Even the most spectacular blaze is ignited by a single spark...

haha, romance? My boyfriend got me some roses (so he claims.. he forgot to bring them home from work, haha), but when I walked out into the kitchen, I was greeted with two zombie teddybears, fake blood everywhere, eating each other, with "I love you(r brains) very much!" Cracked me up and thought it was hillarious, but yeah, romance? Pff!





Edit: and LOL Bounce! HAHAH! Fine, think you win on the no-romance-competition, haha. Cracking up here!
 
LOL well at least you gals got a valetine. I had dinner with two girlfriends. Got hit on by a cute, but tattoed guy who whipped his penis out while we were talking outside...aww romance. Any how the girls and I headed to a 24 hour donut shop and had coffee.
 
Aww, Rosie :(


Sorry to hear about your experience on Valentine's Day :\ Hopefully the belated celebration on the weekend is better! :)


My valentine's day was, hrm, not bad I guess. I was my valentine's 'boyfriend for a day', hehe :p Since she lives about 10 hours away, all we could do was text. She was super busy with school and work that day, so the texting was sparse - my gift didn't even get to her yet as I type this! Damn international shipping. I should've sent it ups/fedex instead of by usps, lol. Hell, I could've driven it there myself at this point. So far, it's only gone maybe 1/3 of the way - it's not even in Canada yet! I sent it on the 10th, and it just got to NY from PA. What the hell? That's like 4hrs worth of travel in a week?? Are they walking it there? blegh.


She said not to worry about it, but I feel bad about her not getting it on the 14th. I think we're planning on doing something a little belated though, kind of like your situation :(


Oh, and I can't recall how many times I've typed up a rather lengthy post and/or response on this thread while on my laptop, only to do that same thing on my touch pad and go 'Back', losing it all! Sucks! :\ So now I try to do my weight loss forum posting on my desktop in my room, just to be safe :)


Hope everything starts looking up for ya, Rosie! :)


I wanna see the lantern pics too! :]
 
Hey, so two perfect days in a row!! Between yesterday and today I've done two Insanity workouts, a P90X workout and I ran a mile... which I timed at 7:37!! That's the best I've seen in a long time! I was pretty proud of myself, I gave that mile everything I had! Good thing I got my workout for the day done in the morning, because I was exhausted when I got home tonight... but I still managed to pull it together and make dinner. It actually turned out really good, I made chicken meatballs with ground chicken and low fat ricotta cheese and cooked them in some chicken broth with garlic, fresh thyme, and spinach... and I made 5 days worth, so I won't have to worry about dinner for the next few days :D


Today was a really long day, but a good day. I don't think I've talked much about my job on here, I'm a tutor, but given the time of day, that can mean two completely different job descriptions. After school I do private tutoring, the majority of these students are rich kids whose parents are paying for them to do better in some AP science class so they can get into a better college, they are at or above grade standards, respectful, motivated and have a will to learn. During school however... well picture Dangerous Minds or Stand and Deliver or any movie where one teacher is put up against a group of inner-city kids who couldn't care less about learning and wear their attitudes like armor. During school is the time that I go to the worst areas of town to teach 17 year olds how to add and subtract. These are kids that the state funds tutoring for and in a few hours a week I am somehow expected to fix what teachers have been letting slip by for the last 2 or 3 or 12 years. They have terrible home lives, many live in foster care or group homes, they're pregnant, or on drugs, or have seen more in their short lives than you can imagine, and they sure as hell don't want to be in tutoring, and they think I am just wasting their time. And sometimes I feel like I am. But after sometime, you wear them down, you break through, you start to make relationships, and you feel like you're actually working towards something. Today was one of those days, and seeing some of my students overcome the impossible things that they deal with really helped me put a focus on the things that I want and working as hard as I can to meet my goals that will help me better myself.


I hope that wasn't a downer post, I'm feeling a little introspective today, but highly motivated nonetheless :) 'Nother perfect day tomorrow, I know it!! ;)


Size32: Thanks Size! Oh, and btw, you're totally awesome how you manage to make the rounds on so many diaries!! And AHHH!! cereal flashbacks, having my own right now... mmm sugary goodness... this house is stacked sky high with junk food, but the cereal has my number!


