Lisa's Final Countdown, The Good Days, the Bad, & the Ugly

You know what I just realized? I have never stopped by your journal! *naughty, Annie, naughty!*
I know what you mean about the scale... Even when I only weigh once a week, I seem to freak out when I don't see a loss. I've been having trouble with losing these past couple weeks (Damn TOM!) and I've decided to stop weighing myself until all that is over. It's ridiculous. I'm up 5.5 pounds... gah!

Thanks for your encouraging words in my journal. I think I keep missing you on AIM... :p

Oh joy... It's time to try to shove a pill down my cat's throat. FUN!! :willy_nilly:

Well... Here goes.

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Hey Lisa! Sorry I've been MIA, I have been super busy with work and school! I cannot believe you are weighing yourself in 3 weeks...WOW. If that isn't willpower I don't know what is. I weigh myself at least 10 times a day. Guilty single female activity: eating then weighing myself after I'm done eating. EVERY MEAL. I don't know why, I just think it is interesting. Sometimes I'll be like "OH that meal was 0.2 lbs"

I'm strange.

Alright, off that tangent, this plateau WILL END. It will not be forever. Mix it up with your diet and workouts, and take the bad with the good. You'll be fine. Enjoy the great weather we're having!!
 
'Bout the only time i successfully put the scale away is when I get pissed at it for showing me a number I don't like...

Eventually i realize it isn't the scale's fault...
 
Heya Lisa, I feel bad cuz I said I woudl be around on Friday and I wasnt, LOL...I took a nap and alot longer than planned the lil one let me sleep then I was out adn about all freaking afternoon and then the evneing...Im sorry I missed you...I wanna talk soon:)
 
reluctantcabbie said:
'Bout the only time i successfully put the scale away is when I get pissed at it for showing me a number I don't like...

Eventually i realize it isn't the scale's fault...
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Hey, who's side are you on?!? lol But seriously I know...it's just if I know I'm constipated or retaining water, why torture myself with a number on the scale that is temporary, right?

And thanks buckeye, but it's not really willpower. I honestly don't want to weigh in right now. I just want to focus on ME and doing well on food and exercise. The number on the scale would be the same whether I see it or not.

Paperairplanes...no I'm bad. I've really felt like crap lately and it's making things difficult.

Annie, thanks for swining by :) And don't beat yourself up...I think you did come by before but if not we talk on yours. And have fun with the kitty pill, i have to do that with my puppy right now too, lol. Dogs are a bit easier though I think. Cat's are naturally suspicious :X.

Cerella, don't feel bad. I don't even think I was on this Friday...I don't remember. Like I said above I have been super exhausted and not sure why. I'm taking my iron, etc. Course it may have something to do with the fact I'm not sleeping well because the dog is in the bed with us. She doesn't fit in her crate with that huge cone on her head. She sleeps at the foot but creeps up at night sometimes and bashes us with the cone, lol. Then goes back to sleep. Plus my hubby is not the most considerate when he's asleep....total bed hog. I know this sounds bad but I miss when we worked opposite night shifts and I had the bed to myself :X. Speaking of which I'm about to go take a nap while he's at work cuz I was up all night at work myself.

If I don't swing back today I'll catch you all tomorrow :) *hugz*
 
Sorry you've been feeling shitty lately my dear! I hope the, uh, constipation passes and you get back to normal! I've been so busy at work, but wanted to drop by someone's diary before I rush to get some advertising art in the mail.......HUGS!
 
