Cybermama

cybermama

cybermama

(Zara)
Cybermama's HOLDING ON TO THE MOVING WAGON!

Thank you all for reading my journal.

I have been in and out of this forum for some time now and I had loss weight and gain some over the years.

I have been pregnant.

I now have 4 boys.

The youngest is my dear Zubair at 3 mths old.

I desperately need to loose weight now. I lack discipline and I admire everyone who had loss all their weight and kept them off cause I hadnt been good at keeping mine off and put on at least 10 KG everytime I am pregnant and in between.

I now weight 132KG and I am very concerned about my situation.

It has been rather embarassing for me as it had made me have difficulty getting up from a stting position from the ground which I do every week for religious purposes.

I also noticed that I had become very lasy and loves sitting and lying down from walking or running.

2 days ago, there was a news in the papers, this lady in Malaysia who was initially 208 KG dropped to 84KG in just 1 year. All she does is not eat carbs and excercise.

I was so inspired by this lady, for she is much heavier than me yet all her problems seems similar to mine. Her reasons for losing weight is also similar to mine and she succeed.

The more I read, the more determined I am to loose all these weight.

I have no more intention to have more babies and now my main goal is to rid myself of this obesity that has troubled me so much.
 
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ok, quite funny.

Early this morning, I weight myself and I am now 128.7KG as compared to 132KG last week.

I am grateful that I manage to get 3.3KG off.

Im still getting my ass out working and shutting my mouth in from junk food.

Hopefully all will be well.
 
ok, am going at the right track here. cause i really want to do things right this time round, i usually falls off the wagon after the loss of 5 kg, im that pathetc.

ok,

breakfast
i took 2 spoon ful of protein powder + 100 mls uht milk

lunch
i took 1 boiled eggs, 1 fillet of tempe ( made from soya bean ), 3 spoons of long beans stir fried. 1 5 inche cut of tapioca boiled.

Dinner
i took 1&1/2 boiled eggs, 1 fried tofu, 2 spoons of long beans

I walked for 20 mins around the neighbourhood

Please... some advice needed!
 
1. Take a deep breath and relax
2. Spend some time reading the stickied threads around the forum, especially in Nutrition, On Topic and Exercise.... There's a ton of good information to help you - you just have to help yourself by reading it.
3. Get an account at and accurarately record what you're eating -that means measuring portion sizes and not guessing - it looks to me lik eyour calories are too low for your size... (the stickied thread in nutrition will point you to a calculator that will give you an approximate number of calories you need a day -Less is not always better.
4. Remind yourself you didn't get to where you are overnight yuou aren't going to lose it overnight - it's not a race...

above all- ask yourself why you give up so easily - is it because you've set unreasonable expectations? your plan is too restrictive? unless you change that - you're going to repeat the same mistakes again.
 
Firstly, I like your avatar... cute!

I really appreciate your words. Thank you so much!

You are right. In total, it states that I only ate 600 cal today.

Sh*t! do you think thats bad?

I really dont want to overdo both ways. Eating too much or too little.

i went to the site and turned out, im already registered. I cant remember when, maybe a few years back but I manage to login.

Thank you for the link!
 
Too low is just as bad as too high -I'm not sure that I buy into the whole "your body holds onto fat because it's starving" -- the reality of too low calories is that its deprivation and it leads to the potential for binges... what you want is a calorie range that you can stick with for the rest of your life... and still enjoy your favorite foods (in moderation)

I would make sure that you are measuring your portions correctly - that's a trap that too m any of us fall into - we eat more than we think we do..
 
Mornng weght - 129.2 KG
Breakfast
i took 2 spoon ful of protein powder + 100 mls uht milk

hmm.. i checked on fitday and my calorie intake for lunch was just 323

snacks - 1 slice cheese whch seems to be 64 calories each

what I ate was

1 boiled egg
1 cup boiled carrot slices
1 curry drumstick chicken wth sauce
1 curry potatoe boiled medium

snacks - 1/2 boiled potato, 1 whole small boiled egg 50.5+68 = 118.5

my excercise today is STEP REEBOK aerobics, the only one I know. I had memorize the routine as Ive done it before almost everyday 7 years ago when I was keeping fit.

