Marsia's Diary

It sounds like you had a lovely day & it won't have done you any harm. I'm glad J enjoyed his birthday.
I am going to keep trying to meditate as I would love to be able to totally relax my body & stop my brain from churning over & over things. At the doctor's yesterday, I saw a sign for a yoga class on Monday mornings.
G & I need to get stuck into a major clean & tidy up of our house too. Like yours, it's big & I would be embarrassed to have anyone call in at the moment. Housework sucks.
 
Ha ha! I was just about to log off when I saw you'd posted. :D

The music group sounds great - I'd love to be in something like that; good for K doing so well at the open mike! The woman who sang so badly, though - if she'd just lost her partner she was probably not really "there" at all - lovely that you all were so supportive and patient with her, musicians and listeners alike.
 
Grieving people do weird shit. And most people do SOME weird shit even when not grieving. I'm glad people were kind.
 
Marsia said:
The drum class went really well - I got the teacher to review a lot and only add a little, and she was really happy with our progress. I am actually starting to get so I understand what we are doing.
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That´s so important when you´re learning anything: don´t move on until you get the basics right or you´ll struggle to keep up all the time.
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I tend to compare myself to J who takes notes on his hundreds of friends and acquaintances and can look up everyone's kids' names and all sorts of stuff like that and sound totally polished around them. Actors - a totally different breed than me for sure!
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FYI: that´s not normal. If it works for him that´s great but don´t compare yourself to an extreme example!
 
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not having guests over because my parents didn't like having people over, having my friends constantly vetoed, ridiculously early curfew if I even ever got all my chores done in time to go out, ...
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:grouphug: I´m sorry you had to go through that.
 
Marsia said:
I had a kid almost 12 years ago, and never lost the pregnancy weight, plus my weight sneaks up a pound or 2 each year. I need to lose 50 lbs. or so. I don't like counting calories and am not great at being disciplined, so I am going to try cutting sugar and caffeine out of my diet and beginning walks and yoga for now, and work my way up to jogging and weights. I do a lot of physical exercise on our rural property, so may swap that for the walks and yoga some days. For instance, today I get up on the garage roof and scrape off all the moss for our insurance company, and while I am at it, will probably leaf blow the roofs and gutters and driveways.

My biggest problems are wanting honey in my tea and emotional eating when I get nervous. My mom lives in a separate house on the property, and she is pretty controlling, which triggers anxiety and I eat half a bag of Doritos or other fatty or bready thing. I need to have more prepared veggies on hand and to maybe try filling up on water instead of crap. Feeling full is comforting, so maybe if I have tea with no honey or water, that could work. Am going to try that. Maybe meditation would work instead so I relax instead of stress eating. I will try that, too.

So I just joined this forum today because I want to keep a diary and make goals for myself.

So first goal - no sugar and caffeine this week.
Second goal - if I don't do yard work, I want to do yoga or walks for the 5 weekdays.
Third goal - get the corrosion off the scale battery area so the scale works again.
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Well congrats because you have taken a few really important steps...recognizing that you want to lose weight, examining habits that you feel hold you back, making yourself accountable by posting in this forum, and setting a few realistic goals for yourself. So you are on your way! you just have to keep up the good work!

The good news is that you can totally get to where you want to go without counting calories. As a matter of fact I steer my patients away from it unless they have the personality type that thrives on that kind of thing. Otherwise you are setting yourself up for failure because you will never stick to it if you aren't enjoying it.

Prepping some healthy food in advance and having it ready in the fridge for when you are hungry or stressed will be a key thing for you, especially since mom will be lurking around. I get it because my mom is the same way no matter how old I get or how educated I am! But you could also consider turning a negative into a positive and recruiting her to try and lose some weight with you! That should take out some stress and give you a buddy to help keep you accountable!

Either way you seem like you are starting off well so good luck to you!
 
Hi, Marsia. You have done exceptionally well to get to the stage you are at right now. You are right about our bodies though. Mine is hanging on like grim death!
 
I'm going to go back to checking out thrift stores as I love the whole idea of recycling & clothes are just so expensive now & mostly cruddy quality anyway. Some of my best buys have been in thrift shops. We have a new one opening soon in our local town & I am looking forward to that. You did well with your buys, by the sound of it :)
 
Marsia said:
Went out to water and our apricot tree bore it's first fruit since I planted it maybe 5 years ago. Wow, was it amazing - strong flavored like dried apricots, but so fresh and delicious.
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Oh, yum! Clever you for planting it. I love apricots that taste like apricots.
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J and I had therapy the other day and it really helped with just the first visit. She is really good and gets to the root of things fast!
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I am so happy about this & would love to hear more privately but only if you feel like it.
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The house is almost clean on the inside, but I wish we could just enjoy the last days of summer before school starts instead of cleaning like crazy!
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Hmm. I have forgotten why house-cleaning is so important at the moment. Can't you just take a break & enjoy?
 
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Yes, we have honey bees with pollen packed onto their back legs so they look all fat and cute.
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That's lovely! If you don't plan to take honey from them they don't need a lot of help (although semi regular treatment against mites would be good for them) but if you're going to transfer them to a hive this time of the year they need to be able to take their honeycombs along (which is hard if they've built them right into a trash bag) or they'll starve over winter.
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It was less expensive than commercial veggies would have been.
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I assume you meant to say they less expensive than buying from a store (with associated middlemen) would have been. Organic farms are very much commercial ventures and the people who run them need to be able to make a living same as normal farmers.

I'm glad you had such a fun day!
 
Just reading about you waking up with a cat on top of you takes my breath away!
Yes, I do think you need a smartphone :) I need my phone so often to find my way somewhere. I get lost so easily :blush5:
 
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