douknowjello said:
Paperairplanes...no I'm bad. I've really felt like crap lately and it's making things difficult.
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:( I'm sorry... I hate it when I feel bad, just like with that cold the other week, and it really makes you feel REALLY unmotivated. :( Feel better, love!
Annie, thanks for swining by :) And don't beat yourself up...I think you did come by before but if not we talk on yours. And have fun with the kitty pill, i have to do that with my puppy right now too, lol. Dogs are a bit easier though I think. Cat's are naturally suspicious :X.
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haha... Now my kitty won't get anywhere close to me and she freaks out if I touch her head. And she's a really good hider. :/
At least a dog will swallow the pill. With my cat, I have to take her head in my hand, lower her jaw, wrap a pill in a tiny bit of a kitty treat so it won't get stuck in her throat, and toss the pill in the groove of her tongue way far in the back of her mouth, and then push it down her throat. All while trying to avoid getting mauled... she's not declawed. :rolleyes:

Cerella, don't feel bad. I don't even think I was on this Friday...I don't remember. Like I said above I have been super exhausted and not sure why. I'm taking my iron, etc. Course it may have something to do with the fact I'm not sleeping well because the dog is in the bed with us. She doesn't fit in her crate with that huge cone on her head. She sleeps at the foot but creeps up at night sometimes and bashes us with the cone, lol. Then goes back to sleep. Plus my hubby is not the most considerate when he's asleep....total bed hog. I know this sounds bad but I miss when we worked opposite night shifts and I had the bed to myself :X. Speaking of which I'm about to go take a nap while he's at work cuz I was up all night at work myself.

If I don't swing back today I'll catch you all tomorrow :) *hugz*
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I say buy a bigger crate. haha... it should be just you and your hubby in bed, no puppies allowed!! Especially when your dog has a cone on its head... would you sleep in the same bed as someone (who's a bed hog) in 2 leg casts? I wouldn't!
Ha, I can't sleep in the same bed with anyone. My sister always sleeps on the floor when we have a hotel room... even though she's older than me.:p
I'm a kicker. And a bed hog. And apparently I talk in my sleep too. :rolleyes:
I'm never willing to sleep on the floor unless it's like one bed and there's no option (I won't put my parents on the floor! :p)
<3 feel better, love, and make sure you keep taking care of yourself! It's easy to start to not care... and that never ends happily. :(
<3 Annie
 
lol Annie, you're so funny. The dog only has to have the cone on for maybe another week at most so no point spending money on a crate. She won't outgrow the one she's in...it's just not long enough for her and her funnel head, lol. And today her and I slept just fine so...I think it's HUBBY I need to buy a crate for :D I think on "I love Lucy" she had the right idea with the two double beds, lol. As for kitty, have you tried a bit of butter? It greases it enough it slides right down. The vet showed me where to squeeze the jaw gently and soon as they pop their mouth open I put it right down and then they sit there licking their chops cuz the butter taste. So with my cats it's not too bad of an ordeal. I've gotten pretty good at being sneakier than them though, lol. Catch them half asleep and pop it in and they aren't even sure what happened :D
 
So from last night until today, after already having some stuff so stressful I could have cried, here's the terrific topper.

I'm walking out with one of the girls I work with from Rite Aid. We're both in dresses cuz of a wedding we were going later. As we come out of the building and walk to my car, this guy comes through the intersection and passes Rite Aid. From the intersection until all the way after I hear him yelling at me.

SHAMU THE WHALE! YOU FAT FUCKING BITCH!!

I'm sure they even hear him in the store, and the hostility was as bad as what he said. I called a friend in tears and she asked what did I do to the guy....did I cut him off or something.

I said NO, I was in the store for ten minutes and walked out. I walked out fat, that's what I did.

I know we live in a society that I cannot change but, excuse my language, I'm fucking sick of it. All of it. Every time I'm treated like shit because of how I look, whether I even know that's why or not.
 
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douknowjello said:
So from last night until today, after already having some stuff so stressful I could have cried, here's the terrific topper.

I'm walking out with one of the girls I work with from Rite Aid. We're both in dresses cuz of a wedding we were going later. As we come out of the building and walk to my car, this guy comes through the intersection and passes Rite Aid. From the intersection until all the way after I hear him yelling at me.

SHAMU THE WHALE! YOU FAT FUCKING BITCH!!