Dinner

1/2 boiled potato 50.5
1 drummette of a wing curried 58
Total = 108.5

Total intake today - 614 calories

Thats all for today! I think i ate a little better.

And lots of water!
 
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Mornng Weight - 128.8KG

Husband bought my favourite breakfast.

2 pc of PRATA soaked in curry - yes, its fattening
Thats why I didnt eat anything else with it
Just plain water
300 calories by itself

lunch is
cracker with slce of cheese around 110 calories

17 mins of high impact cardio which supposedly burnt around 190 calories

ok, i wanted to eat this fried banana which is so famous in Malaysia. This paticular one was supposedly the best in johor bahru. It was supposedly the most famous that the sultan frequented that paticular stall just for their fried banana. And there I was, at that location for the first time after my countless visit to Johor Bahru, Malaysa.

I ended up buying RM10 worth which is 2 brown paperbag full to be shared.

The moment I tasted it, ohhh im in fried banana heaven. It was the best I have ever tasted. Not only was it so difficult to get, as I keep needing to beat the crowd. scream my order before anyone else as there was no system to order and too many people around, some even left without ordering as there were too many people. I manage to order and got that RM10 worth.

Each bite was like being in heaven and I fell of the wagon! I ate like 10 slices of the banana. I dont know how much 1 slice weight but after coming home and checking, I found out that the calorie of 65gm of it is 198!!!!

shit!! I think I ate more than 65gm, maybe around 300gm

so much calories for something that small.

For Dinner
I ate

1/2 chicken thigh with extra gravy 110 calories
1 spoonful of slice cabbage
4 table spoon of cooked rice

I think I ate around 1200 - 1500 calories today


I went overboard with food today. Thats not so good. I really need to be more diciplined if I want to continue with my journey and goal on time.
 
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Morning weight - 128.6KG

No other breakfast avalable as I had to go out early for my drivng lessons and visit to the library afterwards.

None was open except for mcdonalds at civic centre, library was not open tll another 2 hours.

So breakfast was 500 calories of McDonalds egg mcmuffin, coffee and hashbrown

lunch
boiled vegetables 2 tablespoon or half cup around 42 calories

Excercise is 26 mins step reebok to sweat my ass off

I would have walked back from the library but its was raining quite heavily and I re reouted back to the cab stand.

Im so anxious to loose even more weight but I know I must be patient and take this at my own time so it can be a good and permanent weight loss.

Dinner
boiled vegetables 2 tablespoon or half cup 42 calories

Excercised again , walked 3 KM around my neighbourhood for 1 hour
 
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Morning weight - 127.1KG

TOTAL LOST THIS WEEK 4.9 KG OR 10.8 lbs

Breakfast
100 mls full cream uht milk
2 spoonful protein powder

Snack
1 slice of cheese 64 calories

Lunch
1 cup full boiled vegetables
1/2 cut of fried fish

CARDIO - Step Reebok Low Impact 26 mins 291 calories burned

Snack - 1 pc cream cracker + 1 slice chesdale cheese 90 calories

Calories taken so far - 540

Walking very fast for 3 KM in 1 hour

Dinner
Fried chicken 3pc ( small cuts of chicken parts aprox 1/2 KFC parts )
1 fried chicken wing
vege boiled 64 calories
1/2 small fried fish


Total calories today - 1002
 
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Had bad diarrhoea... baby was breastfeeding and had some watery stools too. Very bad for me.

As of today, im back to normal.

I had to lay off diet for 2 days to recuperate. My baby is breastfeeding. I need to be careful of this.

So today, weight is 127.4KG, up 300gm from the last weight in

No breakfast yet and its already 11 am.

I better eat something now!

Ok, taken 1 slice of cheese - 64 Calories

Drank 100 plus from the bottle. Im having Urinary Track Infection and Ive always found that the white 100 plus helps cleanse this out. So i will be driking a lot of this.
 
Didnt update for quite sometime.
Was busy with life.

Anyway, convince husband to go on a diet so now we support each other. Nothing is better than working together.

Morning Weight is 126.6KG

Really made my day, I hadnt seen the number 126 on my scale for sometime now, happy to see it again and hopefully I can see 125 soon.

