Lisa's Final Countdown, The Good Days, the Bad, & the Ugly

Hi Lisa

Like you I have been missing a lot and pretty much abandoned my diary. I have been back for a little while in the challenges section - just like you spoke of doing.

I am afraid that I dont get round to visiting other peoples diaries these days either.

I am actually kicking off a new challenge which starts on Saturday and it would be great to have you with me. Just put a reply in the suggestion thread if you fancy the idea.

Either way - I hope that your project is going well.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Hi douknowjello! :)
I thought I'd say hi since I've been lurking here for a bit. I hope all is ok with you and you'll be back soon. You're very positive and cheerful! :seeya:
 
Well it sucks that Lisa is MIA! We miss you Lisa, no worries about coming back after an absence. We all do that! But its TIME TO COME BACK and finish what you started with us. You can do this Lisa!!!
 
Hey guys, was great to see people still posted and didn't give up on me. I've been in complete shut down mode. I don't even know what I weight right now but I'm betting I've hit a new high and I feel horrible.

The reason I haven't been on here though, I've been going through a really bad time. My husband's health issues finally got so bad he couldn't deny it anymore and tell me he was fine. We found out he has a brain tumor, its on his pituitary gland. I've been scared to death and the medicine he was one caused horrible migraines so I've had to watch him go through this and suffer and couldn't do anything.

In the meantime I should have gone to the dr. myself but with his medical expenses and not working I just can't afford to. But I know my pcos and insulin resistance is not under control. I can feel it. And with all the stress and so much dumped on me at work as well I haven't been good about my taking my metformin consistantly.

So, I'm very drained all the way around and I don't have it in me to just jump on the bandwagon right now. I can't promise I'm going to start counting calories and committing to a zillion things right off the bat but I know I need to get to the place where I can. I need to get on track with my health so I thought coming back here would be a first step.

I don't know how much or if I'll have time to catch up on diaries like I did but I hope to find out who is still here and how my friends are doing. Thanks for supporting me even while I was MIA :D
 
:hug2:aaaawwww:hug2:Hunny:(*GREAT BIG HUGS*:hug2:

Im so sooooorry to hear this news about hubby...

Right now you cant put yourself first and I for one totally get that. WOW:(

Just know Imhere for you...I totally miss you on messenger and if youever need someone to chat with or lean on Im here:)

We lost one of our individuals a cpl weeks ago:(This is my first death, really sucks, the house is sad and not the same...

Im always around if ya want me

:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:
 
Hi Lisa

Sorry to hear about your husband's health. You were asking about suggestions in a message that you sent me and I mentioned a brilliant posting on PCOS. I am going to paste it in here so that you can find it easily. So much of this is absolutely right. When I first read this - I thought - why didnt someone post this before I discovered a heap of them by trial and error...

I suffer from PCOS but still reached my weight loss goal last year. Here are my "Top 10 Tips" to help you in 2008.

Health club memberships will be at an all-time high. The promotional flyer I got from the local gym in the mail today went straight into the trash. I am vowing never to pay another year of “fat tax,” those fifty-plus dollars a month many of us agree to pay for a one-year membership that most will probably use for a few weeks. Of course, I believe in exercise as part of any weight-loss program, but it doesn’t require a gym or any expensive torture contraptions.

I’m sure sign-ups on ediets.com will soar. I’ve tried most of the more popular diets they offer: Atkins, Slim-Fast Optima, etc. -- the results never went beyond losing five or so pounds. Atkins is just so hard! And I consider a Slim-Fast shake desert, not a meal! But after years of trial and error and much reading on the subject, I have at last found a healthy, balanced diet that doesn’t require any special shakes or the banishing of carbs.

I also tried numerous supplements. Hoodia, which I took religiously for four weeks, had absolutely no impact on curbing my appetite, along with a few others containing stimulants that made me feel like I was having a heart attack. But don’t get me wrong; I do feel that the RIGHT supplements can have a dramatic impact on weight loss.