Irish: Aww, thanks Irish! Hugs!


Kate: 22 years? I will hold out hope then!! ;) haha I can totally see you going on about how he doesn't love you! hehe that's makin my day!! :D


Sarah: Ok first of all, your boyfriend is a cool guy, that card is hilarious!! Second of all, I must be crazy because I think it's totally romantic! He took the time and effort to think of something to do for you that would also make you laugh! Looks like you got a keeper! ;)


Bounce: Hey!! Good to see you!! :) and also: ahahahahaha, my mouth literally dropped open when I read your post. You weren't up in NorCal where you because I swear I've met that guy! We had what I thought was a nice little conversation that started at a bar and ended with, "go on, touch it." Where do these guys come from? Ugh, to think there's more than one! :cry:


Greg: Aww thanks, Greg! I am totally holding out for the weekend celebration!!

Man international shipping is hell, I sent a letter to a friend in the UK once, took 3 weeks!! A letter! I think they sent it by carrier pigeon. But 10 hours isn't that far, you should have totally driven it up there! :D And nooo, see not quite like my situation because you took the time and effort to plan something ahead of time but were delayed by outside forces and um you also spent a lot of time worrying about the fact that something wasn't going to go down on the actual day. So see, you still deserve lots of brownie points!! :)
 
Good on you for sticking to the perfect days! And the exercises too, sheesh .. making me feel ashamed of myself, lol! You'll have to start competing with Frogged on that mile/minutes thing.. I wanted to, but my treadmill isn't high tech enough to keep up with the speeds he does! Even at its max I can only make it do a mile in 8½ minutes or so.. so hey, you ran a mile faster than my treadmill! Argh!


Your teaching job sounds both very stressful and really rewarding at the same time, heh.. and it totally doesn't surprise me you have work like that. You seem such a bright, bubbly person that's always wiling to drop everything to help someone else. S'always very humbling.


Either way.. keep slogging it out, and keeping those perfect days! I know you can do it!
 
Hiya! woohoo for perfect days! Its very inspiring what you do for a living. Working during the school year sure does sound tough. Really cool that you can do it. I hope you continue to have perfect days!
 
Rosie! (aka The Scramble Queen) :p


Ok, so well done on the perfect days! That's something I've been struggling with this week. Mon/Tues were completely bogus - not even worth mentioning really. Wed through today has been better, but nothing worth climbing to a mountain top and shouting in glory for.


I actually can relate a little bit with your teaching situation (the bad side anyway) because I used to be one of those kids back in the day. After my mom passed and the depression had me in its claws, I just didn't care about anything (especially school work). My grades sank. So, I transferred from my high school and was sent to a private school to get some more individualized attention. There were maybe only a dozen kids and 2 teachers in that place. It's not that I hated anybody, its just that I didn't care. They helped me as much as they could, and with some effort, eventually got me to start actually participating to a degree. I managed to pass with rather decent grades in the end, so I can really appreciate how difficult your profession can be when dealing with troubled kids. I respect that a lot and I'm sure you're awesome at it! No doubt I'd warm up to you after just a few sessions if you were my tutor back then :)


Oh, and 7:37 is f'in AWESOME! Wow. You're kicking ass and you almost have my time beat! I was 7:07 at my best, so I'm gonna have to run it again to get my number lower :) Probably not until I get this damn water weight off though. I can actually feel real strain now in my feet/ankles when I run due to the excessive weight my body is holding on to :\


Once I get myself back in the 170's, I'm gonna do another 1-mile run :)


Sarah and I are already talking about a competition, but I'd be happy to take you on as well, Rosie >:)


Although if it's anything like 'Scramble' has been, I'd better bring my A+ Game for sure! :p


The gauntlet has been thrown (again)! ;D
 
So it's about 9 AM on Saturday morning and my bed is reeeeally comfy right now and my house is freezing, so I refuse to get out of my bed and am going to write this on my phone.. which usually turns out a complete mess, but oh well, warm bed!!