Morning, I cooked a soupy vermicelli, but ended up throwing out the vermicilli and ate all the vegetables and the fishballs, really tasty.


For those who wants to try

BLEND

3 cloves of garlic
2 onions
I handful of ikan bilis
1 small portion of udang kering

Stir fry the blended ingredients tll cooked

then add water till boil

add fishball

add spinach

- spring onions for garnish

Really tasty to eat by itself, with vermicelli or with rice.
 
Happy birthday to my husband...

Today was a big rush, woke up later than suppose to. Suppose to wake up at 5.30 am ended up waking at 6.30 am

Everything was a big rush with the kids shower and all.

Didnt manage to get a weight this morning.

We all had to go in to Malaysia again...

Had some personal rendevous done with family.

Then, went to Kampung Melayu in JB for the best Mee Bandung Muar ever. Also ordered an ABC
Easily around 900 calories altogether.

Went back to mum's place, drove around with Dad.

Took half small plate of mee siam, enough for around 4 spoons.
Probably around 150 calories

Drank 100 plus a few times.

At last came home.

Weight myself and its 125.9

Hopefully I can still manage this weight for some time.
 
Bought an elliptical a few days ago, started at 5 mins on first day, ten minutes on second and then I increased to 20 mins in intervals then went to 20 mins straight.

My weight is not loosing more, its at where is last was. never moved.

Probably im not eating right?

i eat more stir fried vege now compared to boiled. i actually prefer boiled as it taste and am guilt free.

my husband is loosing weight, he started and had lost 4 kg so far.

i think i need to go back to eating boiled vege.

and i will have to start that walk or somthing more.

Today I ate

fried tempe
fried tofu

stir fried with french beans, onions, chili and eggs.
 
Morning Weight - 125.2 KG
Feeling quite happy this morning, cause at last, my weight started dropping again.

I read so many articles and especially wishes website weight-loss.co.nz that had so many usefull information.

I rectify my mistakes and well, im loosing again. even if its a small bit but to me, its a lot if weight. im so very happy.

Did 23 minutes on the elliptical..

sweaty sweat sweat...

Morning ate 2 medium eggs, protein shake in Milo

Lunch ate 2 saute fish

Snack - some crackers
 
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Morning Weight - 124.8KG

Breakfast - almost a handful of mixed nuts. Orange Juice, 1 table spoon nasi bryani from 2 nights before celebration.

Lunch - a spoonful fried rice from 2 nights before balance.
 
On friday, we had a kind of celebration. Its religious in nature. It was held at my mum's place.

And so, my aunt cooked beef Briani and just as it sounds, its heavy in calories.

I decided I didnt want to eat it until tomorrow morning. Cause when its all over, it was almost 8 pm.

I had just dropped after a stagnant weight of 125+ to 124+ Kilograms. I just dont want it to go back to 125+

My mother and sister insisted for me to eat and said that I should just eat and not wait till morning since we are leaving quite early on Saturday to take a few hours drive into Malaysia. I said I didnt want to put my weight back on as I just lost some recently. My mum then kept to her food but my sister continued trying to seduce me to eating but well, my mind was pretty made up and the funny thing was, when I repeated that I want to watch my weight, she gave an irritated sound and was actually dissapointed that she didnt manage to seduce me to break my restriction.

So now this is what I face, I almost get no support when im trying to loose weight, its almost as if they all want to keep me fat just so they can look thin and when compared to me, people say, oh, she is the thinness in the family.

I only have the support of my husband right now who is also in the same boat as I am trying to loose his weight. Ofcouse, he is cheating cause the doctor precribe him Doramine.

I actually took Doramine before when I was 20 years old cause I wanted to stay thin while doing some modelling and entering some modelling contest but I must say that there was a major change in attitude when you take those pills. You become either very sad or very angry, pretty much like having a mood disorder.

I didnt want to take Doramine, the side effect are too too much.

My sister is also on Doramine and most of the time she is grumpy and when she is on it, I dont really prefer her presence cause she can be unpleasant, not to mention, utterly rude.

I will just go through my long journey of calorie retricting and excercise. Let the weight shed off slowly but I am not always in a bad mood, upsetting people around me all the time.