I believe the underlying cause of PCOS is insulin resistance. And I believe this because as soon as I started to treat my insulin resistance. I saw a dramatic improvement in my skin and in my hair: less acne, more hair. And I also reached my weight loss goal of losing 45 pounds over the course of last year. I am 5’9” and now weigh a healthy 150 pounds.

Because of insulin resistance, many women with PCOS have a much harder time losing weight. Here is why: Insulin is the hormone responsible for allowing glucose, or blood sugar, to be absorbed by the cells of the body, where it is converted to energy. If you are insulin resistant, your cells react sluggishly to insulin. When you eat a meal -- whether it's steak, fish or vegetables -- the body breaks it down into glucose, a usable energy form. When you are insulin resistant, extra glucose remains in the blood stream, until it is finally sent to the liver and converted to excess body fat.

These are my Top 10 Tips to Weight Loss with PCOS.

1.
Gradually cut down on refined carbohydrates (white bread, white rice, white pasta and most sweets) and replace them with healthy sources of carbohydrates (whole grain bread, brown rice and whole wheat pasta). Refined carbs have been processed so that most of the fiber and nutrients are stripped away. This causes the body to quickly convert them into glucose. Whole grains still contain the fiber that will allow your body to digest the food more slowly, keeping you blood sugar levels from spiking and help to correct insulin resistance. I found that I was able to lose weight by eating roughly 70 grams of healthy carbohydrates per day.

2. Avoid all hydrogenated fats. Look at labels. If the product contains ingredients like hydrogenated vegetable oil, don’t buy it. Look for products that are free of hydrogenated oils and trans fat.

3. Moderate your intake of saturated fats. Saturated fat can mostly be found in animal products like: bacon, red meat and cheese.

4.
Incorporate healthy fats into your diet: instead of cooking with vegetable oil use olive oil. Add nuts and avocados into your salad. They are excellent sources of Omega-3, the heart-healthy fat.

5.
Have lean protein at every meal. This will help to control glucose spikes. Servings should be 3-4 oz, about the size of a deck of cards. Try turkey, poultry, veggie burgers, and lean cuts of pork and beef.

6. Avoid starchy vegetables like carrots, beets, corn and potatoes. They naturally contain higher amounts of sugar that can cause glucose levels to rise. Opt for vegetables like broccoli, cauliflower, asparagus and zucchini, which are low in sugar and high in fiber.

7.
Buy whole foods. This means if it comes in a box, it’s probably not good for you. Prepackaged food is full of preservatives, chemicals and sodium which can actually make PCOS symptoms worse.

8. Start an exercise program you can stick with. I began with walking 10 minutes a day, 3 days per week. Now I have worked my way up to jogging for 30 minutes, 5 days per week. Find an activity you enjoy whether it’s walking, rollerblading, hiking or swimming, and gradually increase your workout session lengths and the number of days per week you do them.

9. Begin taking supplements. (Insulite Labs PCOS System offers the best combination of supplements for women with PCOS that I've found.)

10. Take it slow! Losing more than half a pound per week is too fast and you will probably just gain it back.

Like I said in the message (although I do realise that your focus is bound to be with your husband's health) try to eat as clean as possible for your health's sake. Although there is an excellent section on nutrition on the forum you may not have the energy to look there - I am listing as easy individual bonuses in the Summer Shake-up challenge (scoresheet thread) what I think are some major ones - and you could do a lot worse than cherry pick any there that you have the energy to try for.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Thanks guys :) As for hubby's health not much I can do now but get us both eating better again. When I think back though to all the whining, excuses and stressing I did before while dieting I just feel silly. I wound myself up over dumb stuff and put so much pressure I ended up doing what I was trying to avoid. Funny thing about being drained is the strange sense of calm and perspective I have right now. I always jump on something like a crazy maniac, whatever it is, then can't hold out. And I know I can be very OC about stuff. So I think the key to my life right now is just to find balance and some peace. Get my health in order and do what I know works for the weight loss and set my goals for keeping to it for the long term instead of being so focused on the results themselves. Hope I can retain this outlook and not get caught up in the scale roller coaster this time, and the stupid panic every time it stops moving. I really think my problem with weight loss has always been, I make it too big, more complicated than it is, and get scared. And I bet when I get to my goal I'm going to be amazed how simple it was and wonder what my problem was and regret the time I've wasted. I've never had that thought before so I hope this is a break through.