I can't quite call yesterday a perfect day because I didn't get my exercise in, it rained for the first time in months and just made me feel like I wanted to sit around all day in a big comfy sweatshirt and read and do absolutely nothing, and so I did! I'm not even going to feign guilt about it because it felt incredible! ;) I'll go extra hard today though to make up for it! I did do really well on food which I'm particularly proud of because it's those days where I'm home all day that I usually blow it!

I stayed home last night as well, a bunch of my friends were doing the usual beer pong and shots thing, but I worked really hard this week and didn't want to screw it up with a bunch of alcohol! Ugh, beer bloat :ack2: Lame, I know it would have been fun, but I've got my momentum right now and I didn't want to chance losing it -- plus, there's always another party, but I wanna get this weight off like now!

I think this is all I can stand to type on my phone, so this is it for now!


Sarah: I don't even attempt to keep up with Frogged! I may have been proud of my time, but I only did one mile and there is no way I would have been up for another at that same pace, unlike Mr. Greg who just knocks off the miles at a madman pace! It's definitely something to strive for though. Also, I don't have a treadmill, I used Nike+. My shoes have a special little sensor in them that is recognized by an app on my phone and it uses GPS to track my distance and time, it's especially cool because it shows me my pace and I can see exactly how fast or slow I was going through out the entire run -- very cool stuff! Before though, I was just using a map to figure out a 1 mile loop and then timing myself, although I imagine all that snow isn't letting you get out to run much :p

Awww thanks about what you said, made me feel good :)


Size32: Thanks! Me, too! Perfect days feel soooooo good! :D


Greg: Hehe Scramble Queen, I like it :D Be excited about doing better throughout the end of the week, I always find that when I lose momentum and then come back, it always starts off kinda slowly, like I don't want to invest everything into being good if I don't know if I'll stay there, so it's sounds like you are on the right track to me! :)

Man, you were the kind of kid that just breaks my heart, it's the ones that are obviously very bright, but just don't care that I want so badly to get through to. And time and time again I see that these kids have either lost somebody or too many people have given up on them, so they don't want to open up to anyone for fear that they will just be left or given up on again. That's one of the toughest things about my job because I just have these temporary assignments and I get moved around a lot, so it seems like as soon as I start to see a difference, I've got to leave, and the kids just see it as someone else leaving them.. the system really does them no favors in that respect. It's a tough job, there are days where I just want to scream and walk out the door, but then there are success stories, like your situation, where it feels like some good is being done... now I'm gonna think about how well you turned out the next time I feel frustrated!


Umm, uhh, I don't know if I wanna go up against you Greg, you are hardcore! But I will try! I know I can do better because in High School I could run a 6 minute mile, so I'm hoping to get back to that! The Insanity has really upped my cardio endurance in ways I would have never expected, combing it with running has really helped me improve. So um.. I guess.. It's on? (*wince*) ;)
 
AHeya sexy :)

Sorry i have neglected you my lovely but i have had a serious case of the grumps!!!! So much to catch up on, i am gonna comment as i read :)

:hurray: Yay, 2 perfect days and manic fitness too, you go girl :hurray:

It was lovely reading about your 'state funded tutoring' it must feel sooooooooo amazing actually making a difference to the kids and getting them to respond to you. I would love to be able to make that kind of difference to someones life. You are truely awesome :D

Yep. 22 years next month!!! :eek: It's kinda embarassing really :blush5: we got engaged on my 17th birthday. haven't got married though. everyone goes 'aaawwwww that's so sweet' yuck!!! lol

Ooooh snuggled in bed writing on your diary sounds lovely and you rainy day reading sounds awesome too, totally jealous. I am so so proud of you for not going out drinking. I have found that i don't wanna go out either, it's just not worth it is it? all the hard work blown in one night. Well done you :hurray: So impressed with your motivation sweetie :)

The things that you and Greg wrote about were really touching. I have never been in that situation or had the chance to help someone thru that but i didn't want to not say anything. Greg, i so admire you for how far you have come with all the shit you have been thru, like everyone says, you are a truely wonderful guy :) and Rosie, well you know how awesome i think you are my lovely :) Hugs to you both :grouphug:
 
Sparked, I had no idea you had such a great mile time! That's awesome. I clocked in at 10 mins 53 seconds on Saturday. Since I've started running, it's my fastest. My goal is to run 1.5 miles way faster than 16 mins. I'd like to give myself as much room as possible. The cut off for my p.t. test is 16 mins and xx seconds (I can't remember the seconds exactly). I felt really good about that time, but now feel like I know I can go faster. Your time is going to be my motivation. Might take me awhile, but I'll get there!


