Eerika's Diary

Hello there!

Ummh.. What would I say. My military service didnt start well at all, and after 8 days I had to quit. Not cos of physical reasons, I did all the training just fine. But mentally it wasnt for me. I think the experience changed me SOO much. Im glad women have 45 days time to change their mind and leave the army. THANK GOD FOR THAT!!!!! The whole army thing is so insane thing.. What did I think when I signed myself to the service! So at the moment Im back home, trying to put all the things back on track. Get back to school when it starts in the end of the august etc.. Im a bit depressed at the moment. But my weightloss is going to continue. I havent gained anything in a week. I weighed myself this morning and it showed 87kg. So I will be updating you guys daily so on..
 
Ive been licking my wounds for last few days after getting out of the army world. Ive to re-build my life now... Organize million things and fight with the bureaucracy. I kept two days totally off the diet and ate what I wanted. Now Im more than ready to get back with my diet and weightloss again. I made a new diet plan today and on monday I will go to back to gym. Ive gained few kilos, so I took a bit relapse. :(

I wont give mercy to myself anymore starting today!!! I cant lay on the fire.. And if I want to get this overweight off, I must ACT NOWNOWNOW!! NO TOMORROW, OR DAY AFTER TOMORROW! NOW!

I must make this happen and stand my own feet again.
 
How did I not see your post!

Sorry it didn't work out for you :( You did the right thing in leaving, there is no point making yourself miserable. It must feel weird being back early, what with everyone expecting you to be gone ages, and that you've put your plans on hold.

What was it like?

eerika said:
I cant lay on the fire.. And if I want to get this overweight off, I must ACT NOWNOWNOW!! NO TOMORROW, OR DAY AFTER TOMORROW! NOW!
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I love your go-get-it attitude :D
 
Oo, another user from Finland. :) I'm a bit torn now, should I write in English or Finnish? :') Well anyway, you've been doing great, and there's definitely a change in your pics. Hopefully you'll get everything sorted out and can continue. Keep it up, tsemppiä! :)
 
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overtherainbow said:
How did I not see your post!

Sorry it didn't work out for you :( You did the right thing in leaving, there is no point making yourself miserable. It must feel weird being back early, what with everyone expecting you to be gone ages, and that you've put your plans on hold.

What was it like?



I love your go-get-it attitude :D
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I missed you guys!! :D It was definitely the right decision to quit.. The army world is just like a different planet. It really wasnt for me even I thought so for so long.. But Im very reliefed at the moment and my bf is also more than happy to have me back!

And what was it like? We woke up 5am every morning, then we had 3 minutes time to use toilet!! Next thing was to put your clothes on QUICKLY and rush to the outside.. Usually we had morning work out and then we had 25minutes time to eat breakfast. We had millions of lessons about everything during the day.. About military, about how you must speak to upper enlistee, how to navigate in the woods, about guns.. Some of the lessons was boring as hell, some of the lessons interesting. Our day ended 9pm when we were supposed to be in bed. It was SO weird to live in a same room with 10 other women and have only 60cm "wide" bed!!!!

Discipline was VERY strict, I hated it. Trainers also yelled about everything front of your face, not nice. And they yelled about everything, every little thing you could imagine. The whole thing felt so immature... Also if some of us fell asleep during lesson (which was very common cos everyone were so tired) trainer shouted him to stand on his feet for whole lesson. It was just so stupid...

I can tell you guys more about my experience in other posts.. My thoughts about army changed so much! And I became such a war against person really.. War isnt answer to anything and the whole military thing just sucks.

But Im so happy Im back here!!!
 
Blackie said:
Oo, another user from Finland. :) I'm a bit torn now, should I write in English or Finnish? :') Well anyway, you've been doing great, and there's definitely a change in your pics. Hopefully you'll get everything sorted out and can continue. Keep it up, tsemppiä! :)
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Hello there!!! And welcome to my diary, I love new readers! And specially awsome, you re from Finland!!

Thanks for compliments, and Im struggling my way back on track!!

Tsemppiä tarvitaan! ;)
 
welcome back!I only now saw what happened with the army.Sorry that it didnt work out,it may feel strange in the start but you'll be back to normal in no time.
So bring back that eerika that has so many success threads here,and keep on going.You have done so great up till now!!!
 
Yesterday I ate some crappy food with my bf.. So I decided today IS THE DAY I REALLY CONTINUE THE DIET! We had some chinese food, ice cream and candy.. I felt SO damn swollen after putting that much food into myself!! And of course the scale showed the numbers this morning : 88,5kg! Fuck no! This is going to stop right away!

I did a new calorie plan.. Im going to eat about 1700 cals in a day.

Here's some swollen eerika photos from this morning! Yuck!
 
I missed you too!

Oh my god, I couldn't do that! Just read about the 3 minutes to use the toilet, clothes on then outside, and thought..... NO! I need a cup of coffee before I do anything lol, and a bit of time to be just by myself before I talk to anyone.

It sounds really hard. Having someone shout in your face like that..... blimey.

One day of going over calories with your bf isn't going to do any harm, hope you've been eating well today and are back on track :)

And you don't look bloated, you look fine!
 
you look great,realy u do!i think its more in your mind knowing you've put some weight on,cause you really do look great.
You can get back on track,you've done it before.So what if this took you a week or two behind?Dont worry too much,get back the healthy eating plan and all is fine!
 
