Thanks Cate & Suzie slim for your good wishes. I didn't end up starting on the weekend, Fathers Day and family functions are not the best for the first few days on Cohens. I have just been reading back over all the old posts trying to get myself motivated to start again tomorrow morning. I have the next 2 days off work and I am hoping that I will get over the worst side effects in those 2 days.
Cate, thanks for your thoughts re: DH. I am hoping and praying that he gets himself well. We have just found out about some major trauma in his childhood that he has never told anyone about and has lived with for the last 30 years. He is now receiving counselling to try to heal the hurt, and I pray that some day he may be able to come back to live with us again, but for now I must protect myself and my children until we are sure he can cope with life without taking out his pain on me, and I must regain control of my life and begin to rebuild the self esteem that has been badly damaged over the years. I don't know if any of you are Christians, but if you are your prayers for me, our children, and my husband would be most greatly appreciated.
Sorry to rattle on, after reading back over the old posts I seem to be a bit of a rattler at times. Look forward to talking to you all soon.
Take care.
Beck