I'm glad you had some fun, Em, He does sound fairly intense. Well done on a completely sober date
I like how you frame that! Also: love the idea of focusing on what the food you put into your body does for your health.In conclusion, no matter what decision I made yesterday - agreeing to meet Alex or staying to play with Marco, it meant me spending some time with a really handsome man, so I feel like it's the Universe's way of telling me that all roads lead to a new man! I can't run away this time!!! Hahaha.
This, though is such a shame & is a load of rot. Of course, you could live up to whatever someone else sees in you. Why are you so hard on yourself?This is a terrible thing to say, but because I don't work hard on making myself or my body look good, I feel like I don't deserve attention from men and like I don't deserve love or something. And yeah, personality, blah blah, but I just feel like if I get all these compliments, they have no idea of the inner rot, and I feel like I'll never live up to whatever they think I am, and I avoid, avoid, avoid. It's very sad.