I agree that's completely wrong and you're right to not let her run roughshod over you.
I wonder if she's so used to people agreeing with her high and mighty expert opinions she just assumes that if she's told you about her decisions that - of course - automatically means you agree. Unless she talked to N after you specifically told her you disagree. Then she's just a lying liar who lies. Not sure it really matters though: either way you're right to stick to your guns and not get intimidated.
Thanks Llama! It's really nice having your support!! C did not talk with me about this except months and months ago when we set up the therapy, and what she's doing now is not what we agreed to at all.
I am so glad you have your therapist to support you to stand up for your needs in this whole process. You sound very strong, which is great but it's good to have the support of others too as it can be exhausting standing up for oneself and easy to move to self-doubt. (well for me anyhow)
I love the idea of focusing on psychological strengths. It can become so easy to focus on our weaknesses. I know for me i can get caught in focusing on my anxiety disorder, but I do have a lot of really good strengths so it's good to remember to stay focused on those!
Thanks Liza, I used to have terrible trouble standing up for myself, and now I am finally doing it and it feels really empowering. It is still exhausting and kind of scary, but also really good to stop being afraid and be on my own side instead. I also focus way too much on my social anxiety, but I am learning to be more ok with it. I like the idea of appreciating what we are good at!
I admire how strong you are, Marsia. I'm sure you have your moments of doubt, but I see you as being stronger with everything that comes along. I might do that test later.
I just started it, but realised halfway through that I must be feeling down about myself & stopped. I might go back to it later. I love that you are feeling grateful & positive through all of this, M xoxo
Edit: I just went back & completed it. It was interesting & food for thought. My top strength is honesty, followed by love, gratitude, bravery & kindness. Zest was my least. I'm glad I did that test. Thanks, M
Wow, thank you Cate!! I am feeling way stronger and lots more competent. I am glad you liked the test and that it helped with feeling better! My top ones are: Appreciation of Beauty and Excellence, Gratitude, Humility, Honesty, and Love. My bottom one is leadership. I do not like leading groups at all!
Today was nice - our walk today was on the beach, and though it is getting muggy already, there was a strong breeze and lots of pretty jellyfish washed up on shore. K is designing her home page for her website for school, and I finished up organizing for mediation. I am done, and I feel as ready as I'll ever be, and it's not for a while, so that's a nice feeling to be done ahead of time so I don't have to worry anymore.
I ate well today: granola and milk for breakfast, brown rice with salsa, cheese, and a cilantro sauce for lunch, and steelhead trout and creamed spinach with smoked paprika for dinner. I did have a very small glass of peanut butter chocolate smoothie because K wanted me to make her some, and it's too delicious to pass up.