I'm sure they even hear him in the store, and the hostility was as bad as what he said. I called a friend in tears and she asked what did I do to the guy....did I cut him off or something.

I said NO, I was in the store for ten minutes and walked out. I walked out fat, that's what I did.

I know we live in a society that I cannot change but, excuse my language, I'm fucking sick of it. All of it. Every time I'm treated like shit because of how I look, whether I even know that's why or not.
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Holy shit; that is HORRIBLE. There is no excuse for that.

I experienced some of that in the UK; a cab driver in Norwich once called me "loads of love", and a POLICE OFFICER in York called me "tons o'fun". You're right, it's fucking unacceptable.
 
Thats completey awful! People are such assholes--I am honestly livid that someone would have the audacity to do that! Its completely unfair, they don't know you, your situation, or anything about your life. If I would have seen that happen I would have chased after that ass and kicked him good and hard where it counted. Because of iggnorant people like that I feel they are the reason there are so many eating disorders (bulimia, Binge eating, Anorexia) and so many low self esteems and low body images in our society. I wish jerks would know the reprocussions of those things they do and say, and hopefully they will, because Karmas a Bitch.

Ive seen your pictures, and I think your beautiful Lisa. You have a brilliant personality, and your a wonderful woman. That man was iggnorant and a pig, and no self deserving respectful woman will ever come into his life--guaranteed. While you on the other hand have a absoloutely fabulous husband who adores you. I envy you for that very reason. Don't let someones comments hurt you, because its not worth it.

Im so sorry this happened. I truly am.
 
Mad4Chillas said:
Thats completey awful! People are such assholes--I am honestly livid that someone would have the audacity to do that! Its completely unfair, they don't know you, your situation, or anything about your life. If I would have seen that happen I would have chased after that ass and kicked him good and hard where it counted. Because of iggnorant people like that I feel they are the reason there are so many eating disorders (bulimia, Binge eating, Anorexia) and so many low self esteems and low body images in our society. I wish jerks would know the reprocussions of those things they do and say, and hopefully they will, because Karmas a Bitch.

Ive seen your pictures, and I think your beautiful Lisa. You have a brilliant personality, and your a wonderful woman. That man was iggnorant and a pig, and no self deserving respectful woman will ever come into his life--guaranteed. While you on the other hand have a absoloutely fabulous husband who adores you. I envy you for that very reason. Don't let someones comments hurt you, because its not worth it.

Im so sorry this happened. I truly am.
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If I hadn't had one of the girls I take care of with me I think I would have attempted to chase him down and make him face me. My next thought was too bad I didn't own pepper spray. Seriously I was already having one of the most horrendous days and you're right...people who do this shit don't even know the outcome of their actions. What if I'd been suicidal and that was the last straw? Which I'm not but I'm sure that happens and I really think people will have to answer for that in the end.

And as much as I logically know I shouldn't have let it get to me, my feelings are another matter. It left me hurt and angry...sure I'll get over it quickly enough but like I said, this shit happens way too often in varying degrees. All I can do is lose the weight to reduce the damage and then steer clear of assholes best I can.
 
douknowjello said:
If I hadn't had one of the girls I take care of with me I think I would have attempted to chase him down and make him face me. My next thought was too bad I didn't own pepper spray. Seriously I was already having one of the most horrendous days and you're right...people who do this shit don't even know the outcome of their actions. What if I'd been suicidal and that was the last straw? Which I'm not but I'm sure that happens and I really think people will have to answer for that in the end.

And as much as I logically know I shouldn't have let it get to me, my feelings are another matter. It left me hurt and angry...sure I'll get over it quickly enough but like I said, this shit happens way too often in varying degrees. All I can do is lose the weight to reduce the damage and then steer clear of assholes best I can.
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Assholes are assholes though; if they don't pick on your weight they'll just pick on something else. Lose the weight for YOU, not for anyone else. And know that you are an amazing person and that you have people here who really care about you.
 
txsqlchick said:
Holy shit; that is HORRIBLE. There is no excuse for that.

