Thanks a lot BlueBean!
To be honest I feel fat, but that's okay. I know I've lost a lot of weight and that I feel better than before by leaps and bounds. I'm relatively certain that I am in the best health of my adult life (excepting my back). I made my last drastic change at the beginning of October and now I have adjusted to that change. Running early in the AM and increasing the running frequency hasn't been as drastic of a change as I'd thought. That's because I'm in better shape. Changes are easier now. Pushing is easier now.
Still being > 80 pounds overweight sucks. I'm still fat. I've worked hard. I have achieved a lot. I have to come to terms with the fact that if I do everything right I will still be fat for a long while yet. Please don't take this as whining or complaining. I gained every pound of fat myself and I will lose every pound in a healthy gradual way and keep it off. My resolve will not falter because this is how I live my life now.
This is me.
A fat guy that is becoming less fat every day by living a healthy lifestyle until one day he'll just be a guy living a healthy lifestyle. I'll be the guy enjoying a treat and overweight people will think "Man I wish I could eat like that and be skinny. That guys lucky!". Right now I'm just a fat guy that surprises people when they see me running. I'm the fat guy that never has a beer or doughnut. It beats being the fat guy that acts like a fat guy all the time. The guy you can hear breathing across the room. The guy that sweats walking around in winter. The guy Chinese buffets were invented for.
I'm enjoying the new me, but I really look forward to the end of the weightloss journey and the beginning of the rest of my life. It won't all be good. It won't all be easy. But it will be much better.
Let's do the math:
So for the year I've averaged 1.1 pounds per week and since starting to count calories strictly at the beginning of October I've lost 3.6 pounds per week. What this means is that I will stop being overweight sometime between Late April 2015 and late April 2016. That's the date range of 1.1 - 3.6 pounds per week. Do I expect to lose 83.4 pounds in 5 months? No. I do expect to do better than 1.1 pounds per week. If I can average 2.3 pounds a week I would be done by my 40th birthday. I don't expect that to happen either.
Okay Chef "pet" means "hot" and "ma" means "very" so "pet ma ma" means "very very hot". "ow" means "I want" so "ow pet pet" means "I want it hot hot".
run
2.16 miles
31 minutes
Tough run this morning. I'm having a hard time pushing myself. More frequent, but less intense runs are probably for the best for me, but I still want to be going faster, but I'm really dragging in the morning.
2,300 calories yesterday, but I'm up 1.2 pounds to 283.6. I ate a lot of sodium yesterday with the summer sausage and tortilla chips late. My blood pressure is good so salt is really about water retention and screwing with the scale for me. I did feel sluggish and really thirsty during my run this morning. I'm guessing that's salt and meat. I'm drinking lots of water today and skipping anything too salty. I'd really like a big drop this week so more water, less salt, and lots of running.