Great to hear you finally managed to start a talk! Sounds like you two really can communicate well - that's so valuable.
When I was struggling with depression I reached a point where everything felt like a chore. Including brushing my teeth, changing my sheets, or even just showering. But I also felt terrible if I didn't manage to do those things. I was so ashamed I didn't want to talk to anyone about any of it and that just made it worse. What helped for me, specifically (in general of course therapy helped) was brute-forcing one thing at a time until it became a habit again, then adding another thing. That's why we have routines: they reduce the initial energy needed to do things we need to do regularly. So once that routine is solid it no longer feels like work.I brushed and applied the new sensitivity paste and my night guard and tried not to eat after 8 and applied the progesterone cream. But it makes me nuts having all these little things you are supposed to do every day. Come ON what fun parts? Isn't that important too?
Yay! Small victories add up to big ones.But this morning, feeling a bit of satisfaction in having done the self care things and also getting good sleep, I feel a bit more present in my body and my life.
Indeed, I cherish days like that, feeling alive and aware. Whenever I can "see" and sense the world in a broader color palette I feel like there is meaning and broader connection in this life. I fondly recall a phase when I felt like that regularly. Nowadays I seem to rarely access that capability; typically things are locked down in survival mode with an almost intitutional rigidity to my thoughts and emotions.Sounds like a lovely day all around! I like your descriptions: you sound very alive.
Oof. Ain't that the truth.It's sort of a shame that it takes all this time to sort of figure out how life works.
Some people would say this life IS the practice round and the next one will be heaven as a result of what we learn here. I don't know that that's true but I hope that with every generation we manage to pass on a little more kindness to improve our species. If you compare our current morals with those of 500 years ago we're at least doing better on things like equality, justice, and animal cruelty.Wouldn't it be better if we got a "practice life" in which we learn to experience many of these these things and then got take that wisdom into our real life?