wondered what it would be like to shop in the regular section of the store and all that.
I hope it helps me get some confidence in myself outside of work but I really do believe I will always be a fat man somewhere.
I have pinned no hopes on anything as to not get depressed if it does not happen or i do not end up like I want to.
I just hope I do not beome a jerk.

Good question and good thought Michelle.

 

[ali2]

I think it all goes back to how much of this is mental.

You can be thin and still think fat. I find myself doing that quite a bit.

Over time that may pass...we'll see.

 

[littlekeylime]

You are right Ali, it's so mental. To change your body so much that outsiders treat you differently than they used to, is strange. In general, people aren't nice to fat people. Being thin, you generally get more attention. In my experience anyway. And if you're fat, people don't even see you. It's like you're not worth the effort. I find it's a struggle to show people who I am on the inside because they're not interested to find out.

B, you will never be a jerk! You will still be a smart ass though. Which is a really endearing quality about you!

I think it's funny how we've all thought this recently...

 

[Bigguy]

I think it is natural to think like this.
Some of us- ok most of us- have been heavy for so long that we never experienced slim/trim/fit and do not know the feeling and wonder about being 'normal' or actually feeling good about ourselves.
I know I have not idea how I will look/feel/act if/when I get to 200lbs or as fit as I want to be.

Geez- reading that I really do have a '/' fetish this morning..

 

[littlekeylime]

See, I can't imagine you not feeling good about yourself already. You look great, you're smart and very funny/entertaining. Being thin will only enhance all of that and you'll feel like a million bucks! And you'll be healthy to bat.

I was thin until I got married. Getting attention because of looks is fun, but it also has it's drawbacks. I suppose thin, attractive people complain that they are only judged by their looks as well. Just thinking out loud here...

I wish I could say I want to lose weight to be healthy, but it would be a lie. I want to look good for my husband. I want him to be proud of me. Being healthy is very important, it's just not what drives me to lose weight...

 

[Bigguy]

See, I can't imagine you not feeling good about yourself already. You look great, you're smart and very funny/entertaining. Being thin will only enhance all of that and you'll feel like a million bucks! And you'll be healthy to bat.

Thank you.

I was thin until I got married. Getting attention because of looks is fun, but it also has it's drawbacks. I suppose thin, attractive people complain that they are only judged by their looks as well. Just thinking out loud here...

I agree. Mind you I always get attention because I am abnormally tall and stando out in a crowd- but I would rather sometimes to not be the 'biggest guy in the room'- although sometimes I enjoy it. I hate when thin people who dress in almost nothing complain that they are always looked at- what did you expect when you got dressed that way in the morning?

I wish I could say I want to lose weight to be healthy, but it would be a lie. I want to look good for my husband. I want him to be proud of me. Being healthy is very important, it's just not what drives me to lose weight...[/COLOR]

I agree. I began this to look good. I saw the doctor after I started and that was when i foud out about the BP being high. I have never looked good or been in shape in my life and so much want to know how the other half lives!

If you lose weight and do it correctly no matter what the inspiration is you will get healthier by default.

 

[littlekeylime]

...I have never looked good or been in shape in my life and so much want to know how the other half lives!

What do you mean you've never looked good? You look really good right now! I know what you mean. For guys its the six-pack and guns, for women, the bikini. You're pretty damn cute now, so when you get to your desired weight, watch out! Your wife is going to have to fight off all the women.

 

[littlekeylime]

Well, we're off for our wheeling weekend at four am tomorrow. Got the jeep on the trailer and the truck's packed. Should be fun. Especially if it doesn't rain the whole time. I'm actually looking forward to not weighing myself for four days. I won't have my normal foods around me but I can always use portion control. No exercise either so that stinks. Part of the weekend we'll be at our family cabin so maybe I can get creative with some exercise. Hauling wood or something. Mostly, I want to behave so I can look forward to getting on the scale when I get home and seeing some progress. It's been a while since my ticker moved.

Hope everyone has a safe and enjoyable Memorial weekend...

 

[Bigguy]

Hey Michelle, how is it going?
You haven't posted in here in a bit....
Wondering about you.

Let us know.

 

[littlekeylime]

Thanks for asking. I've been eating right, but have been letting my days fill up too much to exercise. Bad, I know. I did get in some walking, but haven't been on the scale for a week. Scared, I guess...

I'll do ellip today, but my back's been killing me from putting in a new garden this weekend. Hauling landscaping rocks, etc. I'm finding it very difficult to keep motivated...

 

[Bigguy]

Thanks for asking. I've been eating right, but have been letting my days fill up too much to exercise. Bad, I know. I did get in some walking, but haven't been on the scale for a week. Scared, I guess...

I'll do ellip today, but my back's been killing me from putting in a new garden this weekend. Hauling landscaping rocks, etc. I'm finding it very difficult to keep motivated...

Michelle,

it is ok to not be motivated sometimes. Don't stop posting here because of it. This is a great tool to get help and support.
That being said- only you can motivate you. Why do you want to lose the weight inthe first place? Use a pair of pants or a top as a motivator or fitness goals, something to keep you going.
Eating right is great- that is a huge part of this all and it is great that you are doing it.
Working in the garden counts as exercise. Do what you can- just keep posting here!
Missed you and your purple font.

 

[littlekeylime]

Thanks for the kind words. I sorta felt like if I wasn't doing as well as you all, I was ashamed of not keeping up. I know that's stupid. We're all doing this for ourselves, but I'm so proud of all of you doing so well. Keeping an eye on the May Challenge, etc. I just felt like I didn't/don't measure up. And hated to post my "aw shits". They're not as fun as the "atta boys"