I did get on the scale a bit ago and was actually relieved. I seriously was expecting to be 25 pounds heavier but it's showing at 240.6. That's still 8 pounds from my highest, which I was sure I'd passed. I'll see about having some help getting measurements later. Then like I said, I have my starting point but I can get on with it and focus on my health and feeling better.
 
Hey Lisa! I'm glad to see you stopped in. I have similar problems with weight loss, meaning that I over-complicate things. I need to get healthy though, I realize how unhealthy I have gotten over my little hiatus. I hope you are going to check in with us every once in a while!! See you soon I hope... *Hugssss*
 
OH LISA!! :hug2: I'm so pleased you're back, but I'm really sorry to hear about your husband's medical problems.

I agree, I jump on something manically and get so overwhelmed and stressed that I just can't deal with it, and go back to where I started. I need to find a way to ease into change slowly, so I don't burn out.

I'm sitting here in our room at the beach and I wish I could see you and hug you in person. :( You need to schedule some YOU-time... I know you're stressed and anxious and I think you need to take some time and just relax, and say to yourself, "I love myself, and I am calm, tranquil, and in the moment."

:) I LOVE YOU!!!

You'll be okay, I know you will.
:) If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here.
<3
 
Lisa, it sounds like you've been through a ton of crap and my heart goes out to you. I wish you nothing but the best and hope that your hubby is doing better!

You know what though. Just a quick thing to say, and it is really hard to focus sometimes on our selves when someone we are deeply involved with is going through health issues, but...

When I was a first responder here at my company, the instructor that gave us our training used to ask us "when you walk into a room and someone is lying on the floor injured, who is the most important person in the room?"

The answer is you! The point he is making is that in order to help the guy on the floor, you have to make sure you don't get injured in the process.

Same applies here. If you want to be there for your hubby and give him all the support you can, help him through anything he is going through, you have to make sure you are taking care of yourself too. It's easy to lose sight of that sometimes when you are so close though.
 
Hey guys :) I don't have time to post right now cuz I gotta go to work...working mad hours right now but I'll be back tonight or tomorrow to post my game plan, which I've started as of yesterday.
 
Thanks you guys for all your encouraging words :) My husband's doing better for the most part except for being exhausted all the time, still some mood swings. The most stress is coming from the fact he hasn't worked in 3 months because of this so we are missing his income. And my job....well I've realized today it's affecting my whole life stress wise. A woman at my company enjoys terrorizing people and she has the power to do so. Unfortunately because of the extent of my weight gain since working there I really can't go get another job right now...but same time she's constantly got us all in fear we're going to be fired at any moment. I don't have the energy to explain in more detail and actually I don't really want to. But needless to say the pressure is on for me to make some life changes. Unfortunately I don't do well under pressure long term. I just hate that I have so many good things in my life and yet this situation has me in a constant state of anxiety and fear. Life is too short for that.

So, as far as my weight plan goes I'm under doctors care and I'm taking Adipex. Yes I know what I'm doing and this is my diary so please don't anyone use this as a place to start their debate over the evils of diet pills. Right now it's necessary, and a whole lot less risk than surgery. My pcos and insulin resistance have me so exhausted and my food cravings so out of control that I need the help. For me it's my last resort because at 5' and 340 pounds, I can't stand the way I feel health wise and I just can't live like this.

I started taking them Sunday and immediately felt ALOT better than I have in some time. It was so nice to have some energy and not focus on food non stop. My only concern now is I don't want to eat too little but I think with all my OVER eating my body is just relieved at the moment. As I get a good start I will probably not use them every day and just use them during hard times when I feel cravings hit.