So glad you've been doing well. Keep that motivation and the good streak going. I know once I get on a roll, I'm unstoppable!


Sorry to hear your bf is un-romantic, but that teddy bear thing was pretty cute. Even though it's cliche, I got the dozen roses, a car, small little tiger stuffed animal and a little bit of candy. Oh and a card. I never know what to get him, so last year and this year I opted for a t-shirt and candy. He really likes it. He had originally told me I didn't have to get him anything for valentines day, but I couldn't do that. Got him a really nice Dallas Cowboys shirt this year that he really likes, so mission accomplished! :)


Keep up the good work!
 
Ok, so about a week and a half ago I walked into the living room holding the scale, handed it to my boyfriend, and told him to hide it because it was messing with my head. He looked at me like I had absolutely lost it, but agreed that he would hide the scale. So after being reaaaally good for a week, I woke up this morning and I HAD to know! The bf was still asleep and so I went about ransacking the house looking for the scale, he hid that sucker damn well! Like a fat girl hides her candy stash (speaking from personal experience? Possibly.) So after about 20 minutes I started to realize 1. I probably wasn't going to find it, and 2. I looked kinda pathetic frantically digging through Christmas boxes in attempts to find the scale. So I walked into the house and like magic, I saw my Wii fit, shining up at me from under the entertainment center like a beautiful beacon of truth. I haven't used that thing in forever (sigh) so I had totally forgotten about it! I fired it up and logged in and it told me that I have been trying to lose weight for 1137 days. So that was a little kick to the ribs because I was thinking about how I have been trying to lose this weight for so long and haven't done it. Anyway, I got on the scale at it said 220.7, which is about 2lbs over what I a saw before I went on my 1.5 week-long junk food bender. So, seeing as I have really been working my butt off this week, I don't even want to know where that scale was up to before I got my act together! Now, of course it could be way off from my real scale, but I've tested them before and they were pretty close. But seeing the gain does make me feel a little discouraged... guess I'm gonna have to ask the bf to hide the damn Wii fit as well!! :rolleyes: Man, zero scale willpower!


I woke up this morning and did my insanity workout, I'm hoping to fit in a P90X strength workout later tonight. It's amazing how much of a difference I see just from one workout to the next! Saturday I did P90X Chest and Back and squeezed out 301 reps throughout the whole thing, which is 40 reps over what I did the week before when I did that workout! So I can tell I'm getting a lot stronger! Last night, after I finished my workout (Insanity Pure Cardio + Insanity Abs back to back:eek:) my boyfriend told me that he believe in me and that he knew that I was going to get to my goal. This was actually a pretty big deal because, first of all, you can always count on my boyfriend to be brutally honest with people and he isn't the type to say something like that just to make me feel better, second he has watched me try to lose weight for years now and would usually just roll his eyes when I would say I was going on a diet after seeing me start and stop over and again. I know that he thought I would never do this, and I don't mean that in a negative way, if someone tells you something is going to happen a million times over, and it never does, well you don't believe it anymore. So for me, it's a really big deal that he has seen the kind of changes in me that he believes that I will go all the way.


Bf also came up with a good compromise for the whole V-day thing. He had said that he DID plan something, but that it involved going out to eat and that I had been working so hard come Valentine's Day that he wanted to respect that and not do anything to deter me. So what he decided is that he is going to give me some money and go shopping with me to find some decorations for the house. I kind of hate our house, it feels like a frat house and not a home. The walls are bare, the furniture is all hand-me-downs that don't match, same thing with the linens, and the only thing that I've really been able to do with it is hang some cheap Walmart curtains - which I couldn't even believe how much that cost me! My bf doesn't care about the decorations and always says we don't have money for that kind of stuff, so I am happy with this idea because it lets me do something I have wanted to do forever, but still appeals to his practical side :D Oh, and it doesn't involve a high calorie dinner! Only problem is, where to start?? So much to do!!