I experienced some of that in the UK; a cab driver in Norwich once called me "loads of love", and a POLICE OFFICER in York called me "tons o'fun". You're right, it's fucking unacceptable.
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Yea it is, people are ignorant. My sister in law, who I love dearly, tried to make a joke about it saying I should have chased the guy down....and sat on him. If she wasn't having such a hard time today with some other stuff I would have chewed her out. Seriously we have some people who are just hateful asses, and others who don't stop and think. The police officer I would have reported.
 
txsqlchick said:
Assholes are assholes though; if they don't pick on your weight they'll just pick on something else. Lose the weight for YOU, not for anyone else. And know that you are an amazing person and that you have people here who really care about you.
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Oh I know....but I want to lose the weight exactly for me, so I don't have to put up with this kind of treatment anymore. It wasn't great when I was in the 200's but honestly when a person gets over 300 pounds at my height it's even worse. And I'm not just talking about people yelling out car windows. I deal with co-workers every day who think they are better than me and treat me like shit because of the weight...or out in public people who stare and say stuff in stage whispers. I'm tired of it. I don't have to be skinny but I know if I even drop another 100 pounds I'll stop being so conspicuous and a more acceptable form of "fat". Society is not going to change, least not any time soon. So my only choice is to deal with it or for ME to change. I have friends like you who did :) And I know from what you've said it makes a difference. It's going to take time but no reason I can't do this too. I may start carrying some pepper spray and water balloons for my public walks though :D
 
douknowjello said:
Yea it is, people are ignorant. My sister in law, who I love dearly, tried to make a joke about it saying I should have chased the guy down....and sat on him. If she wasn't having such a hard time today with some other stuff I would have chewed her out. Seriously we have some people who are just hateful asses, and others who don't stop and think. The police officer I would have reported.
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Wouldn't have done much good; these are the same police whom my ex-husband saw beating a homeless man.

douknowjello said:
Oh I know....but I want to lose the weight exactly for me, so I don't have to put up with this kind of treatment anymore. It wasn't great when I was in the 200's but honestly when a person gets over 300 pounds at my height it's even worse. And I'm not just talking about people yelling out car windows. I deal with co-workers every day who think they are better than me and treat me like shit because of the weight...or out in public people who stare and say stuff in stage whispers. I'm tired of it. I don't have to be skinny but I know if I even drop another 100 pounds I'll stop being so conspicuous and a more acceptable form of "fat". Society is not going to change, least not any time soon. So my only choice is to deal with it or for ME to change. I have friends like you who did :) And I know from what you've said it makes a difference. It's going to take time but no reason I can't do this too. I may start carrying some pepper spray and water balloons for my public walks though :D
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LOL, I hear you! At my biggest I was around 257 lbs and now that I'm down in the 170s, people DEFINITELY treat me differently. And I know it's because of my appearance. And it's hard not to throw that back in their face, i.e. "Would you have held that door open for me this time last year? PROBABLY NOT!" I didn't get a whole lot of whispers but I did get stares and I did get treated badly all the time in restaurants and stores. There's so much prejudice and discrimination against obese and overweight people. It's sick really. A friend of mine weighs upwards of 400 pounds, and that's after losing almost 100 pounds with the lap band. When I go places with him I have heard people say "what is SHE doing with HIM". WTF? Not like I'm some hottie, and HE is the one beating off women with a stick while I can't get a date!

People are assholes.
 
OMG, I just can't believe such a hateful creep exists! He has got to be awfully miserable (or on drugs!) to be so mean and trashy..sounds like a very bratty and unhappy teenager. You are such a sweetheart, it is so sad that you are treated like that by people. You dont deserve it girl and I hope you wont let him and others get you down (though I see it must be SO HARD). GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
 
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