Anyway I won't be on here every day because I have alot to do. I've let alot of things slide in all of this and I have things I've let go that are hanging over my head paperwork wise and my house is a complete mess and unorganized. My husband being home but too exhausted to do much doesn't help either. Over the next 6 months I just need to over haul my life and get on track. I just gotta figure out how I can stick to this commitment regardless how I feel.

Some bad days mixed in with the good are ok. But I can't keep hitting this hard then not focusing on my health at all for months at a time. Unfortunately endurance never was my strong point ;/
 
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Lisa, I for one, would never be the one to say yea or nay to someone's choice of weight loss method.

Botom line, you are under a doctor's care for this and being monitored. If this is what it takes to get you healthy, take whatever road you need to take.

Glad hubby is doing a little better.

My wife's company sounds a bit like yours. She is currently doing about 3 people's jobs because they are all under the threat of having the carpet pulled out at any moment.

Yeah, stress sucks. I feel you.

Glad you're around though :hug2:
 
Hey Karl :) thanks so much for swinging by to check on me again. And yea that really wasn't meant for you or my support group of regular friends on here. More those drive by people who read half a sentence then use diaries to launch arguments or criticize. I had that go on in my diary before and it took it's toll. I've learned alot in this forum but I also realize before I was so busy trying to do what I thought everyone else thought I was supposed to that I lost track of the point. But anyway :) enough rambling. Again, glad you're still here!

So the day after I weighed myself last week I weighed again and it was 344.6. So I don't know if I just had a false weigh in before that or what but yea....that was a bit scary. Fortunately I didn't dwell on it. This morning I'm at 335. It has been really nice to feel better, have more energy for a change and not think about food every second. There's been times even thinking of food was unappealing.

I haven't kept track of my calories but I need to start doing that. Yesterday I was starving on the way to work I stopped at Wendy's and got a chicken sandwich and a chicken wrap and a frosty. When I DO get hungry I could knaw your arm off, hence the bad choices. The food didn't even taste good...actually did I even taste it? lol. For dinner I ate vegetables and ranch, and a container from the deli of fruit. NOTHING else sounded good and I actually wanted that.

I think after all the over eating giving my body a break has been a good thing but I know I can't continue to eat so few calories, thats gonna end up in disaster. So I need to stop being lazy and start tracking them and add some exercise in. This medicine is a great crutch but if I continue to eat so little I'm probably going to have to take it intermittantly and use it only for the times I want to eat us out of the house. That'd probably be better anyway so I don't build up a tolerance. That's my current thoughts anyway.

As usual I think the getting my food under control for the most part won't be a problem. It's the exercise I'm going to HAVE to commit to, no excuses. I did some exercise yesterday with one of my girls that were from her physical therapy and it felt SO good...my muscles were like YAY on the leg lifts just to be used. I mean yea I felt the burn but seriously it felt GOOD. Anyway, time to get the day started. I'll post back soon.
 
A woman walked up to a little old man rocking in a chair on his porch. "I couldn't help noticing how happy you look," she said. "What's your secret for a long happy life?"

"I smoke three packs of cigarettes a day," he said. "I also drink a case of whiskey a week, eat fatty foods, and never exercise."

"That's amazing," the woman said. "How old are you?"

"Twenty-six," he said.
 
Hello Sunshineeeeee :)!!!!
...Get back in here and start logging your food cause we miss you!!! :grouphug:!!!:Angel_anim:

...We all go through ups and downs...and it's about Fishing yourself out of the downs...more than it is about keeping the ups....!!! That's the TRUTH and the REALITY of life!!...:iagree:!!

...Step by Step and we can get there...you just have to GET IN HERE first to get that accountability to yourself!!! ....I'll be waiting...:toetap05:!!!!

"The difference between winning and losing is most often...not quitting." Walt Disney!!

..you can and WILL DO THIS...because YOU DESERVE THIS!!!
 
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