My husband is a funny guy, always making people laugh and it is really fun being around him. Most of the time I will be in tears laughing but ever since he started taking Doramine, he changed. Yes, he still make some jokes here and there, being goofy and all but he also can have his mood changed and be grumpy and angry with me for no reason at all.

Its really confusing sometimes.

Anyways, all my 4 boys are sick today, all of them got the fever and flu, one is crying as I type this. Time to go to them...
 
Im still at 124.8Kg today.

Fasting month started. So Im fasting like all Muslims should be.

My second boy ended up being fetched by the ambulance due and sent to the hospital for an asthma attack.

He is still there today, I cant be there with him but I sent my cousin who is also his most favourite auntie there to be with him.

I only managed 5 minutes on the elliptical today before i headed to the Hospital this morning.

I completed the book, think like a billionair by Donald Trump while waiting for the doctor to see him on this second round at 2 pm.

I rented it from the bookstore at the hospital mall. The sales lady was so rude. The book store is EMF. I wanted to tell her off but I just felt like there is no point wasting my energy on someone like her, trying to change the opinion is has over books like that.

So conservative. She told me that buying and reading those books doesnt make you a billionaire. Then she looked into my purse and saw that I had so many cards and said, do you really need so many cards. Such a stupid lady, well, it so happens that I have 6 different bank accounts, 2 personal, 2 business, 2 are accounts set up for getting funds from the goverment for having many babies, called the baby bonus. Well, I have many visa and masters but those are required by my business as I frequesntly need to make online payments.

I wanted to tell her, hey old hag, mind your own F**King business but I just kept silent as I really dont have the mood to respond.

When I returned the book, she said, so fast! I said yes, I want to get another book, which is the Donal Trump & Robert Kiyosaki why we want you to be rich. Still reading that one btw.

He said, well, what did the first book say, did it say its easy to be a billionaire?, I just kept silent. I told you right, you need to have a lucky break to be a billionaire, and a very rich father. Didnt the book say that! Its not that easy.. Finally I broke my silence cause I feel I should just say some bit. I told her, well, the book says that Mr Trump once was almost a bankrupt, was in debt of billions of dollars and pull himself out of it. She said, well, he is lucky someone threw him a line. I said, no one threw him a line, thats why you have to read to find out how someone like him can manage to do something like that, not just think about making money to be a billionaire.

Finally the b***h kept quiet.

I dont understand why people can be so shallow. Books like that are crucial for your own financial intelligence and people like me, who runs businesses. I want to learn how I can manage better and have better financial education.

In my heart, I was thinking, the reason why you are still sitting in a bookshop doing nothing is basically this. You have a wealth of knowledge all around you and all you can do is sit on your bumb and stare at the wall. :rolleyes:

Back to weight loss

today

ate 1 granola bar 90 calories for sahur

ate 1 plate fishcake & spinach fried bee hoon +/- 300 calories

Drank so much green tea. aprox 1.45 litres

some muruku snacks - around 15 peices aprox 1 inch each ?150 calories?

I love the granola bars. They are quacker oats and are just $1 each at 7 eleven stores.

I bought a whole lot of them.

I tried to buy some LA diet bars on ebay but im really not sure if I should.

I just want to have something healthy to snack on, im always snacking on unhealthy stuff, like those muruku, which is basically wheat floor deep fried with some spices. Empty calories, no nutrition whatsoever.

I dont really feel like eating nowadays for some reason, but sometimes I do pig out but seldom nowadays, part of me is happy but part of me fear that I will not loose much this way.

I have already lost 12.6KG since the birth of my 4th son which is 5 months ago... thats aprox around 2 KG per month? maybe a little more...

Really wish I could loose more but I dont want it to be an unhealty loss.

So many tips and stuff available on weight loss... can be quite confusing.

I just am doing what I think Im able to...
 
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Advice needed

Now I am again not losing any weight at all, in fact the early morning weight was 125.2 vs 124.8 yesterday.

You see, its now Ramadan which is the fasting month.

Im required to fast all through Ramadan and I plan to do so.

However, my weight is simply not moving.

Usually the routine is to eat at dusk around 5 am, fast through the day and start eating again at 7 pm.

How can I continue losing weight which fasting without putting my body into a starvation mode?

I usually do elliptical for 25-30 mins

Any Advice???? PLEASE......
 
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