Kate: Glad to hear those grumps are going away! :) Oh, and I had no idea you guys weren't married!! I have to say, I'm pretty impressed that you have been together for so long since such a young age, I think it's really incredible how you both must have worked so hard on growing together and keeping the relationship strong. I imagine after 22 years that making it official wouldn't change a thing in your day-to-day lives, but do you think you'll ever do the deed? I'm such a girl, I just want a wedding! .... I may even have mine all planned out already :blush5:.


And yes, going out just doesn't feel worth it right now! Even with the flood of text messages that came in the next morning about everything I missed, I still stand by my decision! I'm sure I'd be up a good 3 lbs in beer weight today had I done it!


Aww thanks so much for the lovely comments, this forum would not be the same without you and all the incredible support you give!!! :beating:


Munch: Ya know what? I had no idea I had a time like that either!! Completely shocked the heck out of me!! I was really going at 100% though because I felt sick after. If you did a mile in 10:53 looks like you are pretty much set to go for that 1.5 on your test! That has got to be a relief! Now you get to spend your time just making it better and being confident you can do it! :D


And Munch, please tell me that's a typo:


Originally Posted by Munch

Even though it's cliche, I got the dozen roses, a car, small little tiger stuffed animal and a little bit of candy. Oh and a card.
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Or I am just insanely jealous!! To think I got all upset about everyone getting chocolate! That's a typo right? Right?!?! ;)
 
Another perfect day yesterday! And a cathartic one at that :) I got a bit of spring cleaning bug in me and went through all my closets and drawers for all the clothes that were too big for me, I came up with 6 whole large trash bags full of clothes! That's a lot of clothes considering I always felt as though I had absolutely nothing to wear when I actually fit into them! :p So I got that all ready to go and then a few hours later I went back through them again to make sure there wasn't anything in there that I wouldn't wear again, I came up with two more bags! The second batch of bags was really stuff that I had really loved/cost me a fortune and I hadn't been ready to part with yet, but, after trying them on, I knew they were just gonna take up room in my closet and it was nice stuff so someone could enjoy it more than I could. So now it's gone, and I don't even have the option of gaining weight because there are no fat pants lying around to fall back on! Well, at least until the ones I'm wearing now become my new fat pants! ;)


That's all for now, gotta head to work soon, hope everyone does wonderfully today :D
 
Haha thats hilarious that you made your boyfriend hide the scales. Ye sound super cute together:)



you are TOTALLY ROCKING IT GIRRRL.


You are doing so so well! So proud of you chicken xx
 
Aww sweetheart I would laugh at you about the scales, but it sounds like how crazy I went when mine died, lol!!!! So I'm really not one to laugh at you!!! Good on you for another perfect day too :hurray:
 
Good on you for removing your old clothes! That's something I really need to do as well.. seems a bit unreal! Pretty mad how many bags of stuff you had though, haha! Where did you send them? If you still have them, you should try putting them on ebay - you can make some decent pocket money!

Good for you on your perfect days, and it's always rewarding when you can feel yourself getting physically stronger as well.. and that you have your boyfriend's support. He sounds lovely - have you guys decided what you're gonna buy for your house yet?
 
AHeya sexy :)

:smilielol5: I laughed at the 'scales' incident too. I got Mark to hide mine a while ago and i searched them out too. Joh and Lucy are scale obsessed too lol. I am much more focused when i can monitor it everyday so i HAVE to keep them :) That's what i tell Mark anyway :)

Me and Mark have never really had to work hard at keeping our relationship strong. We are so so lucky to just fit. In the 22 years together i can only think of one mega argument and that was because of my stupid insecurities. yeah, we bitch but never argue. I shout at him and he tells me to sod off and visa versa :) We are very different but fit somehow and even after all this time people think we look like 'young love' He is my soul mate :beating:
No we won't get married, well, jokingly we have said that we will when we retire!!! Our reasons for not getting married are very different. His entire family have been divorced so he always said he would never get married and......me......well, the whole wedding day thing totally horifies me. Can you imagine me coping with being the centre of attention???? Well, can you? lol i rest my case. I have never ever had that urge to plan the whole wedding thing. eeewww nope, that's so not me. Also i am rather independent and i kinda see being a 'Mrs' as being property. I am my own person and i don't belong to anyone, oh, and the only person who gets away with telling (or trying at least) me what to do is my dad :)
We did say that we would get married if Jack wanted us too when he grew up and understood that we aren't but he doesn't mind, he thinks it's kinda cool that we ain't married and are still together whereas most of his friends parents are not together anymore.