You're so sweet!! And absolutely right, it doesnt matter if reaching my goal takes few weeks more.. Im going to get there anyway! This time WE WONT FAIL!!!! Ive never been so committed with my weightloss before this time, so this must be the time I will do it!

The experience about army was creepy. And I agree with overtherainbow, at least a one cup of coffee in the mornings before anything!! Haha! And we only got coffee on sundays in army!! :ack2:

We went outside whatever the wheater was... No excuses. One day was very rainy day! Huhh.. I have a one pic of that day, we had all the clothes on cos it was raining..

This morning I went for morning jogg, and you cant believe how glad I am cos I can do it ALONE and take my time.. No rush, no need to run as fast as someone else... I love it. I love it here at home!
 
SOOOO this week was like +/- 0 ! YAY! Ive been eating pretty much what Ive wanted for 6 days but the scale said 87,2kg as it showed last monday! This is a perfect day to continue... My bf also tried to cheer me up yesterday with the diet. I couldnt be more happier to have such a great support what he is to me! AND WHAT YOU GUYS ARE TO ME!! :)

I was thinking about doing something new diet food today: TOMATOE SOUP! Ive never eaten it and I found a nice receipe.. (It included tomatoes ofc, fresh basil, ginger, onion and chevre cheese!) I will post about it if I make it!

On monday Im going to hava a new gym card as well, soooo excited!
 
This morning: -o,6kg! Im starting to be in a same readings as I was just before leaving to the army! My goal is to weigh 86,2kg next sunday, so I should lose 0,4kg till then.. I think I could lose even more but we will see! Ive been thinking about -0,8kg/week loss for next 4-6 weeks, and then -0,5kg/week loss for so on.

With this plan I should be reaching my goal in MARCH 2012! That month will be UNFORGETTABLE! And so will be this year as well, when Ive finally committed to change my life for good! I want to get there so bad.. I want this change more than anything!

Yesterday I had first actual diet food day:

Breakfast: Oatmeal with cottage cheese and juice soup. + Coffee with some cream.

Lunch: Sallad+some sallad sauce, veggies and 3 home made meatballs.

Dinner: Sallad+some sallad sauce, 2 slices of halloum cheese, 100g chicken.

Evening jogg/walk 1h with my bf and after it we made some recovery smoothie from protein powder and vanilla ice cream!

Evening meal: 1 Low carb protein bar, mushrooms, 2 meatballs and 80g cottage cheese.

I drunk at least 2,5 litres of water. Calories was around 1700 cos I counted them yesterday. :)

And I was hungry for the whole day, can you believe that!
 
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Yea Im getting back on track! This morning I weighed 86kg! So obviously Ive been gaining some fluids also in past two weeks.. The lowest reading was 85kg before leaving to army.. I hope I could reach it again on this week. It would be perfect!

Ive been doing just fine today, Ive eaten less than yesterday. Didnt count the calories but I think so. Or I FEEL so. At the moment my tummy is screaming to get some food but no, Im not going to give it any before morning! :D

I ate today:

Breakfast: Oatmeal with cottage cheese and juice soup. +Coffee with some cream 10%.

Lunch: Veggie gratin wtih some potatoes, cheese and 4% cream, 2 meatballs, sallad and few slices of goat cheese.

Dinner: Same as lunch...

Evening meal: 2 Fitness cookies and 170g strawberry quark.

I went also for morning jogg and in the evening to body pump lesson..
 
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Hi girl!

Rainbow is totally right about it being the right thing to do to leave as soon as you realised it wasn't for you. I would be DREADFUL in that situation! If someone stands in front of me and yells at me for some stupid reason and I feel like I don't deserve it, I'm going to bloody stand up for myself! Which is not so good in the army.. haha. I can just imagine myself yelling back at an officer and then smacking them in the nose (especially if it happens on a saturday after six days without coffee!!!)

Glad to see you back on here! And SOOOO COOL that you are so motivated! Keep it up, gorgeous!
 
very happy you seem cheerfull again and optimistic!
You will get your 85 kg on the scales and let the journey continue!!!!\That photo looks so yummy!!
Those veggies are potatoes carrots onions?are they steamed?anything on them?they look lovely!
 
Aww, thanks girls!!

Jasper: Those veggies are carrots, onions and turnipla with some salt and herb spice! And I make them in the oven! Very simple and so good!

And Im definitely trying to stay positive with this.. And when Im missing some motivation, all I need is to come here and you all give me courage! And I feel not so alone anymore, cos we're all in a same boat! :)

Decisionmaker: It took me a while to look forward again and solve things.. But with the support of my bf and family everything is alright now. The army wasnt right place for me even I thought so for so many years. It is such a shithole really! I have no idea why that kind of institution exists anymore! I may sound eager but I wish you would really know what its all about.. :ack2: But Im sure you guys can imagine from my stories! :D

And I really wanted to puch every single officer to their noses when I left.. But Im glad I didnt! :D My ticket to home would have probably been delayed then! Haha..

Some reaaaally nice news guys.. We're probably moving together with my bf in autumn! Im sooo excited about this! But more about this later..! We're going for morning jogg with him!

Love ya!!!!
 
I want to share my new work out outfit with you (2nd pic!)!! :D Why I get so much motivation on my training from buying new work out clothes?? Does anyone else have a same problem? :D
 
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