kelly's diary

Wow, you are really getting a lot of exercise in there!

But I completely understand about the smoking. I could not hack that. And the smell on your clothes -- YUCK!

By the way, I've put together a little index of "Words of Wisdom" -- links to some of the best posts I've found here at WLF. It's just in its initial stages now, and I'll add to it as time permits, but you may find it useful:
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/topic/11337-words-wisdom.html#post236986
 
Way to go on the walking, I wish I had more time during the day hours to walk outside. Your doing FABULOUS! keep up the good work
Kim
 
A couple weeks ago you started a thread where you were wondering "why are people so nice to me all of a sudden...is it the weight loss?"...and I read your diary and am reminded again how often we pick up on and exaggerate our own flaws while not quite seeing the seeing the whole oceans of perfections we contain....you, my dear, are such a wonderful bundle of enthusiasm, and determination, and inner joyfulness, and openess to life - it comes across in every word you write...I'm thinking "well of course people are nice to you and happy to be around you"...hell, I'm semi-surprised that stray dogs don't follow you home from your walks!:) Have a great day chica.
 
Happychubette said:
Five years they have collected dust. Who knew they were only fifteen pounds away, yet there they sat in my trunk. It has only been three and a half months. I am still going!
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In my opinion this statement right here speaks volumes...Your doing so great - keep up the good work and all the positivity that is radiating from you!!!
 
Thank you so much everybody. I never expected so much praise. I'm glad my happiness has filtered through.

184 on the scales today. Woohoo.
 
well done on your loss!!
and cym is totally right .. people are juding you by the inside of you .. your bright disposition and enthusiasm sparkle in wlf :) thankyou for all the encouragement and advice you have given me. hope you are having a fab day x
 
Yesterdays exercise. 45 minute walk and 400 bounces on a trampoline.

Going gardening today. Later, dinner with Michael, my new friend. He could be a wonderful grandfather or father type for me. I have powerful feelings for him, as like an unmet need. Will try to move a small tree for him.
 
Happychubette said:
Yesterdays exercise. 45 minute walk and 400 bounces on a trampoline.

Going gardening today. Later, dinner with Michael, my new friend. He could be a wonderful grandfather or father type for me. I have powerful feelings for him, as like an unmet need. Will try to move a small tree for him.
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Hi there! I wanna tell you about my trampoline story. One of my friends in high school was quite large and we were jumping on a trampoline in someone's backyard and I was enjoying watching Celene go up and down because her face was like that of a 4 year old girl, just so filled with complete and utter JOY. All of a sudden she bounced right off the damn thing and landed on the ground. She wasn't hurt, but to see her face go from JOY to complete and utter TERROR in the fraction of a second, was beyond hilarious. My sides hurt from laughing.

About Michael...when I read Will try to move a small tree for him Ijust about died because it looked like you were gonna say "will try to move a small mountain for him". LOL Perhaps I should nod off to sleep now. It's never a good thing when I make myself laugh, but nobody else.

Good night dear and enjoy your wonderful new friendship. Sweet!:)
 
I will try to enjoy this new friendship but I have to say a few things, that, now that he is over the moon about me, I am wondering what's next. Last night I suddenly felt insecure, out of bounds, and when I got home, completely spent. I am recoiling. Over the past few days I had many florid imaginings about this man, but now I'm wondering if I have crossed a boundary of mine. I mean in six days I managed to chat my way in to his dining room. I should have kept things in the garden. I a long time ago gave up on convention as it took too long. It seems impossible for me to go slow. I quickly felt a deep connection with MIchael and there seemed no reason for me not to be myself with him.

But last night reminds me of a few things. That I have broken rules. And that I have been crazy. The two are related. This is what I meant by the danger in hightailing it to what you want. The danger in not thinking things through. Breaking my marriage vow drove me crazy. Literally.

I wonder if I am a bad girl? Am I a loose woman? What am I doing earning the affection of an 85 year old man? Too much, too fast. That's me.

But I am not a loose woman. My intentions are good. I need to get back to my life. But I am off kilter today.

I learned to like extreme behaviour, being bipolar, and I have been extremely friendly in this case. It has cost me. I hope it will not affect him. Moderation is better. Extremes are exhausting. My extreme friendliness has depleted me.
 
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