Thank you for your sweet words my lovely :beating:

Well done you on getting rid of sooooooooo many clothes. How many bags?!?!?!?!?!?! :smilielol5: That's insane!!! I thought that the THREE i did was bad enough!!!
I had to get rid of some nice stuff too that i had never got to wear cos they went from 'too small' to 'too big' before i had chance to wear them :( But still, it's very liberating :)
Oooh, Sarah1983 is right, bigger clothes sell really well on ebay :) Just think about what you could get with the money you would get, you have worked hard for it, you derserve it :)

Mark said a similar thing to your BF about knowing that i will reach my target, he has seen me try and fail for 22 years so it's nice to hear that even they believe it this time. :)

Love and hugs my lovely :grouphug:
 
Rosie! :hurray:


lol, yah I've thought about doing a LOT of things with my scale! Some of which included a hammer and a bit of flame :p Thankfully, none of those thoughts came to fruition (ooo, good 'Hanging' word) ;p


That's so funny about asking your bf to hide it! haha :] Although it can be discouraging at times, I find it's best to weigh yourself daily just to get a feel of how you're doing from day to day. Say, if you're up a bit more than the previous day, perhaps decrease your calories marginally to try and balance things out a bit more. I must confess, I'm a bit obsessive when it comes to weighing myself each morning. It's just something I've done for the last year+. I've read it's not the best thing to do, but I guess it's all about personal preference. For me, it's a good gauge to determine how much work I need to put in before my Sunday weigh-in :)


Oh, and yes... a friggin' CAR, Munch? Are you serious?? Damn. :( And I thought my silly gift to my Valentine of a 5lb gummy bear was something spectacular! hah!


Woohoo about the Spring cleaning! :D I've done that too! It gets annoying though, because all the shirts I've had to part with were not cheap when combined. I ordered a ton from Woot! and Teefury that were very cool, one-day-one-offer type of thing. Originals. So, there will never be another one like it made. Kinda sucks, because some are so cool/funny, but they just don't fit anymore, so what can ya do? :( Ah well.


6 minute mile?? Holy..


I really need to buckle down and get this water weight off so I can get my mile number down a bit! That's such an amazing time, Rosie! :] I have no doubt you'll be back to that, and better, soon!


So I've got Sarah and Rosie now as challengers for the mile mark :) My best time is 7:07 atm! I'm hoping to get this retention off within the next few weeks, then I'll be attempting to top that number.


Game on! The gauntlets continue to be thrown, Ms. Rosie! ;P
 
HOLY CRAP! That's got to be the biggest typo of my life!!!!! It was definitely suppose to be CARD! LOL! I don't think I've laughed so hard in a long time. Definitely didn't get a car, thought that would have been so awesome!


So crazy coincidence. Last weekend I cleaned out all the clothes I didn't wear anymore. I tried on all my pants that used to not fit anymore and they fit so I added them to the clothes I can wear area. If they didn't fit I was going to get rid of them because it always seems like a curse. Keeping skinny clothes tends to make me not lose weight, but then when I get rid of them, I lose weight. I'm glad it didn't work out that way this time, because I wouldn't have the money to buy more pants! I've still got the bag sitting next to my door, really need to drop it off at goodwill this week.
 
A Hi guys :) I keep getting on each day and trying to post but I end up deleting it each time, I had a pretty challenging week with work and it's been kind of weighing on my mind a lot so I guess that's where all my focus is right now. I'm doing good though, been keeping calories under control even with the stress :D Will do a proper post soon, just didn't want to look like I went totally awol! Have a great day :)
 
There she is! Was wondering where you were!


Sorry to hear you're having a rough week... :( I hope whatever it is can be resolved soon! Good job at sticking to your goals even while under such obvious pressure! REPRESENT!!
 
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